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Ever since I confessed my love to Liang Chi, the atmosphere between me and him has been in a very awkward situation.

Of course, this embarrassment may be spontaneous on my part.Because every time we accidentally met at school or somewhere in the town, he would still greet me as usual, but I was a little guilty and deliberately avoided him.

I was afraid to communicate with him. At that time, confessing to him was just a momentary thing. Looking back, I started to regret it. Every time I saw Liang Chi, I would feel a little restless. The memory of that confession was pulled out.

It's a pity that the water is hard to stop, just like Liang Chi told me that he likes Li Na in the class next door. Subconsciously, I have already regarded this pale girl who would be out of breath after running two steps as a rival in love.

I even asked Yu Meng to get me a whole set of information about Li Na.

"Why, if you can't catch up with the man, the heartbroken will go 'straight' back?" Yu Meng laughed at me while giving me the news about Li Na she had inquired about.

I grabbed her notebook with information and said, "Don't worry about it."

"It can be seen that there is a conspiracy." She looked clear at a glance.

I don't hide it either: "Liang Chi likes her."

"Oh my god!" Yu Meng said excitedly, "I never imagined that our simple Tang Tang would become so scheming because of a man, are you going to rob her of a man!"

"Walk, walk." I slapped him away, "Why are you thinking so much, I just want to see what kind of person he likes."

"Come on, come on. I understand all this, but Tangtang, are you sure you're going to chase after Liangchi?" For the first time, Yu Meng, who was fearless, became suspicious.

I was a little confused by her question, but thinking that I had already confessed my love to him, it seemed that it would be okay to do other things later, so I said: "I must get a like."

Yu Meng looked at me in surprise: "Tang Tang, do you think this is asking your mother to buy you toys?"

Hearing her words, I didn’t respond. At that time, I was 13 years old, and I had a reckless attitude towards feelings that “the heart will never die without seeing the Yellow River”. I don’t want my feelings to be like those in TV or stories because I am ashamed to speak But in the case of stillborn, I will definitely choose the latter for "regret for not getting it" and "sadness for losing after having it".

I was thinking, maybe this is the only thing I face more bravely than Yu Meng.

I started to contact Li Na premeditatedly.

Because I entered No. [-] Middle School through the relationship of Liang Chi's father, I have been working hard in my studies, and with such a good "teacher" as Liang Chi, my grades can barely enter the top ten in my grade.In that era, it was not difficult for such a grade to build a good relationship with the top students in the school. You just "ask a question".

Coupled with the fact that GAY is born with the gene to be friends with women, it didn't take long before Li Na and I became friends.

At least in my opinion yes.

Because SARS lasted for more than a year, the courses in our school have been on and off during that time.Many students were locked at home and not allowed to go out.So, I always hide at grandma's house, because the natural enemy of my parents is their parents, and grandma treats me well and is reluctant to lock me up, so I always have the privilege to go out and play.

I secretly ran to Li Na's house to play with her.

Li Na has congenital heart disease, so her parents are very loose with her discipline, basically she can do whatever she wants.I couldn't help but envy her, but she had a wry smile on her face. I didn't understand it at the time, but I realized later that if some love brings guilt, it will change its taste.

Li Na loves to study very much, so I always study with her for a long time, and then she goes out to play with me with a face full of helplessness when I am soft and hard.She can't exercise vigorously, so it's always me riding her around in a confidence car.

At that time, the entire southern city was just the factory in the east of the city, and the industrial pollution was not too serious. The sky was high and blue, and the sunlight was particularly soft. The peaceful atmosphere of the town was particularly clear in this environment.

Because of the SARS virus, people sprinkled disinfectant in the streets and alleys from time to time, so the air breathed into the lungs when walking on the road at that time had a pungent cold breath.

A "comrade" may be passionate about a person of the same sex, but he will never have any unreasonable thoughts about a person of the opposite sex. Therefore, I never thought that my relationship with Li Na would go to a place that I never thought of direction development.

I remember that it was also a sunny afternoon, I took Li Na around the town by bike, and then her hand was on my waist.

I was so frightened that I almost fell off the bicycle.

Creaking, I squeezed the brakes tightly, and the inertia caused Li Na to lean on my back fiercely.Embarrassment spread because of my unprepared action.

I turned my head cautiously and found that Li Na lowered her head and her face was pale. I wanted to say something to ease the damn atmosphere between us, but "Eh..." I didn't say a complete sentence for a long time Come on, I looked up anxiously, and saw Liang Chi.

Three

When summer came, SARS was still not well under control, and the final exams were rushed, and we finally ushered in a long summer vacation.

"Tang Tang, what are you going to do in summer vacation?" Yu Meng asked me when I was packing up and going home.

"No plans." I said listlessly.

"Han Tang, you are a bit promising, aren't you just a man? It's been two months, so what?" At that time, only Yu Meng and I were left.I simply sat down.

I didn't expect Liang Chi to be so angry. The last time he saw me and Li Na, until now, almost two months ago, he just didn't say a word to me.At first I was afraid to communicate with him, but now, he is completely avoiding me, and even a few times we met at school or in the town, when I smiled and said hello to him, he always had a cold face and said Walked by like a stranger.

Damn, even a dog would lean over and touch it twice, but now I'm worse than a dog.Thinking to myself, I feel like I'm worthless again. Isn't this just liking someone? I'm jealous of dogs no matter what.Hey, this person, once someone keeps a handle on him, he becomes a fish on the chopping board, and he is not allowed to be slaughtered.

I was thinking in a mess, when I heard Yu Meng over there say: "Hey~ Tell me, Liang Chi is jealous, right?"

"That's not true." I threw myself on the table, depressed.

"I mean, he won't be jealous of you."

"How is it possible." Before she finished speaking, I interrupted her, "He can't like boys."

"Maybe, look at the arrogant look on Liang Chi's face every time he walks past you, he's definitely jealous, but I'm too embarrassed to say, just because you like him, I'm going to have trouble with you." Yu Meng As he said that, his eyes were about to burst into stars.

I looked at her speechlessly, and replied: "Did you watch too many TV dramas and think about things all day long?"

She came over and slapped me on the head, and said, "Just trust me, and besides, Liang Chi's birthday is in September, right?"

I took Yu Meng to Liang Chi's birthday last time, I didn't expect her to have such a good memory, and I didn't know why she asked such a question suddenly, so I nodded silently.

"That's right." She concluded.

"What's right."

"He's a Virgo!"

"What...a virgin? How did he become a virgin." I had no idea what she was talking about.

"You." She looked at me as if she was looking at an alien, "As a gay, you don't know astrology. It's really a failure."

……

Finally, under Yu Meng's constant brainwashing, I subtly began to accept "Liang Chi is eating my jealousy." Such a point of view, of course, I also understand, this is the little bit of my own feelings for myself. A little hope, but before I let it out of the water, Yu Meng, a reckless man, forcibly pulled it out.

So, on the second day of summer vacation, I decided to ask Liang Chi out to play badminton.

Of course, this idea was suggested by Yu Meng and me. "Why badminton, I don't know how to play." I asked her.

"You don't know that. According to my observation, most of these gays don't know how to play basketball or football."

"Why, I just like playing football."

"I said most, because it sweats a lot and is dirty, and the key is not beautiful enough." She said with a straight face.I was left speechless by her nonsense, and then I heard her continue to say, "So, out of ten comrades, nine play badminton."

"Then playing badminton doesn't have to be gay." I said.

"That's for sure." She squinted and looked at me with an unfathomable face. "Understand it, if a person wants to accept a group, of course he must first start with their culture."

"I think you look like a magic stick."

She came up and slapped me on the head again, and said: "Sister reinforced concrete can bend you, let alone a mere man!"