song for the city

As August approached, the tyranny of summer became more and more obvious, and the orange fireball in the sky seemed to fall down at any time, devouring everything directly.The high temperature makes people's skin secrete sweat continuously, and the clothes are almost half wet after going out for a walk.

Every day, Liang Zhang is as hot as in a sauna. The old electric fan in the room is still strong, blowing the wind that can be laid off. After ten times of natural cooling, I couldn't help but want to throw the fan.

Fuck it, the peace of mind is naturally cool, so he might as well get some ice cubes and put them in the bucket and lie down.

He belongs to the type of person who can only wear two pieces in winter. It is not cold in the south in winter, but he is afraid of heat. In summer, he just wants to stay at home and turn on the air conditioner. This is the meaning of summer vacation.

Liang Zhang had to admire Xiang Pei, he was like a normal person on such a hot day, he never cried out that he was hot, and he sweated less.It makes people wonder whether he is really not hot, or just pure endurance.

He couldn't say a few words to Xiang Pei every day, and deliberately avoided Xiang Pei. Of course, Xiang Pei would not take the initiative to find him.Liang Zhang found that he didn't take the initiative, and there was nothing between them.

But no matter how hot he was, he couldn't enjoy the fan all to himself. He turned on the fan for two nights, closed his eyes, and carried the fan into Pei's room.

While sleeping that night, Liang Zhang saw the fan returning to his room.Without saying anything to Pei, he brought the fan back again.

The button of the fan was turned by Liang Zhang several times, and the wind stopped and turned, and the cool wind took away the sweat on his chin in a blink of an eye. The left-inch board is really cooler than the previous hair style, and the wind is rubbing against the scalp.

It's better to save money and buy a cheap fan, Liang Zhang thought.

The fan really couldn't wait to be retired, and it stopped turning within a few days. Liang Zhang woke up from the bed in the middle of the night, and the room was quiet. He felt that something was wrong, and squinted his eyes to see that the fan in front of the bed hadn't turned.

Liang Zhang collapsed on the spot.

He searched for the toolbox, and he couldn't bring the fan back to life after working for a long time. The dusty fan blades seemed to be dead and motionless. Liang Zhang got hotter and hotter, he flicked the wrench, staring at the parts all over the floor in a daze.

The window was open and there was still a breeze, Liang Zhang was naked from the upper body, only wearing shorts, his skin stuck to the floor, barely able to dissipate the heat.

He sat there, not blinking until his eyes were a little dry.

The fan didn't turn on, and it was so hot that his whole body seemed to be crawling with bugs. Liang Zhang was a little helpless, as if all the strength in his body had been sucked away.

He looked at the wall in front of him, the thin wall was not soundproof at all, he could often hear Xiang Pei singing and playing the guitar in the room.Xiang Pei would not know that his song is a good medicine for Liang Zhang's insomnia, and it can make him fall asleep the fastest.

Xiang Pei must be asleep, will he feel hot?Just the temperature of the skin.

What is Liang Zhang doing now?Avoiding him and alienating him made Liang Zhang feel painful, and he had to comfort himself over and over again that this was the only way to pass, and he could not care about Xiang Pei after passing this hurdle.

Don't care if he is happy or sad, don't care if he hates you, and don't empathize with his emotions.

But why did Liang Zhang suffer more and more, Xiang Pei seemed to be in a bottomless pit, sucking him in, making him sink deeper and deeper.

Liang Zhang didn't understand where his liking for Xiang Pei came from. At first, he was simply envious of Xiang Pei's life being too free. Now that he thinks about it, he just likes the freedom in Xiang Pei's bones, which is beyond his reach. , a corner that has never been experienced.Bringing light to Pei, let Liang Zhang be freed from the oppressive life.

Recently, Xiang Pei appeared more frequently in his dreams, and Liang Zhang couldn't get rid of it no matter what, it seemed to be to punish him for escaping in reality.

In the room where the temperature was gradually rising, Liang Zhang just wanted to cross the wall, wake him up, hug him, and tell Xiang Pei that he liked him.

Since Liang Zhang was shy and embarrassed to tell Xiang Pei that the fan was broken, there was no way to discuss with him to buy a new one.

In the bar, Liang Zhang complained that the fan was broken, and asked Youjing where he could repair the fan, but Youjing proudly raised his head and said that he could fix it. In the past, when the fan in his house was broken, his father could fix it. his dad.

Liang Zhang was overjoyed to be a free repairman. After work, he went back to repair the fan with You Jing.

Going forward, Xiang Pei also just wanted to leave, he glanced at the two people walking side by side, and said, "Are you going together?"

Liang Zhang said: "Brother Jing, go to our house."

The expression "our family" he said was a little ambiguous, but Liang Zhang didn't notice it.

I thought that Xiang Pei would ask You Jing what he was doing at home, but he walked past Liang Zhang with a stern face, without giving him any kindness in his eyes, and the wind he brought was mixed with ice.

You Jing joked: "With Xiao Pei cooling, there is no need for a fan."

Liang Zhang looked at Xiang Pei's back, couldn't tell what it was like, and smiled perfunctorily a few times.

You Jing reassembled a bunch of parts in a few moments, the fan was repaired, and Liang Zhang felt that the wind was a little stronger than before.

He went to the kitchen to pour water for You Jing, and prepared to peel an apple to reward him.

Xiang Pei was sitting with You Jing in the living room, chatting a few words, mostly You Jing was talking.

He could tell at a glance that Xiang Pei was not in the right state. They had known each other for so many years, and Xiang Pei would hide his emotions again, but You Jing still couldn't see it right.

You Jing saw that his eyes didn't have a foothold, and he was floating around, and said, "What do you want to say?"

"Ah?" Xiang Pei came back to his senses, but didn't hear You Jing's words clearly.

"I asked if you had anything to say."

He Youjing had nothing to hide, so he vomited quickly to Pei: "Liang Zhang has been acting weird recently, and he always feels like he's avoiding me."

You Jing was surprised: "You still care about him, I'm a little surprised."

Xiang Pei glanced at the kitchen, puzzled and said, "What's so unexpected about this, I really consider him a friend."

As a friend, You Jing thought carefully about the tone of his words to Pei, and always felt something was wrong.

"Then you can ask him yourself."

Xiang Pei shook his head left and right: "It's useless, he basically hides when he sees me looking for him, and I don't know how to speak."

You Jing let out a long sigh: "The child is making trouble."

Then the mobile phone in the tour bag rang, he took it out to take a look, his lips curled up, and said he had to leave first.

Xiang Pei sent him to the door and said, "Brother Jing, talk to Chen Zhaonan and sort out your relationship."

He looked at You Jing, his eyes were calm, and he seemed to be conveying something.

The two stared at each other through the air for a long time, You Jing first surrendered, then smiled, and said firmly, "You got it."

"I heard it."

You Jing shrugged his back straight, beat Liang Zhang violently in his heart, and said in a muffled voice, "That bastard is bluffing me."

Liang Zhang came out with the cut apples, and saw that there was no shadow of You Jing on the sofa, and only Xiang Pei was sitting on the sofa writing.

"Where's Brother Jing?" Liang Zhang asked.

"I have something to go."

"Oh." Liang Zhang looked at the apple in his hand and didn't think about what to do for a moment. He looked at Pei and put the bowl on the table, "Then you can eat some."

The sound of the pencil brushing on the white paper stopped abruptly, and Xiang Pei stopped turning his wrist, his eyes fell on the crescent-shaped apple, the yellow flesh was neatly cut.

He pushed the bowl away: "I don't like it."

Liang Zhang was a little embarrassed, and planned to go back to the room with the bowl instead of staying here to torture himself.

"Why didn't you tell me that the fan is broken, I will fix it too." Xiang Pei said suddenly before taking a step forward.

Liang Zhang couldn't find the words to answer, and his brain froze. He never thought of asking Pei Hui such a question.

"I--"

Apparently Xiang Pei didn't want his answer either, he interrupted Liang Zhang: "When did you and You Jing get on so well?"

"Isn't it normal? Brother Jing takes good care of me."

"That doesn't have to be so good."

"Oh no," Liang Zhang almost laughed angrily, "How good are we? Isn't it just a normal friendship?"

After explaining it, I feel wrong. Why do I have to explain so much seriously?After thinking about it, he always felt that asking Pei his tone seemed to be...jealous?

Liang Zhang's heart beat violently, and his palms were sweating uncontrollably.

"Didn't you know that he likes..." The words stopped abruptly, and Xiang Pei couldn't continue.

He despises himself a bit, he shouldn't say that about You Jing.It turns out that no one can learn to calm down when excited.

Liang Zhang felt as if he had been poured with a basin of cold water. He was completely icy from the inside to the outside. Of course he knew Xiang Pei's next words, so he unconsciously raised the volume: "So what if you like men? Isn't he You Jing?" Yet?"

"That was not what I meant!"

Xiang Pei wanted to explain, but he didn't know where to start. He was not good at verbal arguments, and sometimes he was stupid, so he simply stopped talking.

"I went first."

Liang Zhang was in no mood to eat, and the apple was left on the table, gradually turning very yellow.

The heatstroke was caught off guard, and even though it was mild, Liang Zhang was still sore all over and dizzy.

It may be that I pedaled too hard in the sun, and I didn't slow down all at once.He reluctantly washed the dishes in the restaurant at noon, and asked You Jing for leave at night, and slept from the afternoon until it was dark at night. When he woke up, it was raining outside, and the sun was shining brightly in the afternoon.

The rain was soft at first, and then it fell harder and harder, smashing the windows like they were about to crack.Everything outside was blurred, and the colors were mixed together by the rain like spilled paint.

Liang Zhang stood in front of the window and looked down. The tree downstairs was about to be crushed by the wind and rain, and it was as fragile as a human's back.

His body became even heavier, as if an iron chain was tied to his feet, and someone was pulling it, but he didn't have the strength to resist.Liang Zhang returned to the bed, trying to stick his body on it.

In a daze, he heard the sound of the door unlocking outside, and the sound of someone's footsteps stepping in. Liang Zhang didn't have the strength to care about it, so he turned over and wanted to continue sleeping.

Not long after, the door of his room opened, and a damp breath and the smell of rain broke in.

"Is it still hard?"

Liang Zhang felt a pair of dry hands on his wet forehead. He opened his eyes and saw Xiang Pei's face just a few feet away from him.

His hands were a bit icy, probably due to walking in the rain, the ends of his hair were also wet, and his clothes were splashed with water.

Like a wet puppy that suddenly broke into Liang Zhang's world.

"My hands are a little cold, wait a minute."

He heard Xiang Pei say this, and immediately put a warm thing on his forehead.Liang Zhang's eyelashes trembled rapidly, as long as he got up, he could touch the lips in front of him.

It's too foul, Xiang Pei.

Liang Zhang's breathing became short of breath, almost suffocating, but luckily he moved his forehead towards Pei.

"I have a low fever, I'll go buy medicine for you."

"Xiang Pei, I'm so uncomfortable." Liang Zhang touched Xiang Pei's wrist that was hammered by the bed, and rubbed it lightly. He could feel the length of the fluff on Xiang Pei's hand.

He was reluctant to go to Pei. He was sick and should have the right to act recklessly.

Xiang Pei patted his head: "Hey, I'm going to buy medicine."

After an unknown amount of time, Liang Zhang woke up from the chaos again. There was no sign of Xiang Pei beside him, and Xiang Pei had been out for a long time.

His strength recovered a little bit, and his body no longer felt as uncomfortable as if it had been filled with lead.

The rain still didn't stop, roaring even more wildly.Suddenly the siren of an ambulance came from outside, and Liang Zhang woke up completely, feeling extremely uneasy in his heart.

He was wearing slippers, didn't take the umbrella, and stumbled out of the door.

The author says:

So tight and dirty