song for the city

"To Pei."

There was a soft female voice next to his ears, and Xiang Pei opened his eyes. The brush in the makeup artist's hand moved from his forehead to his cheeks. The soft hair swept him very comfortably, and he almost fell asleep. He lowered his chin regretfully: "I'm sorry, I'm too sleepy."

"It's okay. I've been staying up late recently? The dark circles under my eyes are a bit heavy."

Xiang Pei's throat was uncomfortably dry, as if he had held a few thorns in it, and he coughed uncomfortably: "Insomnia, I can't sleep well."

The makeup artist said with concern: "Staying up late is not good for your health. If you have severe insomnia, you should see a doctor."

"It's not too serious, maybe I've been too tired recently." Said Xiang Pei, picked up the water glass in front of the mirror, bit the straw and took a big sip of water, his throat was temporarily relieved, he was really sleepy.

Liang Zhang was on the plane early this morning, Xiang Pei was awake when he went out, the sky was gray and almost bright, the curtains in the room were drawn tightly, and Xiang Pei felt the warmth of the sun.Lying on the bed, he heard the sound of Liang Zhang's suitcase rolling on the ground, and the sound of glasses hitting the table. Liang Zhang's footsteps were very light, maybe he was afraid of disturbing Xiang Pei, he must not know that Xiang Pei had woken up.

He only fell asleep for two hours, and then completely lost his relationship with sleep. Xiang Pei leaned against the pillow wearily, and finally heard the sound of the door closing, Liang Zhang left, and the living room was completely quiet.

The makeup artist asked Xiang Pei to turn his face to the right, and Xiang Pei did so. When he straightened it, his phone vibrated.

It turned out that it was Liang Zhang who sent a text message: I'm getting ready to board the plane. There are dishes I cooked last night in the refrigerator. You can warm them up for lunch.

Xiang Pei won't go home at noon, but he made a good return and plans to reheat it for dinner at night.Liang Zhang was supposed to be on the plane, and his phone was probably turned off, so Xiang Pei didn't wait for his reply.

"Okay, Chen Zhaonan and the others are waiting for you, go out." The makeup artist stood behind Xiang Pei, looking at him in the mirror, "You look so pretty, I should put on more makeup for you in the future."

"Forget it." He waved his hand to Pei, showing extreme resistance.

The makeup made Xiang Pei's skin itchy and uncomfortable, as if there were bugs jumping on his face, and he always wanted to reach out to scratch it. The makeup artist slapped his hand away several times: "Be careful of the makeup!"

Unexpectedly, Liang Zhang sent another text message when he went out, asking what Xiang Pei was doing.

Tell Pei that their band is shooting the inside pages of a magazine, just to promote the tour.Afterwards, he locked his phone and put it in the dressing room, and walked out the door. The venue had been set up, and Chu Ranfei was taking pictures of himself.

Seeing Pei approaching, Chen Zhaonan asked with concern, "How long did you sleep last night?"

"Two hours."

"Crazy, don't come to the band practice in the afternoon, go home and sleep for a while."

"Yeah." Xiang Pei agreed lazily, clasping the flesh of his palm, a little regretful that he left his phone in the dressing room, he was uneasy, always wanting to see if Liang Zhang replied to his text messages, and what he replied.

Liang Zhang got off the plane and arrived directly at the hotel where the wedding was held. Lai Yu greeted him at the door, saying that the suits were all ready for him, and he was waiting for others to come.

It was still early, and the person in charge of the wedding took Liang Zhang through the wedding process. He was quite calm at first, but the person in charge's fast-moving posture made him nervous, and he recited the manuscript of his speech several times in the room.

Lai Yu saw how Liang Zhang changed into a suit, and complained, "I shouldn't have let you come over, you'll steal my limelight."

Liang Zhang patted Lai Yu's stomach: "Drink less alcohol a day, exercise more, and be careful that you will never return on the road to gaining weight."

"You have the nerve to say me? You are getting more and more addicted to smoking."

Liang Zhang smiled perfunctorily. He and Lai Yu hadn't seen each other for more than a year, so they had a lot to talk about. While chatting, Lai Yu mentioned Xiang Pei.

During the time when he and Xiang Pei broke up, Liang Zhang was in an extremely bad state, and Lai Yu was with him all day long, so it was impossible not to notice it.Liang Zhang was annoyed by his question, so he gritted his teeth and told him everything. He and Xiang Pei were not friends at all.

After he finished speaking, he regretted it, fearing that Lai Yu would break up with him, who would immediately accept that Fa Xiao, who grew up together, liked boys.

Lai Yu was indeed in a daze for a day or two, and then went to Liang Zhang's house specifically to say that he would support him for the rest of his life.

At that time, Liang Zhang was so moved that he didn't know what to say. Lai Yu was the first person around Liang Zhang to accept the real him.

Lai Yu said: "Didn't Qiao Yujie chase variety shows before, and then fell in love with a band in it, and kept mentioning it in my ear all day long. The more I heard the lead singer's name, the more I heard it, and then I googled it. Isn't it just the idiot who abandoned you before?"

After hearing the word "stupid", Liang Zhang frowned slightly, and bumped Lai Yu's arm: "Fuck you, what are you abandoning, it makes me look like a resentful woman."

"That's not what it means! Anyway, I get angry just looking at his face, and Qiao Yujie even used him as a phone wallpaper. I almost smashed her."

Liang Zhang hid his irritability with a smile: "Do you really dare to smash it?"

"Of course I dare not..."

"Actually, he didn't abandon me."

Lai Yu whispered: "Didn't he make you very sad?"

"It was very sad at that time, and it's okay to think about it now, it's just that we are not mature enough."

On the surface, he is an adult, and the law stipulates that adults can be responsible for themselves. Liang Zhang is physically mature, but his heart is only half mature.If you like it, you have to be together. I haven't experienced big wind and waves. I thought that I could live a good life after staying outside for two months, but that experience was nothing at all.

If he and Xiang Pei were reluctantly together at that time, and the two of them were immature, would they have lived in peace for eight years?May have been separated long ago.

In the past, he always thought that love could withstand everything, but now he understands that love requires reason and thinking.

Compared with Lai Yu's horizontal development, Qiao Yujie hasn't changed much, she is still very thin and beautiful. She said that she lost weight for a few months to wear a wedding dress. Liang Zhang lamented the horror of women and said that she should take Lai Yu with her.

Liang Zhang, Qiao Yujie's bridesmaid, knew the girl who let off the fireworks with him, Xiao Yi.Qiao Yujie heard that Liang Zhang didn't have a girlfriend, and even wanted to match them up. This time, Xiao Yi shook her head and refused, and said with a smile that she didn't like Liang Zhang for a long time.

Liang Zhang heaved a sigh of relief, and he was no longer embarrassed. Qiao Yujie pestered him to ask gossip about the entertainment industry one after another. Liang Zhang himself didn't pay much attention to these things, and only promised to help her get an autograph if he had the opportunity in the future.

After the wedding at noon, the guests all drank tea and played mahjong in the teahouse of the hotel. Liang Zhang played cards with Lai Yu and the others all afternoon. His back was sore and his head was dizzy. He hadn’t played mahjong for a long time. Come up and win money one after another.

Having another round of drinks with Lai Yu in the evening, Liang Zhang went back to his room. After the wedding day, he was very tired, his eyelids were clenched, and he wanted to go to bed immediately after taking a shower.

He just wanted to call Pei, but Liang Zhang answered the phone listlessly: "What's the matter?"

Xiang Pei listened to Liang Zhang's thick nasal voice: "Are you asleep?"

"Not yet, just came back."

"I saw the photo posted in your circle of friends, and that girl is there."

Liang Zhang yawned: "She's a bridesmaid, you didn't call to ask questions, did you?"

"No," Xiang Pei's voice was hoarse, "I miss you."

Liang Zhang didn't know how to answer for a while, most of his sleepiness dissipated, and he sank into the soft bed of the hotel, listening to Xiang Pei's breathing with his mobile phone.

"I'm looking at old photos," Xiang Pei said, "You said you liked me the most, my eyes the second, and my kiss the third."

Xiang Pei's voice was always magical, and people couldn't get enough of it. For a moment, Liang Zhang's soul left his body and floated in the air.He remembered this passage, and he almost forgot what was left behind in their group photo.

Liang Zhang's eyes were tired and dry, but his heart was dripping water. He was stunned for a long time before he found his voice: "It's very late, Xiang Pei."

"But I can't sleep. I haven't been able to sleep for a long time. For many years. I may sleep better hearing you talk."

Liang Zhang put his mobile phone between his ears and the bed, and what he said to Pei made him feel so heartbroken that he curled up in pain.

It's better, and it doesn't hurt that much.

"Are you asleep?"

Xiang Pei waited for a long time but did not get Liang Zhang's response: "Good night, Liang Zhang."

Then Xiang Pei hung up the phone.

At four o'clock in the morning, Xiang Pei was smoking outside the balcony. The more he smoked, the less sleepy he felt. Liang Zhang didn't call again. He must have slept soundly. He looked at the darkness in front of him and imagined Liang Zhang sleeping, with long eyelashes. Motionless, breathing very quietly, his softest appearance.

Suddenly there was the sound of unlocking the lock in the silent room, Xiang Pei turned around with a cigarette in his hand, and saw Liang Zhang standing outside the door with a small suitcase.

They were separated by a short distance, and Liang Zhang put down the door key in his hand, as if he just went out for a meal, he said to Pei Xiang: "I bought the latest ticket and came back. I'm here. You may sleep." It will be better."

Without turning on the light, the moonlight outside the window was enough for Liang Zhang to see Xiang Pei's silhouette clearly, as well as the drifting smoke.He found that Xiang Pei's red hair was dancing in the air, being blown around by the wind.

The next second, Xiang Pei rushed over and hugged Liang Zhang. He was shaking violently, and his two warm bodies hugged each other tightly.

"Can I hug you to sleep?" Xiang Pei said, his breath stuck to Liang Zhang's body, and he couldn't separate him.

A few seconds later, Liang Zhang compromised and generally agreed: "Okay, just sleep."

Xiang Pei raised his head and smiled: "Otherwise?"

With Liang Zhang beside him, Xiang Pei really fell asleep very fast, his arms wrapped around Liang Zhang's waist, and he remained motionless.Liang Zhang couldn't sleep in Xiang Pei's arms, his eyes were open and he was thinking wildly.

Xiang Pei used to sleep as well as he did, and now he said he couldn't sleep for many years, and Xiang Pei's dark circles were the obvious evidence.

How many nights Xiang Pei couldn't sleep like this, couldn't call Liang Zhang, and couldn't hold Liang Zhang.

Liang Zhang couldn't help thinking how Xiang Pei spent such a dark and frightening night.

After being separated for so long, Xiang Pei was as sad as he was, except for Liang Zhang, it seemed that Xiang Pei would not find anyone who could let him sleep peacefully, and so did Liang Zhang.