Don't look for the old attack in the crematorium

With bitterness, the cold tears fell drop by drop to the depths of the sea, and fell on Lin Qingran's face.

The murmur in his ear was stronger than ever, so strong that he couldn't ignore it.

"...but... I know I shouldn't ask for it, and I won't, so..."

"So don't leave me, okay...don't leave me..."

"I'm really scared... really scared..."

"...Of course you don't have to smile at me if you don't want to. As long as you are happy, I can do anything. As long as you can stay by my side, I beg you...but..."

"...I don't want anything, but the only thing I can't lose is you, but... please..."

"...Of course, I love you, please don't leave, I beg you...I really don't need anything, but I love you..."

……

The man's begging murmurs poured into his ears bit by bit, the cold and arrogant man was begging him humbly at this moment, with trills that made him unbearable.

Lin Qingran pursed her lips, still hugging him tightly in her warm embrace, as if she was afraid that he would leave, the scorching body temperature came slowly.

Following the man's murmured pleading, some memories flooded his mind.

- When he had a fever, the boy found a doctor for him, carried him back to the room, and took care of him in the room for one night.

-The night when the meat floss was lost, the boy put a coat on him when he was looking for the meat floss. Under the moonlight, the boy's cold and handsome face was reflected, but the hand holding him was very warm.

- At grandma's house, grandma went to grandma Liu's house to chat. The boy bought some fruit and came over because his hand was injured. The ten fingers did not touch the spring water.

-In the cold winter, because the clothes he was wearing were thin, the young man opened the coat with a cold face and pulled him into the warm embrace, wrapping him warmly in the coat.

……

Little things from the past flooded up, obviously they were all trivial things, and he obviously didn't know whether the young man at that time was sincere or fake, but for him, it made his eyes turn red.

Those little things back then... For him as a young man, all of them were his light.

The corners of Lin Qingran's eyes were flushed, and his thick long eyelashes were blinking with tears. His beautiful eyes were covered with mist, and he slowly raised his pupils.

The man holding him had slender and firm arms, and his voice was different from when he was a teenager, but he couldn't ignore the man's begging.

This embrace...has entered his memory when he was young.

Hearing the sound of the man's heart beating nervously and frightened, those voices slowly entered his ears, accompanied by those begging.

The man overflowed with bitter tears and slowly dripped down. Accompanied by his hoarse voice, the man's hoarse voice suddenly stunned him.

"...Of course, it's okay... If you really don't want to stay in this world, I won't force you... When you leave, I will also leave with you..."

The man suddenly smiled slightly, as if swallowing the choke in his throat, he said gently and slowly: "...I will be with you, I will always be with you, no matter where you go, I will be with you... "

Lin Qingran's heart trembled slightly, her gently moving fingers tightened slowly, and she slowly opened her eyes.

Looking at Lin Qingran's beautiful eyes, Gu Wenyu's heart tightened suddenly, and he hugged Lin Qingran in his arms, but he didn't dare to use any force and restrained his strength.

"...Of course, sometimes I am really grateful for these ethereal dreams, he gave me hope, but..."

The man gently stroked Lin Qingran's back, begging in a hoarse voice: "I know I'm dreaming again now, but can you not disappear so soon?"

"I'm very scared now. I'm infatuated with the dream, but I watch you leave me again and again in the dream. At the end of every dream, I can't hold your hand..."

Tears dripped from Gu Wenyu's red eyes: "Even if you want to leave, can you wait for me and let me hold your hand and leave together?"

"I know I miss your smile, but I don't want extravagance. If you don't smile at me, you won't disappear, right? Then... can you not smile at me, even if you beat me and scold me..."

"Of course...is that okay? Please...I can't bear the pain of losing again and again, please...but..."

"Gu Wenyu..." Lin Qingran's voice was a little hoarse, he didn't have much strength when he just woke up, and his voice was not loud.

Gu Wenyu was stunned suddenly, his heart was beating violently, which was caused by fear and fear, the sound of violent heart beating was completely transmitted to Lin Qingran because they were holding Lin Qingran close to each other.

"...Of course, this is the first time you called me in a dream, are you planning to leave me...?" Gu Wenyu held Lin Qingran's hand tightly, his voice was hoarse, and he begged with trembling fear He said: "Don't go...even if it's just for me to hug you for a while...okay?"

In previous dreams, Lin Qingran would never call him by his name, but now that he was called suddenly, he was very scared, so scared that he didn't even dare to look at Lin Qingran's face.

He was afraid that seeing Lin Qingran smile would mean that Lin Qingran would push him away again.

"...I'm thirsty..." Lin Qingran whispered, his throat was a little dry just after waking up, but Gu Wenyu hugged him tightly and couldn't break free.

Gu Wenyu's heart was still beating crazily, and fear and dread were still shrouded in his heart. Hearing Lin Qingran's slightly hoarse voice, he was very distressed.

Even though he was afraid that Lin Qingran would leave him, he still felt sorry for Lin Qingran's voice, so he let go of his arms, held his hand with one hand, and poured water for him with the other.

He has always kept hot water by the bed, and now he can pour water directly without going out to get water.

After pouring a cup of hot water, he slowly blew it on and handed it to Lin Qingran: "Be careful it's hot."

Even in his dream, even if he was afraid that Lin Qingran would leave him, he still felt distressed that Lin Qingran would suffer even the slightest bit of harm and grievance.

Gu Wenyu still did not let go of Lin Qingran's hand, he restrained his strength, and did not make Lin Qingran feel uncomfortable or use too much force on the premise of clenching tightly.

Seeing Lin Qingran drinking water from his custom-made couple cup, his heart was beating even more, and his eyes were all on Lin Qingran, for fear that he would break free from his hand like those dreams before. General again leaves him to commit suicide.

After drinking some hot water, Lin Qingran felt that his throat had improved a lot. He was very tired after lying down for two years. He looked down at Gu Wenyu holding his hand, and struggled gently.

Gu Wenyu's alarm bell rang loudly, fearing that it would hurt Lin Qingran, but even more afraid that he was trying to break away from his hand, so he hugged him before letting go.

"...Of course, I hurt your hand?"

"Or... are you leaving me again?"

Gu Wenyu hugged Lin Qingran's slender waist into his arms, and pleaded hoarsely: "...I'm sorry Ranran, can you let me hug you for a while longer? I...I can't bear it..."

"...I'm really scared...that feeling really hurts..."

"If you insist on leaving..." Gu Wenyu tightened his hold on Lin Qingran slightly, begging humbly: "Take me, don't leave me alone...but please...take me and go together... "

"Aww!" Rousong woke up from the dream when he heard the voice, and saw Lin Qingran running towards him on the bed at the fastest speed, and yelled "Aww, aww".

Gu Haifeng happened to be sleeping at Gu Wenyu's house tonight, and he was startled when he heard the yelling of the meat floss, so he hurriedly got up to look for the meat floss, fearing that he would disturb Gu Wenyu if he kept shouting like this, and the man would be angry.

"Meat floss?"

Gu Haifeng came to the door of Gu Wenyu's room and heard the meat floss still screaming loudly, so he trembled in his heart, took a deep breath and knocked on the door of Gu Wenyu's room: "Brother? Did the meat floss bother you? Open the door I take it away."

"Squeak—" The door opened.

Gu Haifeng didn't see anyone, but looked down and saw the meat floss wagging its tail and yelling at him a few times, first he was surprised that the meat floss would open the door, and then suddenly thought of something important, he squatted down and picked it up in shock .

Just about to apologize to Gu Wenyu, when he turned around and saw Lin Qingran who was hugged by Gu Wenyu, his eyes widened in surprise and he said, "Senior, are you awake?!"

Gu Wenyu frowned slightly, his face turned cold.In his dream, he only needed Lin Qingran, so why are there so many unnecessary people now?

Rouxong just kept yelling at Lin Qingran, "Wow!" He was already very upset, but why did Gu Haifeng appear now?

Rousong watched Lin Qingran wagging his tail vigorously, jumped off Gu Haifeng's arms, climbed onto Lin Qingran's bed and rubbed his head against him.

Lin Qingran smiled lightly, and moved her body to break away from Gu Wenyu's arms. Gu Wenyu felt Lin Qingran's intention and he panicked instantly.

"Of course don't go!"

Gu Haifeng was a little confused, so he whispered resentfully in his heart: "Brother... isn't the senior here?"

Gu Wenyu didn't care what Gu Haifeng was saying, although he let go of Lin Qingran, he still held his hand.

"Ow!"

The meat floss climbed onto Lin Qingran's legs, raised its front paws and raised its head to rub against Lin Qingran's chin. The tail kept shaking from side to side, very happy, completely different from the sleepy look before.

Lin Qingran stroked Rousong's head, and Rousong rubbed his head back and forth coquettishly, as if he wanted to make up for the two years.

Looking at the gentle smile in Lin Qingran's eyes, Gu Wenyu's heart trembled all the time, and the nightmares he had every night some time ago flashed scene after scene in his mind.

He saw Lin Qingran's smile, does it mean that Lin Qingran will leave his side again later?

Thinking of this, he clenched his hands a little more, even a layer of cold sweat broke out in his palms because of fear.

"Brother, is your wound open again?" Gu Haifeng asked when he saw the blood-soaked bandage on Gu Wenyu's wrist.

Gu Wenyu just glanced at the sound, and was startled when he turned back, feeling that something was wrong, and turned back to look at the wound.

Why does he feel a little pain?

He didn't know when the wound was torn open, and his heart was always on Lin Qingran, although he didn't feel any pain before.

Looking at the wound that was still oozing blood, he stretched out his hand and pulled hard on the wound, tearing the wound even further.

Blood oozes out faster than before, and the pain suddenly hits, Gu Wenyu's heart tightens, and the hand holding Lin Qingran trembles and clenches even tighter.

Doesn't he seem to be dreaming?

Looking up at Lin Qingran slightly frowning and looking at his wounded face, Gu Wenyu's heart beat crazily.

Feeling the tearing sensation from the wound on his hand, feeling the severe pain, he couldn't help but twitched the corner of his mouth and smiled.

His Ranran...was really awake!

Gu Wenyu's thin lips parted slightly, and his hoarse voice trembled slightly: "...But, you, are you awake? Are you really awake..."

A great surprise poured into his heart, and his heart was full of unspeakable joy. He couldn't help but hug Lin Qingran tightly, and he let go immediately after only a second.

He was afraid that the blood from his wound that was still oozing would stain Lin Qingran's clothes, so he hurriedly made a phone call with slightly trembling hands, and took Lin Qingran to the hospital quickly and calmly.

He had a full-body examination at the hospital, and he felt a little relieved after seeing the report that everything was normal.

"...but..." Gu Wenyu held Lin Qingran's hand, feeling the temperature of his hand, his hand was still trembling slightly, and his flustered heart hadn't calmed down yet.

It's really scary... Such a beautiful picture now unconsciously scares him.

He had too many dreams that frightened him, and he was afraid that all these dreams were made because of his extravagant desires.

Fearing that all of this is fake, afraid that Lin Qingran will push him away and leave him without knowing when, and disappear with a smile in front of his eyes.

After a whole day of tossing, Gu Wenyu held Lin Qingran in his arms at night and did not dare to close his eyes for a moment, for fear that all this would disappear from his eyes when he closed his eyes and opened them again.

The wound that had been treated and re-bandaged by the doctor still felt bursts of pain. Gu Wenyu felt the pain and gradually believed that Lin Qingran had really woken up.

But the heart is still hanging, like a feeling of half-dream and half-awake.

"Of course, I'll make breakfast for you." Gu Wenyu kissed Lin Qingran's forehead, and whispered softly, "You need to take care of your body now, so I'll make you liquid food, okay?"

After finishing breakfast and returning to the room, Gu Wenyu looked gentle, and was about to tell Lin Qingran to go down to have breakfast, but his words choked up.

Seeing the information searched on Lin Qingran's mobile phone, his heart trembled suddenly, and his dark eyes slowly sank.

The picture that Lin Qingran tapped on the phone screen is a "specimen".

After recuperating at Gu Wenyu's house for a while, Lin Qingran contacted Director Wang, planning to finish the filming of the last scene that was interrupted because he fell into a coma for two years.

When Director Wang received a call from Lin Qingran and learned that Lin Qingran had woken up, he was shocked for a second, and full of surprise for the next second: "Qingran, you finally woke up! I knew you would wake up sooner or later!"

"How is your health now?" Director Wang worried: "There is no rush for the movie, you should take care of your body first, and it will take some time to resume work here, so don't worry."

After chatting with Director Wang and hanging up the phone, He Yi pushed aside the peeled orange and gave half of it to Lin Qingran: "You need to rest for a while, I always feel uneasy watching it."

Lin Qingran took the orange, broke off half of it and put it in his mouth, then shook his head: "I'm in good health now, I don't have many problems, I'm fine."

He Yi chewed the orange and didn't speak, but slightly frowned.

It had been three months since he heard the news that Lin Qingran had woken up. At that time, Lianye and Han Jin rushed over when he heard the news. Seeing that Lin Qingran had really woken up, he couldn't help but get red eyes.

At that time, he complained to Lin Qingran that he was really willing to give up, and it took two years to wake up, so he didn't want to see him as a friend.

Hugging Lin Qingran, he hugged him for a long time, Lin Qingran gently patted his back to comfort him, they didn't say much.

He Yi didn't ask too many questions, and he didn't mention Huang Ge's incident.In fact, even if they don't say a lot of things, they know what the other person means.

He Yi didn't ask because he didn't want to poke the sad place again. Lin Qingran finally woke up. It's best to turn over those things before and don't mention them again.

During the three months of Lin Qingran's recuperation, she stayed at Gu Wenyu's house, living in the sea area of ​​the villa that the man built for him from the beginning.

He Yi has no objection to this. He knows that Gu Wenyu can take good care of Lin Qingran, because the man knows all of Lin Qingran's habits and hobbies, and he doesn't want him to suffer a little. Living in a man's house is the best choice, but He would run to Gu Wenyu's house every three days.

However, Gu Wenyu didn't stop it, nor did he express any dissatisfaction, and his attitude was to acquiesce.

"Why are you in such a hurry to film? If only I would play for a few more months." He Yi said, and couldn't help thinking of the fun places he and Han Jin had visited.

"Last time Han and I went to the North Pole to see the Northern Lights, but the timing was so unfortunate that we couldn't see the Northern Lights at all, but we saw polar bears."

He Yi introduced to Lin Qingran one by one the fun places he and Han Jin had visited, and said excitedly, "Why don't you postpone the filming for a while, and let's go to Prague in a few days?"

"I heard it's pretty good there, so it's good to go for a stroll." He Yi handed the schedule made by Han Jin to Lin Qingran, persuading him, "We haven't gone out for a long time, how is it, isn't it good?"

"Of course, the body needs to be nourished for a while, and we'll talk about it when it's well established." A man's deep and magnetic voice came from the door.

He Yi didn't need to raise his head to know it was Gu Wenyu. He shrugged helplessly, glanced at the man, and cursed a few words in his heart, but didn't say anything.

Gu Wenyu held two plates of cherries in his hands, and he casually placed one plate of cherries on the table. The plate in his hand was specially selected cherries.

The cherries were brought back by air, and they were big and round, with crystal clear water droplets on them. Once bitten into the mouth, the sweet and fragrant juice flowed out, and the aroma remained in the mouth for a long time.

But the plate of specially selected cherries that Gu Wenyu held in his hand was even more round and beautiful, the deep red color was translucent, and the reflection of the water droplets on it was even more mouth-watering.

Even though the cherries he had airlifted back were of the highest quality, he still deliberately picked the best ones and left them to Lin Qingran.

Twirling a large red cherry with his fingers, he fed it to Lin Qingran's mouth. Gu Wenyu watched him chew the cherry in his mouth, with a smile unconsciously in his eyes.

He Yi twirled a cherry and ate it, staring straight at Gu Wenyu's gentleness and his careful care that only appeared when facing Lin Qingran, thinking about something thoughtfully.

"Buzzing."

"Buzzing."

"Buzzing."

His phone suddenly vibrated several times, interrupting his thoughts.His thoughts were interrupted, he frowned slightly, clicked on the unread message, his frowned eyebrows slowly unfolded.

The unread information on the mobile phone comes from his pinned contacts.

Clingy Dog: [Brother Yi, I will pick you up later. ]

Clingy Big Dog: [Image]

Clingy Big Dog: [Image]

He Yi clicked on the pictures one by one, and the corners of his mouth unconsciously curled up slightly.Those photos were all the snacks he said he wanted to eat, and Han Jin bought them all for him.

He returned a cute emoji of kissing the dog to Han Jin, and then raised his head to talk to Lin Qingran about it, but when he raised his head, he happened to meet Gu Wenyu's narrow and cold eyes, and swallowed his words as soon as he reached his mouth.

Gu Wenyu seemed to know what he wanted to say, those cold eyes staring at him seemed to be admonishing him.

The phone vibrated again, He Yi ignored Gu Wenyu, and clicked on the message in a better mood, his face suddenly turned bright.

Fan Li: [But are you awake? ]

Fan Li just posted this sentence. Not many people knew about the news of Lin Qingran waking up, except for them, Director Wang. Fan Li would know that Director Wang probably told him to continue filming "Mud".

He Yi glanced at the phone and put it away, but didn't reply right away.

After a while, He Yi's cell phone vibrated again, and He Yi casually clicked on it to check, and saw another message in the chat box that he hadn't responded to.

Looking at the message, he flicked his fingertips, casually swipe out of the chat box and then blacked out the phone screen, and he ignored the subsequent messages.

Gu Wenyu's eyes were all on Lin Qingran, watching his lips chewing on cherries, those peach-colored soft lips moved slightly, which made his heart itch slightly.

Pursing those lips, smelling the aroma of cherries, he suddenly thought of something and slowly lowered his eyes.

In the first dream, they finished eating, he was washing the dishes in the kitchen, Lin Qingran was watching TV, and after that, he bit a cherry and ran behind him to hug him, looking up at him with those beautiful eyes , and then kiss him slowly.

The aroma of cherries wafts out, the sweet and delicious aroma lingers on the tip of the nose, lingering for a long time, the aroma between the lips and teeth flows in their mouths, the sweetness is fascinating/intoxicating.

After the lingering kiss was over, when the two were panting slightly, Lin Qingran suddenly pushed him away. Thinking of the next scene, Gu Wenyu's hand holding the cherry tightened slightly.

Lin Qingran showed a faint smile to him on the balcony, the breeze was blowing slowly, and the next second was the scene of Lin Qingran jumping down without hesitation.

His mind suddenly froze on that picture, and Gu Wenyu's hands trembled uncontrollably. That picture really made him shy, and now he still has lingering fears when he thinks about it.

The scene turned to three months ago, when he saw Lin Qingran searching for specimens on his mobile phone at the door.

When he found out about that matter, Gu Wenyu didn't ask about it. The fear accumulated in his heart for a long time could not dissipate. He wanted to ask but was afraid to ask.

He had never felt afraid before, but now he felt timid all the time, afraid that what he asked was the answer that he was most afraid of in his heart.

He stayed at the door for a long time that day, forcing himself to suppress the thoughts of fear in his heart, and then went in as if nothing had happened, and led Lin Qingran's hand downstairs to have breakfast.

After that incident, Gu Wenyu never dared to leave Lin Qingran for half a step, and stayed by his side almost all the time.

He couldn't look at Lin Qingran when he went to the company, so he changed all the meetings into video conferences, and moved most of the things he had to deal with back to his study at home to work.

But even though he watched from time to time, he couldn't stop the fear in his heart.

The hand he was holding the plate with cherries clenched subconsciously, Gu Wenyu closed his eyes to suppress the panic in his heart, and fed another cherry to Lin Qingran with an invisible tenderness.

"Is it sweet?" Gu Wenyu asked softly with eyes full of autumn water.

Lin Qingran nodded, Gu Wenyu waited for him to finish eating the other one and fed him another one, the deep face with distinct water chestnut angles softened a little because of Lin Qingran's tranquil expression.

He Yi looked at it and raised his eyebrows. He was already used to Gu Wenyu's attention to Lin Qingran.

Especially in these few months, the man would ask the doctor to check Lin Qingran's body every two weeks.

Gu Wenyu stared at Lin Qingran's exquisite face, and glanced at Lin Qingran's mobile phone that was casually placed on the table, a trace of hesitation flashed in his eyes.

The frightened thoughts shrouded in his heart gradually enlarged, and he couldn't get rid of the incident three months ago in his mind.

specimen……

The last time he saw the picture that Lin Qingran clicked, it was a human specimen...