Congratulations to the king of the net for capturing a genius

更新时间2015-3-2911：52：18字数：3120

After eating together, the group decided to go to sing K.Although Tezuka frowned again and again, he finally nodded with a cold handsome face. ——Well, let's indulge.

Tokyo is a city that never sleeps. At night, the colorful lights are shining, and the bustle and bustle are completely different from the daytime.The teenagers happily found a cheap KTV, and found a private room to go in and sing.At this time, Kikumaru was completely "alive", unable to see the silence during the day, excitedly ran up to order the first song, and quickly ordered a bunch of classic songs of "Chocolate Combination" on the playlist, and was overwhelmed by Dashi With a headache, he said, "Don't order so many by yourself, let others order a few songs first."

The accompaniment of the first song Kikumaru ordered has already started, and the red-haired boy is holding a microphone and waiting to start singing.Bu Er watched the streamer on the screen reflected on his face, and the unpredictable shadows flashed past, outlining the youthful but childish side face that had turned from cute to handsome.

"Eiji is much more mature than I imagined." Fuji sighed softly. He didn't know whether it was a memory error or many things were different in this life. He remembered very clearly in his last life. When playing together at night, he secretly buried him on the side of his neck and choked up. ——But now, there are traces of loneliness between the boy's brows and eyes, but the curvature of his lips is clear and real.

"Ah, everyone has matured a lot." It was Tezuka who answered, and if it wasn't someone who knew him well, he would probably want to roll his eyes at such an official response.

Bu Er chuckled, turned his head to look at this person who was really important to him, the person he had always followed, the person he still admired now, the friend and minister he had always been, his eyes inadvertently flashed a shallow trance and sigh.Time is really an interesting thing. When memory and reality partially overlap and partially deviate, people will feel more impermanent in the world.

——Maybe it's just parting, so it's extra sad.

"Hey, isn't Tezuka going to order some songs?"

"I'm not very good at singing." The tone was still serious.

"It's fine in normal times, but it's unreasonable not to sing today." Fuji held his chin and turned his head to look at Kikumaru, who had already begun to sing along with the accompaniment and shook his body, "I feel——Tezuka's voice would be very suitable for a ballad song Hey." Although it is a somewhat heavy and overly mature tone, it is unexpectedly suitable for songs with a touch of sadness, but this person really doesn't have much research on pop music, and seems to be good at traditional Japanese songs.

"Ah." Tezuka seemed to really think about it for a while before nodding his head, and then said, "Wait until they finish what they want to sing first."

"Actually, you still don't want to talk, Tezuka?" Fuji looked at him amusedly, "By the way, Eiji's voice is really good, it's very suitable for this brisk music style." Kikumaru looked at the screen very seriously. Singing, and jumping along with the MV from time to time, his movements are neat and handsome, full of dynamics-also, his reaction and jumping ability are among the best in the middle school.

Tezuka nodded silently.Fuji was about to get up and go to the karaoke machine to order songs, but suddenly he heard this person say: "Fuji, you and Yukimura—" Fuji was about to stand up and sat back, his eyes opened wide Two Wang cool blue.

"...You and Yukimura..." Tezuka frowned, showing a thoughtful expression, as if he wanted to say something but didn't know how to say it.

Seeing this familiar face, Buer sighed slightly, and cut off his words: "I'm with Jingshi." After thinking for a while, he couldn't make it clear, and added: "—the kind of lovers who are together. .”

Tezuka's unchanged expression seemed to change slightly, showing a little surprise, but it seemed to be clear.

"When we were staying together, when we lived in 201, I felt that your relationship was not like ordinary friends." Tezuka quickly recovered his usual calm expression, nodded, and looked at him with sharp golden eyes, " It was just a guess. But—" But I didn't expect you to confirm it so decisively and definitely.only--

"You——" Tezuka paused, a small imprint was formed between his brows, and he quickly smoothed himself out, "Is it serious?" There was a bit of doubt and uncertainty, but the sentence pattern used was an affirmative sentence.Not sure - because you are young, because the path you choose may mean that you are not in the world; sure, because you know these two people, and you will not mess around with the people you care about and your feelings.

Sure enough, Fuji smiled: "Tezuka, you are really sharp. Of course, you are serious."

"...After you think about it?" Tezuka's lips pursed slightly, and the raised eyebrows showed the master's restlessness.Although there was no ups and downs in his tone, he was already confused and contradictory.Not minding his sexuality or anything, Tezuka knows a lot about the history of samurai, and among them, the male sex of the samurai is an important part, known as "the way of all".For the traditional Japanese, this kind of same-sex love actually even has some lofty meanings. In modern times, because monogamy is practiced, women's status has been improved, and men can no longer eat both men and women as in the past. Falling in love with men means Cannot get married and have children, so the praise for same-sex love slowly evolved into opposition.

...When I was U-17, I felt the abnormal aura between Fuji and Yukimura. I vaguely guessed but didn't dare to think deeply...Some things seem to be sinful even if you think about them. Touched... But it is clear that many, many details are gradually becoming clear... Occasionally, when I see the sight of those two people meeting, I suddenly feel startled, and at a certain moment when I see the smile of the two people, I feel suddenly...

... At a certain moment of confusion and entanglement, I would also wonder in my heart, how could it be the same, and then suddenly take a deep breath at the next moment to suppress the strange thought.So what, why can't it be the same...

...After all, he is an unpredictable genius who has been paying attention to for three years. An opponent who I want to fight with all my strength and who wants to see his full strength. A reliable member who helps every friend... After all, he is such a gentle and smiling person who always walks by his side... So it's normal to be worried about the thorny road he chooses—right?Watching an important partner go down a road where there is almost no light, if you keep silent like this, without reminding him and making him think clearly, it is impossible from a rational or... emotional point of view.

Therefore, those vague uneasiness and confusion, those worries and persuasion hidden under the calm expression, are naturally logical. ...So, Buer, have you really thought it through?What you chose is a path that is too difficult and difficult, and it takes thousands of pains to exchange for short-term joy and happiness...

"I think very clearly, Tezuka." The brows and eyes of the young man sitting beside him were extraordinarily soft under the dim light of KTV, like a serene prayer in candlelight, and like an angel who accidentally fell into the world, so clean and gentle Not stained with dust, but a smile on the corners of his lips is clearly firm to cold, and his eyes are suddenly opened with a line of eyes, passing the determination like the cold wind of Siberia.

"—I thought about the reactions of my parents, my peers, and my colleagues in the future—I know that I may face contempt or alienation when I go out, and I may be scolded by my parents or at least have mother's tears at home, but -"

"—Thinking of giving up on him, thinking of going against the truest wishes, being with someone you don't like, and even hurting an innocent girl—"

"I feel that those possible difficulties are nothing."

"—not greatness or anything, I just chose the lesser of two pains."

"Those kinds of things are easier to bear than the pain of betraying one's own heart, compared to the pain of not being around. I just chose the one that I can accept."

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(Science popularization: Japanese samurai spirit highly respects same-sex love. The representative work of Japanese samurai, Yamamoto Tsunetomo's "Ye Yin" stated many samurai love rules. The "essence of love" refers to the "spirit of all ways". It is also the "way of homosexuality" for men. Therefore, Yamamoto Changchao earnestly taught the samurai: Don't be like a wild cat in heat, eager to climb on the other's back when you meet a slightly pleasing one, and you have to observe it for at least five years before you can confide in the other party. The meaning of admiration. Once the two are in love, they must swear to the death like a martyr to the second "brother". From the perspective of pursuing elegance, "masculine homosexuality in the Edo period was a kind of sublime elegance". Even in Edo Jing Yuan Xihe, a great color Taoist of the era, even said: "Ruozhong (youth) without allies is equivalent to a girl who has no one to propose marriage." It is a shame to say it. In the Edo period, ** was not ashamed, but proud. If a man was not capable of eating all men and women, he might not get the title of "***man". There are many examples of this: Japan's Sengoku period The relationship between Kosaka Masanobu and Takeda Shingen is evidenced by letters, and Uesugi Kenshin has never approached women, and the relationship with Naoe Kantsuke has become a good story... because no modern woman would want to let her lover have another outsider. Boyfriend, so homosexuality will lead to no family and no offspring, which makes homosexuality gradually decline in Japan and is disgusted)