song for the city

The train leaps out of Day City and passes through the gloomy tunnel. There is a lingering atmosphere between the light and the clouds. There are mountains not far away. The layers of mountains seem to be approaching the train, and then moving away.

The morning sun is faint, and the shadows still stay on the earth.

Liang Zhang pressed his fingers against the car window and leaned his head against the back of the bed. His mind was extremely clear, his senses became more refined, and the roar of the train seemed to be running in his mind.

The train passed the track, ups and downs, and his fingertips trembled slightly.There are milk and bread on the table, the packaging is new and unopened.

With the backpack on his lap, Liang Zhang gripped the phone tightly, and after calming down, he pressed the button of the phone as if venting his anger, but the screen still didn't light up.

After sending the last text message to Pei Xiang last night, Yin Hang removed the battery on the back of his phone and gave him an empty case.

Liang Zhang was so angry that he had nowhere to vent, so he cried a few tears in the sleeper at night.

It was useless to shed tears, Yin Hang turned a blind eye, it was reasonable not to beat him up, Liang Zhang was wronged but also afraid, always worried about his uncle's knife-like eyes.

In the second half of the night, Liang Zhang somehow fell asleep, his cheeks were dry with tears, and his dream was full of Xiang Pei.

Liang Zhang dreamed that he was getting on the train, Xiang Pei was standing on the rails, watching him silently, without speaking, just kept watching like that.

What did he want to see through Liang Zhang?

The lights of the train station cut him and Xiang Pei apart, and Liang Zhang wanted to open the car window, but to no avail, he could only slap on the window hard.

The radio was reminding that the train was about to leave, and Xiang Pei stepped towards Liang Zhang. Liang Zhang got up, and he wanted to get off, but the train had already started moving.

He saw Xiang Pei's eyes flickering, and Liang Zhang tried to hear something, but he couldn't hear anything.

Only when Xiang Pei's figure turned into a dot in his eyes did Liang Zhang realize that Xiang Pei should be saying, "Don't go."

do not go.

The reality of the dream was no less than reality, and Liang Zhang could no longer fall asleep.

From the first second he left Xiang Pei, he began to miss him.Thinking of him, Liang Zhang was too uncomfortable to speak.

"Eat something, don't starve to death."

Yin Hang bent his index finger and tapped his knuckles on the table, reminding him impatiently.

Liang Zhang ignored him, his lips were very dry, and his stomach really conveyed the feeling of hunger.But his stomach was hungry, but his mind wasn't hungry yet, so he turned around and lay down with his back facing Yin Hang.

It can be seen that Liang Zhang is still angry, protesting silently.Yin Hang was not very happy: "You are so old, why are you still acting like a child. You have been running away from home for almost two months, do you know that your parents are going crazy with worry!" He couldn't help but want to go Pull Liang Zhang's ear and make him turn around, "If I hadn't just met you during my business trip to Day City, I don't think you plan to go home for the rest of your life."

Liang Zhang still didn't say a word, and shrank his head back again.

Yin Hang has always been good at talking, but Liang Zhang knows he can't compete with him, so he is not in the mood to talk to him now.

He wanted to escape, but Yin Hang wanted to clarify the matter.

"Did you hear me? Why are you dumb now, but I think you're getting bolder now. Turn around, do you hear me?"

There were many people on the train, and it was morning again. Yin Hang didn't control the volume well, and there were complaints in the carriage. He apologized repeatedly, poked Liang Zhang on the back, and urged in a low voice: "Hurry up."

Liang Zhang felt aggrieved all night, the depression buried in his heart before and now erupted like a volcanic eruption, he sat up straight, bit his lips tightly, his face flushed.

Yin Hang was a little stunned, and Liang Zhang's expression was a little more stubborn, which was something he would never see on his face before.

Liang Zhang lowered his voice: "What kind of life will I live when I go back? I get up at five o'clock every day to memorize, and I don't have time to rest. I even think it's a gift to sleep and eat. I will be scolded for being useless if I leave the exam a little bit, and my relationship will be stared at by them." They must know everything about what they ate, what they did, and what they thought!"

Liang Zhang suddenly covered his eyes with his arms and sniffed his nose: "Is it wrong that I don't want to go back to live such a life? I'm not saying I can't go back, I just don't want to. They gave birth to me, so they can plan my life casually life?"

Yin Hang swallowed his saliva, a little at a loss, looked at Liang Zhang's resentful eyes, and pretended nothing happened, playing with the green candy wrapper in his hand.

From getting in the car to now, Liang Zhang has been holding the candy wrapper in his hand, never letting go.

Yin Hang was puzzled. A piece of candy paper was neither beautiful nor special, but Liang Zhang treated it like a treasure.

He and Liang Zhang are more than ten years apart, which is not too big a gap. Liang Zhang would come to him to talk about his concerns when he was young.He was his uncle, but more like a friend.

I don't know when, Liang Zhang stopped speaking freely to him, and his face was always tired, and he could only see the dark circles under his eyes during the holidays, and he felt drowsy when eating.

Yin Hang talked about education methods with his sister more than once, and his sister always said that she was doing it for Liang Zhanghao.

Yeah, for his own good, so good that it might ruin him.

He couldn't speak any words of condemnation, so he rubbed Liang Zhang's hair, the short hair was very thorny, he was bitter, and his anger dissipated.

"How do you shave your hair so it doesn't look ugly?"

Liang Zhang touched his hair, thinking of Xiang Pei.

"It's not ugly," Liang Zhang said in a volume that he could only hear, "He said it looks better this way."

The journey back to Nanchuan seemed to be very fast, Liang Zhang woke up shaking, Nanchuan had already arrived.

Yin Hang dragged his luggage and walked ahead, while Liang Zhang was still in the fog with his bag on his back, stepping on the land of Nanchuan, it was unreal.

In the place where he grew up, every plant and tree left traces in Liang Zhang's heart.The sky in Nanchuan is blue and clear, and the air in Nanchuan is very sticky.

There were people at the gate of the station yelling where to go, and they were all streets Liang Zhang was familiar with. As he passed by, the bag on his shoulder became more and more heavy, pressing down on him mercilessly.

There were no longer many tall buildings around, and Liang Zhang realized that he really went home.

Talking about going home a few days ago, Liang Zhang went back to the dilapidated small building with water leaks. There was a roof on the upper floor where colorful sheets were drying.I can sit on the ground with the person I like, swing my legs, enjoy the evening breeze, and eat popsicles.

Going home today is back to the clean small building, Liang Zhang's blue room, piles of books, the smell of pen and ink in the room.

Yin Hang sent Liang Zhang to the door of his house and motioned him to knock on the door himself.

Liang Zhang stretched out his hand first: "The battery of my mobile phone."

Yin Hang frowned, put his hands in his bag, took out the battery and put it on Liang Zhang's palm: "Don't rely too much on your phone."

Just as Liang Zhang was about to take it back, Yin Hang patted his palm: "And those friends you made in Day City, it's best not to contact them, they are easy to be distracted. Everything will be discussed after the college entrance examination, and I will accompany you when the time comes. You can go."

"No." Liang Zhang was expressionless, and quickly put the phone into the innermost layer of the backpack, and finally added, "Don't tell my parents that I have a phone."

He said no, only for the point of not relying too much on mobile phones.Yin Hang still trusted Liang Zhang more, and agreed after thinking for two seconds.

Liang Zhang knocked on the door, and there was an immediate response inside the door. He waited restlessly, wanting to escape.

"Have you talked to them?" Liang Zhang asked.

"I'll call you when I find you."

That's okay, at least they met, and their mood swings will not be too exaggerated.

The reality is that Liang Zhang still underestimated his parents' reaction.

His mother Yin Jing rushed out first, followed by his father Liang Ansheng.

Before Liang Zhang had time to speak, Yin Jing hugged Liang Zhang first, strangling him until his bones ached.

He put his arms around Yin Jing's shoulder unnaturally, and felt a little uncomfortable when he heard the fucking cry.Especially when he saw Liang Ansheng's eyes were red behind him, Liang Zhang's heart was even more blocked.

He thought that Liang Ansheng might be furious and beat him, but he didn't.

A net appeared out of thin air in front of him, and Liang Zhang was encircled. His limbs were so stiff that he could hardly move.

Mother's hair was as fragrant as ever, long and wrapped around Liang Zhang's neck, and her dress had a faint floral fragrance, which Liang Zhang used to call the fragrance of home.

Her embrace was also very warm, and the sharp appearance faded a few times, leaving only the soft core.

She cried and called Liang Zhang baby, Zhang Zhang, all the most crooked names.

Liang Zhang immediately admitted his unfilial piety and his spiritual stubbornness.

Soaked in the scent of flowers, he could vaguely see Xiang Pei's figure, and he didn't know if the thread connecting them had passed from Day City to Nanchuan.The only thing that is certain is that Liang Zhang's soul stayed in Day City and Xiang Pei's body.

He didn't have time to say goodbye to You Jing, Chen Zhaonan and the others, Yin Hang forbade him, fearing that he would miss him.

Yin Jing cooked a table full of meals, probably to ease the embarrassment, she left Yin Hang to eat together.

At the table, everyone tacitly did not mention Liang Zhang's departure. Liang Ansheng kept his head buried in eating, Yin Hang chatted with Liang Zhang while looking for topics, Yin Jing occasionally interjected a few words, and kept picking vegetables from Liang Zhang's bowl.

Although still cramped, the atmosphere is quite harmonious.

Liang Zhang was already full, and Yin Jing insisted on serving him a second bowl, but Liang Zhang was embarrassed to refuse and said thank you.

Yin Jing's hand holding the rice bowl froze, her expression desolate: "Why are you so unfamiliar with your mother?"

Liang Zhang was speechless, and his chopsticks paused above the dishes.

He tried his best to become the good son he used to be: "Maybe he just came back and he's not used to it yet."

Probably these words stepped on Yin Jing's sore spot, and she had an embarrassed smile on her face.

"That's it...it will be fine slowly, Zhangzhang."

Zhangzhang, every time Liang Zhang passed the exam, Yin Jing would call him like this, including her joy, and it would make Liang Zhang feel at ease, or at ease.

From what Liang Zhang heard now, it was just a title and it didn't matter.

The second half of the meal was too quiet, Yin Hang left after the meal, closed the door before leaving and chatted with Yin Jing alone.

Liang Zhang lay on the sofa, knowing that they were talking about him without thinking about it.

The sound insulation effect of the door is much better than that of the dilapidated small building. Liang Zhang couldn't hear the sound inside clearly, and he wasn't very interested in knowing.

He hid in the toilet and fiddled with the phone, impatiently installing the battery, the sound of starting it up startled him, and hurriedly covered it.

There is a new text message on the screen, showing Xiang Pei's name.

Liang Zhang clicked in and sent only a few words to Pei.

【wait for me. 】

Liang Zhang resisted the urge to cry, the haze was swept away, and his sky began to clear up.

If Xiang Pei asked Liang Zhang to wait for him, he would definitely not break his promise.

【I'm home now.Do you miss me? 】

The wait was very painful, Liang Zhang continued to stare at the screen, and finally the screen turned on again after 5 minutes.

【Have. 】

Liang Zhang's heart is full of turbulent waves, and there are giant beasts with sharp claws grabbing his heart.

There was a knock on the toilet door, Liang Zhang hurriedly stuffed his cell phone into his pocket, looked in the mirror, everything was as usual.

It was Yin Jing, the light in the toilet was very dim, she brushed away the broken hair on her forehead, and looked at Liang Zhang haggardly.

"Mom has something to tell you."

"I'll be out right now."

Liang Zhang was relieved, instead of pretending that nothing happened, he should open up and explain.

Yin Jing said that they are willing to accommodate Liang Zhang, as long as he does not do anything out of line, she did not indicate the scope of the out of line, it should be referring to running away from home.But Liang Zhang added another extra thing in his heart, he likes boys.

They agreed that Liang Zhang would apply for the director department of Day City C University in the future, but he must not fail in his studies. After all, C University is not easy to pass.

So far, Liang Zhang's seemingly vigorous departure has achieved a satisfactory ending. The victory he ushered in did not make him as happy as he had imagined.

He lost something, even if it was temporary, it made Liang Zhang feel a heart-wrenching feeling.

The author says:

Xiao Liang is back home, so it's time to get away!