paranoid like you

The action of Fu Chaosi putting his hand into Ye Muxiang's waist startled the latter, he pushed Fu Chaosi away, his breathing was unconcealable, "Fu Chaosi, I just want to ask a question." Ye Muxiang tried to calm himself down, Looking into Fu Chaosi's eyes, "Are you... straight?"

At this moment, Fu Chaosi was on the point of excitement, when he was suddenly pushed away and interrupted, his eyes were full of anger, he was so annoyed to death, he didn't think about it, and said directly: "Of course I'm fucking straight."

After finishing speaking, Fu Chaosi immediately pressed Ye Muxiang's lips again, and just as his tongue slipped in, Ye Muxiang bit the tip of his tongue and pushed it away fiercely.

Ye Mo thought his chest was rising and falling, and his breathing was still unsteady, "You are straight." He clenched his fists tightly, with anger in his eyes: "But I am not! Not from beginning to end!"

The cold rain patted Ye Muxiang's hair, making it ache from the cold.

"I'm gay, and I'm feudal, rigid, and conservative! I don't have time to play such flirtatious games with you!" Ye Mu wanted to punch the corner of his mouth, and roared, "It doesn't matter who you like to play with, but please don't Come on me. I'm not that great."

"Fu Chaosi, I can't afford it!"

After all, he left Fu Chaosi alone, covered in anger, and disappeared from Fu Chaosi's field of vision without looking back.

The cold rainwater, with icicles, slapped Fu Chaosi's face, and the place where he had been hit by the other party was particularly painful.

Grass!

Fu Chaosi clenched his fists and kicked the water on the ground violently, splashing a large amount of water.

On the other side, Ye Mu wanted to lean against the corner of the stairwell, the rainwater slowly falling down the tip of her hair.

He couldn't remember exactly when he realized that he liked men.Or, he just knew he would never like a woman.

When he was in junior high school, adolescent boys always liked to privately discuss the beautiful girls in the class, or secretly look at pictures of naked girls, but he would never participate in these things that other boys were interested in.

But it's not how noble he is, it's just that he's really not interested.

When he was a child, Ye Muxiang never took the initiative to communicate with women. Others often said that he was rude and ignorant.But only he knew it, he was just afraid.

Ever since I was four years old, I witnessed that kind of relationship between my father and a woman I didn't know in bed.His childhood seemed to be covered with a shadow that would never come off. Ye Mu would feel a sense of physical disgust and resistance if he wanted to see a woman again.

As he grows older, although his repulsion is no longer as strong as when he was a child, he still does not want to get close to any woman except his grandmother.

Later, when he got older, he gradually realized that he would probably never like women.

If you don't like women, you like men.For Ye Muxiang, accepting the fact that he is gay is much easier than accepting a woman.

But in these more than ten years, Ye Muxiang has never met anyone who made his heart beat, no matter male or female.

Ye Mo thinks he is satisfied with this state, love and liking are unimportant appendages in his life.His life does not need to be occupied by these meaningless things in time and space.

Until that sunny early spring, a man named Fu Chaosi forcibly broke into his life.

This person is arrogant and conceited, revealing the appearance of a playboy in his bones, and he is completely in a different world from him.None of the other party's behavior or way of dealing with things can be accepted by him. For this kind of person, Ye Mu only wants to stay as far away from him as possible.

But Fu Chaosi always appeared by his side all the time, harassing him with all kinds of naughty behaviors he could think of or unexpected.

Ye Moxiang once thought that nothing would make him lose his temper, but this man named Fu Chaosi touched his bottom line again and again.He was very troubled by the other party's various behaviors, how could there be such a shameless person as Fu Chaosi in this world.

But maybe it is really thinking about you every day and eventually becoming sick.

Everyone has different shining points, especially the shining points of stubborn people, which may be infinitely magnified.

Ye Mo wanted to gradually realize that although this person is annoying, he always has a good and soft side in his heart.He is honest, kind and brave, he is smart, and he has a strong logical ability.

Fu Chaosi always appeared in front of him when he was most vulnerable and most in need of help.Although his help and care always reveal all kinds of funny and imperfect, but it still makes people's hearts warm.

Ye Moxiang is not a cold-blooded animal after all.

Thanks to Fu Chaosi, for 18 years, Ye Muxiang finally felt his heart beating faster.

That indescribable feeling made him restless, but he was unexpectedly addicted.

It's like a drug, once you've been in contact with it once, you know it's harmless, but you still can't help wanting to get closer.

At the age of a teenager, Ye Mu wanted to live his life as the most standard "good student" template, but this does not mean that he did not increase his fantasy and rebellion.But what he dared not, even Fu Chaosi dared.

This person took him to drink, took him to skip classes, and even... took him to kiss.

Take him to do everything he thinks crazy.

Ye Mu wanted to boast that he was a calm and calm person, but Fu Chaosi's intrusion made him unable to calm down anymore.

In his sleep at night, he met this person.Even dreamed of kissing wildly with this person.Waking up from the dream, he was sweating profusely, clutching the corner of the quilt in regret.Ye Mo wanted to feel that he was crazy, he didn't know himself anymore.

When Ye Mu wanted to drink too much, he even wondered whether this person could be his companion for the rest of his life.

But ideals and reality are always full of gaps. After their first crazy kiss, Fu Chaosi didn't even dare to see his face.

When he stood in front of Fu Chaosi and watched the other party avoid him.Beginning to regret that if they hadn't kissed, at least they could have been friends.

But now, maybe even the right to be friends are gone.

Therefore, Ye Mo wanted to tell the lie that he was most unwilling to tell in his life. He told Fu Chaosi that he had forgotten everything that happened the night before.

Even though he is unforgettable, he clearly remembers every action of Fu Chaosi kissing him that night, and every moving whisper that the other party said in his ear.The fiery and madness between his lips and his restless heart, he vowed that he would never forget it in his life, and no one would make him lose himself like this again.

Ye Muxiang's lie was full of loopholes, but Fu Chaosi was so stupid that he didn't have any doubts.

The feeling of being pierced in the bottom of my heart is not good, this is the first time Ye Mu wants to feel it, but he hopes never to have it again.

He probably really fell in love with this arrogant and playful boy.He likes it more than he imagined.

Because of his parents, Ye Mu wanted to believe in love or not.No matter how beautiful a relationship is, it will have a shelf life. He doesn't like to hold things that will break in his palm.

Especially, when Ye Mu wanted to know that Fu Chaosi didn't like men.He felt that it was good to be able to maintain the relationship of friends.

After all, liking and owning are two different things.

They can obviously keep a polite distance all the time.

As long as Fu Chaosi doesn't take the initiative to provoke him...

For more than half a month after that night, Fu Chaosi hadn't contacted Ye Muxiang again, as if they had never appeared in each other's lives.

When Fu Chaosi was occasionally upset, he would look through the confession wall or the post bar to find some news about Ye Muxiang.

It's not that he didn't want to take the initiative to apologize to the other party in the past, but every time he took out his phone and wanted to send a WeChat message, he didn't know how to say it.

He didn't even want to think about how many times he used such naughty behavior to harass Ye Muxiang.But all his life, he lived fearlessly, and there was nothing he dared not do before.

But that night, even the previous few actions, although they were impulsive, Fu Chaosi did not shy away from the exhilarating feeling at that time.If it happened again, he would still kiss, even if he would be beaten severely by the other party.

In fact, he himself couldn't figure out why he had such an impulse.The only thing that would make him regret is that he might not be able to be friends with Ye Mu anymore.

In the third year of high school, everyone's time is relatively busy. Zhang Shuai also organized two parties, but Ye Moxiang never came.The days went back to the beginning, Fu Chaosi slept in class every day, occasionally brushed up on questions, and lived a life of joking with Big Zhang.

On the weekend morning, Fu Chaosi was still asleep, but was awakened by several knocks on the door.

He lifted the quilt and stood up to open the door. A stylishly dressed girl appeared in front of the door. Fu Chaosi said, "Who are you?"

"Your girlfriend! What's the matter? Handsome guy, you forgot?" The girl winked at him, unceremoniously, pushed the door open and walked in.Putting on slippers, she sat on the sofa at Fu Chaosi's house with Erlang's legs crossed.

A series of familiar operations by the other party made Fu Chaosi, who was not yet fully awake, dizzy.Just as he was about to make a fuss, he was interrupted by Zhang Dazi's phone call.

"Brother Fu, what... is there a girl knocking on your door?"

Fu Chaosi glanced at the girl sitting on the sofa smiling at him, and pressed the center of her brows irritably, "Yes, who is she?"

"Hey Brother Fu, this... this is actually the one-day girlfriend I was looking for." The voice of the big man was timid.

"I don't care what she is, get her away quickly." Fu Chaosi's voice was a little impatient.

"My dad is at home today, so I can't go out! Brother Fu, why don't you get rid of her for me? We've already paid the money, so you just say I don't have an appointment, just let her go." Big Zhang said.

"It's not... What are you fussing about?" Fu Chaosi walked to the end of the sofa farthest from the girl and sat down.

"I... I doubt myself recently, maybe I'm not straight, so I want to find a girl and make a date. But who would have thought that my dad won't work overtime today and won't let me go out. "

Fu Chaosi held up his mobile phone with his arms resting on the armrest.Every time he said a few words, he glanced at the girl not far away, to beware of her troubles.

"You ask a girl yourself, why leave my home address?"