dead dog

Only a small night light was turned on in the second bedroom. Facia changed her pajamas and walked around in the room. She wanted to open the door several times to go out to see what was going on, but every time before opening the door, she remembered that Ye Chuyang told her not to leave the room, so Had to hold back.She was very worried that Ye Chuyang and Jiang Ying would have a conflict next door. A woman's sixth sense told her: Jiang Ying was not a good person, and would definitely cause trouble in their small home.

She wants to eavesdrop, but the only advantage of this old house is that the sound insulation is okay, and she can only hear the faint voices next door when she puts her ears on the wall. She can't hear who is talking, but there are voices at least It means that the two of them haven't made a move yet.

She had already rolled up her sleeves, revealing a bony arm like a thin lotus root, ready to rush to the next door to help her cousin fight at any time.But her preparations were superfluous. After two o'clock in the middle of the night, when she was about to fall asleep, she suddenly heard the door of the next room open. She quickly opened the door of her own room and looked into the living room. No one came out.She felt strange, so she simply went out: "Cousin, are you in the room?"

Facia saw that the door of Ye Chuyang's room was open, but before she could clearly see the people inside, the door slammed shut by Ye Chuyang forcefully.

Ye Chuyang closed the door, locked the door again, and turned around to look at Jiang Ying in horror: "What are you doing?"

Jiang Ying lowered his head, as if pleading guilty: "I have no confidence in myself. The love affairs I have been in before are all insignificant. I have never tried to treat someone with sincerity. These are all my problems. I am very sorry. I know where my problem is, but because I don't have the courage to make a change, I will reject you. I was wrong, and I regret it, can you give me a chance to correct it?"

Ye Chuyang's heart was beating wildly, not only because Jiang Ying was finally willing to face his own problems, but also because Jiang Ying was kneeling down to apologize to him, to admit his mistakes, and to save him.

Ye Chuyang couldn't bear his kneeling, and his heart was extremely heavy: "Do you know what you are talking about?"

Jiang Ying sighed softly: "I know, I'm begging you to forgive me, I want to be with you."

Ye Chuyang: "...you stand up first."

Jiang Ying: "Then did you forgive me?"

Ye Chuyang blushed anxiously: "I will think about it, you stand up quickly, don't force me in this way."

Jiang Ying smiled lightly: "I didn't force you. I'm not good at expressing my feelings. I can only show you. I want you to see my sincerity. I really reflected on it and regretted it. I really want to be with you too."

Ye Chuyang walked up to him and stretched out his hand: "I see, I believe you."

Jiang Ying took his hand and stood up, clenched his hand tightly, looked at his face and asked, "Did you forgive me?"

Ye Chuyang pushed his hand away, went to the bed and sat down.His mind was in a mess, and his heart was also in a mess. Jiang Ying, who was standing in front of him waiting for his answer, made him even more confused. He simply covered his face to calm down a little: "Do you want to be with me?"

Jiang Ying: "Yes."

Ye Chuyang let out a muffled laugh: "Break up in two months?"

Jiang Ying was very sure this time: "No, I won't break up with you."

Ye Chuyang put down his hands, showing a calm face: "Then let me ask you, do you like me?"

Jiang Ying didn't seem to expect Ye Chuyang to ask such a question, and he didn't prepare an answer, so he was stopped by the question, and his face that had a little hope just now turned dark.

In fact, Ye Chuyang was very nervous. He had already decided that as long as Jiang Ying didn't deny it, even if Jiang Ying said "a little bit", he would bet once, betting on the sincerity of Jiang Ying's kneeling just now.But Jiang Ying didn't say anything, as if he was overwhelmed by the question.

Ye Chuyang felt sad: "You don't want to be with me, you just don't want me to leave you."

Jiang Ying's expression was anxious and flustered, as if he was going through some violent struggle: "No, I—"

Ye Chuyang: "You go, I'm really tired."

"I said no!"

Ye Chuyang was about to open the door again, when Jiang Ying groaned as soon as he got up, and looked at Jiang Ying in a daze.

Jiang Ying seemed to explode suddenly, he was wronged and angry and said: "Why do you keep driving me away and don't listen to my explanation? Since you said you like me a few days ago, have you listened to me seriously?! Do you think I'm a cold-blooded bastard, I don't understand feelings, all I do is keep you by my side, I don't care about your feelings and your feelings, I just want to satisfy myself! Why don't you think, if I don't care about you, why should I Are you staying by my side? I am indeed an asshole, but I am not so asshole as to kneel casually in order to keep someone! You ask me if I like you, if I know what it feels like to like someone, I will definitely admit that I like you , but I don’t know, I don’t understand, so what the hell can I do!”

Ye Chuyang heard that Jiang Ying was liquidating all the old and new grudges together, and said all the things that had been pent up in his heart for a long time, talking about his own feelings and his faults.Ye Chuyang was good at introspection, he listened to Jiang Ying's words in his heart, and found that it was indeed as Jiang Ying said, he was too wary of Jiang Ying, too distrustful, and too strict.In fact, when Jiang Ying confessed to him, he should have thought that the barbaric, cold, and inhuman animal nature in Jiang Ying's body had almost disappeared, because Jiang Ying already knew how to admit his mistakes, was willing to admit his mistakes, and more importantly, , Jiang Ying is willing to make changes for him.

Jiang Ying is like an untamed wild beast, as long as he gives himself enough time, Jiang Ying will definitely be subdued in his hands—just like now, the beast has come to him and lies at his feet, as long as he throws away his hands the whip to tame it.

The gloomy sky above Ye Chuyang's head suddenly became clear. Jiang Ying was obviously scolding him, but he was a little moved... He turned his back to Jiang Ying, hiding a complicated smile on his face.

Seeing Ye Chuyang turn his back to him, Jiang Ying thought that Ye Chuyang was hiding from him, and he was about to collapse: "Don't hide from me, okay? You said you wanted to be with me, and now I agree, I'll be you boyfriend, not to be your friend, is that okay?"

Although this is a good word, it is very unpleasant.Feeling wronged, Ye Chuyang turned around and said to Jiang Ying calmly, "Who do you think you are? You just say it's my boyfriend? Do I agree? Are you still being reasonable?"

Jiang Ying: "I'm not being unreasonable. It's you who said that we can't be friends, we can only fall in love, so let's talk about it. Tell me what else you want!"

Ye Chuyang glared at him hard: "I didn't say that you have to fall in love with me. You can do whatever you want, and forget it if you don't. Don't make it sound like I'm forcing you."

Jiang Ying quickly knelt down to him again: "You didn't force me, I forced you, I forced you to be with me. I will promise you whatever you say, and I will give you whatever you want, so hurry up Answer me whether you agree or not!"

The more Jiang Ying was anxious, the less anxious Ye Chuyang was, because Jiang Ying had already plucked up the courage to come to his side, and he was no longer worried that Jiang Ying would shrink into that selfish and cowardly cage again.This courage is something that Jiang Ying has always been missing, and it is also something that Ye Chuyang has always wanted him to have. He not only hopes that Jiang Ying can face him bravely, but also hopes that Jiang Ying can face the whole world bravely.

Now that Jiang Ying came to Ye Chuyang with unprecedented courage and determination, Ye Chuyang was deeply moved, both for Jiang Ying and for Jiang Ying.As long as Jiang Ying has the courage to take a step closer to him, he will be able to embrace Jiang Ying with all his strength regardless of everything - all the worries and sufferings accumulated in his heart will return to ashes, and his body will suddenly feel light and powerless. I can't even stand.

He walked slowly to the edge of the bed and sat down, bowed his head, and remained silent for a long time.

Jiang Ying was very flustered. He squatted in front of Ye Chuyang and stretched his neck to look at Ye Chuyang's face. Just now, his aura of pleading guilty fell to the bottom, and now he was like a pleading guilty: "Dr. Ye, what did I say? Wrong? Why are you sad again?"

Ye Chuyang's voice was very low, mixed with a strong nasal voice: "Don't be so fierce to me."

Jiang Ying heard that all internal organs, heart, liver, spleen, lungs and kidneys were broken: "I'm sorry, I was too anxious, I didn't want to hurt you. Did I speak too loudly just now? I'll change it. I will definitely not speak loudly to you in the future."

Ye Chuyang still didn't look up, took off his glasses and sighed softly: "Stay back, don't get so close, it's very hot."

Jiang Ying discovered that the air conditioner was not turned on in the room, and they were busy arguing as soon as they met. Everyone forgot to turn on the air conditioner, and the windows were not opened in time. The temperature in the room was indeed stuffy, and he and Ye Chuyang were already sweating.

Jiang Ying turned on the air conditioner, opened the floor-to-ceiling windows a slit for ventilation, and returned to Ye Chuyang, seeing that Ye Chuyang's face had returned to normal, and he was sitting by the bed adjusting the brightness of the bedside lamp—bright and dark The light beat on Ye Chuyang's face like a butterfly's wings, and Ye Chuyang's condensed, gentle and delicate face appeared in the light and dark halo.

Ye Chuyang dimmed the lamp until it was as dark as a burnt yellow candle. He sat in the floating candlelight, lowered his head and slowly pulled down the sleeve of the nightgown that was pushed to the elbow, and said softly, "Have you thought it through clearly?" ?”

Jiang Ying looked at him fascinated, shook his head and said: "I think very clearly, I have never known so clearly what I want."

Ye Chuyang said: "You and I, we will have a hard time."

Jiang Ying smiled and said, "I'm not afraid. You are not afraid of me as a beast, but what am I afraid of as a man?"

Ye Chuyang felt that he was worthless. He never thought that he was such a soft and emotional person. In the past 32 years, he had also experienced ups and downs in his relationship, so he was calm and steady.He has never been easily moved by anyone, but Jiang Ying can always move him. A word or a look can always make him pick up the enthusiasm he has lost.

Ye Chuyang said: "I see." He stood up and stretched out the quilt and began to make the bed, "You go back first, give me time to think about it, and I will give you an answer."

Jiang Ying: "How long do you need?"

Ye Chuyang: "A few hours, a day or two days, I don't know."

Jiang Ying: "I'll wait for you right here."

Ye Chuyang looked at the small standing clock on the table: "It's past three o'clock, I'm really tired, I want to sleep."

Jiang Ying hurriedly said, "Go to sleep, I won't disturb you."

Ye Chuyang looked back at him, without saying anything, he lifted the quilt and lay on the bed, turning sideways towards the French windows.

The lamp was still on, so Jiang Ying walked into the halo of the lamp, sat on the floor with his back against the bed, closed his eyes and took a long breath.In fact, he was also very sleepy, and he only slept for four or five hours in the past two days. He wanted to sleep for a while, but Ye Chuyang was lying two or three steps behind him, and Ye Chuyang was all in his heart and eyes. Yang, even if you close your eyes, it's all Ye Chuyang, it's impossible to fall asleep.

There are a few books on the bedside table, among them is the Tibetan Book of Living and Dying with a red cover. He turned over a few pages last time, and he didn't want to turn it over again, but in order to stop the long night, he picked up that book and read it again.Perhaps because of his peace of mind, he couldn't read it after reading two or three pages last time, but he was able to keep reading.

Jiang Ying flipped the pages of the book silently, seeing the reincarnation of the bardo. He thought that Ye Chuyang had already fallen asleep, but when the hands of the clock pointed to four o'clock in the morning and the night outside was getting thinner, he suddenly heard Ye Chuyang call him .

Ye Chuyang: "Jiang Ying."

Jiang Ying immediately turned to look at him: "Are you awake?"

Ye Chuyang whispered: "I didn't sleep."

Jiang Ying closed the book: "Am I too noisy?"

Ye Chuyang shook his head lightly, and said, "I figured out something just now."

Jiang Ying asked, "What's the matter?"

Ye Chuyang sighed quietly, and said softly: "I'm already in my thirties, and I only liked two people. The last one was Haiyang, and now it's you. Haiyang doesn't like me, but I forgot He has been there for many years. If you hadn't appeared, I would still be unable to let him go. What I want to say is that I like you, not for a while, or for three or five years, but for a long, long time. The rest of my life. If you are with me, I will not let go easily, and I will not allow you to let go easily, are you still willing?"

Jiang Ying put his hands on the red book cover, and gently stroked the word "life and death" in the title: "I wanted to understand one thing before I came to you; Xing Yu told me, you don't care about me, let me die At that time, I was not angry at all, I was just thinking, since you don’t care about me, it’s okay if I really die. At that time, I realized that I’m so disgusted with the world, that taking a breath of air would make me Very disgusting. But when I am with you, I feel that the world is not so annoying; when you smile at me, I feel that the scenery is beautiful; when you hold my hand, I feel that the sun is very warm. Even if you do nothing, Just reading and sleeping next to me, I thought the weather must be fine that day."

Ye Chuyang smiled, and his shoulders trembled slightly: "It sounds like a confession."

Jiang Yingdao: "Yes, it's a confession. If you want to listen, I can tell you every day. Are you willing to listen to my confession every day?"

Ye Chuyang sighed: "You are so cunning."

Jiang Ying smiled and didn't speak.

Ye Chuyang: "Come on, the ground is very cold."

Jiang Ying got into bed and lay behind him, looked at his back and said, "Dr. Ye, can you turn around? I want to see you."

Ye Chuyang dawdled for a while before slowly turning over, lying on his side facing Jiang Ying, glanced up at Jiang Ying's face with his eyes, and lowered himself again.

Jiang Ying asked again: "Can I hug you?"

Ye Chuyang moved forward, lay down very close to Jiang Ying, and sniffed his collar: "Have you been drinking?"

Jiang Ying: "No, I stayed in the boxing hall for a long time, and there were people drinking."

Ye Chuyang: "Take off your coat, the smell of alcohol and tobacco is very strong."

Jiang Ying took off his suit jacket and threw it on the ground, leaving only a black shirt on it. He lowered his head and sniffed the collar of the shirt to make sure there was no smell, so he said, "It's smelly, can I hug you?"

Ye Chuyang nodded.

Jiang Ying hugged him tightly.

Ye Chuyang heard Jiang Ying's steady heartbeat, which was the same frequency as Jiang Ying's heartbeat when Jiang Ying hugged him that day on the hotel bed, causing Ye Chuyang to be in a daze, as if he had returned to the hotel bed.

Jiang Ying seemed to have the same idea as him, Jiang Ying said with a smile: "That day at the hotel, you were still sleeping, and I lay beside you and stared at you for hours. At that time, I thought, if these hours It’s been a few decades.”

Ye Chuyang also laughed: "Why do you have such a silly idea?"

Jiang Yingdao: "Because time is difficult for me, and it is not difficult to be with you. I just want time to pass quickly when you are asleep, and it is best to blink for decades."

Ye Chuyang smiled and said innocently.

Jiang Ying looked down at him, and asked softly, "Dr. Ye, are we together?"

Ye Chuyang didn't answer him, but just said 'hmm'.

In fact, Ye Chuyang was waiting. He thought that Jiang Ying must be saying something, but Jiang Ying didn't speak for a long time. He was anxious to wait, so he raised his head to look at Jiang Ying, only to find that Jiang Ying had fallen asleep.

Ye Chuyang was stunned. He didn't expect Jiang Ying to fall asleep as soon as they confirmed their relationship. According to the normal process, at least he had to say a few strong words.And Jiang Ying was in a deep sleep, he shook Jiang Ying's shoulder and Jiang Ying didn't wake up.It's secondary to not listening to a few love words. The key is that Jiang Ying didn't change his clothes, take off his shoes, and didn't even take a shower. Although he wasn't disgraced, his clothes were wrinkled.

Ye Chuyang had no choice but to help Jiang Ying take off his shoes. He hesitated when waking Jiang Ying to take Jiang Ying to take a bath. Finally, he felt sorry for the dark circles under Jiang Ying's eyes and gave up letting Jiang Ying take a bath and change clothes. , will only pull out Jiang Ying's uncomfortable belt, and help him undo two buttons.

After working for a while, he crawled sleepily to Jiang Ying's side to lie down and fell asleep.