Unbearable

Lin Yu explained to Ji Zhonghan about Stockholm Syndrome, which is a human psychological protection mechanism.

Victims usually distort their feelings and cognitions to relieve their unbearable pain.

Lin Yu said gently, "So far, although Stockholm has not been included in the disease classification, it is still a symptom of TSD patients."

Have a good impression of the perpetrator, sympathize with the perpetrator's situation, rely on the perpetrator, and even some patients will develop love for the perpetrator under extreme conditions.

Every time Lin Yu said a word, Ji Zhonghan's face would turn pale, and in the end he could hardly listen anymore.

But what Lin Yu said, he couldn't refute a word.

Sympathy, dependence, even liking, all the emotions he had for Feng Qi, was it just because he couldn't bear the pain in the past, so he hinted that he fell in love with Feng Qi, so that he could accept the unbearable past?

Ji Zhonghan forced a smile, "Not necessarily, maybe you made a mistake?"

Lin Yu looked at him silently for a while, and then said in a low voice, "Mr. Ji, you don't need to be too nervous, just provide psychological counseling in time, and the symptoms will usually improve."

"How to improve?" Ji Zhonghan asked back.

Lin Yu picked up the pen again and did not speak.

Ji Zhonghan himself knew the answer, "Is it true that those emotions that shouldn't arise gradually disappear until I no longer have any feelings for Feng Qi?"

Lin Yu stared at him, his eyes almost seemed to see through everything about Ji Zhonghan, "Mr. Ji, I think you have already developed resistance to treatment, this is not a good sign."

Ji Zhonghan was said to be irrefutable.

Lin Yu softened his tone, "In fact, as long as you actively cooperate with the treatment, Stockholm Syndrome can be completely cured. If at that time, Mr. Ji, you still have a good impression of Mr. Feng, that is your own choice, Mr. Ji."

When it came to Feng Qi, Lin Yu's expression didn't change at all.

It seems that he doesn't feel anything about the fact that Ji Zhonghan likes men.

It's just a very common thing.

It has to be said that this attitude alleviated Ji Zhonghan's discomfort and resistance to a certain extent.

"Our most important thing is to treat your tsd, including not being able to sleep in bed, not being able to have physical contact with people, as well as recurring nightmares and periodic insomnia."

Lin Yu wrote while talking, and even prescribed Ji Zhonghan the medicine for insomnia.

This made Ji Zhonghan feel that Stockholm Syndrome was not even the most important thing, it was just one of his many mental illnesses.

At the end of a session of treatment, Ji Zhonghan leaned back gently as if he had been boiled dry.

He was still alive when he came, but now he is withered and slumped on the chair, his fragile appearance makes people feel pitiful.

With weak feet on the floor, Ji Zhonghan leaned on the chair to support himself to sit up "Doctor Lin, if it's really like what you said, I am..." When it came to the disease, Ji Zhonghan seemed unable to speak, and paused .

Lin Yu cooperated and said, "Stockholm Syndrome."

"Yes, that's it, then I can still be with him..." Ji Zhonghan lowered his eyelashes, and he felt a strong pull at this moment.

He knew that once Lin Yu announced that he could not continue to communicate with Feng Qi, it would be a difficult thing for both him and Feng Qi.

Ji Zhonghan couldn't even imagine Feng Qi's expression when he heard this.

Will he be as aggrieved and dazed as when he was thrown away by Lin Jin when he was young, and will his eyes be red like when he said goodbye to Feng Qi at the airport many years ago?

It was the same heartbroken look that Feng Qi showed when he turned to leave in the dressing room.

This strong emotional pull almost annihilated his reason.

But now Ji Zhonghan realizes that the relationship he established with Feng Qi was not as fragile as he thought.

But this reluctance and discomfort also tormented him at the same time.

He almost wanted to run away, he didn't want to listen to Lin Yu's doctor's orders, and he didn't want to treat the disease anymore.Anyway, he has been here for so many years, so it doesn't matter if he continues.

Unexpectedly, Lin Yu said, "You can still continue to communicate with him, but this must be based on the fact that he is not aggressive."

Ji Zhonghan's whole body relaxed, like a prisoner who was about to be sentenced to be released suddenly, the great joy soothed his anxious state.

"He didn't." Ji Zhonghan said immediately.

But Lin Yu shook his head and said, "The aggressiveness I'm talking about refers to whether his behavior that hurt you once will happen again."

Ji Zhonghan didn't know how much Lin Yu learned during the hypnosis, did he already know what Feng Qi had done to him?

This made him a little restless, he could only say "It's okay, he... listens to me very much, if I say no, he will stop."

Lin Yu thought for a while, and said to him, "Maybe you can use him for exposure therapy."

He explained to Ji Zhonghan that exposure therapy includes imaginary exposure and real scene exposure.

Imaginary exposure can be carried out in a hospital, but real-life exposure needs specific circumstances and suitable people to help.

The therapy can have a huge psychological and physical impact, but the benefit is faster and more effective treatment.

As for exposure therapy, patients need to re-face their unbearable fears and situations.

So Lin Yu said, "If possible, I suggest you ask that Mr. Feng to come to the hospital as well."

Ji Zhonghan didn't expect Feng Qi to come too, he wanted to solve this matter alone, he didn't want Feng Qi to know anything about it.

It was like a fig leaf, he didn't want to tear it off in front of Feng Qi.

Ji Zhonghan said, "Why did you let him come?"

Lin Yu replied, "Because if Mr. Feng cooperates with you if you want to carry out exposure therapy, then I must tell him some things, otherwise it will be too dangerous for you."

Ji Zhonghan nodded, he didn't say yes or no, but until the end of the diagnosis and treatment, he didn't tell Lin Yu whether to let Feng Qi come, or when to call him.

Ji Zhonghan didn't take a taxi right away, but walked on the street for a while, the night was getting darker, and there were more pedestrians on the street, there were a family of three, and there were also young couples holding hands, it seemed that he was alone.

He remembered what Lin Yu said, the most inseparable thing in psychotherapy is the help of family members.This almost made Ji Zhonghan smile wryly. Now that he chooses to return to China and never go back, in a sense, he is already far away from his family.

To a greater extent, he stayed away from Mei Yuling.

Feng Qi once said back then, why his family is still the same as before, but his own family is falling apart.

Ji Zhonghan felt that this kind of false peace was better than breaking up.

To him, what Mei Yuling had done was like sand in his eyes and thorns in his flesh, and it hurts just thinking about it.So much later, he didn't want to stay at home at all, and rarely talked to Mei Yuling.

After graduating and returning to China, each call with Mei Yuling would not exceed 3 minutes.

He has a knot in his heart, and he is unwilling to forgive Mei Yuling.

The phone vibrated, pulling Ji Zhonghan's erratic thoughts back, and Feng Qi's name was displayed on the screen.

On the third day after he kissed Feng Qi, this phone number was officially stored in the phone.

Ji Zhonghan hesitated for a while, then picked up the phone, he wanted Feng Qi to ask why he was not in the hotel and what should he say.

He knew about Feng Qi's itinerary today, and the shooting should have just finished at this time.

Fortunately, after answering the phone, Feng Qi didn't ask him where he was, but just lazily asked him if he wanted to have supper tonight.

At this time, Ji Zhonghan happened to see a pair of students riding bicycles, the latter one was riding on the bicycle, and the former one was on the shoulders.

The two of them talked about something funny, and the laughter spilled out on the street, very contagious.

Holding the phone, Ji Zhonghan said to Feng Qi, "Are you still riding a bike?"

An hour later, Feng Qi, all in black, came to him on a heavy motorcycle.Even if he covered his entire face with his helmet, there were many passers-by looking at him.

Feng Qi propped the genetically superior long legs on the ground, and pushed up the windshield, "Let's go."

He didn't ask Ji Zhonghan why he was in this place a little far away from the shooting location, but he put a helmet on Ji Zhonghan after he got into the car.

Feng Qi didn't say where he was going, but after Feng Qi stopped, Ji Zhonghan looked at the familiar environment, somewhat surprised.

It seems that it was no accident that he ran into Feng Qi on this snack street not far from the school.

If Feng Qi comes here often, then it will be a matter of time before they meet.

Feng Qi took him into the store, first took out a tissue and wiped the table and chairs for Ji Zhonghan, and then washed the dishes.

With skilled movements, he brought Ji Zhonghan back to the past.

That's how Feng Qi took care of him in the past, and now it doesn't look unfamiliar to him.

After Ji Zhonghan sat down, he joked, "It seems to be the same as riding a bicycle. You should review this kind of thing often."

Feng Qi glanced at him, and said bluntly, "I haven't done it to anyone else."

Ji Zhonghan choked for a moment, and after thinking about it, he felt that what he said just now sounded like he was testing whether Feng Qi had been so kind to others.

Suddenly, his cheeks became hot, and he regretted that he had made this joke.

After Feng Qi handed him the clean chopsticks, he explained slowly, "I do review often."

"I'm used to washing an extra pair of dishes, and I don't realize you're not there until after washing."

This sentence sounded very plain, but it made Ji Zhonghan's heart twitch suddenly, and his nose couldn't help but feel slightly sore.

He looked up at Feng Qi, hesitant to speak.

Feng Qi smiled at him relaxedly, "Aren't you here now?"

"That's good, I won't ask for more."

"As long as you're by my side."

Feng Qi looked at him with tender eyes.

With the most gentle tone and the most humble words, Ji Zhonghan clenched the chopsticks in his hands, and even couldn't afford Feng Qi's affection.

He was even afraid, what if in the end, his feelings for Feng Qi were only because of Stockholm?

At that time, what should Feng Qi do?

At this time, Feng Qi put a chopstick of vegetables into his bowl, "Eat."

Ji Zhonghan put his head down and started eating, Feng Qi looked at him with a smile for a while, until the phone vibrated.

Feng Qi took it away, it was a WeChat message from Jing He.

A photo and brief introduction.

He looked critically at the photo for a long time before he set his eyes on the line of words below.

Psychotherapist - Lin Yu. dd