song for the city

Xiang Pei was waiting for Liang Zhang's answer, and Liang Zhang couldn't help wondering why Xiang Pei showed such a serious expression, as if he was really expecting Liang Zhang to respond to this joking and sarcastic question.

A gust of wind blew in the corridor, the door swayed and Liang Zhang stepped back reflexively, just in time to let Xiang Pei in.

"Then you make same-sex marriage legal first."

Xiang Pei held his chin regretfully: "Then, is it too late for me to give up music and pursue politics?"

Xiang Pei developed a sense of humor, but Liang Zhang was still not used to it, so he walked back to the window sill, picked up the ashtray under the railing and put it back on the table.

"I may not be able to go back for a while."

Liang Zhang fell into the sofa, leaned his back on the soft cushion, looked up at Pei from a distance, lit a cigarette again, and smoked Liang Zhang's half-burned cigarette to Pei Xinan.

"what happened?"

"I thought I hadn't been home for a long time, and finally took a few days off to go back to be with my parents, but I had a fight with my mother."

Liang Zhang looked down, and Xiang Pei tactfully did not ask about the content of their quarrel. The suitcases were placed in the middle of the living room, and his two suitcases were both large, plus a guitar, which seemed to be Xiang Pei's previous guitar.

Xiang Pei glanced at the house a few times: "Which room do I sleep in?"

"The innermost one." Liang Zhang raised his wrist and pointed to Pei.

Xiang Pei put his luggage away and came out. Liang Zhang was still smoking, but he lay down in a different position and was watching TV.The light from the TV turned blue and turned yellow, rubbing Liang Zhang's facial features wonderfully. Xiang Pei walked over to sit beside Liang Zhang, glanced at the TV, and asked Liang Zhang what he was watching.

Liang Zhang said that he was watching "Velvet Gold Mine", and Xiang Pei might not understand it, so Xiang Pei said it was okay, he wanted to watch some advanced movies.

The picture of the movie is messy and dazzling, and the color impact is clear. Many times, the leading actors are singing, singing in despair and excitement. In short, they sing endlessly. Fortunately, Xiang Pei can understand rock and roll.He watched it with Liang Zhang, Liang Zhang was very focused when watching the movie, it seemed that nothing outside could shake him, until the end of the movie, the two of them didn't say a word, as if being with each other was an easy thing to do.

There was an undercurrent of warmth in Xiang Pei's stomach, as if he had gone back to eight years ago, when he and Liang Zhang nestled together on the sofa to watch movies. At that time, they rented dishes from outside to watch movies. The TV was small and there were not many movies. Liang Zhang Some of the foreign movies I wanted to see were not available.

The TV began to scroll the cast list. Xiang Pei did not understand the content of the movie, but he thought it was good to have a little knowledge, and he didn't just sit here to watch the movie.

Liang Zhang next to him was motionless, probably not out of the emotion of the movie, staring at the screen in a daze.

She turned her head to Pei and said, "Tomorrow is Brother Cheng's death day, and Sister Na wants to come back to see him."

In the end, Ah Cheng was buried in Day City and returned to the city where he stayed the longest.Although Nana's most painful memories are also here, she met Acheng here.

"Let's go together, I want to see Brother Cheng too."

Liang Zhang's hair lay softly on his forehead, with the fresh smell of shower gel, Xiang Pei restrained the urge to touch it.

"Liang Zhang, the band is about to go on tour, come on then."

"how long?"

"next month."

"Let's talk about it, I may not be free."

Xiang Pei said yes, slightly disappointed, which made Liang Zhang want to change his answer, but felt that it was meaningless.

Nana arrived in Day City early in the morning and waited for Xiang Pei at the foot of the cemetery.

When she saw Liang Zhang who came with Xiang Pei, she was surprised at first, and then seemed very happy. She held Liang Zhang and Xiang Pei's arms, and snickered between the two: "It seems that you are reconciled, and you won't need me in the future." It’s a dilemma, I have to invite you twice for holidays or something.”

The reconciliation that Nana said was not the same as what Liang Zhang and the others thought of reconciliation, so Liang Zhang and Xiang Pei didn't say anything more, only that they met by chance and talked a little bit.

"That's right, just talk about it. It's not easy to meet friends who get along well. We should cherish each other."

She led the two of them up the mountain by muttering all the way, Xiang Pei said very little, and was always a few steps behind Liang Zhang and Nana, as always, returning to the taciturn Xiang Pei, people couldn't guess what he was thinking.

Nana put the flowers she bought in front of Ah Cheng's tomb, and there were still drops of water on the white petals.She asked Liang Zhang and the others to stay away. She wanted to say a few words to A Cheng alone, so Liang Zhang stood on the stairs and waited for Nana, watching her thin body huddled into a ball and squatting on the ground, whispering in front of A Cheng's tomb. .

Time has smoothed out everyone's grief over the passing of an old friend. Nana will always love Ah Cheng, but at the same time she also chooses to let go and embrace a new life and lover. Nana's current husband knows everything about Nana and still doesn't mind. He accepts that Nana All of Nana's unbearable and lonely, he is Nana's luck.

The death of grandpa will not make Liang Zhang feel sad anymore. Liang Zhang understands that as long as he remembers grandpa, he will never leave.

"Do you feel that Sister Na is getting more and more verbose? She urged me to get married last time."

Looking at Pei Chao Nana, she was not very happy: "She is full of motherhood."

After a while he cleared his throat: "Since I was a child, I didn't have any normal women around me. My mother and my aunt are all sick types. Sister Na is the only normal woman I have come into contact with and is much older than me. Sometimes it's a bit I have the illusion that she looks like my mother."

Liang Zhang bent over laughingly: "Sister Na, if she knew that she was considered a mother in her 20s, she would definitely die of anger."

Xiang Pei might also find it funny, and the haze of the morning swept away a little, and he said with a smile: "She used to teach me how to chase girls, how to fall in love, and how to match clothes. Brother Jing and the others are too rough. If you have any concerns, you can only talk to Sister Na, such as the way to reject girls, how to be polite without hurting their self-esteem."

"I haven't heard you say that before."

"At that time, I felt that saying these stupid people was like showing off that many girls liked me."

Xiang Pei never cared about these things, he only cared about whether Liang Zhang liked it or not.

Liang Zhang raised his eyebrows and joked, "Isn't it?"

"I know more girls like you."

"how do you know?"

Xiang Pei smiled and shook his head, saying that Sister Na is here.

During the period, Xiang Pei said one last sentence: "I am a little panicked because you are getting married, and my confidence is almost gone."

"Don't get married, Liang Zhang."

As soon as Nana came over, she asked them why they were laughing so happily. She heard their laughter from over there, and Liang Zhang walked over laughing, watching Xiang Pei's face secretly.

Needless to say to Pei, Liang Zhang may not get married either, marriage is not a necessity, Liang Zhang feels that life should be more casual, and things that are not necessities do not have to be forced.

Money and movies are Liang Zhang's necessities. When he is alone, he feels love too.

He came down from the mountain and left Xiang Peixian. He was going to the practice room to practice singing. Nana asked him to have lunch together after practice. He could call Chen Zhaonan and the others. They hadn't seen each other for a long time.Xiang Pei looked at Liang Zhang, and seeing that he had no objection, he agreed.

Liang Zhang accompanied Nana to walk from the cemetery to where she lived. They were fine anyway, so the two strolled very slowly.

"How did you and Xiao Pei reconcile?"

Guessing that Nana was going to ask about this, Liang Zhang didn't want to answer directly, so he said that they had met while drinking.

"Actually, Xiao Pei has been asking me for news about you. I didn't dare to tell you before."

Liang Zhang's eyes were wide open, and he pinched the corners of the clothes with his fingers and pulled them back and forth. He knew that Nana must have not lied to him, but he couldn't help asking, "Really?"

The tone was a bit like trying to hide something, Liang Zhang felt somewhat deliberate, and added: "I didn't expect that."

"When I was studying abroad, I called every year to ask you how you were doing. That's all. I answered the same thing every time. After all, I guess you don't want him to know too much. But Xiao Pei still asks regularly, After asking, I was silent on the phone for a long time."

Liang Zhang took a quiet breath instead of answering. He seemed to have listened to Nana's words, but he didn't seem to.Xiang Pei was completely different from him. Liang Zhang knew that Nana had been in contact with Xiang Pei, but he never asked her anything about Xiang Pei. He only knew that Xiang Pei was alive, and he didn't know anything else.

He thinks this is a way to forget about Xiang Pei, and it seems useless now, and he has been pretending for so long.

But how many times did Xiang Pei ask about Liang Zhang?I'm afraid I asked a lot of repetitive content and got the same answer.

Liang Zhang had nothing to say, his heart was hit hard.

"Little Pei didn't live very well in Germany. He didn't want to use his mother's money, so he worked several jobs. But now that the money has been paid off, he and his mother are finally in debt."

Liang Zhang remembered that the reason Xiang Pei used his mother's money was because of him.

While thinking wildly, Nana suddenly moved close to Liang Zhang's ear and whispered, "I know Xiao Pei likes you, it's too obvious."

Liang Zhang couldn't guard against it, and missed the best time to deny it. He suddenly became unable to speak, bit his lip, and heard the sound of his teeth sticking to his flesh.

Nana patted Liang Zhang's next door: "I fully understand that boys like boys. Of course, not everyone can accept it. I can probably guess the reason for your breakup. Is it because of this? Maybe this is a bit difficult Accept, but Xiao Pei..."

Nana still needs to continue to do psychological construction for Liang Zhang. It seems that in her heart, the story of Liang Zhang and Xiang Pei is a completely different story.

"Sister Na," Liang Zhang interrupted, "I fell in love with Xiang Pei first, and we just broke up as a couple."

Nana's eyes widened exaggeratedly, her mouth was bent upwards, looking surprised and puzzled.

"How come you never told me?"

Liang Zhang scratched his head subconsciously: "It's all divided, so I don't think it's necessary to say anything, and I'm afraid you won't accept it."

"How could you not accept it? You should have told me earlier, so maybe I can enlighten you two, and I have missed so many years for nothing." Nana was heartbroken, but Liang Zhang felt embarrassed.

"It's not that I missed it, it's that I was quite useless at that time, and I couldn't keep him. It's just that I'm more timid now, and I don't even dare to say love anymore."

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