Don't look for the old attack in the crematorium

Spring goes and autumn comes, and another autumn has passed.

The shooting of "Mud/Mud" was suspended due to the accident of the main character. Director Wang was shooting other short films during the period. During the interview, the reporter asked about the shooting idea of ​​"Mud/Mud".

"May I ask, Director Wang, are you suspending the filming of "Mud/Mud" because you are looking for a new protagonist or do you have other plans?"

Director Wang himself just wanted to end the question quickly, but he didn't expect the reporter to ask such a question suddenly. He was silent for a few seconds, not as impatient as before.

He said: "I'm waiting, Lin Qingran is Li Yang, I'm waiting for my Li Yang to wake up."

The reporter chased after him, and continued to ask: "If the worst happens and Lin Qingran can't wake up, then Director Wang, don't you still plan to change roles and find someone to reshoot?"

Director Wang was very unhappy with the reporter's question. He glared at the reporter who asked the question: "I said that Lin Qingran is Li Yang, and I believe he will wake up!"

Gu Wenyu looked at the video of the reporter's interview, his cold eyes drooped, and he said to Secretary Wang: "Which reporter is that reporter? I'll leave it to you."

Secretary Wang nodded in response, and then pushed the door out of Gu Wenyu's office.

The next day, the reporter who interviewed Daokou Wang about Lin Qingran's company went bankrupt overnight and was still in debt of tens of millions.

As soon as the news came out, there was an uproar on the Internet, but they also felt that the reporter deserved it.

Two years ago when Lin Qingran disappeared in an accident, the fans were the most uncomfortable. Some of Lin Qingran's passer-by fans also felt embarrassed.

In the past two years, fans have been unremittingly checking in Lin Qingran's chat, hoping that he can wake up soon.

Every time a movie netizen who mentions Lin Qingran mentions Lin Qingran's name, they always feel a sense of loss and sadness.

[It’s been two years since Lin Qingran’s accident happened, but it still feels like yesterday to me, as if Ran Ran was still filming yesterday, nothing happened at all, but thinking about how long it has passed makes me sad...]

[I feel the same way, like yesterday, it would be great if this is true, heartbroken and sad. ]

[However, after the accident, it seems that a lot of things have changed. Fan Li seems to have been resting for the past two years after filming a movie of the same period as "Mud". He seems to be even more indifferent when he occasionally sees Mr. Gu on the news. ]

[There are always people who want to spend money on Lin Qingran, fortunately Mr. Gu is here, and it has been quiet for a while, but the reporter is playing it safe, and he deserves it in the end! ]

[That’s right, bankruptcy not only pays tens of millions of debts, but they don’t know when it will be due, it’s really laughable, self-inflicted can’t live! ]

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Rousong walked slowly into Gu Wenyu's room with his ears drooping. He wanted to climb onto the bed where Lin Qingran was lying, but when he looked at the man sitting next to Lin Qingran, he was lying on the foot of the bed, with his head buried.

"Meat floss?" Gu Haifeng called softly, came to Gu Wenyu's room, saw Gu Wenyu who was sitting next to Lin Qingran holding his hand, walked in slowly, and hugged the meat floss in his arms.

Gu Haifeng looked at Gu Wenyu and Lin Qingran's gentle and sad face, and slowly lowered his eyes, not daring to make a sound.

Gu Wenyu has been in this state for a long time, his heart has been on his body, except at this moment his eyes will be gentle, the rest of the time is more violent and indifferent than before.

Gu Haifeng wanted to persuade, but he didn't know what to persuade. Remembering that he had seen Gu Wenyu's self-harm more than once in the past two years, his breathing slowed down.

Ever since Lin Qingran's accident, he was worried about Gu Wenyu's health and lived in Gu Wenyu's house for a while.

The man's heart is all on Lin Qingran, and he takes care of Lin Qingran personally throughout the whole process.

All this was normal, until he got up in the middle of the night and saw something reflecting light in the living room, and he almost stopped breathing when he walked over to look.

Gu Wenyu was in the living room, mutilating himself with a knife.

When the man saw the blood slowly flowing from his hand, his expression was still indifferent and without any emotion, and he couldn't even feel the pain, as if he was watching something very ordinary.

Seeing the bleeding wound, Gu Haifeng knew very well that the wound was deep, and it was impossible that it would not hurt. Gu Wenyu watched the blood flow indifferently, because the wound on his hand was not as painful as the wound on his heart.

He has been numb.

Maybe it was because his heart hurts too much, and he urgently needs to seek other pain to cover it, so he self-mutilates.

Gu Wenyu looked at the warm blood flowing out of his hands, dripping from the deep wound on the carpet, he suddenly laughed, but it was more uncomfortable than crying.

With his other hand, he tightly grasped the wound that was still bleeding, and the pain from that wound intensified dozens of times.

He desperately needs external pain, pain to clear his mind.

The fear in his heart has been lingering in his heart since Lin Qingran fell into a coma. He needs pain to warn him that Lin Qingran has not completely left him, he is still there.

The fear of losing his beloved has been tormenting him deeply, and he couldn't help but increase his strength a little bit. The wound that was bleeding slowly was torn apart, and the flesh and blood were torn apart. The pain was so painful that it was hard to breathe.

Gu Haifeng froze in place, his hands trembling a little.

He knew that Gu Wenyu didn't commit suicide, he was just harming himself.

Lin Qingran was still alive, just fell asleep and didn't wake up, Gu Wenyu would not commit suicide just because of this faint hope, the self-mutilation was just because he couldn't bear the pain in his heart.

Later, Gu Haifeng witnessed Gu Haifeng's self-mutilation several times one after another. Even if he didn't see it with his own eyes the rest of the time, he knew that the man had self-mutilated that night when he saw the bandage wrapped around Gu Wenyu's hand the next day.

Gu Haifeng looked back at Gu Wenyu at the door, his eyes followed the man's back, and his gaze stayed on the man's wrist.

Looking at the bandage that was just changed and even stained with fresh blood, he understood it all at once.

Gu Wenyu committed suicide again last night.

Rouxong let out a soft "owwow" and buried its head into Gu Haifeng's embrace, its voice was miserable and sad, its body curled up together.

Gu Haifeng sighed slowly, and slowly left Gu Wenyu's room.

Going out of the gate, Gu Haifeng saw a man standing not far away, he frowned, and the sad meat floss that was huddled in Gu Haifeng's arms gritted his teeth when he saw the man.

After closing the door, Gu Haifeng walked towards the beach, and the man followed.

"Why are you here?" Gu Haifeng asked in a suppressed tone, he didn't really want to see him.

"Wow!" Rousong yelled angrily, staring at the man closely.

"Of course...how is he? Is he okay?" Fan Li was silent for a few seconds, then spoke slowly in a hoarse voice.

"Is it interesting for you to ask this, what can you do if you know the senior's situation?" Gu Haifeng turned to look at Fan Li.

Gu Haifeng overheard the matter of Fan Li and Lin Qingran by accident. When He Yi followed out, he had something to tell He Yi, but just happened to see He Yi hiding on one side, and for some reason he also hid on the other side.

He hid not far away, just in time to hear what Gu Wenyu and Fan Li said.

"I... just want to know..." Fan Li said without confidence.

After he went to see Lin Qingran in the hospital, he didn't dare to see Lin Qingran for a few days due to guilt, but then he couldn't help but ran over again.

It's better to take a look at it from a distance.

When he went again, Lin Qingran was no longer in the hospital.When I asked the doctor, the doctor only said that Lin Qingran was discharged from the hospital, and didn't say a word about the rest.

At that time, Fan Li kept clenching the hand holding the flower, and slowly lowered his eyes. He just didn't come over for a few days, but he couldn't see Lin Qingran again before he was discharged from the hospital.

He knew that Gu Wenyu must have brought Lin Qingran home, and he wanted to see Lin Qingran, but he didn't know where Lin Qingran was.

After being anxious for a long time, he asked He Yi, but He Yi didn't tell him, but just sloppyly passed it by. He looked through all the chat records and Weibo where he could find clues.

It's a pity that Lin Qingran doesn't post much on Weibo, and he doesn't include an approximate address when he posts on Weibo, and their chat records don't mention his home.

After searching desperately, I saw an address on He Yi's Weibo, and tentatively searched for it. After waiting here for a long time, I saw Gu Wenyu come out of the house.

Later, he was sure that Lin Qingran was here, but he didn't dare to knock on the door, only dared to watch from a distance.

Gu Wenyu said that he didn't want to see him again, and he didn't want to fight Gu Wenyu again, he just wanted to see Lin Qingran.

But he also knew that Gu Wenyu would not let him see Lin Qingran.

"I've been here many times, I just want to know about Ranran's situation..." Fan Li seldom begs for help like this, his voice was hoarse and choked, and he looked straight at Gu Haifeng with anticipation.

Facing Fan Li's gaze, Gu Haifeng frowned slightly, sighed helplessly and said, "Senior is still the same, he hasn't woken up."

Fan Li lowered his head slowly when he heard the sound, he knew this would be the case.

With slight hopes in his arms, he thought that Lin Qingran would wake up, and wondered if he should wake up after two years?Wondering if he woke up and just recuperated so he didn't show his face?

If that's the case, even if Lin Qingran doesn't want to see him, it's fine as long as he wakes up.

But...he didn't wake up after all...

"It's been two years... but still haven't woken up..." Fan Li seemed to be talking to himself, and said in a low voice, "...he...doesn't want to wake up..."

"Aww!" Rousong yelled at Fan Li.

Gu Haifeng patted Rouxong's head. At first, his impression of Fan Li was that Lin Qingran was happy when he was with him, so he thought it might be good.

But when he heard the conversation between his brother and Fan Li, he didn't have a good attitude.

He spent a lot of time by Gu Wenyu and Lin Qingran's side. After seeing Gu Wenyu and Lin Qingran get along with each other, and seeing Lin Qingran's health gradually improving, he was actually a little relieved.

But I didn't expect it to turn out like this.

"What do you want if the senior wakes up?" Gu Haifeng asked suddenly.

Fan Li was stunned for a moment, and Gu Haifeng continued to ask: "Do you still like him?"

Fan Li was silent for a few seconds, slowly lowered his eyes and did not answer.

In fact, he didn't need to answer, Gu Haifeng could tell from Fan Li's expression and movements that Fan Li still liked Lin Qingran.

"Forget it, you can do whatever you want." Gu Haifeng frowned and sighed: "This is your business, I don't want to deal with it."

It is his business that Fan Li likes Lin Qingran, and he has no right to interfere.

Leaving those words behind, Gu Haifeng walked towards Gu Wenyu's villa, walked a few steps and suddenly remembered something to warn him: "A word of advice, you'd better not let my brother find you."

Fan Li looked at Gu Haifeng's back, and whispered thank you.

This time, he knew that he could not escape the relationship, but he still liked Lin Qingran, and he wanted to apologize to Lin Qingran in person.

Even Lin Qingran would ignore him.

He blamed and reflected on what happened two years ago every day, and at the same time, he also missed Lin Qingran, but he couldn't see Lin Qingran in the past two years.

Looking at the master bedroom of Gu Wenyu's villa by the sea, he pursed his lips and lowered his eyes slowly.

"...Of course, is the strength of my massage appropriate?" Gu Wenyu gently massaged Lin Qingran's arm, speaking in a deep and gentle voice.

Lin Qingran slept for too long, his body had to be massaged frequently to promote blood circulation, Gu Wenyu was afraid at the beginning that he could not master the intensity, so he asked a specialized doctor to massage Lin Qingran, and only after he learned the technique to ensure that Lin Qingran would not be hurt or hurt, did he massage Lin Qingran himself .

After learning all the precautions and skills, Lin Qingran was taken care of by him himself, and he was worried about being taken care of by others, and he did not want others to touch Lin Qingran.

After massaging Lin Qingran's hands, he massaged his feet. After the massage, Gu Wenyu went to bed/bed and slept with Lin Qingran in his arms.

Holding Lin Qingran in his arms, gently stroking his soft hair, Lin Qingran's hair was cut some time ago, Gu Wenyu gently stroked his face and smiled softly.

"However, your hair has grown a little longer, and it's very soft." Gu Wenyu rubbed Lin Qingran's head lightly, and when his face touched the soft hair, he could smell the faint lemon-flavored shampoo as soon as he lowered his head, which smelled very good. .

The scent of the shower gel on Lin Qingran's body was the same as that of Gu Wenyu's, but it was different. Mixed with his own scent, Gu Wenyu's tense nerves slowly eased.

Gu Wenyu hugged Lin Qingran with his sideways body, their hearts overlapped, he hugged Lin Qingran tightly, holding his slender and white fingers, interlocking with him.

His scorching body temperature wrapped Lin Qingran's slender body, feeling Lin Qingran's slow beating heartbeat, and slowly, their heartbeat frequency gradually became the same.

Listening to the beating frequency of Lin Qingran's heart, Gu Wenyu lowered his head and kissed Lin Qingran's hair, slowly closed his eyes, and spoke softly.

"...Of course, good night."

……

There will always be some noisy voices from time to time in the silent dark space, Lin Qingran listens quietly, as if she is used to it, there is no disturbance in her heart.

"I had no choice but to give birth to him. I didn't want a child at all, who knew I was pregnant!"

"Forget it if you're pregnant, then give birth, otherwise I won't give birth at all, it's really troublesome!"

"Lin Qingran, you have to learn how to eat by yourself, you have to be sensible, your parents don't have so much time to accompany you, you have to be sensible and don't want your parents to always follow you behind."

"You can eat by yourself, or let auntie feed you, mom has no time to take care of you, mom is going to work."

"How can you hurt yourself playing with a toy? Don't play with toys in the future. Don't cry, I won't coax you. It's so annoying to cry with such a small injury!"

"There is no candy to eat, what kind of candy to eat, just do your homework and play by yourself."

"It's other people's business to have candy for other children. Why are you yelling at me? Mom doesn't have so much time to spend with you. Giving birth to you was already very troublesome!"

"Mom is too busy recently, you can have lunch at school, and I will pick you up in the evening."

"Dad doesn't have time, you can take care of it yourself. If you need anything, you can ask Dad's secretary. Dad is very busy."

"We have so much time to manage. You can stay in the future. Auntie will cook for you when you come back on weekends. If Auntie doesn't come, you can cook something yourself."

……

Lin Qingran was very calm listening to these impatient voices who showed no love for him.

He is like a very small fish in the water, as if he was abandoned by someone, swimming slowly, his existence can't stir up any ripples on the water surface.

Swimming in the depths of the water, he didn't know where to go. The water was deep, wide and cold, and the surroundings were very dark, with no light at all. It was so dark that he couldn't find his way.

He wandered aimlessly in the darkness, his tiny existence was hidden in the darkness, cold and dark.

Suddenly bumped into a rock in the dark, his head hurt so much, he wanted to cry subconsciously, but then he suddenly remembered that no one loved him when he cried, instead he would be scolded for it, and forced to express the sadness and pain in his heart. Heartbroken and swallowed back.

Swimming like this, he didn't know how many times he bumped into the rocks or was swept into waves by the sea. He felt very tired and tired, even numb.

Now he is able to swallow well no matter what pain or grievances he encounters, and even when he is hit with a broken head, his first reaction is to suppress the pain in his heart and smile very sensiblely.

Just like this, he continued to have sex in the dark, and he found that he didn't know when he got used to it, and it seemed that he would not feel pain anymore.

Swimming, swimming, suddenly he heard another voice in the dark, and subconsciously froze for a while.

"Of course, come to grandma, will grandma cook something delicious for you today?"

"Of course, tell grandma what you want to eat, and grandma will make it for you. You are still a child, so you don't need to be too sensible, you know?"

"Of course, you are not a child who is loved by no one. Grandma likes Ranran the most, but is there still grandma who loves Ranran?"

"With Ranran accompanying grandma, grandma feels very happy. Grandma likes Ranran the most!"

"There is no one in the world who shouldn't be born, but don't blame yourself, your birth was never a mistake."

"Of course, you are grandma's baby. Your birth has brought happiness to grandma. Don't blame yourself. Grandma wants to see Ranran happy forever."

……

Voices came from nowhere, like the warmth of a smile, those voices guided him, he seemed to see a light in front of him, and he swam desperately towards that light.

He swam desperately, the more he swam, the brighter the place he saw, and when he finally swam to the brightest light, he stopped slowly.

Lin Qingran felt that the air around him became warmer as the world became brighter. Looking at the grandma who was smiling kindly at him in the distance, there was a gray-haired old man behind grandma who walked up to grandma, and also looked at him. he laughs.

"...Grandma, Grandpa." Lin Qingran suddenly felt that the world brightened up, he was no longer a little fish nobody wanted.

He only felt a warm feeling in his heart, and ran towards grandma and grandpa, heat flooded his eyes unconsciously, moistening his entire eye sockets.

"Good boy, of course, my dear grandson, you have suffered." Grandma stroked Lin Qingran's head, still so kind and kind.

"Grandma!" The tears in Lin Qingran's eyes couldn't stop, they flowed down like a dike, and grandma helped him wipe the tears with distress: "Of course, don't cry, don't cry, my heart is really suffering, grandma is very distressed. "

"Grandma, I finally see you, I miss you so much, grandma..."

"Grandma misses you too, of course."

"Then grandma, don't leave me in the future. Let's live together, okay, with grandpa."

"Impossible." Grandma touched Lin Qingran's head and smiled: "Ran Ran has her own life, doesn't she? Grandma is accompanied by Grandpa, so don't worry."

"Grandma...you don't want me again, do you?" Lin Qingran choked up, tears streaming down more than just now, her eyes were red, and her eyelashes were stained with tears.

Grandma smiled kindly, and her voice was very soft: "Of course, grandma doesn't want you, grandma loves you too, but don't you have anything to miss in your heart?"

"The thing you miss..." Lin Qingran smiled, tears were still streaming down, he shook his head vigorously: "It's gone... It's gone a long time ago..."

"……Ran Ran."

"But please don't leave me..."

"But please...I can't live without you...but..."

"...Of course, I would go crazy without you, so... Please, don't leave me, please, please..."

"I can lose everything, but the only thing I can't lose is you, but... I would really go crazy without you, so you can take pity on me, okay... But..."

"Have pity on me...stay by my side, don't leave me...but...please understand..."

Another hoarse voice kept coming from a distance, that voice was hoarse and dull, with begging and trembling, it sounded very unbearable.

"Of course, look, is there someone waiting for you?" Grandma put Lin Qingran's hand on her own, and she gently patted the back of Lin Qingran's hand: "Don't worry about grandma, grandma and grandpa love you too."

After all, grandma and grandpa slowly disappeared from the twilight, Lin Qingran panicked for a moment, he subconsciously felt fear and panic.

When he was helpless, suddenly a warm embrace hugged him tightly.