Wading in muddy water

The reason why Maicheng is called Maicheng is because the edge of the city is surrounded by large wheat fields, and Maicheng is surrounded by a golden island. The golden waves reflect the sky into a warm color, whizzing down the next sharp rain.

When I was a child, the word "Internet celebrity" did not exist, and the logo of Maicheng was not swarmed and trampled into weeds by a crowd of Internet celebrities. They were blown by the wind and made a "rustling" sound. Chen Zhiyuan's arms, the two of them smiled sweetly, wrote love on their eyebrows, eyes and hair, and bought the northernmost wheat field.This piece of land was a birthday present from Chen Zhiyuan to my mother. My mother was 28 years old and Chen Zhiyuan was 40 years old.

I was riding on Chen Zhiyuan's neck, with my body bent downwards, trying to reach out to grab a piece of golden wheat in the air, but Maizi's body also bent downwards, with the same arc as mine.The memory ends in summer, or I can only remember this scene. I can still think of the golden wheat field, with the heavy ears of wheat bending over them. I also bent over Chen Zhiyuan's neck, smiling happy.

A week later there was a new member in the family.

I don't have his appearance at that time in my memory, and his figure has never appeared in my family's photo album from beginning to end, so I have no way of recalling.

I just remember that my mother smiled very kindly, and looked at him with the same eyes as she looked at me, which gave Chen Zhiyuan enough face, and was so kind that Chen Zhiyuan was flattered.Chen Zhiyuan grinned, feeling overwhelmed for a moment, thinking that my mother loved him so much that she was willing to accept this "other's" child.He rested his outstretched hand about three or four centimeters above the boy's shoulder before waking up like a dream, stopped without falling, and waved it awkwardly, "Bo Xin, this is Aunt Liu, this is Xiao Li. "

This is the second shot in my memory. Earlier, I wondered why I could remember this ordinary scene so clearly. Now it seems that it may be because this fleeting scene is really interesting, although I couldn’t read it at the time. I understand the meaning, but the simplicity of children's nature makes me very sensitive to it.

I was too young at that time, I was only five years old, and I couldn't remember many things no matter how hard I recalled them.

For example, now I really want to know what my brother's expression was when he saw me for the first time, whether it will be the same as now, with thick frost in his eyes, as if what he saw was not my birthday star, but my enemy of 18 years.

"Are you awake?" He just realized that I was watching here, and he pulled up his pants casually to cover his sexy waist and crotch, and the belt was not tied, as if a tree had just sprouted new branches, growing messily around his waist.My brother was laying the cigarette case that I threw on the bar before I got drunk, he took out one and held it between his lips, "Is she your friend?"

"Ju Lulu, my girlfriend." I heard myself say.

Ju Lulu kept her back to me, and after hearing my words, she flusteredly put down the skirts that had been pushed up and piled up on her chest, and kept smoothing them.

Blue flames shot out from the lighter, lighting the cigarette in his mouth.Then he raised his voice in what seemed to be a smile, and said nothing else.

"Should I call her sister-in-law?" I stared at his face closely and continued to ask.

He really laughed this time, didn't answer me, raised his chin, and turned towards Ju Lulu, "You're playing wild, little brother and sister?"

I was instantly jealous.

Before I was 12, my elder brother called me younger brother, and before I was 16, my elder brother called me Xiaoli. Now, my elder brother never calls me any other name, but Ju Lulu younger brother and younger sister.Ju Lulu calls me "Brother", and also calls my brother "Brother".In an instant, I felt drunk, facing such an absurd scene, I was not angry, or this anger was not because of Ju Lulu.

The man in front of Ju Lulu is completely different from the man in front of me. He never smiles at me like that.

My brother stopped looking at the cramped woman between us on the bar, untied the gorgeous ribbon with his fingers three or two times, and took apart the birthday cake that was still intact on the dining table.He can put aside everything behind him in a blink of an eye, as if everything has nothing to do with him. I have admired him like this since I was a child, no wonder Chen Zhiyuan always thinks he is a cold-blooded stone, and now I think so too.Not only admire, but also look forward to.

He acted like an executioner, and regardless of the decorative composition on the cake and the bright "Happy Birthday", the Chinese character "Eighteen and Two" was chopped off by the knife in his hand and sent into his mouth.

And Ju Lulu slid down from the bar, smooth as seaweed, with drops of water beaten by waves on her forehead.She stepped on my brother's body with graceful steps. It was obvious that she wanted to hug him from behind, but my brother held her arm.The supple seaweed shook its head, begging for mercy, very pitiful, but its wrists were still clenched red.

"Just now...it was my first time just now. I clearly said that I am Brother Li's girlfriend, but you still want me!"

The two of them seemed to have forgotten my existence, and started a rather bloody plot.Ju Lulu didn't know how many [-] o'clock dog blood dramas she had watched, her expression and posture were just right, and she put herself in the victim's position with just a few words.My brother has no objection to her words, so this should be the truth, he just stretched his eyebrows, and said in an inexplicable tone, "So?"

so what.

I don't even know how to answer, and Ju Lulu doesn't even know.It's this kind of aura, you can leave everything behind when you turn your head, all moral reasoning is as empty in front of his eyes, he won't be embarrassed, and he won't feel guilty, it's so fucking cool.I gradually discovered the joy of watching dog blood dramas, and a somewhat confusing joy rose in my mind. Watching my brother reject others makes me so happy.

"Brother Boxin, you, you can't do this..." Ju Lulu began to tremble, the supple seaweed wobbled, wobbled.

My stomach also started shaking and I felt like throwing up.

Of course it's not because I think Ju Lulu's appearance is ridiculous and disgusting, really not, it's just because my stomach has too much wine from the previous night, I woke up from the dream because I wanted to throw up and was thirsty.I stopped suddenly, and all the gloating was taken away in an instant. It turned out that I had woken up from the dream long ago, and these were not dreams.

I stepped forward and ran to the toilet, throwing up until my eyes were black.

With trembling hands grabbing the cold and smooth edge of the toilet, I feel so stupid. Before tonight, I actually thought that Ju Lulu loved me. Before tonight, I actually thought that my brother hated only Chen Zhiyuan and not me. Before tonight, I didn’t I thought my brother would always call me "Little Li" again.

When I heard the words "my girlfriend" from my mouth, my brother showed a nasty but carefree smile.

How much he hates me.

When Chen Zhiyuan came home, he saw my brother's car, and his expression was not very good when he entered the door.

Looking at his expression, I felt a secret pleasure in my heart, and said in an indifferent tone, "My brother is sleeping in the room."

"He's really back? Why did he come back? It's impossible to deal with things over there so quickly." Chen Zhiyuan glanced upstairs, subconsciously lowered his voice, and then looked at me again, "When did you come back? Didn't you hit me?" Let's have a reunion with your classmates."

The living room has recovered from the mess last night. My aunt spent two hours cleaning it up. During the period, she asked me if I should put away the empty red wine bottles and if I should throw away the cakes on the table.Listen to this subconscious wording, I want to collect the empty red wine bottle, and I want to throw away my birthday cake without eating it.The wine bottles and cakes are neatly arranged on the dining table together, and I haven't decided whether to keep them.

I looked at Chen Zhiyuan's face and saw that his expression was getting stiff and his eyes were slowly widening, "...Dad didn't expect him to come back, didn't he disappoint you? Why don't you call your classmates tonight? Dad invites you Go outside to play. Isn't today Saturday, you should be free..."

His words came to an abrupt end.

Following his gaze, I looked up and saw my brother leaning on the railing upstairs, with his gaze fixed on Chen Zhiyuan.Looking upstairs from the sofa on the first floor, I can only feel that my brother is tall and straight. He obviously can't see his eyes clearly, but he is shrouded in an inexplicable sense of oppression.

I was the first to say, "Brother, good morning."

How ridiculous, I don't know why I'm saying good morning to him.I should stare at him with the eyes of an enemy, I should put broken glass and thumbtacks in his meals and coffee, and I should stage a family ethics farce that is enough to make the social news.But the strange thing is that the waistline under his black shirt and that hazy smile suddenly flashed in my mind, and I don't know how strong hormones are wrapped in it.Maybe it's because I don't like Ju Lulu enough.

Chen Zhiyuan also followed me, putting on an ugly smile that he thought he was a kind elder, and the muscles on his face twitched a few times, "Boxin is back? I heard that Jiying has a partner to discuss recently. how's it going?"

I blush for Chen Zhiyuan's acting skills, he won't think that my brother can't see it, what is the relationship between you two, is it necessary to play the role of fatherly kindness and filial piety at this time?I am your only audience, there is no need for this.

At this time, the aunt came out of the laundry room and saw the "garbage" occupying half of the dining table. Now that the host of the house came back, she asked Chen Zhiyuan directly, "Sir, do you need to dispose of the red wine bottles and cakes?"

Chen Zhiyuan looked at his aunt with grateful eyes, although the aunt didn't understand why the gratitude came from.He heaved a sigh of relief, he didn't hear what the aunt asked, turned around and saw the wreckage of RMB on the table.Of course I would not let go of this opportunity to add fuel to the fire, so I quickly took it, "Dad, I drank some wine with my friends yesterday, I don't know how much it cost, I found it from the cabinet on the bottom floor, I'm afraid it's too cheap and you'll lose face."

Chen Zhiyuan was about to explode.

Come on, I'm ready, let the storm go down!If it wasn't for fear of your heart attack, I really want to tell you directly that my brother not only ran into my class reunion last night, he also had my girlfriend.Anyway, I was going crazy. The moment I opened my eyes in the morning, all the shots of last night played a movie in my mind frame by frame, and I watched it again.

I saw Chen Zhiyuan rush over like a cannonball, pick up a bottle to watch for a while, and pick up another bottle to watch for a while.The speed was so fast that it didn't look like a 53-year-old man. His hands gradually began to tremble, and the red wine bottle was about to explode on my forehead.

"Put it down." Someone said.

I suddenly found that my whole body was shaking, my eyes were red, and I was staring straight at the glass bottle that was about to hit my face.

"Go away!" Chen Zhiyuan suppressed his anger, and it was the first time he spoke to my brother in this tone.

Only then did I realize that my brother was already standing next to me. He smelled strongly of tobacco. He smelled like he had been smoking all night. I thought he had just woken up.His appearance is too confusing, last night he still hated me to the bone, and early in the morning he quarreled with Chen Zhiyuan because of me.It shouldn't be for me, he has too many motives, he hates Chen Zhiyuan more than he hates me, and he is a Virgo, he hates splashed blood and shattered glass.

But I have to say that my brother is obviously more imposing than Chen Zhiyuan.

He grabbed Chen Zhiyuan's arm, like a hero in a novel saving the beauty, if I wasn't his younger brother, if he hadn't slept with Ju Lulu in front of me yesterday, I might have fallen in love with him immediately.And Chen Zhiyuan was getting old, his eyes slowly blurred with something similar to tears, and the raised glass bottle was hanging down weakly. He looked at my brother, as if he saw someone else through my brother, and then he said, "Zhou Boxin, You are the one she left behind to torture me."

I was spared, my brother didn't seem to care that this disaster that was originally caused by me was finally attributed to him by Chen Zhiyuan.

He quietly ordered his aunt to throw away all the empty bottles on the table, and paused for three seconds, "Keep that one."

It's my birthday cake, almost forgot, today is my birthday.