song for the city

It is not easy to find a suitable place to live in Day City, and Liang Zhang has a deep understanding of it since he first came here.Some houses are located too remote, and some are dangerous buildings. It is not safe for him to live alone, and he has to beware of theft at all times.

After searching for a house to no avail, Liang Zhang understood how lucky he was to meet fellow renter Pei Xiang.

He hasn't moved his things out yet, he doesn't have a key, and he's afraid that meeting Xiang Pei will cause unnecessary embarrassment. At least in the short term, they shouldn't get too close. It just so happens that Xiang Pei hasn't been to a bar these days, and Liang Zhang knows him well. I'm hiding from myself.

You Jing's home is a distance away from where Liang Zhang lives, so it's unrealistic to go to a restaurant to work at noon every day, and Liang Zhang doesn't want to spend money on the road, so working part-time would be meaningless, so after thinking about it, he quit his job in the restaurant.

The pace of life slowed down, but Liang Zhang couldn't stay idle.While looking for a room, wandering around the city, carrying the camera to take pictures everywhere, or finding a chair on the street, sitting and drawing.

Originally, it was a random doodle, and I recorded what I saw. Gradually, a fixed character appeared in Liang Zhang's book, forming the shadow of a complete story.

The boy in the painting has long hair and is inseparable from a guitar.

On the third day of staying at Youjing's house, Youjing had a small car accident.

Liang Zhang rushed to the hospital, and You Jing sat on a chair in the waiting room, ready to take a film.He seemed fine except for a scratch on his arm and a limp leg. After seeing Liang Zhang, he complained that he was out of luck. He crossed the road and was hit by an idiot riding a motorcycle. No, he also rode a motorcycle over You Jing's lap, as if he didn't have long eyes.

Compared with the trauma, You Jing was even more angry. He said that he jumped up on one leg and almost punched the grandson in the face, which made people wonder if he had touched the porcelain.

Later, the perpetrator came over after paying the fee, and apologized to Youjing sincerely.The man looked quite old, Liang Zhang was a little surprised, he thought the perpetrator was a young man.

You Jing went inside to shoot a film, Liang Zhang called Chen Zhaonan outside, saying that You Jing had a car accident, deliberately blurring the extent of You Jing's injury.

Before he finished speaking, Chen Zhaonan hung up the phone in a hurry, and he appeared in front of Liang Zhang after a while.

Just when You Jing came out, he saw Chen Zhaonan standing at the door and asked in surprise, "Why are you here?"

Chen Zhaonan supported You Jing's shoulders, turned him back and forth, and after confirming that it was correct, he took a long breath and raised his hand to wipe away the glistening sweat on his forehead.After he calmed down, he regained his temper, pointed at You Jing's nose and said angrily, "You didn't tell me that you had a car accident, and you called Liang Zhang over here? If he didn't call me, wouldn't you even plan to tell me?" ?”

Knowing that Liang Zhang tipped off the news, You Jing glanced at Liang Zhang, as if saying that he wanted him to look good.

The little boy Liang Zhang was shot even while lying down, secretly slandered Chen Zhaonan for calling Chen Zhaonan, and bumped his arm angrily: "Brother Jing may think that I am much more reliable than you."

You Jing smiled kindly: "Now I think both of you are unreliable."

The three went upstairs to find a doctor with the film, Chen Zhao Nana wanted to go up the stairs with You Jing behind his back, but You Jing refused and felt ashamed, Liang Zhang watched the fun from the side.

While arguing, Liang Zhang saw a familiar figure passing by him from the corner of his eye, wearing a hospital gown.Liang Zhang's body froze, and he looked back suddenly, and he saw Xiang Guo slowly going up the stairs with the support of a woman.

Xiang Guo concentrated on going up the steps, every step seemed to use up all his strength, and he didn't pay attention to the three people here.

"Chen Zhaonan, you go up with Brother Jing first, I have something to do."

Liang Zhang followed Xiang Guo's back upstairs, Xiang Guo walked very slowly, almost like a turtle crawling, Liang Zhang also slowed down.

Xiang Guo's figure was even thinner against the backdrop of the hospital gown, like dry grass swaying in the wind, his ankle sank deeply with his steps, leaving only bones and skin attached.

The woman next to him whispered something in his ear, and Xiang Guo shook his head frequently.

Before Xiang Guo entered the ward, Liang Zhang stopped him, and Xiang Guo asked Liang Zhang to come in after being surprised. The woman next to him was very wary and asked who Liang Zhang was.

"It's Xiao Pei's friend." Xiang Guo replied, asking the woman to go out first.

Probably guessing what Liang Zhang was thinking, Xiang Guo first explained: "Stomach cancer was detected last month. Now that the tumor has deteriorated, it is estimated that he will live in a few days."

Xiang Guo held a cup of hot water in his hand, which made his glasses foggy.What he said was not heavy, with a kind of indifference that knew the ending.But Liang Zhang couldn't speak, he couldn't cope with a normal person who suddenly became sick, who had to wait for a long time to speak a word, and was about to die at any time.

"Does Xiang Pei know?" Liang Zhang spoke with difficulty.

"I know. He often visits me in the hospital recently."

Xiang Pei came to the bar with a bad face that day, could it be because of Xiang Guo's illness?But at that time they had an extremely unpleasant quarrel, and Liang Zhang regretted it a little.

Liang Zhang laughed, trying to get rid of the depressed atmosphere: "Uncle, Xiang Pei only uses the guitar you gave him now, and he likes that guitar very much."

"Really?" Xiang Guo said, "That's good, I'll give him the last gift."

It turned out that Xiang Guo wanted to give Xiang Pei his life no matter what, and he even gave Xiang Pei a cheap guitar because he had reached the end of his life and had no more time to make up for his mistakes as a father.

Liang Zhang remained silent, and after thinking for a while, he said, "You need to take good care of your illness."

Liang Zhang knew that such a blessing was as light as a feather, but he had nothing else to say. In fact, no one would really not be afraid of death.

Xiang Guodao: "Thank you for being Xiao Pei's friend."

Liang Zhang was speechless, feeling ashamed—he was no longer Xiang Pei's friend, and he didn't want to, and he couldn't.A friend is an excuse for irony, a fig leaf for Liang Zhang's desire, give him a high-sounding excuse, and lie to himself that he can still look at Xiang Pei freely.

You Jing's leg was broken and wrapped in plaster, Chen Zhaonan drove them back.

"Do you want me to come and stay for a few days? It's not convenient for you to hurt your leg." Chen Zhaonan reversed the car and asked You Jing.

You Jing waved his hands, nestled in the back seat as if sleepy, put his legs on the seat, and said, "No need, isn't there Liang Zhang?"

Chen Zhaonan didn't react, and said strangely: "Why does he care about you? You don't live together."

You Jing was straightforward: "Liang Zhang is temporarily staying at my house for a few days."

"Why does he live in your house, Xiao Pei?"

It seemed that Chen Zhaonan couldn't give up because he couldn't find an answer, so he turned to look at Liang Zhang.Liang Zhang leaned his head against the car window, clasping his fingers absently.

The nails were trimmed short, Liang Zhang's nails were round and his fingers were long and thin.This morning, the inside of the nail started to hurt for no reason. Liang Zhang looked carefully under the lamp, and saw a small opening in the flesh connecting the nail.Liang Zhang pressed his other finger on the wound, moved it away when it hurt so badly, and pressed it down again.

It seemed that Chen Zhaonan called his name in his ear, Liang Zhang was like waking up from a dream, and said in a confused sentence: "Ah, what, I——what's wrong?"

This ecstasy came just right, even deliberately, successfully staggering Chen Zhaonan's focus: "Which sister is so fascinated?"

Liang Zhang moved his nails away: "Send me home first, I'll move my things out."

He looked at his watch, it was almost six o'clock, maybe Xiang Pei was at home.

He didn't come back for three days, but Liang Zhang felt that he hadn't come back for a month.

The building is still the original building, and there is still a lot of garbage on the ground.Liang Zhang looked up at the rooftop, thinking about the lonely confession he left under the wall.

Liang Zhang knocked on the door tentatively, with a light force. After no one responded, he knocked hard again a few times. He listened to all the sounds inside the door anxiously, fighting with nervousness and anxiety.

He didn't want Xiang Pei to open the door, but he was also curious about what Xiang Pei was like these days.

Xiang Peilai opened the door with sleepy eyes and long hair messily knotted.

Before Liang Zhang came up, the courage he had built up in his stomach failed all of a sudden, he lost his voice, and stared at Xiang Pei silently.

He's a mess.

In Liang Zhang's mind, he looks absolutely stupid now, but Xiang Pei doesn't seem to think so.

"Liang Zhang, are you fucking sick?"

As soon as he opened the door, Xiang Pei uttered such words, as if a gust of wind had blown, making Liang Zhang stand at the door stupidly.

The stagnant air swirled between the two, and the two pairs of eyes refused to give in to each other, staring at each other.

"Are you sick?" Liang Zhang was speechless, wondering whether Xiang Pei's head had fallen to the ground and was caught in the door, and lost his temper for no reason.

Instead of softening, Xiang Pei's face darkened a bit: "Do you fucking know how long I've been looking for you that night? Who will be responsible for you if something goes wrong?!"

That night Xiang Pei accompanied Xiang Guo in the hospital and came back late.Liang Zhang was not at home, and he didn't answer the phone calls. Xiang Pei searched outside, and even went to the bar to look for him, wandering around like a headless chicken.Xiang Pei felt that he would never be so out of control in his life.

Fortunately, a call came from behind You Jing, saying that Liang Zhang was with him, so don't worry.

Liang Zhang was taken aback by Xiang Pei's words, and his thoughts were shaken—Xiang Pei looked for him?He didn't think of this at all when he went to You Jing's house, and he didn't think that Xiang Pei would be worried. He is almost an adult, can he still lose himself?

"I didn't bring the key with me, and you never came home, so I..."

Footsteps came from under the stairs, Xiang Pei grabbed Liang Zhang, pulled him in, and closed the door hard: "Then you won't call me or something? And you won't answer the phone, I said Liang Zhang, can you It can’t make you feel any less worried.”

Xiang Pei was really angry, every pore seemed to be questioning Liang Zhang.

"Who are you to me, do you have any control over where I go?" Liang Zhang didn't like to question, and said angrily.

Lifting the phone, Liang Zhang touched his pocket but didn't touch it, only to remember that the phone was out of battery that day and he had forgotten to charge it.

He felt that this reason was far-fetched, and he was even more embarrassed to tell Xiang Pei.

Seeing Liang Zhang's hard-spoken and guilty expression, Xiang Pei became even angrier, and said, "Obviously you said you liked me, so why are you the one hiding everywhere?"

Liang Zhang's fingertips were numb, and the tiny opening began to advertise its existence again, which made Liang Zhang's heart sore.

"I didn't avoid you, it was you who avoided me, Xiang Pei." Liang Zhang choked back unwillingly, seeing Xiang Pei's unbreakable expression as he wished, he lost his mind for a few seconds.

"Then why do you live in Youjing?" Xiang Pei asked, he was very concerned about it.

"Temporary stay. I will find another place to live in the future. I came back today to pick up things."

Liang Zhang's hands were placed behind his back, his fingers intertwined: "I think you don't want to see me."

After waiting for a long time without hearing a response from the person opposite, Liang Zhang looked up and saw Xiang Pei panting slightly.

"Who said I don't want to see you anymore?" Xiang Pei said bluntly, "I won't let you move out."

Liang Zhang suspected that his ears were blocked, and he was at a loss when he heard Xiang Pei's voice trembling.

"I won't move if you don't allow me? I've already found a house, and I won't be able to disgust you in the future, Xiang Pei."

Liang Zhang was talking nonsense again, he was so proficient in lying that he believed it himself.

They stood in the middle of the living room, the kiss came suddenly, and it slammed on Liang Zhang's lips. His waist was held by Xiang Pei, and he instinctively stepped back, staggering.

His breathing was completely blocked by Xiang Pei, Liang Zhang couldn't refuse such a violent kiss, his heartbeat was completely out of order when he drilled into Xiang Pei's tongue, as if thousands of stones fell down.Liang Zhang turned into a stranded fish, sobs rose to his throat.

In the confusion, he swept down the glass bottle on the cabinet, which was filled with sugar, and the sound of breaking was mixed with candy.

Liang Zhang's body was hot, and he kissed Pei in a disorderly manner. His tongue just messed around in his mouth chaotically, licking every row of his teeth, and messing around on his soft gums.He began to respond, hooking Xiang Pei's tongue tightly.

He couldn't tell where he was, it seemed that there was only one mouth that kissed his lips in the world.

Liang Zhang heard the ambiguous sucking sound at the joint of their lips, fluid flowed down his chin from the crack of his lips, he raised his hand to Pei to wipe it off for him, and pushed him against the door, hitting Liang Zhang on the back of his head in pain.

It was very hot in summer, and there was sweat on Xiang Pei's arms, entangled with Liang Zhang's sweaty arms, they were stuck together, their breathing was messy and deep.

They kiss in the heat.

There was a knock on the door, Liang Zhang's back trembled, he left Xiang Pei, and looked at the doorknob in a panic.

Xiang Pei slammed on the door, and broke Liang Zhang's chin, warning: "Look at me, idiot."

"Just look at me."

The author says:

Hee hee hee hee hee actually, I have always had a great ambition to update daily, but every time I read something written and there is a collection that does not increase, I will be very anxious. When I get anxious, I will get stuck|-|so babies beg for starfish|-| :