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Liang Chi's bride is in the same office as him.

1.6 meters tall, not very beautiful, but fortunately fair skin, a pair of dimples when smiling, giving people a clean feeling, at first glance, it is the type suitable for living.

Knowing that Liang Chi and I are good friends, she entertained me warmly, brought me tea and water, asked me if I was cold, and quickly went to get the electric heater skillfully, I told her not to be polite.

But she smiled and said, "You're welcome, you're Liang Chi's friend and mine, and coming here is like your home."

I was stunned by her saying that I made it at home, but I smiled on my mouth: "Liang Chi is my good buddy, I will treat it as my own home, don't be too polite, I can do it myself if I have anything."

She still smiled and turned on the heat for me, and then said: "Okay, I heard from Liang Chi that you are especially good at making dumplings. I will ask you to teach me another day. I will make dumplings for this guy in the future, so that he won't eat dumplings every time. It’s unhealthy to buy the quick-frozen ones outside.”

Hearing what she said, my heart began to ache. I didn't know how to respond to her, so I just said something, didn't I?

She was not angry when she saw my reaction, she just smiled softly: "Why, don't you want to?"

"No, no, I will teach you when I have time." I quickly explained.

During the whole process, Liang Chi stood beside him without saying a word.

His silence made me very uncomfortable.

"Do you regret it?" Yu Meng asked me after we sat down at the banquet.

I remembered that when I was tying Liang Chi's bow tie just now, he suddenly held my hand. At that time, I was taken aback by his sudden movement, but I continued to adjust the tie for him.

But he squeezed my hand tightly, as if he was not going to let go.

"What's wrong?" I asked him.

"I'm afraid," he said.

But I was a little shocked. I looked up at him and found that he was looking at me with those black eyes open. He had simple short hair, and the eyebrows above the straight bridge of the nose stood there like two swords. Can't help but want to touch it twice.

I saw his thin lips tightly pursed, as if he was really scared, so I smiled: "Why, you still have premarital phobia!"

Unexpectedly, he said: "I'm afraid I will..."

I interrupted him: "Don't be stupid, get married well, and give birth to a white and fat young man in the future, I will be his godfather!"

Hearing my words, he slowly lowered my hand, and then I heard a sigh as light as dust falling to the ground.I ignored it, I straightened his bow tie, then patted him on the shoulder, pretending to smile relaxedly: "Come on, I am very happy today, be happy, and have a quick smile."

He curled his lips, but couldn't laugh in the end.

In fact, we were only in our twenties at that time, but the conversation was full of worldly old-fashionedness. Thinking of this, I shook my head unconsciously, and I stopped here when I thought about it. I looked up at the stage and was amused by the host. The newcomer blushed for a while, as if he was determined in his heart, I said to Yu Meng: "Yes."

In fact, when I saw him put on that dress, I started to regret it. How I wished that the person standing next to him was me at this moment. My possessive desire told me that this handsome man It was supposed to be mine, but my indecision made me farther and farther away from him.

I heard the host ask them some vows, I bent down and tightened the shoelaces, and then a tissue next to me was handed over.

I heard Liang Chi's deep voice saying that I am willing, neither happy nor sad, even when he got married, he still had such a calm and plain tone.I couldn't bear it anymore, the tears that had already filled my eyes fell down, one after another, all smashed into the dark red carpet, and finally disappeared.

At that time, I suddenly understood a truth, that is, when we are young, hormones are strong, at this time, about the future, the future, this kind of words without the exact concept of time will always blind our eyes, let us say it with confidence Some rhetoric, we think we are different from other people, and we will live different lives.

However, time has the power to straighten everything out, and all the differences will eventually be integrated into a similar parallel line by him, and then move forward flatly. Death is a result, and the future is just a happening.

In my life, I have never really had a boy named Liangchi.

He has never been my Crayon Newbie figurine, but he has become a knot in my heart that will never be untied.

Hu Chao probably learned about Liang Chi's marriage from Yu Meng. He called me on purpose, as if he wanted to comfort me, but he didn't want to express it directly.Later, I told him bluntly that I was fine, so he was relieved.This guy didn't forget to tell me at the end that he wanted me to wait for him, so I purposely laughed and said, "Come back soon, we're all waiting for you."

His voice sounded sad, and he said: "I also want to go back quickly, but...forget it, Han Tang, just wait, when I am strong enough, I won't scare you anymore , I will let you accept your identity in an open and honest manner."

I was taken aback, but he came: "Okay, I'm very busy here, I'll contact you when I have time!" After finishing speaking, he hung up the phone in a hurry, and I was holding the phone, but I stood there in a daze, my head kept echoing His words.

My heart seemed to be knocked hard by someone. At that moment, the principle of evasion that I have always been in my heart slowly receded. I thought, a group of people like us, it seems that only if we are strong enough, can we fight against those ignorance and ignorance openly. .

After all, the frankness of a weak person deeply hurts those who love him the most!

In [-], like many people who pursue their dreams, I chose Beidiao.

When I first arrived in Beijing, I was not used to many places.In this reinforced concrete forest, I feel more and more small, but I am also full of longings and expectations for the future that I have never had before.

People can't always live in love, after all, the meaning of life is to keep moving forward and filling oneself.

I think this kind of courage and open-mindedness that I didn't have before is probably the best gift that the years have given me.

Liang Chi would occasionally call me, but we were still so inarticulate. Every time the phone was connected, after the two of them simply said hello, the atmosphere became very awkward, and finally hung up the phone slowly in this embarrassment.

Yu Meng and Zhang Ao went back to their hometown and took over Zhang Ao's mother's factory. Yu Meng would still call me to 'complain' every time he got into trouble with Zhang Ao. Say too much.

Hu Chao will also call me every week, ask some messy situations, and tell some jokes that are unique to him.

We chatted all over the world, and every time the topic ended with him asking me to wait for him... The days seemed to be moving forward in such an uneven form.

One day in March of that year, I received a call from Hu Chao. His tone could not conceal his excitement. He said, "Han Tang, do you know where I am now?"

"Where is it?" When I answered the phone, I was busy with some things at work, and I was too lazy to guess with him.

He didn't keep it secret, and went directly: "I'm at the airport, I'm coming back!"

I don't know where a wave of joy rushed into my heart, but I still said calmly: "Didn't you say that you will stay for at least two years in the past?"

"No! I fucking miss you so much! And I have already thought about it, since you will be my object in two years, and sooner or later I will have this happiness, so why am I still so stupid here Waiting, two years away, let me hurry up and catch up in one go!"

I was taken aback by what he said, but I still said: "I never said I wanted to be your partner." I really never said such a thing.

"Hey, you can't be helpless!" He said, "You just wait for me and see if I come back and deal with you!"

I thought in my heart that I didn't know who was helpless, but I still said: "Okay, I'll wait for you to come back."

At this time, there was a sudden busy tone from the phone, and when I called again, his phone was turned off.Thinking that he was about to board the plane, I put down the phone with full expectation, but I didn't expect that it would be the last time he talked to me.

At [-]:[-] am on March [-], [-], a plane flying from Kuala Lumpur to Beijing suddenly lost contact on the way. It was confirmed shortly later that all [-] passengers on board were killed.

The big boy who always clamored for me to be his partner and always showed a row of dazzling white teeth when he smiled never came back.

Five

After that, I started to write a diary, and I spent a lot of time recalling those times we used to have.

I will always think of the time when I met Liang Chi when I was ten years old, that pale child with black hair standing in the snow; The first time when I was crying, I stared at my boy silently with a pair of black eyes...

I will think of Yu Meng who swore to me that she can bend steel and concrete, let alone a mere man; The scene when the dream stopped...

I will think of Hu Chao, I will remember that in that smoky Internet cafe, Hu Chao and I met for the first time, we greeted each other, he grinned with innocence on his face; he told me that he wanted me to be his partner, I waited for him and said that everything he did in his life was 3 minutes hot, the only thing he could persevere was liking me, but he said he couldn't persevere, I asked him why, but he didn't speak, he Still grinning with white teeth like that, and then slowly becoming blurred in front of me like a male protagonist who is about to go on a long journey in the TV screen...

I saw a plane landed in front of my house, and the smoke was everywhere. This time, no one came out of the yellow sand in the sky, and the smoke was exhausted, leaving only one person empty...