Unbearable

Since then, the relationship between Ji Zhonghan and Mei Yuling has become extremely bad. He neither calls his mother nor pays attention to Mei Yuling.

It wasn't until Ji Guangping came back that he tried to pretend, even so, Ji Zhonghan became quite silent.

After that, Ji Guangping talked to him seriously, accusing him of his recent bad attitude towards Mei Yuling, Ji Zhonghan gritted his teeth and did not say a word or argue.

In addition to the decline in grades, he also became more and more quiet on campus, and Ji Zhonghan digested these emotions silently.

He even learned to drink without the company of Feng Qi.

Ji Zhonghan bought beer and drank it slowly while sitting on a swing in the park of the community.

The first sip was bitter, but with the dizziness brought by the wine passing through his throat, he didn't have to think about it for a while.

This feeling made Ji Zhonghan addicted immediately.

At first, he didn't dare to drink too much, but slowly, one to two bottles, Ji Zhonghan drank more and more.

Apart from drinking, Ji Zhonghan also avoided Feng Qi, outside the school and at home.

Ji Zhonghan was perfunctory in the WeChat messages and phone calls Feng Qi sent him, saying that his grades had fallen sharply recently, and he had enrolled in a cram school, so he didn't need to pick him up.

Ji Zhonghan did enroll in the cram school, but he skipped class.

Until this day, when Ji Zhonghan was still hiding in the small park drinking, Feng Qi caught him.

The moment Ji Zhonghan saw Feng Qi appear, his instinctive reaction was to hide the wine bottle behind his back, like a child caught by an adult.

Feng Qi stood where he was, and looked at him silently for a while, his gaze almost made Ji Zhonghan admit his mistake.

But Ji Zhonghan turned his head away, unwilling to look at Feng Qi.

Feng Qi came over, sat next to him, opened all the beer under him, and then drank it in big gulps.

Seeing that the wine was about to run out, Ji Zhonghan was anxious: "You save some for me! It's all gone!"

After Feng Qi finished drinking, he casually wiped the corners of his mouth with the back of his hand: "You have been secretly drinking by yourself for so long, and now I am so stingy and impatient for only drinking a little from you."

Seeing that Feng Qi didn't want to scold him, Ji Zhonghan didn't want to ask him why he drank, this thoughtfulness moved him very much, but made him feel even more guilty.

He avoided seeing Feng Qi, Feng Qi did nothing wrong at all, it was his fault.

Ji Zhonghan put his face on his knees and turned his head to look at Feng Qi.

After Feng Qi drank Ji Zhonghan's two bottles of beer, he frowned and said in disgust: "This brand is terrible."

Ji Zhonghan deliberately refuted him: "I think it's delicious."

Feng Qi raised his eyebrows and reached out to rub his hair, but Ji Zhonghan dodged subconsciously.Feng Qi's hand stopped in mid-air, and everything became awkward.

Ji Zhonghan stiffened his neck, looked at Feng Qi's hand, slowly moved his head back, pushed it into the palm of the person's hand, and whispered: "Forget it, rub it if you want."

Feng Qi gently smoothed his hair twice: "Why, are you afraid that you won't grow taller?"

Ji Zhonghan responded sullenly.

From that day on, Feng Qi would come to school to block Ji Zhonghan.I don't know if Feng Qi has hidden eyeliner in their school, every time Ji Zhonghan leaves the school gate, he will be blocked by Feng Qi.

Feng Qi didn't seem to feel Ji Zhonghan's alienation, so he stubbornly wanted to come to him.

When the person was sent to the cram school, Feng Qi didn't leave, and passed the time in the beverage shop outside.

The first time Ji Zhonghan found out that Feng Qi was waiting for him outside, he was shocked.

"Do you need to supervise me like this?" Ji Zhonghan felt that Feng Qi was going too far.

With a colorful straw in his mouth, Feng Qi looked up innocently at Ji Zhonghan.There are a few balls of paper on the table, as well as small cakes.

"I remember someone who wanted to be admitted to a key university, and said every day that I didn't study hard, what should I do if I can't get into a place in the future." Feng Qi said.

Ji Zhonghan vaguely saw numbers on the ball of paper, which seemed to be a string of phone numbers.

Feng Qi is often approached by people, and Ji Zhonghan is used to it.

But today, after looking at the ball of paper and Feng Qi's handsome face, he couldn't help wondering whether it was because of Feng Xinglu's handsome appearance that Mei Yuling liked him. To get along with Feng Xinglu.

He threw out everything in the bedroom and replaced it with new ones.But it wasn't enough, he couldn't sleep in that bed at all.

So every night, he would quietly go to the guest bedroom and not go back until daytime.

Feng Qi didn't wait for Ji Zhonghan's answer, he was used to Ji Zhonghan's sudden indifference these days.

He pushed the cake in front of Ji Zhonghan: "The clerk gave it to me just now, I don't like sweet ones, here they are for you."

Ji Zhonghan glanced at the cake and said firmly, "I don't want it."

Facing the emotional Ji Zhonghan, Feng Qi showed unprecedented patience.

It seems that the previous Feng Qi who played childishly with Ji Zhonghan disappeared, or was hidden by the current Feng Qi who showed his mature side.

Feng Qi didn't force him to eat cake, he just wanted to see the results of his cram school.

How many papers were made and how many notes were written.

Ji Zhonghan squeezed his schoolbag tightly, and didn't want to give it to him, so Feng Qi looked at him quietly until the eyes of the two met and Ji Zhonghan was the first to lose, then he reluctantly opened the backpack and handed in today's test paper.

A skinny camel is bigger than a horse. No matter how much Ji Zhonghan is not interested in studying during this period, his foundation is still there. It is impossible to become a poor student all at once.

But now it is different from his previous state in the first few grades, he has dropped by dozens of places.

After Feng Qi finished reading it, he returned it to Ji Zhonghan.

Ji Zhonghan really wanted to say, Feng Qi's grades are so poor, can he really understand what these questions are talking about?

But after thinking about it, this kind of attitude is too mean, and it's too much for a person who cares about him.

After that, Feng Qi sent him home.

During that time, Ji Zhonghan couldn't figure out why Feng Qi looked at him like that.

Time passed, and many years later he realized that it was Feng Qi's protection for him.

Ji Zhonghan curled up on the sofa in the hotel, dropped the empty beer bottle in his hand, and was drowned out by the carpet.

The rain outside the window gradually stopped, Ji Zhonghan closed his eyes, and after drinking all the beer in the hotel, he finally felt a little sleepy.

Don't think about what Lin Rui said, those bad things in the past, and Feng Qi.

The alcohol made his whole body float up, he seemed to have walked into a cloud, and when the cloud was pushed away, Ji Zhonghan saw himself.

Still, very drunk myself.

That feeling was very subtle. In the dream, he was watching this scene like a bystander.

Like an old image from the past.

Feng Qi walked quietly on the road with his back on his back.

It was late and the road was very quiet.Ji Zhonghan saw the drunk-eyed, muttering nonsense, with traces of cake cream remaining on his face.

He remembered when it was, it was Feng Qi's birthday.

Also from that day on, when he woke up, Feng Qi seemed to be a different person.

The scenes in the dream kept switching along with the incoherent memories.One second he was still following behind him and Feng Qi, and the next second, they came to the riverside again.

Ji Zhonghan faintly realized in his heart that this might have happened in real life and was forgotten by him.

What happened this night?Why all these years, he didn't think of it.

Feng Qi put him on the grass, wiped off the cream on his face with his fingers, and said with a light smile, "You're sensible, I know to block the wine for me on my birthday."

Ji Zhonghan didn't want to block the wine for Feng Qi, he just wanted to get himself drunk.

The young Feng Qi looks much more immature, he will look at Ji Zhonghan with gentle eyes, unlike now, he is always fierce and full of hatred.

He saw that he seemed to have woken up, and shouted confusedly, where is this?

Feng Qi took out a blanket from his backpack and put the drunk Ji Zhonghan on it: "Where do you think it is?"

When he was young, he said with a lisp: "Where do you want to confess your love to Wen Yuan?"

Feng Qi was silent for a while, then suddenly apologized to him.

He said to Ji Zhonghan, I'm sorry, this is not the place he wants to confess to Wen Yuan, he doesn't like Wen Yuan.

Ji Zhonghan's heart tightened at the side, and he walked to those two people, but this was a dream after all, a dream hidden deep in his brain and forgotten by him for many years.

He can't change anything, he can only watch quietly.

Feng Qi hugged Ji Zhonghan, but Ji Zhonghan struggled fiercely at this moment.He patted Feng Qi's back weakly: "Don't hug me."

Feng Qi didn't let go, but let Ji Zhonghan hit him for a long time before asking in a low voice, "Did you find out what I was thinking?"

The 26-year-old Ji Zhonghan, standing beside the former two people, looked at his immature self, and felt a sense of fear for no reason.

He seems to know what will happen next, and what kind of ending it will lead to.

Maybe it was never just a simple forgetting, but over the years, this memory has been deliberately pressed deep in the brain.

"Stop talking." He begged, not knowing whether he was begging his relatives or his former self.

Feng Qi hugged him: "You know, don't you, know that I don't like Wen Yuan, but I like you."

The movement of the person in his arms stopped slowly, without struggling or turning back to hug Feng Qi.

Feng Qi is still confessing his love to him, talking about this secret love that has been deeply rooted in his heart since he didn't know where it started.

He knew that Ji Zhonghan just regarded him as a brother, he didn't want to force Ji Zhonghan to accept this.

It's just this intention, he wants Ji Zhonghan to know.

Feng Qi said: "Zhong Han, there has never been anyone else but you, I like you...no, I love you."

He reached out to touch the face of the person in his arms, but was bitten hard.

Ji Zhonghan couldn't bear to watch the scene in front of him, he closed his eyes, and said in pain: "Stop talking."

He couldn't stop recalling all this, and he couldn't stop the former him from impulsively and recklessly stabbing the knife into Feng Qi's heart because of hatred and anger.

"You said you love me, are you a pervert? Feng Qi."

The wind by the river seemed to freeze, and his young voice was as cold as ice.

"Don't touch me again, I'm going to throw up."