song for the city

It’s rainy in summer, and when the water falls from the sky, it’s bound to come fiercely. When you leave the private room and look out from the glass of the restaurant, the scenery outside is like a palette poured into the water, red mixed with blue, and the round water droplets cling to the glass.

The restaurant's air conditioner was fully turned on, and at the same time the rain brought air conditioning, and a layer of goosebumps appeared on Xiang Pei's arms, and the feeling of fullness and coldness were strangely intertwined.Liang Zhang didn't seem to be cold, there was thin sweat on his face, probably because the wine warmed his stomach and warmed his body, his cheeks were pink, his eyes were foggy, and he was puffing out smoke. In an instant, Liang Zhang was cut off from the world, he looked at the rainstorm, and Xiang Pei looked at him.

Liang Zhang may not understand that he makes movies, but sometimes Liang Zhang himself is like the protagonist of a movie. If he is not a director, an actor should be very suitable for him.

Realizing that Xiang Pei was looking at him, Liang Zhang squinted at him, and sent the cigarette to the direction where Xiang Pei was standing: "Let me call a taxi."

He took out his mobile phone and poked it twice on the screen, the blue light reflected on his skin, and Xiang Pei's senses ached for some reason. , he can still hug him.

One minute later, Liang Zhang pressed the lock screen: "The driver will arrive in a few minutes, let's wait at the door."

"Okay." Xiang Pei leaned against Liang Zhang's arm, and the two walked downstairs slowly.

The wind at the door was very strong, and the steps were covered with earth-colored footprints. Liang Zhang was nestling on the sofa in the hall downstairs, smoking a cigarette with Xiang Pei, and the rain fell from time to time.

The sweat on Liang Zhang's skin was blown dry by the wind, and he felt a little cold at the moment, so he subconsciously rubbed his arms together, and approached Pei to warm him up.

"Is it cold?"

"No," Liang Zhang replied, "It's just that waiting for the bus is a bit boring."

Xiang Pei was silent for a while, as if thinking about something.

"Are you really going to be the best man?"

Liang Zhang's hand holding the cigarette was suddenly unsteady, and the ash leaked out from the edge of the ashtray. He turned his head and looked at Pei strangely, and his tone seemed very dissatisfied: "What nonsense are you talking about, can I be the groom?"

The answer was a waste of words, Liang Zhang frowned angrily.

Xiang Pei smiled and said, "Actually, I'm very afraid that you will meet that girl."

"How is it possible, do I look like someone who will make do?"

Xiang Pei shook his head: "I'm afraid because I'm not sure. I'm quite afraid that you will really get married."

"You're so scared," Liang Zhang extinguished the cigarette, and in the ashtray lay a twisted corpse of a cigarette, deformed from the middle, "so I said that we are not suitable to be together now, how far can we go if we don't trust each other ? You are afraid of the pressure from my family, and I am also afraid that you will run away again. You used to see me setting off fireworks with girls on the side of the road without suspicion, but now? You still have no hesitation, thinking that I am different from other girls Will anything happen?"

Liang Zhang's cell phone rang, and it came from an unfamiliar number. The rain outside happened to be decreasing, and he saw a white car parked on the side of the street amidst the commotion.He was about to get up, and leaned towards Pei Que, as if he wanted to kiss him, extremely fast, with desperate haste, but Liang Zhang still reacted, and turned his head just in time, so Xiang Pei's lips didn't get what he wanted, and stopped at Liang Zhang Zhang Zhang's chin, Xiang Pei's eyes turned gray, and he turned his head in frustration.

Liang Zhang got up from the sofa, and flicked away the scattered cigarette ash on his body: "Xiang Pei, the car is here, let's go."

Xiang Pei didn't follow, he sat on the sofa with his legs open and his head up, looking at the lamp above his head, Liang Zhang in his peripheral vision also didn't move: "Why don't you go back first, I'll wait for the rain to stop."

"I don't know how long it will take for the rain to stop." Liang Zhang looked at the rainstorm outside the window.

"It doesn't matter, it will stop sooner or later." There was a yellow halo in Xiang Pei's sight, and his headache was about to split.

Liang Zhang knew that Xiang Pei would not go back with him, and he needed a separate space to calm down, so Liang Zhang didn't persuade him much, and walked towards the door alone.

"Liang Zhang, you are too tormenting, really. Is there anything more tormenting than you in the world?"

Probably Xiang Pei was about to cry, his voice trembled like an old man's hands, he couldn't hold things steady, and he couldn't hold onto Liang Zhang who was about to leave.Liang Zhang also couldn't bear the weight of his body, and his rationality was facing the possibility of disintegration at any time. If he cried to Pei, he should cry too.

What tears are shed, how cowardly.

Similarly, Liang Zhang also wants to know what is more tormenting than Xiang Pei in the world.

"Let's love," Liang Zhang looked at Pei and then at himself, "Look at me, I've become so timid, is it still your Liang Zhang?"

Said to Pei: "You are, and you always will be."

Xiang Pei came back very late, and Chen Zhaonan came with him.Xiang Pei drank too much, barged in reeking of alcohol, his hair was a little wet, and he was walking normally. After seeing Liang Zhang, he went to the toilet without saying a word, and soon there was the sound of water running inside.

Chen Zhaonan said: "He was in a bad mood tonight and drank a little too much. He also got caught in the rain, so he might catch a cold."

"drunk?"

"That's not it."

Liang Zhang went to Xiang Pei's bedroom to find out his underwear and pajamas, took out cold medicine and hot water and put them on the table, and told Xiang Pei to remember to come out to eat after taking a shower, in case of catching a cold.Liang Zhang stood outside the door while Xiang Pei was taking a bath. After drinking and taking a bath, he was afraid that Xiang Pei would faint inside, so he called Xiang Pei's name inside every minute, and Xiang Pei lazily agreed.

Chen Zhaonan said that Liang Zhang was a bit exaggerated, but Liang Zhang ignored him and said, "He used to take a shower after drinking?"

"Well, he likes to be clean, and he doesn't want to smell like alcohol when he drinks."

"Tell him not to do this in the future."

Chen Zhaonan smiled: "You should tell him that."

Xiang Pei came out of the toilet 10 minutes later, his upper body was naked, and his skin was a little red. He went back to the room after taking the medicine. Liang Zhang still reminded him to remember to blow his hair, but Xiang Pei didn't agree. Do it, Liang Zhang decided to let him get up and dry his hair even if he fell asleep later.

Chen Zhaonan sat on the spot and didn't leave. Liang Zhang guessed that he must have something to say to him, so he brought Chen Zhaonan a glass of water and planned to chatter slowly.

Chen Zhaonan didn't write any ink, and went straight to the point: "Do you still love Xiang Pei?"

Liang Zhang looked towards Pei's bedroom door, and thought for two seconds: "I have lied to myself many times, even in the past eight years, I don't love him, I don't want him, every time I think of him, I want Saying that a hundred times in your head until your head tells you you really forgot about him. It's actually kind of ridiculous not realizing that you're still thinking about him in the end."

Xiang Pei is the only possibility for Liang Zhang, a necessary link that will not disappear for a long time, taking root in countless corners of life, sprouting when eating, sprouting when driving, and giving him enough room to grow in sleep and dreams, so that Liang Zhang Delusions uprooted.

Do you still need to say flashy words like "I love him"?Liang Zhang has Xiang Pei in his heart.

"Then why don't you reconcile? He is in great pain." Chen Zhaonan couldn't understand Liang Zhang's determination and cruelty, making the person he loves suffer, no one wants to do that.

Liang Zhang felt that Chen Zhaonan was very happy, he was so normal that he envied him.People are more willing to reprimand Liang Zhang for being devoted to boys, and they are too lazy to reprimand Chen Zhaonan for being fickle about girls.

For the first time, he felt that it was a good thing to be flirtatious, and hoped that he would also have the desire to be flirtatious.

"I'm not the same as before. Instant gratification is not important to me. I want the future, I want a long time. I don't know if Xiang Pei can give me forever, but there are signs of another eight years in him. I Very nervous."

"Xiang Pei is a person who is very stubborn about his feelings. He has never received normal love, so he always treats love by escaping and sacrificing. But when you grow up, Xiang Pei also grows up. He has long understood that love is not blind. sacrifice."

Liang Zhang raised his head, he was a little shocked by Chen Zhaonan's words, he never thought of sacrificing to Pei.

Holding the water glass, Chen Zhaonan said sadly, "I respect your idea, but I don't understand it."

"Let me... clear my mind."

"I'll leave first, let Xiang Pei come to the practice room early tomorrow, and the specific arrangements for the tour have been made."

Liang Zhang nodded and said yes, and said, "You guys will perform in Day City."

"Yes, are you coming?"

"If I have time, I will go."

The author says:

I understand that everyone's expectation for reunion is not far away, because they love each other very much.But I still want to pave the way for more things ahead, such as Liang Zhang's entanglement and uncertainty about the future. After all, the two have been separated for such a long time, Xiang Pei will not just run after Liang Zhang blindly, and will have more future Thinking or something...Sweet is not far away! :