Wading in muddy water

If you are a rich second generation, and you are a very rich rich second generation, and the biggest scenic spot in this city is not from the top, it belongs to your family, then you will live like this:

You will recognize "good and evil" earlier than others and be more sensitive, knowing that someone likes your toy because of envy, and someone likes your toy because of jealousy.Most children can't tell the difference between envy and jealousy, but you know very well that envy is pink and jealousy is gray; there will be many people around you, even when you are only a few years old. People in your teens or even your thirties fawn over you, let alone your peers. You never lack "friends";

When you grow up a bit, you start to come into contact with other people's world. Through the Internet and daily life, you know that there are other ways to get along with people: there is no interest relationship between two people, just because they like each other, it may be personality, it may be It's the appearance, maybe it's an even weirder reason. In short, they will exchange secrets and trust each other so much that it seems that the word "betrayal" does not exist in the world.

At this time, you start to feel unbelievable, feel that you will never have "friends" in your life, are not satisfied with all the social relationships you currently have, and suspect that everyone is with you because of their family background, but you will never have any. There is no way to get rid of this doubt, because your family background will always be there.

I always knew I was wrong, all my close relationships were deformed, family, friendship, love, none of them were normal.But this kind of abnormality did not reach the level of a disease, it’s just that I have a problem with my brain, I always force myself to think pessimistically, I always feel that there is no such thing as “I” in the world, some are just Chen Li, some are It is only Liufang's son, but the biological father is unknown.

Song Yiwei said that after I was bitten by a dog, I seldom acted affectionately, so I blamed that dog with peace of mind.In fact, I know that Song Yiwei doesn’t mean that. Their psychologists like to make an analogy. She used a dog to map something. I can understand it, but I still blame the dog. I blame it. I really blame it.

Dacheng had a hard time with the monitor on the podium for a while, and he probably succeeded in changing my name to his.He clasped his hands together and bowed to the monitor, slickly boasting that the monitor has become more and more beautiful recently.In fact, the squad leader is very average-looking, with a very collapsed nose bridge. Dacheng also said before that the squad leader's nose bridge must be flattened by her glasses thicker than the bottom of a wine bottle.

He has always been like this, he is the most out of the three of us... I couldn't find a suitable word to describe it, all I could think of were derogatory words, and I wanted to find a neutral word.Forget it, the most realistic thing is that he will say and do things against his will in order to achieve his goals.

My third son and I seldom do this, so before this kind of thing is done by Dacheng, my third son and I enjoy the success, we can maintain our self and protect our precious self-esteem, and we can prostitute for nothing.

After the monitor came down from the podium, the class became lively again, talking and copying homework. I sat on the seat and put away the English textbook for the first period.Dacheng walked over the class representative who was collecting homework, walked to the back, and sat down in his own seat.He rolled up the pink packaging bag on the table and threw it away. Then he pulled out a piece of paper and held it under his nose to blow his nose.

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Grass, don't cry.

I'm a little embarrassed, mostly because I'm belated and feel like I'm doing something wrong.I made mistakes from a very early age. At the earliest time, when Dacheng and I first met, he looked at me very enthusiastically, as if he had met a new playmate, while I looked at him probably mechanically. Yes, even a bit condescending, I was still young at that time, I was used to everyone trying to please me, everyone was the same.

Later, when the suitor of that senior sister slandered Dacheng but I was indifferent; and later, I got used to his tolerance for me, but I didn't understand him at all.

Dacheng is right, Sanzi is right, I deserve it.But they said I don't care, I can't stand it, I fucking thought I lived for 18 years and finally made two friends and they were the two of them, and they said I didn't care.

I'm just a little stupid, just a little bit.

I knocked my head on the table twice, stood up suddenly from my seat, and walked to Dacheng's side, just in time for him to finish blowing his nose and look up at me blankly.There is not a trace of tears in the eyes!My grass?I paused, this was more embarrassing, I gritted my teeth and lowered my voice, "You didn't cry?"

"? Why am I crying." He looked puzzled.

"Then what the hell are you wiping your nose for!" I scolded him.

"I can't even wipe my nose?! In the winter, I smoked half a cigarette on the balcony last night! You don't care what time you fucking go to bed!"

I really want to refute, but I fell asleep listening to my brother's recording last night with peace of mind, and even had a erotic dream at night, I was really guilty.I could only grit my teeth and pat the table, and said: "Grass!"

The voices of both of us couldn't be controlled and became louder and louder. Many people in the class looked at us.The relationship between Dacheng and Sanzi and I is well known to everyone. The three of us have never quarreled. Arguing.Immediately, I felt ashamed that my family should not be publicized. I turned my head and wanted to shout, "What are you looking at?", but before I turned my head, someone shouted.

"What are you looking at!" Dacheng roared in a low voice.

He should also feel that family ugliness cannot be exposed.

At this time, a person rushed in from outside the classroom.

The third son moved away from the crowd, his posture was like going to the supermarket to grab the last bottle of ice water after playing in summer. He was aggressive and sure to win. He hurriedly pulled me half a meter away, and asked me right away, "Didn't you say that?" Didn't you fight? Is there anything you can't say properly!"

I rolled my eyes.

The result of having a good talk is that we will have dinner together at night.On this day, Dacheng and I were in a very delicate and awkward atmosphere. He smoked half the night last night and managed to catch a cold.This morning, whenever I heard him blow his nose, I wanted to rush over and punch him. I thought he was crying, but he just blew his nose!This is really annoying.

In the past, the three of us ate in the cafeteria at noon or went to restaurants outside, and sometimes we also ordered takeaway.We didn't act together today, and I really didn't have any appetite, so I asked my deskmate to help me bring me some bread and yogurt from the cafeteria.And I also got up from my seat, lying on the windowsill by the window and looking out, honestly sitting on this wooden chair all morning is a bit embarrassing for my ass... Sigh.

Too many things happened today, and my mind was a little dull for a while.Ju Lulu asked me to pass on the news to my brother. I don't know whether I should tell him or not. I always feel that he will be angry if I pass the message to him for others. My intuition is the intuition of Zhou Boxin's younger brother.But I really want to know the truth in her mouth - my brother tricked her out of my bed.

Holding my phone, I still decided to send a message to my brother first, not to ask about this matter, but to ease my lovesickness, Ju Lulu matter can only be put aside for now.It is impossible for me to help her spread the word, I wish my brother would ignore her, how could I help her threaten my brother, if the threat succeeds, I will not know the secret they are hiding from me, and I will regain a rival in love, Ju Lulu may think I'm as stupid as she is.

Tapping the screen with my fingers, my brother actually doesn't know what to send.

I'm really getting more and more aggressive, and I don't know if it's because my skin has really thickened and my courage has really grown, or because my brother is really pampering me. Subjectively, I prefer to believe it is the latter.I never dared to pester him like this before, fearing that he would leave me completely if he got bored, but now, I don't know what gave me the courage, I always feel... that he doesn't hate me that much.

"Brother, miss you"

"The first class in the morning is English. Our English teacher went to get a perm on the weekend. This new hairstyle looks like a Teddy. I dare not look at her. I just want to laugh when I see her."

After sending these two articles, I waited for a few minutes, but there was no response. I already knew the essence of pushing an inch and sent another article.

"Brother, my butt hurts a little. I'm still a student. I go to school the next day. The school chair is so hard. Can you be gentle next time, just a little bit?"

"Of course, it's okay if you don't want to, you can do whatever you want"

In the next second, I saw "typing..." displayed behind my brother's name

I.Depend on.I was so scared that I almost threw my phone out of the window. My place is on the fifth floor, so if I throw it down, it will be scrapped.I calmed my pounding heart, grabbed the phone in my hand, and when I looked again, the one that was typing was gone.

Help! ! !

I really thought he blocked me on WeChat long ago, or blocked my messages, etc. In short, he would never see it.He never replied to the things I sent him on WeChat before, and he didn't seem to know what I said on WeChat, and he might see it when I texted him when there was something urgent.

He saw it?I quickly withdrew the above two items, saying that my butt hurts, what if he thinks that my skills are not good enough?What if he thinks I'm too troublesome and never sleeps with me again?To covertly resend:

Brother, I made a mistake. I didn’t mean that your skills are not good. I definitely didn’t mean that. I am also very comfortable. Trust me!

After 1 minute, my phone vibrated.

There is a red dot at the back of my top chat, and there is a number 1 in it. This is a beautiful picture. I haven’t seen my top chat for many years. If you ignore what he sent .

The cold guy who never responded to messages: .

A full stop, a cold full stop, a full stop of the unfathomable Sacred Heart, in my eyes, this full stop can only be translated as: I have read it, and immediately draw up an imperial decree to kill you.

The author says:

Sooner or later, Zhou Boxin will find this outrageous remark: