snow wolf ballad

The author has something to say: From this chapter on, "Bing Mo Pian" will be unfolded from Xun Zhimo's perspective, and her psychological activities are more complicated and interesting.Well, the length of "Bing Mo Pian" is about the same as "Wolf Ballad".

It's the second year of high school, and the courses are busy. After the division of arts and sciences, it can no longer be as easy as it was in the first year of high school.Tutoring, tutoring, tutoring, there seemed to be nothing left of my life except studies.Even on days like the third day of the Lunar New Year, I actually went to the cram school in my school uniform. I don’t know whether to lament the dullness of my life or the cram school’s determination to sacrifice the Spring Festival holiday in order to make money.

Having said that, why should I wear a school uniform to cram school?Looking back, I don't seem to have any decent clothes other than my school uniform.In the past two years, his body has grown rapidly, and his stature is as fast as his brother's back then. His old clothes soon became too small.However, I have no time to buy new clothes.

No, it's not that I don't have time, but that I don't have that kind of thought.When you go out shopping, you must have a companion, it would be too lonely to go shopping by yourself.But I don't have that kind of partner, my brother's work is too busy, and I don't have any friends, I've always been alone.Anyway, high school students wear school uniforms every day, so I gradually gave up on buying new clothes.

Looking back, the clothes in the closet are all bought by my mother in the past.

However, she is no longer there.

Losing parents at the age of 14, whether it is too early or too late... Naturally, it is not at all.At least at this age, I have already understood what it means to be heartbroken and to die in the world.They left so suddenly that I began to wonder if they hadn't been there in the first place, and that the past 14 years of my life were nothing but false memories, a dream.

It was so miserable to encounter such things during adolescence, so that my personality was distorted. I am still conscious of this.I found that I didn't seem to laugh very well, and my facial nerves failed, which is the legendary facial paralysis.That's okay, I'm tired of fake smiles and pretending to be strong. From now on, with such a face on my face, I can probably live a little easier.

The world in my eyes is black and white, without color.I'm not doing art, I'm telling the truth.My brother took me to see a doctor, and the doctor said that there was nothing wrong with my retina, it was probably a psychological problem.But after seeing a psychiatrist, I couldn't determine the exact illness. It seemed that I was quite healthy mentally, neither depressed nor post-traumatic.But there is no denying that I am different from the average person.

My brother was very powerful in my eyes, and the death of his parents was sudden to him, but the grief did not bring him down.At that time, he had just graduated from college and started working, but he took care of his parents' funeral.Later, for me, he bought the old house at home and bought a new house, and we moved in.Most of the things about his parents were given away or burned by him, so as not to hurt me.It's just that the most important part of the relics is still well preserved by him, locked in a cabinet in his room.

He's always been that sunshine, the exact opposite of me.His world is full of light, and no amount of sorrow or pain can shake him.Now, instead of my parents, he takes care of me comprehensively and works hard to make money, all for me.The only thing I can do is to study hard and have enough capital to repay him in the future.

There are also things my parents have been committed to doing. They own a small company. Although their annual income is relatively high compared to ordinary families, our family is actually not as wealthy as imagined.Because they are philanthropists, the purpose of making money is to do charity.I think their ideals may have to be realized by me.

Speaking of my parents, they are really like gods.I use this metaphor, not to say that they are supernaturally powerful, but specifically referring to their god-like compassion.They seem to have no self, or their self is actually beyond the scope of ordinary human understanding.Therefore, as children, we hardly see their selfishness and indifference.He seems to treat everyone equally, no matter whether the other party treats him well or badly, he always has a compassionate and caring attitude.For such a non-human existence, I can only use the word "god" to refer to it.

Sometimes, my brother and I feel that as their children, there is no special treatment.They will be inexplicably far away from us, as if they will leave sooner or later.My brother once talked to me about this feeling. When they were still alive, my brother felt that they would soon leave us and go to a far away place.So when they left, my brother's shock was not that they left so suddenly, but that his premonition had come true.In retrospect, I seem to have had such an idea, but I forgot.

Alas... probably because the air today is cold enough, and I am walking on the street, and the music playing in the earphones is far enough away, my thoughts are gradually drifting, and I have thought so much.

I pass by this street every time I go to cram school. This is a high-end business district in the city center, and this street is also a gathering place for bars and nightclubs.In particular, the entertainment club called "Red Huan" near me is almost like an urban legend.I heard the little girl in the class who often hang out talking about this place. I heard that there are often some unbelievably beautiful beauties haunting here. Many powerful people from the business, political and entertainment circles are here. The members and the boss have a wide range of people and are very mysterious. I don't know where they came from.

I stopped for a moment at the entrance of Honghuan's low-key and gorgeous store, took off the headset, and looked up.Then he snorted self-deprecatingly, what is there to see, this kind of place will never be my place to go.

I continued to walk towards the subway station, feeling hungry, thinking that I would buy a hot dog and a cup of hot cocoa to fill my stomach when I passed by the bakery next to the subway station, so my pace involuntarily accelerated.

But after walking a few steps, a sudden force came from behind, and I felt someone hugging me from behind. At the same time, I was wearing earphones and vaguely heard a female voice, but I couldn't hear it clearly.The fragrance was tangy, and through the thick clothes, I actually felt amazing elasticity.

I was startled, and hurriedly struggled out of that embrace. When I turned around, I saw a super beautiful girl standing in front of me. She was about the same height as me, both over 1.7 meters.She has long black hair, and her facial features are too beautiful for me to describe.It's just that I think she's a little unnatural. That black hair seems to be a wig?

This thought flashed, and I was deeply attracted by her eyes.She seems to be wearing contact lenses, but that can't hide her beautiful pupils, the most important thing is her expression at the moment.She looked at me with tears in her eyes, but smiled happily on her face, and cried happily as if she had found a lost and recovered treasure.At that moment, I even forgot to breathe.I could only take off the earphones in a daze, the sound of the music was far away, and the noise of the noisy road surrounded me, and an incredible state of mind emerged.

"Sister Hei...I knew I would find you..."

A pleasant voice sounded from her mouth, and I felt my heart beat violently, as if a hand was clenched on my heart.

black sister?

"Dong dong", with the echo of the heartbeat, the scene in front of my eyes began to change.

"Sister Hei, do you still remember me? I'm Bing'er." She took another step forward, getting closer to me, and I took a step back, my heart beating violently again.

Binger?

"Dongdong", the black and white world is undergoing transformation, red orange yellow green blue blue purple, the surrounding scene seems to be instantly colored by a mysterious brush.The appearance of a girl blooms to me with the most beautiful posture.I was extremely shocked, the color, the color that I lost for three years, was found back at this moment?

Is it because of this girl?

"Could it be that you don't recognize my outfit?" The girl who called herself Bing'er looked at me with a worried face.

No, this is impossible, I will never admit this unscientific thing.Who is this girl?Why did you suddenly say these inexplicable things to me?According to the reaction of normal people, I should ask this sentence at this moment:

"Who are you? Do I know you?"

But when I did ask, I saw the momentary stiffness of the girl's face.The sparkle in her eyes, from my newly recovered colorful vision, slowly evolved into an unbelievable shock and sadness. My heart suddenly tightened, and I suddenly felt so distressed.

No, my reaction is not normal, it shouldn't be like this.This girl is so strange, I felt flustered and fearful, and left a sentence:

"You got the wrong person."

Immediately fled quickly.

I was flustered along the way, and when I passed by the bakery in front of the subway station, I forgot to buy hot dogs and cocoa, and took the subway directly to rush home.But sitting on the subway, across the sea of ​​people, I actually saw her figure.

That girl, she has been following me!

What's the meaning?stalker?Who is she?Why do you keep pestering me?

Gotta find a way to dump her!

In my haste, I pretended that there were still many stops, and sat on the seat and pretended to be asleep.In fact, he has been quietly paying attention to the situation of the car door.When the next stop stopped, when the door was about to close after getting on and off, I suddenly jumped up and rushed out.

The car door was closed, and I turned around to look inside the car, and sure enough, I saw her locked in the car because she couldn't react in time, and she left with the car.She was lying on the car door, looking straight at me with those beautiful big eyes.I didn't dare to look any more, and hurriedly looked away, feeling relieved in my heart.

Today's incident is really scary, but fortunately, I handled it properly. It seems that I have to be more careful in the future, there will always be some strange people in this society, and I may run into them one day.

I took the next bus home, and when I arrived at the station, I realized that I forgot to buy something to fill my stomach. My brother has to work overtime again tonight, so I have to solve dinner by myself.

After leaving the subway station, I casually ate a bowl of beef noodles at a roadside shop. The portion was a little small, so I bought two more big meat buns on the way home.It was warm in my hand, and I was a little reluctant to eat it.

This road comes to an end, and it turns into my community.But at the corner of the corner, I saw that girl, and she appeared again!

I'm really scared, what is she going to do?

"Sister Hei... have you really forgotten me?" The girl stood there pitifully, looking at me.

"You are crazy, I don't know you at all." I said angrily.

The girl bit her lip and stopped talking, she looked so pitiful, I couldn't bear to get angry at her again.

"Gu~~~" The girl's stomach suddenly groaned, she covered her stomach and blushed.I looked at her blankly, and then at the meat bun in my hand.Finally sighed, gave her both meat buns, and said:

"This is all for you, don't follow me anymore, you really recognize the wrong person."

After all, I passed by her and walked into the community.

I heard footsteps behind me, turned around and saw that she was following with the buns in her hands.I decided to really frighten her, so I shouted:

"Stop following me, or I'll call the police!"

The girl finally stopped, and I went home without looking back.

After locking the door, I suddenly felt an indescribable sadness in my heart.

I'm so crazy.......