A Guide to Depravity

Gao Wu spent a warm winter night in the south.

The window was opened about ten centimeters, and the two of them slept hugging each other under a big quilt.

The rooster crowed in the early morning, Fei Ning woke up earlier than Gao Wu today, and when he woke up, he found that Gao Wu was far away from him, so he automatically and consciously stuck behind Gao Wu, reaching out to hold him in his arms.

As soon as Fei Ning moved, Gao Wu also woke up, his body moved slightly, and Fei Ning pulled his body to make him turn around.

The sun was shining slightly, and a touch of warm gold was sprinkled through the windows.

Fei Ning laughed out his eight teeth, and said foolishly, "I had a dream last night."

"Huh?" Gao Wu just woke up, and his brain was still in the process of starting up.

"I didn't dream of you." Fei Ning smiled.

"Normal." Gao Wu yawned.

"But I would like to dream of you," said Finn.

"Oh." Gao Wu said angrily.

"I've been looking for you in my dream all night." Fei Ning said again.

"Oh..." Gao Wu raised his hand and wiped the corners of his eyes, but he was still sleepy.

"Did you find it?" Gao Wu asked casually.

"No." Fei Ning looked at Gao Wu in surprise.

"What's wrong?" Gao Wu looked at Fei Ning, not understanding what he wanted to say.

"Don't you think this is a love story?" Fei Ning rolled onto Gao Wu with a smile.

"Really?" Gao Wu stretched out his hand to stop Fei Ning, "Go down, you are quite heavy."

Fei Ning couldn't go down, and when he rolled onto Gao Wu's body, he was compacted in a big shape, and he leaned his head on the side of his face and looked at him: "It's just love words, think about it, you are by my side, but I can't even I have been thinking about you all night in my dreams. Even thinking about it makes me feel romantic." The more Fei Ning thought about it, the more he felt that his words were very romantic, the kind that could be written into a love story tutorial.

"This is a different dream in the same bed?" Gao Wu didn't bother to resist after being compacted, and after pulling the quilt with his hands, he patted Fei Ning's naked back.

"Hahahaha what the hell 'same bed, different dreams', can you still do it?" Fei Ning laughed so hard that he felt hungry.

"It can't be done, isn't it enough to toss around all night last night?" Gao Wu said lazily, and touched Feining's dangling feet with his feet.

"Should I say at this time, it will never be enough with you?" Fei Ning clamped Gao Wu's toes with his toes.

"Be realistic, this isn't an idol drama." Gao Wu smiled, "Do you believe the word 'forever' these days?"

"I said forever, don't you believe me?" Fei Ning teased.

"Is it credible?" Gao Wu pushed Fei Ning away, and Fei Ning lay down on the side again, covering the quilt, half of his body was still attached to Gao Wu's body, and his hands were also resting on Gao Wu's abdominal muscles. touch.

"Not tall?" Fei Ning lightly bit his shoulder.

"High." Gao Wu responded with a smile.

"That's about the same." In fact, Fei Ning himself doesn't believe in "never and ever".

Fei Ning touched Gaowu's abdominal muscles, and after tracing the outline, he put his hand on one of the abdominal muscles and asked, "Gaowu No. [-], are you hungry?" He also asked himself and answered, "I'm hungry." He changed a piece The place was close, and asked again: "Gaowu No. [-], are you hungry?" "Hungry."

"Do you want to..." So cute?Gao Wu smiled and didn't finish speaking, and put his hand on Fei Ning's hand on his stomach.

Gao Wu raised his other hand to ruffle Fei Ning's hair, and asked again, "Are you hungry?"

"I'm hungry." Fei Ning raised his hand and tousled Gao Wu's hair in retaliation, wrapped his fingers around Gao Wu's hair, "But I want to do a lot of things..."

"Tell me?" Gao Wu turned sideways to face Fei Ning.

"What would you like to eat today? Why don't you eat dumplings in the morning, Malatang at noon, and Ai Ci at my grandma's house in the evening, but I also want to eat rice noodles, so I want to eat today... Then do you want to go hiking or something? Yes, it’s better to walk around in the field, there is a market nearby, we can still buy vegetables and cook them.” Fei Ning said, and suddenly changed the subject, “Oh, yes, I have something to talk to You said it."

"What?" Gao Wu hadn't recovered from Fei Ning's pile of plans.

"I plan to show my face live in the future." Fei Ning also turned sideways and looked at Gao Wu face to face, discussing this matter in the same tone as discussing what to eat this morning.

"Have you decided?" Gao Wu looked a little more serious than before.

"En." Fei Ning didn't do too much psychological struggle, thought of this, weighed the pros and cons, and made this decision.

Gao Wu licked the gap between his teeth with the tip of his tongue, then said after a pause, "All right, as long as you like it."

"Do you feel bad?" Fei Ning needed others to accommodate him.To be precise, he believes that in a good relationship, both parties can accommodate each other, but the accommodation cannot be excessive, and the principle cannot be changed.He fell in love with the other party because of the other party's originality, loved his principles, loved his persistence, and didn't want to change the other party's bottom line after being together.He actually thinks it's okay to show his face live. If Gao Wu doesn't want him to show his face, he can continue the current style.

"No, as long as you like it." Gao Wu frowned slightly, as if wondering why Fei Ning would ask this question, "But can I ask why?"

"Because I want to make more money." Fei Ning said frankly.

Gao Wu laughed immediately: "So realistic?"

"That's right." Fei Ning also smiled, and reached out to touch Gao Wu's face, "Actually, many people show their faces during live broadcasts, which can increase exposure and attract more popularity. I have been doing this for so long, and I also want to Make a little change.” Feining paused, and then continued: “Besides, I didn’t like working for others since I was a child, and I wasn’t interested in studying, so I just thought that if I could make money by making videos and live broadcasts, I would like to work here. go down the road."

"Doing video and live broadcasting is also very hard, right?" Gao Wu looked at him and asked.

"It's better to do something you like than to do something you don't like." Fei Ning said, "Besides, I think a lot of work is really meaningless, and it's meaningless to waste time on the way to work. I would rather starve to death while playing games And I don’t want to walk around doing things that I don’t feel happy about.”

Learning does not just mean learning, learning means a number, which means school, job, future and so on.They're not exactly linked, but too many people believe they are positively correlated.Learning is intertwined with pain and happiness. When you finish learning, you may remember its pain, or you may remember its happiness.More likely you won't remember anything but, I'm done.But in the process, it is very painful when you force yourself to learn.They say that the upward process is painful, and life must be upward.But the pain is borne by oneself.For Fei Ning now, he only feels that studying is more painful than happy, and work is also more painful than happy.

The society always forces people to live a step-by-step life, and it takes a lot of courage to resist.Even when his family was the poorest, Fei Ning never really experienced the taste of starvation. He didn't know what it was like to live in a desperate situation, so he could say these words calmly.

But maybe, he can still face it calmly when he comes to a desperate situation.

"What is meaningful in life?" Gao Wu asked with a smile.

"Hiss, what is 'meaningful'?" Fei Ning gasped through his teeth.

"I don't know either." Gao Wu himself didn't think to understand this question, "Study is meaningful, work is meaningful, and doing something that contributes to society is meaningful?"

"You think about work too well." Fei Ning smiled, "Study is to get into a good university, and a good university is to have a good job, but I think too much work is meaningful to people. It's just the salary. Who wants to work when everyone has more money than they can spend? I don't want 996, 007, or a boring, low-paying job. I don't think I can When it comes to things that you really love, you can just think about being self-willed, and it’s best to just be a charterer and eat and die every day.”

"It's quite depraved." Gao Wu commented.

"But I feel very happy just thinking about it!" Fei Ning smiled, and said firmly, "Think about it, material desires are endless, status, fame, rights, wealth, endless. And never On the other hand, in terms of spirit, there is no limit to human exploration, the exploration of the world, the pursuit of knowledge, these also have no boundaries."

"In the process of growing up, I will continue to receive explicit hints from all parties to encourage myself to pursue spiritual wealth, but more to encourage the pursuit of material wealth, to study hard, to be motivated, to go to a good university, to go to a good university The company, to become a so-and-so person. It is usually accompanied by 'don't be like so-and-so' or 'look at what has happened to so-and-so'."

"Then even I will compare myself secretly, 'I can do what others can do'. I dare not even stop, afraid of being surpassed, afraid of falling behind others. I am very tired, and often want to give up, feeling that I am a waste at all That's all, continuous eating and waiting to die, intermittently trying to be strong. But after a long time of eating and waiting to die, it is usually useless to suddenly try to be strong, and the heart is particularly hopeless."

"Besides, if it is useful, it may not be useful, because I can't convince myself that these things are what I want to do. If I earn ten thousand, I want one hundred thousand, and then one million ten million. Desires will never be satisfied. This kind of The state is terrible. It's better to be content and happy, to recognize the truth about salted fish, and to be a happy self."

Fei Ning said a lot of things in a series. When life is messy, he would think about messy things. He would also weigh games and studies back then. When his family was poor, he would be afraid that he would not be able to support his family or his parents’ pension in the future. and own family.

Later, he stopped thinking about it, and unconsciously seemed to understand some truths, and figured it out.The more you think about it, the easier it is to be unhappy.

After Gao Wu listened patiently, he was speechless for a while, and after a while, he said softly: "You are a great philosopher today."

After thinking about it, Fei Ning was right.

Some people can't find what they want to do all their lives, and those who can find it may not have the courage to resist the step-by-step life. It is such a common choice to sacrifice ideals for life.

But some people are willing to starve for their ideals, even if they are not understood, they will carry them through their lives.

Life is about doing what you want to do, even if you are poor, lonely and tired for it, who cares about the little things.

Live for the ideal, this is the romance of life.

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The author says:

"Nobody Cares What You Care" Then I get what you mean

small theater:

Passerby A: I'm going to starve to death, I don't care about my ideals, but social animals are really tiring...

Passerby B: "They said let this world be destroyed"

Passerby A: Is there such a good thing?