song for the city

Xiang Pei couldn't figure out what Chu Ranfei wanted to talk about from his solemn expression.

Rather than saying that Chu Ranfei is less talkative, it is better to say that he has a more restrained personality, which is different from Xiang Pei.

One doesn't know what to say, and the other doesn't like to say it.The relationship between the two is connected through music, and there is very little communication.

The first time I met Chu Ranfei in the school toilet in junior high school, it was like "seeing the injustice in the road, I drew my sword to help" to Pei. At that time, Chu Ranfei was much thinner than now, and he didn't grow up. He was nicknamed "Skinny Monkey".Appropriate, but not well-meaning.

That day, several boys surrounded Chu Ranfei. He wanted to resist, but his hands and feet were firmly held down. The grinning appearance was just a joke in the eyes of the bully.In the end he gave up struggling and sat on the floor like a dirty puppet, the toilet smelled so disgusting that he wanted to throw up.

Xiang Pei came in at this time, first kicked the leading boy, and then blocked the fist behind him.Several people seemed to know Xiang Pei, and hurried out from him, apologizing.

Chu Ranfei struggled to open his eyes, squatted in front of Xiang Pei, and threw the wrapping paper on him.

He knew his name was Xiang Pei, a good-looking boy in the school.

"You are Chu Ranfei from class three, you can play bass, would you consider forming a band with me?"

Xiang Pei's voice was very clear, as clean as spring water.At that time, Chu Ranfei's first reaction was that he must sing well.

The memories stop here, Chu Ranfei came out first.

Xin Yu wanted to follow, and the three of them were in the alley by the back door. Xiang Pei had a hunch that it would not be a small matter, because Chu Ranfei looked so nervous that he didn't even dare to look him in the eye.

Xiang Pei waited silently for Chu Ranfei to speak first, they didn't speak, Xin Yu couldn't hold back first: "Chu Ranfei, hurry up if you want to say something, why are you still coy with us?"

At this point, Chu Ranfei took a deep breath and said solemnly as if making a major decision: "My dad smashed my bass."

The bass broke in two, the strings sticking out ugly.His father sacrificed the table at home in order to smash a bass, and ended up hurting both sides.Originally, Bei Si flew towards Chu Ranfei's body, but his father changed the direction temporarily.Chu Ranfei stood by the table blankly, the glass shattered and jumped onto his feet.

It was a mess.

"If you continue to engage in these unscrupulous things, your life will be ruined!"

I forgot what my mood was at that moment, whether it was anger or sadness, or feeling sorry for Bess, it didn't matter anymore.

The music score was torn into countless fragments by his father. If Chu Ranfei's mother hadn't stopped him, Chu Ranfei would have to get out of the house in the next second.

The bass was broken, Chu Ranfei saw his father hating iron and steel, and his mother's tears, and finally understood that dreams are nothing.

At the beginning, Xiang Pei and the others named the band Stowaway, and they quarreled over writing songs. In the summer, they practiced songs in the basement, without even a fan, sweating profusely. What supported them was music, and the only thing that accompanied them was music. .Chu Ranfei can only find his true self in the music, his words gradually increased, and so did his smile.

Talking about hot blood is a bit vulgar, but only hot blood can describe the state of that meeting.

Chen Zhaonan's drumstick was smashed, but Xin Yu, a girl, had calluses all over her hands, and Xiang Pei could stay up for days to write songs.

They all devoted too much affection to stowaways, even if they could only sing on the stage of the bar, even if no one knew about it, none of them said they would give up.

But he, Chu Ranfei, was the first person to leave, he felt ashamed of himself, and he no longer had the courage to face Pei and the others.

Xiang Pei put his hands in his pockets, his facial features were hidden in the shadow of his hair.

There was the sound of car horns outside the alley, which shocked Chu Ranfei's fragile nerves even more.He wanted to say something to Pei, even scolding him, but he was afraid that he would speak.

Embarrassed silence, Chu Ranfei just wanted to escape from here.

"I understand what you mean, you have to go, don't you?"

Xiang Pei finally spoke and stood very close to Chu Ranfei.

Chu Ranfei said slowly: "After the second year of high school, my dad will not allow me to continue playing bass. Tonight is also the last night I can come out."

Xin Yu anxiously grabbed the corner of Chu Ranfei's clothes: "Can't you discuss it with your father again? Just say that you won't delay your studies."

Chu Ranfei shook his head helplessly: "How could it be possible not to delay? Even if I continue to play, it is impossible to find time to practice. Xin Yu, aren't you the same?"

"I—" Xin Yu still wanted to refute, her face was flushed and she didn't know what to say, maybe she acquiesced to Chu Ranfei's statement in her heart.

"Forget it," Xiang Pei pressed Xin Yu's shoulder and said, "Then let's break up, you read your books, and I will continue to waste my life."

Full of anger, Chu Ranfei's fire was also lit.He was in a bad mood and had been suppressed all the time. He would rather scold Pei than be angry.

"What do you mean by that? Why are you breaking up? Can't I continue after I am admitted to university? Are you really going to stop studying for the rest of your life? Let's study hard together and form a band together in the future. It is necessary to speak so aggressively." Xiang Pei." Chu Ranfei was in a hurry, and Xin Yu was startled by his words.

Most of the calmness on the surface is pretending, and Xiang Pei's heart is terribly confused. He has been working so hard for so long, and he feels more powerless than anyone else, as if everything he has been doing for so long is a dream.

"What I'm saying is the truth. What if the gang doesn't break up? If there is no stowaway, they are not called stowaways."

Xiang Pei raised his tone and looked at Chu Ranfei disappointedly.

This sentence made Chu Ranfei's eyes gradually sore, he was not to be outdone, and said with the same volume: "Do you think I am not uncomfortable? This is our dream!"

"dream?"

Xiang Pei quickly moved in front of Chu Ranfei, grabbed his collar, and stared hard at his eyes: "From the beginning to the end, this seems to be just my dream."

And the rest of them just had a dream with Xiang Pei for their face.

Seeing that the two might fight, Xin Yu went inside to call Chen Zhaonan for support.

After Chen Zhaonan came out, only Chu Ranfei was left squatting on the ground.He was crying, which made Xin Yu and Chen Zhaonan feel sad when they heard it.

Coming out of the alley, Xiang Pei just wanted to go straight home. He was very out of control, and he was condemning himself for being irritable just now.

He knew that there was no reason to blame Chu Ranfei, everyone had the right to choose, Chu Ranfei just chose the path he wanted to take.Xiang Pei is not qualified to stop him, and he has to admit that playing in a band is too imaginary, like a journey with no end in sight.

When grief overwhelmed Xiang Pei, he was also dizzy and didn't know how to deal with it correctly, although it was not a clear way to escape.

In front of the house, Xiang Pei received a call from a stranger.

The other party didn't give Xiang Pei time to react, and Xiang Pei just pressed the connection button.

The female voice over there was trembling: "Your father is dead."

It's Wu Li.

The world was spinning, and Xiang Pei was holding his mobile phone, staring blankly at the corridor in front of him. In the hallucination, the buildings began to tilt and then collapsed.

Wu Li was still talking on the phone: "You don't have to worry about his funeral, I will inform you of the time and place of the funeral..."

Xiang Pei didn't listen to what he said later, his hand holding the phone slipped down, and many things about Xiang Guo flashed through his mind.He only visited Xiang Guo last week, and Xiang Guo is in very good condition.

The last time they met, Xiang Guo patted Xiang Pei's head, and Xiang Pei didn't dodge for the first time, and became an obedient son.

Xiang Guo's eyes are very gentle, and he is smiling with love.

Then today, his father died, and he would never see him again.

Huge sorrow gathered into a black vortex, swallowing Xiang Pei's flesh and blood, and he didn't even have the strength to mourn.

Turning the door open, it was still dark behind the door.

Only the sound of clocks and watches turning, Xiang Pei's heart was desolate, and he called Liang Zhang helplessly into the darkness, then the second, and the third... Finally, his voice was crying, and he couldn't count how many sounded.

There was no response, and Liang Zhang was not there.

Xiang Pei turned on the light slowly, and the decorations on the table remained intact, except Liang Zhang's things were missing.

The glass jar he put on the table, filled with mints, his water glass, his umbrella, his favorite novel.It all disappeared out of thin air, slipping away without a trace.

Xiang Pei stood there for a few seconds, and finally realized that something was wrong.

He rushed to Liang Zhang's bedroom and found that his wardrobe was empty, and there was no pair of shoes left at the door.

The toothbrushes and towels in the bathroom are all gone.

Everything about Liang Zhang disappeared completely, as if he never broke into Xiang Pei's life.

On the table in Xiang Pei's room was Liang Zhang's diary, the one he didn't want to show Xiang Pei at the time.

Now that Xiang Pei opened it, he found that it was full of trivial matters after Liang Zhang came to Day City. There were too many words and some useful pictures.

Where did he go, what did he eat, who did he meet—Nana, Acheng, Youjing...

Xiang Pei knew that Liang Zhang had always been a person who loved life, even though he complained about his previous life.

In the end, it gradually became only Xiang Pei, his profile and front face.

Liang Zhang's love is always the hottest.

On the last page, there are words left by Liang Zhang, and the black words are smudged like a flower.

Liang Zhang said that his uncle took him home and asked Xiang Pei to wait for him, and he must not be forgotten.

The words were written crookedly, like ants crawling around, each word carried strength, densely stuck on Xiang Pei's skin, causing him pain, but there was nowhere to vent it.

The saddest thing for Xiang Pei was not that he couldn't see Liang Zhang, but because he knew that Liang Zhang was crying.

Xiang Pei understands what it's like to be so sad that it can't be added. It's the pain of the body being torn apart. Despair accumulates and becomes a tall tower. Xiang Pei is lying on the top, precarious and facing the risk of falling at any time.

He couldn't breathe, he could only shout Liang Zhang's name, although he knew it was meaningless.

It turned out that Liang Zhang had become a part of Xiang Pei's life quietly.When his things disappeared, the room became empty, and half of the vitality was lost.

Chu Ranfei gave up suddenly, Xiang Guo's death was even more sudden, and Liang Zhang's disappearance gave Xiang Pei the final fatal blow. He was about to wonder if today was his disaster day.

There still seemed to be the smell of Liang Zhang on the pillow. Liang Zhang's last message came from the phone, and Xiang Pei only saw it now.

"I miss you so much, Xiang Pei."