Wading in muddy water

I often have such a dream.

The scorching sun, dead trees, towering mountain tops.The shape of the dead wood is very strange. I think it is because I have watched a lot of ghost movies, which added a lot of material to my dreams.In order to exaggerate the weird atmosphere inside, it is inevitable to add many strange shapes, common and uncommon shapes to increase the sense of weirdness.

I walked alone in the mountains, only dead trees and stones under my feet accompanied me.I don’t feel hot when the sun is so big on my head. There are endless rocks in front of me. I don’t know why I have to go forward. Sometimes I almost fall when I step on a rock that is not strong enough. After getting in shape, I still have to keep going.

It was like a dead end with no return, I was haunted by something, and I kept trying to find out the end.

In the dream, I will not be afraid, but I will always pay the price for this "fearlessness", which can also be called "ignorance". It won't take long for me to step on the air and fall suddenly.

I'll wake up the next moment.

like now.

The feeling of falling still remains in every part of the body, and the heartbeat is so violent that the ears are a little irritable.I touched the phone next to the bed to check the time, but after pressing it several times, the screen was still black, and then I suddenly remembered that it had been out of power for an unknown period of time.

I closed my eyes, moved my body and leaned against the head of the bed, the room was empty, and the curtains couldn't block the sunlight.

Not at night.

I thought about this question dully, my stomach protested frantically from hunger, and after my body woke up from sleep, the various pains before going to bed began to tirelessly remind me: I haven’t eaten for about two days.

It was quiet, the room was quiet, and the villa was also quiet.It was so quiet that I swallowed a mouthful of saliva, and the sound was like thunder. My lips were so dry that they would cut each other when they were closed together.My mind is empty, and I feel that my thinking ability has been paused. I think this may also be a kind of self-protection.

After charging the phone, I saw that today is Monday.

A lot of unread messages, a casual glance, Christmas is over, a bunch of wishing me a Merry Christmas.I didn't go to school on Monday, and Dacheng, Sanzi, and a few people in the class who were sensible asked me what was going on.

Dacheng sent a photo of my table being piled high with Christmas presents.

Like a hill, it feels like it will collapse when another box is placed.

After reading it, I planned to lock the screen, but my hand clicked into Zhou Boxin's chat box without authorization, and I entered the opening interface after I reported it.

I stared blankly for a long time.I didn't feel much pain in my heart. I don't know if it was because of the pain in the past two days. It was really numb, but there was indeed a kind of calmness as the embers were extinguished.I licked my lips, my tongue was sorely scratched by the dry and hard dead skin on my lips, I pretended to be nonchalant and backed out.Locked the phone.

When I went out of the room, I saw a ball of blankets on the sofa.

When I opened the door, the ball moved, and then there was no response. After a long time, it moved again, and a head came out of it.Liu Fang probably hasn't showered in the past two days, her hair is no longer as smooth as before, but messy and messy against her cheeks.She looked at me for a long time, then got up from the sofa, and asked me cautiously, "Little Li, would you like something to eat?"

I responded, but I didn’t make a sound after saying “Okay”, my throat was so dry that it stuck together, and it hurt like hell to talk, so I could only nod my head, cleared my throat vigorously, and then said something hoarse, “Eat, I’m a little hungry. "

Liu Fang hurried to the kitchen, so flustered that he almost fell at the kitchen door.

I stood behind her and said calmly, "I overslept, did you ask for leave for me, Mom?"

Liu Fang didn't look at me, turned his back to me, reached out to get noodles from the cupboard, and went to get eggs from the refrigerator.I followed her movements and glanced into the refrigerator, and the vegetables in the refrigerator were already wilted.She nodded, the sunlight came in from the kitchen window, just in front of Liu Fang, a drop of water fell from a high place, and another drop fell, which was illuminated by the sunlight into a transparent appearance.

"I asked for leave. I called the class teacher, she still cares about you very much, let you have a good rest."

"No need to rest, I will go to school tomorrow." I said.

I looked at her back, thin and thin.

I wondered what the meaning of mother is. I never thought that Liufang and I were mother and son. I always thought that she was my enemy. I often thought that the blood relationship is really great. I hate her so much but I can't help but feel sorry for her. .Although I don't quite understand the word mother now, why are Liu Fang's shoulders so thin?I stood behind her for a long time, until the pot had started to emit steam. Liu Fang lifted the lid of the pot, and a large stream of white steam scrambled out.

My voice is still calm, I can hear myself.When I said this, it was like my soul was out of my body. I saw and heard me say to Liu Fang in a calm manner: "I will live with you from now on, and I won't go back to Lishui Garden. You don't have to keep watching me, Mom."

"I won't see Zhou Boxin again, don't worry."

The first class on Tuesday morning was English, and the English teacher would surprise me very much. As soon as I put down my schoolbag, she asked me to take out a dictation book to write words by dictation.I was at a loss, and my deskmate reminded me in a low voice that I had arranged to recite words yesterday.

I whispered thanks.

On the way to school, I even thought that I should study hard. If I don’t study, my mind is always hard to control and I have to think about other things.But now I took out my brand new English textbook, turned to the word list at the end, and after a glance, I felt that this feeling was too outrageous.Just like Qingbei University held a forwarding lottery on Weibo to draw a person to enter Qingbei without threshold, and I was selected. Today is the first day of class.

Forget it, not that piece of material.

I secretly rolled my eyes, closed the textbook lightly, and randomly found an extra-curricular book to read.

After class, Dacheng came over in a hurry, "Brother, what are you doing in this class! You don't even look at your phone!"

I took out my phone and took a look. These two chatted 99+ in the group during one class.I didn't bother to read it either, so I said casually, "I'm too lazy to read it, just summarize the key points for me."

"You disappeared for three days. You didn't even answer a phone call, and you lived with Liu Fang again. We were so scared that we almost called the police. I finally contacted you last night, and you couldn't explain it." Already." Dacheng said to my deskmate, "Excuse me, I will exchange feelings with my brother", my deskmate gave him a seat with a water glass, and he sat down.

I laughed out loud, and casually slapped him on the arm, "Brother, it's really all right. I'm broken in love, do you understand? I promised Liu Fang that I won't go to see Zhou Boxin in the future. It's a bit uncomfortable, so I took it easy for a few days."

"I'm stupid?" Dacheng hissed for a long time, the "hissing" made me feel cold between my teeth, and then he said, "I really agreed? Or fool her, like I said Liufang, if you fool her, you can fool her." It's over, can I really monitor you for the rest of my life? That's impossible."

I stretched out my hand and patted him on the shoulder, with an indifferent smile in my voice, "I really agree, I'm really gone. If you don't believe me, introduce me to a girlfriend, and I'll take you off in minutes."

Dacheng made a "sloppy" sound, and then stared at me again after scolding, "Don't pretend to be me, you..."

"No pretending." I said.

In order to celebrate that I completely let go of Zhou Boxin, the dog man, the three of us just found a bar to sit at night.Just sit back and go to school tomorrow.

I feel like I haven't been to a place like a bar in eight lifetimes. The ambiguous lights shone on me, and the bombardment of the sound made my brain buzz.On the dance floor in the middle, demons danced wildly, and I took off a hand that was on my arm and sat on the sofa.As soon as I sat down, another hand was stretched out in front of me, with white skin and thin knuckles, and bright red manicure, holding a box of ladies' cigarettes in front of me.

I looked up, and saw a beautiful woman with big brown waves smiling at me, and after meeting my eyes, her well-shaped eyebrows raised.

I didn't refuse, and took over the cigarette that she had already smoked halfway.

There was no surprise on her face, she seemed to have expected that I did not refuse, but she still smiled and came over to light my cigarette.When leaning over, he didn't care that most of the scenery on his chest was exposed, it was intentional, and everyone knew the ambiguous physical hints in the bar.

I felt bored again for a moment, turned my head and exhaled the first puff of cigarette into the air, "Sorry, I'll take the cigarette, and the rest will be free."

She must think I'm sick. Picking up other people's drinks and cigarettes in a bar has subtext, so I said sorry.I apologized sincerely, but she was also generous, shrugged her shoulders and left.Women's cigarettes are very thin, and the taste is also light. In my mouth, it is almost tasteless. There is a minty taste, and a cool breath comes up after taking a puff.

When Dacheng and Sanzi came back from the toilet, they saw the lady's cigarette in my hand, "I'll go, you really open it as soon as you come, where are you?"

I pressed the cigarette butt in the ashtray, "No one, I didn't bring a cigarette, I don't care what others want." I fumbled into Dacheng's pocket and found a pack of Marlboro in a black box. Son?

"When did you switch to smoking such a sissy cigarette?" I asked him.

He took out a box of soft lotus from the inner pocket of his coat and replaced the Marlboro in my hand, and took out a Marlboro himself and put it in his mouth. .”

I was a little speechless, "You can just buy milk chips and eat them."

"She's here tonight." Dacheng looked around mysteriously, "Isn't it the end of the year? Jiying is going to hold a year-end party soon. Isn't New Year's Day Saturday? Your brother reserved this place, and Jiying will be here on Saturday." The venue. Today, a few little sisters from their group will come to celebrate privately."

"She just doesn't like to post on Moments. I tried my best to add people in her group to know that they are here tonight..."

Dacheng suddenly turned to look at me, "Hey! Wake up!"

I suddenly came back to my senses, the cigarette in my hand was piled up with a string of ash, and I fell down as soon as I moved my arm, "Ah? What."

"What's wrong with you? If you don't come on Saturday, I will definitely come. I have to find a way to get an invitation letter. If you two come, I will get one for both of you."

"Of course I will. My demeanor will soon appear in the shots of various Internet celebrities, and maybe I will be selected as the most handsome passer-by to become popular on Weibo." Sanzi said.

I squeezed the cigarette in my hand, ignored the beating heartbeat in my chest that almost overwhelmed the stereo, and replied lightly, "Come on, come on. Why don't you come?"

The author says:

The feng shui will take turns immediately