song for the city

Upstairs was being renovated in the past few days, the electric drill was fighting with the floor like crazy, knocking left and right, the decorator was extremely relaxed.At nine o'clock in the morning, Liang Zhang was lying on the bed, feeling that the endless vibrations were not separated from him by the floor, but penetrated into his brain from his temple.

The wonderful plan to stay in bed on vacation fell through. Liang Zhang opened his eyes and stared at the ceiling of the bedroom. Coincidentally, the most violent place was above his bed.When he complained, "You can't choose the afternoon for decoration", the sound of the electric drill stopped, and Liang Zhang covered his mouth in surprise. Before he had time to praise himself, the sound of the electric drill sounded again ten seconds later.

He sighed, resigned himself to getting out of bed, brushing his teeth and washing his face.

The house in Day City is not often lived in. Although the housekeeper was hired to clean it before coming here, the air conditioner did not take care of it. The air conditioner has a very damp smell, which makes the room smell not very pleasant.Liang Zhang also likes the temperature to be very low, and being naked and covered with a thick quilt makes him feel safe with his skin attached.

The house has two bedrooms and one living room. It is not big. Liang Zhang bought it simply because he wanted to live alone, and the decoration is simple and casual, basically in black and white. There are few things placed, so it looks empty and deserted. There are Liang Zhang’s suitcases spread out on the ground. Like a makeshift hotel.

Originally, after attending the wedding tomorrow, Liang Zhang planned to stay for a few more days and return to Nanchuan. Now he decided to go back early. It was one thing to meet Xiang Pei, but another to urge Yin Jing.

Seeing the jeans in the sink while brushing his teeth, Liang Zhang was stunned for a few seconds and began to regret it.

The jeans belonged to Xiang Pei. Liang Zhang drank a little too much last night, but he was not drunk. At least he remembered what happened.

After Liang Zhang said those few words last night, the anger in his stomach vented a thousandth, and then he looked at Xiang Pei's reaction, and the thousandth came back immediately.

He talked a lot by himself, and Xiang Pei didn't respond to a word. The sparks in his hand moved up and down. Liang Zhang was annoyed by it, but he didn't show much. Said: "Your words become less and less."

Xiang Pei wanted to say that he used to talk very little, because he talked more with you.But he didn't open his mouth, he looked at Liang Zhang silently, swallowed his cigarette again, he looked at Liang Zhang, looked at Liang Zhang from a very deep angle, looked at his eyebrows and lips, looked at him She no longer has a straight head, nor does she look at his eyes that no longer love Pei Pei.

Eight years later, Liang Zhang has too many new things, Xiang Pei absorbs them with his eyes, and forgets that his mouth can move, or he doesn't want to move at all.A lot of time has passed, and what bears the brunt is Xiang Pei's courage and the courage to embrace Liang Zhang.

He didn't know what happened to Liang Zhang in the past eight years, good or bad, whether there were new people around him, or if there were any good ones, Xiang Pei didn't dare to think about it, and regretted himself when he thought about it.

Liang Zhang no longer sang a one-man show, he broke his cigarette and said, "I'm going home."

After he finished speaking, he walked forward without looking back, his footsteps knocked on the silent floor tiles of the alley, and he took a big step, as if someone was chasing after him.When he was about to walk out of the alley, he called to Pei: "Liang Zhang, have a drink." He spoke so fast that his tongue almost interrupted him.

Liang Zhang paused for maybe two or three seconds, and then gave Xiang Pei a silhouette.

"Someone vomited on me on the way here, I have to go back and change," Liang Zhang didn't know why he had to explain to Pei, but it wasn't really necessary, he made a promise like an old friend he hadn't seen for a long time, " next time."

He thought that Xiang Pei would give up, but he didn't expect that Xiang Pei was walking this way, getting closer and closer to Liang Zhang.

"I came here directly after getting off the plane. My luggage is in the staff room. You should wear mine first."

Xiang Pei said again in a flattering tone: "Let's have a drink."

"But..."

"Liang Zhang, if we can't meet in the future, this is the last drink."

Liang Zhang at the entrance of the alley thought very self-deprecatingly, no matter when he could not refuse Xiang Pei who spoke like this, it seemed like an inevitable natural reaction in life, so he only agreed after a short hesitation.

Xiang Pei handed Liang Zhang a pair of black jeans, which were very loose and a bit long by visual inspection.

The lights in the staff room were very bright, Liang Zhang finally saw Xiang Pei clearly in the light.He was wearing a black short-sleeved pair with the hem loosely tucked into the trousers. He also had wide black trousers on his legs, with two holes in the knees. As usual, the trousers were not worn well, as if they were about to fall off at any time, with a pile hanging on the side fine chain.The necklace around his neck was hidden under his clothes, Liang Zhang couldn't see it.

His legs are out of shape, and his waist looks very slender, but Liang Zhang knows that his waist is strong.Xiang Pei has always been so thin, with a few blue veins on his arms, he probably has been exercising, and his arms have gained very small muscles, just right.

"You've lost weight." Xiang Pei commented on Liang Zhang.

"You remember it very clearly." Liang Zhang seemed indifferent to this, unwilling to discuss whether he was fat or thin, "Would it be inappropriate?"

Xiang Pei looked at Liang Zhang's head, and made a little gesture: "We are still about the same height and body, and it should be just right for you to wear."

He added, "I washed it."

"Thanks."

Liang Zhang thought he didn't dislike him, and was about to unzip his trousers, but seeing Pei didn't move, he asked, "Aren't you going out?"

Xiang Pei turned around and leaned his back against the cabinet, and made a very honest promise, almost swearing: "I won't look at you."

"That's not good either."

"I've seen your whole body, and there's nothing wrong with it."

Liang Zhang was speechless, feeling that he would appear hypocritical to expel Xiang Pei again.

"Are you really together with that female star?"

In the process of changing clothes, Xiang Pei asked such a question for no reason. Liang Zhang had a pair of underwear left on his lower body, and his lower body was cold. He stood silently behind the cabinet.Xiang Peifei wanted to talk about such an embarrassing topic when he was in a mess?Liang Zhang felt that Xiang Pei was a bit stupid.

"real."

"Really?"

Turning his head to Pei, he glared at Liang Zhang.

"It's real, it's fake," Liang Zhang jumped back a few steps with his bare legs, and hurriedly pushed towards Pei, telling him to turn back, "She's a female star, I, a young director, can't afford it."

Talking like this is a bit like Liang Zhang before, and Xiang Pei feels comfortable: "You are not a little director anymore."

"I've seen Guitar of the North."

"You have seen it." Liang Zhang's heart was smashed hard.

"Well, director Liang Zhang."

"Then you are the lead singer."

After Liang Zhang changed his pants, he came out from behind the cabinet and looked for Xiang Pei's eyes: "We all realized our dreams, it's good."

Xiang Pei responded, "It's pretty good."

Liang Zhang discovered that Xiang Pei had an extra tattoo on his neck, a string of cursive English letters, designed exaggeratedly, Liang Zhang's eyesight has always been very good, and he could clearly see the tattoo on it: Hotel California, Hotel California.

Liang Zhang raised his chin slightly: "I didn't see you have a tattoo on your neck on the show."

"The concealer is very strong now," Xiang Pei opened his sleepy eyes in surprise, "Have you watched the show?"

"I saw it by accident."

"I graduated from high school and went abroad to study music. Later, I took Chen Zhaonan and the others to reorganize the band, but I have been performing abroad. In recent years, the domestic rock market has been too sluggish. Finally, I have a program to play a band. I just want to come back. .”

Liang Zhang couldn't breathe smoothly after seeing Xiang Pei's tattoo. He hated the past and didn't want to give Xiang Pei a chance to recall the past.

"Why do you have tattoos of useless things?"

The shallow smile on Xiang Pei's face froze.

"Moved yourself?"

Liang Zhang walked towards the door, lazily urging the pale Xiang Pei: "Don't you want a drink? Hurry up."

Xiang Pei didn't sing, a different band sang on the stage, and it was the heavy metal rock that Liang Zhang just came in before.Liang Zhang went to Xiang Pei's table, and saw Chen Zhaonan and Chu Ranfei were there, as well as two unrecognizable men and women, both of whom were rock and roll.

When Chen Zhaonan saw Liang Zhang, he was taken aback for a moment, and then excitedly came over and grabbed Liang Zhang's shoulders: "Fuck! Xiao Zhang! I haven't seen you in a few years, and you've grown so big? I almost didn't recognize him. .. Forget it, do you want to drink?"

His words were as broken as always, without the slightest restraint that should be due to a reunion.

Xiang Pei sat on the sofa, didn't speak, and didn't introduce Liang Zhang to the strangers present.His expression was very bad, Chen Zhaonan could see it, and he could guess with his feet that the conversation after their reunion was not pleasant, so he warmly invited Liang Zhang to sit beside him.

It turned out that the other two were music producers, and Liang Zhang greeted them.

While chatting and exchanging pleasantries, Xiang Pei suddenly picked up a bottle of beer, smashed it hard on the table, and pulled Liang Zhang: "He drinks with me."

Chen Zhaonan was startled, and everyone at the table was startled.

The other man wore square glasses, trying to smooth things over: "I said Chen Zhaonan, didn't you just threaten to drink me up, hurry up."

Just now, Xiang Pei told Liang Zhang to have a drink, but Liang Zhang couldn't count how many drinks he was drunk that night.The two drank the wine in silence, without saying a word, as if they were angry, no one persuaded him to move to Pei, he drank until his eyes became red, and then he discarded the glass and blew directly into the bottle.

The people next to him looked shocked, and the man with glasses secretly asked Chen Zhaonan: "What's wrong with Xiang Pei tonight? He's not usually such a violent person."

Chen Zhaonan shook his head and didn't know how to explain it, he just felt ambiguous: "That's not the case, you don't understand."

Liang Zhang remembered that Xiang Pei gradually approached him, his hot, alcohol-smelling breath sprayed on his face, his face turned red, and Liang Zhang was not much better.When he drank too much wine, his senses were particularly sharp and clear, so Xiang Pei's breathing made him a little hot.

If they drink like this at the age of 17, it is willful and free, and if they drink like this at the age of 26, it is the sadness and helplessness of adults.

Liang Zhang thought this painfully, and felt that Xiang Pei and he had really grown up, not Xiang Pei Liangzhang who dared to run hand in hand in the street, and now he had to learn to compromise and let go of life.

He didn't know if he could let Xiang Pei go, especially after meeting him again.

Xiang Pei finally hugged him, wrapping his arms around Liang Zhang's neck, Liang Zhang's stiff body did not escape, the wine may have paralyzed part of his nerves.

"You said I'm doing well," Xiang Pei's lips leaned against Liang Zhang's bare skin, "it's not good, not at all."

So the next morning, Liang Zhang was lost in thought while holding the pair of jeans, as well as a text message from an unfamiliar number on his mobile phone—the pants can be given to me at any time, and I will stay in Day City in the future.

After leaving the bar last night, Xiang Pei used Liang Zhang's mobile phone to call himself, and called a valet driver to take Liang Zhang home.

As soon as the wind blew, Liang Zhang regained consciousness a lot. When parting, he left his last words to Pei: "Before the band toured, I went to California. It's really beautiful there."

Then the world turned around, Liang Zhang punched Xiang Pei hard on the corner of his mouth, anyway, Liang Zhang's hand was numb for a while.

"Go to your mother's California!" Liang Zhang said, followed by a sharp pain on his face.

Xiang Pei also punched him, Liang Zhang was not angry when he pressed the inside of his mouth, but felt that Xiang Pei's fist should also hurt, just like his.

He feels happy.

The author says:

Xiaoliang spoke a little harshly, but he was actually pretending