Wading in muddy water

On Sunday, I made an appointment with Song Yiwei. Song Yiwei has a lot of psychiatrists in Maicheng, so she took Liufang and me to the mental health center in Maicheng for an afternoon.

I have never been in this kind of place before. For a "mentally healthy" person, he may really be unable to see the mentally ill without wearing colored glasses, even if he is unintentional, but when it comes to mental hospitals, he always feels It's full of lunatics.The moment I got out of the car, I took a deep breath, pulled up the mask on my face, turned around and opened the door of the back seat, and helped Liufang get out of the car.

The building was very quiet, and the people sitting in line outside looked no different from ordinary people, even more normal than ordinary hospitals.Even in the hospital, you can still see people who are so painful that they can't stand upright, or people bleeding somewhere, but here everyone looks like a normal person.

Liu Fang and I also look like normal people.

Song Yiwei put her hand on my shoulder, I closed my eyes, took two deep breaths, "It's okay."

We don't need to line up. The doctor Song Yiwei knew had a rest today and came to the hospital again after being entrusted, so he only received me and Liufang this afternoon.I thanked Song Yiwei again in a low voice, and let Liu Fang go in first.

There are two rows of benches in the corridor outside the clinic, and there is a row across from me.Sitting on it was a girl with dyed yellow hair.

She was well dressed, with a handsome little suit exposed in a black shiny down jacket, tight overalls on her legs, a pair of long legs, and thick-soled boots on her feet.But his eyes always felt empty, staring at the phone in a daze, without moving his fingers, he suddenly raised his head and looked at me.She blinked kindly, then lowered her head to play with her phone again, this time she moved her fingers.

I suddenly felt that I was too close to the enemy.

It's just sickness, like a fever and a cold, or something more serious like a broken bone, it's no big deal.

Song Yiwei went out to answer the phone and hadn't come back yet. I turned on the phone and saw the messages in the group.

Dacheng: Have you arrived yet, dear brother, no matter what the result is, don’t play missing again, this thing is too scary

Dacheng: I think my third son and I have lived without a brother for nearly a month, how lonely we are!How lonely it is!The food in the cafeteria is not delicious because you are not here

Sanzi: You only go to the canteen to eat a few times a week

Dacheng: All the takeaways I ordered are not delicious because you are not here!

I wanted to laugh a bit, so I went back and said, "Liu Fang has been in for a while, and he disappeared. He has been chasing him for many years, so what are you missing?"

Third son: awesome

Dacheng: awesome

Dacheng: Your brother really doesn’t look like a person who knows how to fall in love

Dacheng: When you told me that you and your brother were together, we both felt...

I just saw this, and Dacheng retracted the news, but I could guess what he wanted to say, he must have thought that I was sick again and that I was with my brother.

Dacheng: You told me that when you and your brother were together, I ate and almost swallowed the bone in my mouth

I tapped on the screen: I am not sick, we are really together, someday we will come out and have a meal together

Dacheng: Oops, dear brother, I just talk cheap, nothing else

I just went back and found out that Song Yiwei came back after answering the phone.Before she sat down, the door of the consulting room was opened. Liu Fang looked very tired, her breathing seemed weak, the hair on both sides of her face was sticking to her cheeks, and there were wet tear stains on her face, which meandered.I was startled, and hurried up to help Liufang sit down.Song Yiwei patted me, "Honey, leave it to me, you go in."

I was worried, and wanted to talk to Liu Fang, when Liu Fang's name was called in the consulting room, "Is Liu Fang's family here?" I could only turn around and go in.

When I walked in, I was still subconsciously nervous. I was not only a family member of Liufang, but also a patient.

This place is very different from Song Yiwei's consultation room. The bright consultation room, the doctors in white coats, create a tense atmosphere everywhere.

The psychiatrist was a man in his mid-fifties with a silvery false tooth in his mouth.When I was talking, I could always see that false tooth, which was in place out of place, and caught my eye.He called my name twice before I came back to my senses, and hurriedly answered, "Uh, hello, I'm Liu Fang's son, and my name is Chen Li."

The doctor speaks with a local Maicheng accent, which I can understand.

"Your mother is not simply schizophrenic. It is preliminarily concluded that her more serious condition is actually post-traumatic stress disorder, which is the PTSD that you young people are always talking about. An important manifestation of post-traumatic stress disorder is traumatic Re-experience, she does have hallucinations occasionally, but the experience of being raped back then should not be hallucinations, but a traumatic re-experience..."

I watched the false tooth flicker and flicker, like a star in the day.

After coming out of the consulting room, Liu Fang was no longer at the door. Song Yiwei was still looking at her mobile phone just now, maybe she was reading something in English, but she didn’t adjust for a while, so she reached out and pressed my shoulder and asked me in English if I was okay.

I took a breath, "I'm fine, where is Liufang?"

Only then did Song Yiwei switch back to Chinese, saying that she was taking Liu Fang back to the car to rest, and she asked me to wait for her here, and she had to go in and talk to the doctor.I stopped her, "I'll go out first, it's downstairs, I want to make a call."

On Sunday, Zhou Boxin should also take a rest.When I was talking to him on the phone last night, he said that he was going out to sign a contract this morning. I looked at the time. It was eleven o'clock, and the contract should be signed. No one was in a hurry to sign the contract, otherwise we would have to eat together after signing the contract. lunch.

I dialed the phone, and after a few rings, it was connected.

In fact, Zhou Boxin and I really don’t have many phone calls like this. In the past few days, we have mostly made video calls on WeChat.I just dialed his cell phone number and he picked it up, mostly when I wanted to pester him and he ignored me.

I didn't speak for a while, Zhou Boxin waited for a while, and spoke first, "How is it?"

"Brother, I want to see you." I said, "Can I go to your place tonight?"

"Okay, I'll pick you up."

Liu Fang had already woken up on the road, and after a while, she grabbed my hand and asked about my result. I hugged her shoulders and put her in my arms, saying that I was fine.As soon as I finished speaking, Liu Fang's cell phone rang suddenly, making a sharp beep in the quiet environment of the car.Liu Fang shrank back in fright, bent up, as if he was going to shatter in the next moment.Her eyes were dazed and she couldn't focus. I held her hand tightly with one hand, and opened the other hand to answer.

"Where are you, let's meet."

A slightly anxious voice came from the microphone.

I didn't recognize who the voice belonged to, and I didn't save the phone number, but Liu Fang shook violently, looked at the phone I put on her lap with wide eyes, and shook her head desperately.The help-seeker stared at me, his lips trembled silently, and shook his head while making a weak voice to me, "Don't, don't, don't agree, he is a bad person, he is a bad person."

Liu Fang's voice was not heard on the other side of the phone, only a few seconds of silence could be heard, and he couldn't wait, so he spoke again.

"Obviously it's something the two of us have negotiated, and I don't ask for more. If you give me the shares that should be given to me, I will never look for you again in the future, and I won't get close to Xiaoli, okay?"

Liu Fang burst into tears, and Song Yiwei also parked the car on the side of the road.

As soon as Song Yiwei stopped the car, she turned around abruptly and leaned over halfway from the driver's seat, turned the phone on Liu Fang's lap to face her, and then pressed the recording button.My heart trembled, and I glanced at Song Yiwei, she pointed at the phone, and my body trembled uncontrollably.

"Xiaofang?"

"Liu Yuan." I said.

The car was quiet for a while, Liu Yuan stopped talking, I glanced at Song Yiwei, she also frowned.

I licked my lips, my mind was spinning fast now, Liu Yuan must not have known that I already knew my background, otherwise he would not have called Liu Fang to ask for shares.But I don't need to play stupid with him, because if I play stupid, I won't get him.

"You still dare to call my mother? Do you know where we are now? We came out of the mental hospital, and you dare to ask for shares after doing that kind of thing? How dare you ask for it." There was a fine layer of sweat, and the heart was beating fast, and the sound of my own heartbeat was all around my ears.

"Heh." A chuckle came from the microphone, "Xiaoli? What's the matter? Xiaofang is sick or you are sick, do you want uncle to visit you?"

I clenched my fists violently.

Liu Yuan must have known that we were recording, and it was all my fault that he found out because I spoke too deliberately.My breathing accelerated and increased uncontrollably, and Liu Yuan was still talking.

"Xiao Li, your mother and I actually had a little misunderstanding, maybe the truth of the matter is not like that, you are also an older child..."

"You know I'm recording, right?"

"Recording? What recording... oh." Liu Yuan smiled, and his laughter sounded hearty and tolerant, as if he was as innocent as a gentleman. "Uncle said that what happened back then was all a misunderstanding. I'm not afraid of your recording."

"I will send you to prison, Liu Yuan, I will definitely send you to prison."

Liu Yuan wanted to say something else, but Song Yiwei stretched out her hand and pressed the hang up button.

"Grass." I punched myself on the leg.Unable to calm down for a while, I wanted to reach for the phone, but as soon as I stretched it out a little, Liu Fang screamed suddenly. The screaming sound was sealed in the car, and the cramped space was instantly filled with fear and collapse.Liu Fang looked at me and shook his head desperately, and shouted indiscriminately, "Please, don't come here, don't come here, please..."

"Xiao Li." Song Yiwei called me suddenly, and I turned to look at her.

"Record this." Song Yiwei looked at me.

I froze, seeing Liu Fang shrunk like a child, waving his arms wildly.

"Xiaoli." Song Yiwei called me, "This is helping her, you know."

yes i know.

The doctor told me that Liufang's condition is very serious, and she has a serious avoidance tendency. It is this tendency that makes her unwilling to reveal the past, but in fact, she lives in the past every minute and every second, not just an illusion , but re-experience, meaning that she was raped again by Liu Yuan almost every day.This is a vicious circle, as long as Liu Yuan is at large, Liu Fang will never come out.

I'm helping her, even if I present her in such a mess as evidence, even if I make her bloody, I'm still helping her.

I shook my hand and clicked on the video, facing Liufang.

I don't know if it was recorded or not. My eyes were blurred by tears and I couldn't see anything clearly.I don't know how long it took, Liufang has quieted down, Song Yiwei called my name softly, I don't know how many times I heard it.The machine clicked to end the recording. He didn't dare to see what he had recorded, so he just leaned over and hugged Liu Fang, pressing against her forehead, "Mom, I'm sorry, I'm sorry. I will definitely help you drive the bad guys away, I will. "

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