imaginary rival

After Ran Hang said the phrase "I'm going to die", Yan An didn't move any more.

There was no reaction, no expression, as if someone had pulled the plug, turning into a cold and dull machine.

He was getting scared.

Ran Hang's words tore up Yan An's refuge and exposed him to the situation he feared the most. Ran Hang, the person who left a shadow on Yan An, now personally said to Yan An, "I will die!" ", how scared would Yan An be?

Jiang Shiyu suddenly felt distressed.

She was so distressed that she wanted to pull Yan An up and run away, leaving this place.

Their original purpose was to see what Ran Hang's so-called "already" was like, and what happened. Now that they have figured everything out, it's time to leave.

No need to stop here.

"I see," Yan An suddenly recovered, "We won't tell Aunt Wang about this."

Ran Hang smiled, with an expression that was as expected.

"You can't leave for the time being, but you will keep in touch, right?" Yan An asked.

"En." Ran Hang nodded.

"Then I wish you success in advance." Yan An smiled and snapped his fingers.

Jiang Shiyu turned his head to look at Yan An's expression, without saying a word.

Probably because they were afraid that they would stay in the toilet for too long and cause suspicion, Ran Hang and the others quickly returned to the box. They all hid their emotions, but at the dinner table, Jiang Shiyu and Yan An's words were obviously much less.

Aunt Wang served Yan An a bowl of soup, and asked softly, "Why did you go so long just now?"

"I feel a little uncomfortable in my stomach," Jiang Shiyu said immediately, "Let them wait for me for a while."

"Yes." Aunt Wang smiled.

"Yes." Jiang Shiyu looked up at Aunt Wang.

The meal was boring, and Aunt Wang and the others said they wanted to send Jiang Shiyu home, but they were also rejected. Yan An casually made an excuse, saying that he was going to the library, and Jiang Shiyu agreed, so the car stopped. At the intersection.

Before leaving, Ran Hang and Yan An exchanged contact information. He got a new mobile phone just after he was discharged from the hospital, but Jiang Shiyu saw that Ran Hang saved Yan An's mobile phone number and handed the mobile phone to Aunt Wang. After checking it again, he returned it. gave himself.

It was just these few simple movements that made Jiang Shiyu breathless, and he was a little absent-minded when walking on the road.

Yan An's pressure should be even greater.

Jiang Shiyu thought.

After all, Yan An has lived in their shadow since he was a child.

Now they saw everything they wanted to see and knew what Ran Hang really thought.

and then?

Does Yan An feel better?

"Is your mother at home?" Yan An suddenly stopped and turned to ask Jiang Shiyu.

"...not here," Jiang Shiyu stared at him blankly, "She said she was going on a business trip and would come back after a long time."

"Oh," Yan An rubbed his shoes on the ground twice, "Let's go to your house."

"Huh?" Jiang Shiyu pursed his lips, "Okay."

"Don't you ask why?" Yan An twitched the corner of his mouth.

"Why." Jiang Shiyu said.

"Guess." Yan An smiled.

"Then what do you want me to ask?" Jiang Shiyu also smiled, "It seems that you are more democratic?"

"Yes," Yan An walked to the side of the road to stop the car, "...the main reason is that I don't want them to see me."

Jiang Shiyu walked up to him and looked at him intently.

"Sometimes like that," Yan An looked across the road, "When I'm not in a good mood, I don't want my parents to see it."

Jiang Shiyu hesitated for a while, and nodded his head in agreement with Yan An's words.

Most of the time he was in a bad mood because of his parents, so he couldn't understand Yan An's emotions.

But Yan An said he was going to his house, and he had no reason to stop him.

It is the hottest time right now, the leaves are softened by the sun, and the air is too concentrated to float. Just walking from the entrance of the community to the entrance of the corridor, Yan An's sweat has soaked the clothes behind him. Staring at Jiang Shiyu for two seconds, he suddenly reached out and quickly lifted his clothes, and touched his back.

Jiang Shiyu was almost made to jump out by his blow, turned around and tore off his clothes, staring at Yan An: "What are you doing?"

"...Ah, I will," Yan An was also stunned, "see if you are sweating."

"I'm not sweating on such a hot day, I'm dead," Jiang Shiyu pressed the elevator, "Let me tell you, Yan An."

"En." Yan An responded.

"It doesn't take three seconds for another person to touch me like this," Jiang Shiyu said. When the elevator arrived, he walked into the elevator and looked at Yan An, and said, "I will immediately kneel down and beg him not to die."

Yan An groaned and stopped talking.

When the elevator started to go up, he suddenly started to laugh. He didn't know which planet Reflex Arc went to and came back from running a marathon, and he laughed at the elevator door for a while.

Jiang Shiyu ignored him, walked out of the elevator and touched the key to open the door, went into the room and turned on the air conditioner, turned his head, Yan An had just finished changing his shoes, took two steps inside, and suddenly jumped up and made a shooting motion.

"Fuck." Jiang Shiyu smiled.

"I'll wash my face." Yan An smiled and turned into the toilet.

"Okay." Jiang Shiyu agreed.

After Yan An came out, he also went to wash his face, and felt that his body was sweating too much, so he went to find some clothes and came back to take a quick shower. When the cold water flowed through his body, his mind was full of Ran Hang's business, This matter has come to an end with them, but it is the kind of ending without a problem, which makes people very uncomfortable.

He sighed, dried his body and went out. Yan An was leaning on the sofa and was already falling asleep, his head was shaking. When Jiang Shiyu walked in, he suddenly widened his eyes and looked at him: "What are you doing?"

"Go inside and sleep," Jiang Shiyu said, "It's very uncomfortable to sleep here."

Yan An was stunned for a while, maybe he hadn't recovered yet, after listening to Jiang Shiyu's words, he subconsciously stood up and walked towards Jiang Shiyu's room.

Jiang Shiyu's room was quite clean, just like him, with an indescribable aura all over his body, which was not conspicuous, but it was easy to distinguish after contact, and he would not be the type of follow the crowd.

Yan An fell on the bed and sat up again: "Doesn't your family have the tradition of not being allowed to go to bed wearing outside clothes?"

"Who told you?" Jiang Shiyu entered the room and looked at him.

"The first time you went to my house," Yan An said, "you took a nap and you were completely undressed."

"...Can I just take off my coat and pants?" Jiang Shiyu looked at him speechlessly, "It's the first time I've been to your house, how could I go to bed wearing outer clothes?"

"Oh." Yan An fell back again, sat up with his body propped up after thinking about it, "You won't change the bed sheets for the quilt cover after I leave, will you?"

"Not only did I change the sheets, but I also washed them with disinfectant more than 40 times," Jiang Shiyu pointed at him, "I can't sleep anymore."

Yan An really fell on the bed this time.

Naps are an amazing thing.

When sleepiness strikes, even the sky falling can't hinder the heart from sleeping, but once someone wakes you up, it will take a certain amount of time to fall asleep again.

Yan An lay down for a while, and felt that the mattress beside him had collapsed. Jiang Shiyu should have also laid down on it. He moved in to make room for Jiang Shiyu, and gradually slowed down his breathing. .

Jiang Shiyu was lying on the bed, and when he was about to close his eyes, Yan An suddenly poked his arm: "Hey."

"Huh?" Jiang Shiyu turned to look at him.

"I thought about it for a while," Yan An said, "You asked me the question of whether I should be aggrieved or not."

Jiang Shiyu simply turned over and stared at Yan An while lying on his side.

"Actually, I'm a little bit aggrieved," Yan An said, and after a pause, he said uncertainly, "Isn't it?"

"...Yeah," Jiang Shiyu sighed, "how could he not be aggrieved."

Yan An was stunned for a while, but didn't answer any more.

"From the beginning of this incident... To be honest, from my point of view, you are the victim," Jiang Shiyu said, "You were also frightened and left a shadow, but Aunt Wang still guided you. It's unfair to do things for her."

"The more I talk about it, the more I feel like an idiot." Yan An laughed, the corners of his mouth stiffened.

Jiang Shiyu stared at him for a while, then said softly, "I'm not an idiot."

Yan An turned to look at him.

"You are so kind. You take care of everyone's emotions. Aunt Wang told you that Ran Hang can only trust you. Only you can make him feel better, so you don't care. They understand your kindness." , will definitely make more use of it," Jiang Shiyu hesitated, and continued, "So... it's quite normal to be aggrieved."

"But before you said the word 'suffering'," Yan An raised his hand and waved it casually in the air, "I really didn't feel anything at all, after so many years... I'm not stupid Is it?"

"I'm not stupid." Jiang Shiyu said, "Everyone is like this. If no one comes to wake up, you will never discover those things that you have ignored in your life."

"Including concealing things about yourself?" Yan An asked.

"Hiding yourself?" Jiang Shiyu didn't understand.

"Ah, that's the kind," Yan An's hand dropped heavily, "I lied to myself."

Jiang Shiyu paused for a while, but did not answer.

"Sometimes, some things are discovered, but they cannot be admitted," Yan An continued, "It will bring a lot of pressure to myself."

"If you don't admit it all the time, the pressure will be with you for the rest of your life." Jiang Shiyu sat up and turned to look at Yan An. "There are many paths that must be chosen."

Yan An didn't speak.

His eyes were staring blankly at the ceiling, he didn't know what he was thinking, maybe he didn't think about anything, people never know what they are thinking when they are distracted.

After taking a nap, he probably couldn't sleep anymore, so Jiang Shiyu put on his shoes and was about to go to the toilet, when Yan An suddenly spoke, his voice was hoarse, and he asked word by word: "Jiang Shiyu, are you gay? "

Jiang Shiyu's joints seemed to be stuck, and his body turned around a little bit, and an annoying clicking sound could even be heard.

Jiang Shiyu looked at him.

"...Don't be angry, I just...ask," Yan An said with difficulty, and paused after a few words, as if he was sorting out his words, "Just now Lian Zhou said what he heard at the airport, he said you Too."

Jiang Shiyu didn't make a sound, just looked at him quietly, but his heart was almost jumping in his throat, and he could beat it out with just a hiccup.

"Besides, that time before," Yan An sat up, with his head bowed and his shoulders slumped, "did you kiss me?"

Jiang Shiyu's hand hanging by his side gradually clenched into a fist.

"I thought it was because I fell asleep and had a dream. After all, I, I think you have always liked Xie Lanlan," Yan An said in a low voice, "Later Xie Lanlan told me that you didn't like her, and that dream suddenly became very strange. It's real."

As he said, he raised his hand and touched his forehead, "Maybe it's my illusion..."

"Are you afraid of me?" Jiang Shiyu interrupted him.

Yan An raised his head at once, looked at Jiang Shiyu with complicated eyes, and after a while, slowly uttered two words: "No."

"...Well," Jiang Shiyu nodded, "I am."

"Oh," Yan An raised his hand and scratched his head, "I see."

Jiang Shiyu turned around and said, "I'm going to the bathroom."

Yan An nodded and didn't answer him again.

imaginary rival