look at me

After tidying up the personal belongings on the table, Bai Chuan put on the briefcase and greeted the colleagues on the left and right: "I'm off work first."

Xu Le sticks out his head from behind: "Bai Chuan, do you want to have dinner together tonight?"

Bai Chuan smiled and waved his hands: "Sorry, I have something to do tonight, let's do it next time."

Xu Le pursed his mouth unhappily: "Okay, I will ask you out earlier next time."

"Thank you, I'll go first." After speaking, Bai Chuan walked out.

"Haven't given up yet?" Wen Yuanyuan said with a smile from the side.

"So handsome, how can you give up, you can see but you can't eat!" Xu Le lay on the desk and said wearily: "Yuanyuan, love always makes people sad."

Wen Yuanyuan: "...The key is, are you in love? You're not even a crush, you're just greedy for someone else's face."

Xu Le retorted: "Didn't you also like Bai Chuan's face before?"

The two women were chattering in the office, and they were quieted down when Department Chief Wang drove them home.

Bai Chuan, who was at the center of the topic among the female members, was thinking about what happened the night before.

Fu Gangqiang is easy to soften his heart, and Bai Chuan is well aware of this.

So he summoned up his courage, waited for Fu Gangqiang to go out and come back, and asked him to go home.

As he expected, Fu Gangqiang did not refuse.

Bai Chuan felt like a snail crawling hard on the wall of a boiling pot, enduring the scorching pain, mixed with the aroma of his being cooked, desperately marching towards that little bit of hope, he didn't dare to stay, he was afraid The high temperature from the wall of the pot roasted him.

Seeing Fu Gangqiang wearing the slippers he made for him, sitting on the sofa at his house watching the computer, Bai Chuan was secretly satisfied.

Maybe he could be more courageous?

He thought so, and he did.

Sneaking into Fu Gangqiang's room in the middle of the night, he wanted to kiss Fu Gangqiang's face, but he didn't dare, he curled up at his feet like a cowering mouse.

He knew that Fu Gangqiang was awake, and when a person was awake, the touched body would become stiff unconsciously.

Why didn't Fu Gangqiang refuse?Don't sit up and scold him?

Because Fu Gangqiang was afraid that Bai Chuan would be embarrassed.

Once he wakes up, the superficial peace he maintained with Bai Chuan will collapse.

Bai Chuan stopped, retracted his hand, stood up slowly, and exited Fu Gangqiang's room.

Lying back on his big bed, Bai Chuan curled up, mourning silently in the silent night.

When Fu Gangqiang rushed back to the sales department from the smoking room, Bai Chuan had already gone home.

"Minister, are you looking for Bai Chuan?" Xu Le, who was also about to go home, saw Fu Gangqiang looking back and forth at Bai Chuan's position, and said, "He just left, only 10 minutes ago."

Fu Gangqiang nodded: "Okay, I got it."

He walked back to the office quickly, picked up his mobile phone and wallet, put on his coat and went out.

"Thank you for your hard work. Be careful when you go home." Fu Gangqiang quickly greeted the commune members who hadn't gotten off work, and strode out of the office door.

Xu Le, who was still packing his things, asked his colleagues beside him suspiciously: "Is there any event tonight? One or two are so rushed? Or some TV show?"

The colleague glanced at the calendar: "Today is Friday."

Xu Le: "No more? It's only Friday?"

Colleague: "Maybe go home and watch variety shows, "Uncle Stormy Waves" will be broadcast tonight."

Staring at the screen of the elevator descending, Fu Gangqiang never felt that the speed of the elevator descending would be so heart-wrenching.When he arrived at the underground parking lot, Bai Chuan's car was no longer in the parking space.

Fu Gangqiang got into his car that smelled of cigarettes and drove out of the parking lot.Bai Chuan's home was very close to the company, and Fu Gangqiang arrived without even sitting on his buttocks.

The high-end apartment was right in front of him, but Fu Gangqiang hesitated.

Should he take this step?

Seeing Bai Chuan, what should he say.

There is a coffee shop diagonally opposite Bai Chuan's house. The coffee tastes average, the desserts are varied, and the decoration is beautiful. It is suitable for students to learn to clock in.

If the car parked on the side of the road, it would be posted. Fu Gangqiang parked the car in the parking lot of the cafe, and entered this cafe with an atmosphere that was incompatible with him.

I ordered an L-sized American iced coffee, sat by the window, and stared at Shirakawa's apartment.

He counted from the first floor to Bai Chuan's floor, and combined with the location, he locked on the window of Bai Chuan's house.

Thick curtains were drawn behind the windows, and nothing could be seen.

After finishing one cup, Fu Gangqiang ordered another.

The junior high school student next to him was laughing and joking, full of youthful atmosphere.

It's good to be young, Fu Gangqiang thought.

When I was young, I didn't have to think too much about what to do. With my enthusiasm, I didn't pay attention to anything, and felt that I had infinite possibilities.

When you get older, you will think about things. Don't think twice before making a decision. Thinking five times and eight times is not enough.

Some words are easy to say, but when the words behind the words have to bear the corresponding age multiples, many people will be discouraged.

The junior high school students finished their desserts and went home, and there were more adults in the cafe.

Some are holding computers, mobile phones, and books, and they are all very focused on reading, at least on the surface.

When Fu Gangqiang was about to order another cup of coffee, a person came out of the opposite apartment.

All it takes is a vague figure, and Fu Gangqiang knows that it is Bai Chuan.

"Thank you for coming, and welcome to come next time." The waiter said to Fu Gangqiang with a friendly business smile. The clock on the wall showed [-]:[-], and he had been sitting in the coffee shop for more than two hours.

Fu Gangqiang felt like a young boy, running recklessly on the road in early winter.

"Shirakawa!"

Crossing a road, Fu Gangqiang yelled.

There were not many pedestrians on the road, and those who heard the voice all looked back, and Bai Chuan also stopped.He is wearing a round-neck white sweater and a beige jacket. He may have just washed his hair, and his hair is hanging down. He looks very young, like a college student who has just graduated.

"Minister?" Bai Chuan stared blankly at Fu Gangqiang across the road.

"Stand there and wait for me!" Fu Gangqiang stared at the signal light, and when it turned green, he started to run.

When he ran in front of Bai Chuan, his breathing was a little short, and he took two deep breaths and said, "Where are you going?"

When you get close, you can smell the fragrance of Bai Chuan's body. Combined with Bai Chuan's previous bad nightlife, Fu Gangqiang frowned.

Bai Chuan didn't seem to have expected that Fu Gangqiang would come to him. He silently put the folding bag from the supermarket into his coat pocket, and said with a smile, "What else can I do when I go out at this point? I said I'm just going to eat. You Do you believe it?"

Without further ado, Fu Gangqiang pulled Bai Chuan by the sleeve and walked towards the apartment. He still remembered the password to enter the door.

Bai Chuan didn't break free from him, and walked back according to his strength, but his mouth didn't stay idle: "Do you have to take care after get off work? Minister, you are a little too lenient."

At this time, another resident just came out of the building, and the two big men were arguing awkwardly, Fu Gangqiang let go of his hands and said, "Although tomorrow is Saturday, you have to go to the company for a meeting in the morning , don't go out tonight."

"Come on, come in." Waiting for the resident to walk out of the apartment door, Fu Gangqiang opened the door and said to Bai Chuan.

Bai Chuan stood behind him, without the forced smile on his face, and looked at Fu Gangqiang with red eyes.

"What are you doing here?"

Fu Gangqiang took his arm and led him into the door: "I'll take care of you."

He couldn't leave him alone.

"...I don't need you to worry about it." Bai Chuan murmured.

The public space of the apartment is not a good place to talk. Fu Gangqiang walked into the elevator and pressed the floor button. Bai Chuan stood behind him with his head bowed, also silent.

After entering Bai Chuan's house, Fu Gangqiang didn't feel uncomfortable at all, he put on the slippers that Bai Chuan made for him and walked inside.

"What are you looking at, didn't you order this for me?" Fu Gangqiang took a deep breath and sat on the sofa: "Come here, sit down."

Bai Chuan leaned against the wall without moving, his eyes became even redder, and he said, "Don't come here again."

Bai Chuan thought for a while and then said: "You know what I think about you, if you don't accept it, then leave me alone. You might as well deal with your own emotional problems when you have time!"

Bai Chuan was very conflicted in his heart. On the one hand, he hoped that Fu Gangqiang would control him, which gave him the illusion of licking honey on the knife's edge. On the other hand, he hoped that Fu Gangqiang would not be so soft-hearted and simply reject him.

He is like a ball being torn back and forth, Fu Gangqiang doesn't even need to say anything, just one movement or one look in his eyes can make him imagine.

After a few breaths of silence in the room, Fu Gangqiang thought to himself, you are right, I am here to deal with relationship issues.

Fu Gangqiang didn't like to make things too complicated. He looked in Bai Chuan's direction and said, "You still... I mean, do you still like me?" Outline.

Bai Chuan laughed with a crying sound: "Do you think liking is something, and you can take it back if you want?"

I like water, if you splash it out, you can't get it back.

Fu Gangqiang: "Even if I am a man?"

Bai Chuan couldn't help but said loudly: "Is it fun to play with me! You know it!"

Does gender matter?

What Bai Chuan likes is Fu Gangqiang. Don't say he is a man, he is a shemale, and Bai Chuan will also like him.

But gender is still important in the eyes of most people.

If it wasn't important, Bai Chuan wouldn't be in such pain.

Ever since Bai Chuan confessed his love to him, Fu Gangqiang has been thinking about this issue intermittently.

Gender seems to matter, but it's not unassailable.

In the eyes of others, the shackles of the world certainly exist.

Fu Gangqiang looked at the man on the opposite side, his eyes were red, and his beautiful eyes had lost their luster. Compared with those invisible ethical constraints, the man in front of him was warm.

He is using all his efforts to show his affection for himself.

Fu Gangqiang was 33 the year he met Bai Chuan, and he will be 35 this Chinese New Year. At the age of 35, a man who has been divorced once has only two options for falling in love again.

One is to go straight to the blind date for the purpose of getting married, and the other is to follow the fate, whether you can find the other half depends on God's will.

It never occurred to him that there would be one more option for him.

A fiery feeling that is incompatible with the world.

Looking at Fu Gangqiang's complicated eyes, Bai Chuan's stagnant heart moved quietly.

"minister?"

He took a step forward and walked towards the sofa, but Fu Gangqiang didn't hide or stop him.

Bai Chuan suddenly gained courage. Could it be that if he tried a little harder, this man would hug him into his arms?

Bai Chuan approached, knelt down, stretched out his hand cautiously, grabbed Fu Gangqiang's clothes, raised his head and asked him softly, "What are you thinking?"

Fu Gangqiang lowered his eyes and looked at Bai Chuan's slender fingers: "I was thinking..."

When Fu Gangqiang lowered his head, Bai Chuan couldn't see his expression clearly. Bai Chuan hurriedly said softly, "Don't lower your head, I want to see your face." He wanted to see every subtle look and expression of Fu Gangqiang, and wanted to To find something that can fill his heart.

Bai Chuan forced a smile, and said with a stuffy nasal cavity: "Minister, look up, let me look up, and you also...look at me."

For a long time, Bai Chuan hoped that this man could raise his head one day and take a good look at him.

Just look at him, how much I love him.

The author has something to say: Wow, Xiaobai has gone through nearly [-] characters of the plot, and finally said this sentence

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