boy mature

One

The autumn of [-] was the autumn that I least want to think about in my life. It was definitely an eventful autumn in my life.

In that season, the most painful and regretful thing happened in my life.

That is, after that incident, I began to rely on Valium to sleep.

I need to organize my thinking, and then talk about that matter slowly.

I remember that day, when I returned to the dormitory after participating in the marathon in City W, in the corridor of the dormitory, I overheard two people saying that the school gymnasium would not be open that day. At the same time, I received a text message from Fang Jing, Thinking of Fang Jing sending a text message saying that she and Liang Chi invited me to the gymnasium, when I forwarded the text message to Liang Chi, he replied me with two question marks, he seemed unaware of the gymnasium, and thought He explained to Fang Jing the sentence he replied to me later, and a strong uneasiness swept over my whole body.

At that moment, I was so upset that I rushed out of the dormitory building and started running desperately towards the school gymnasium.

The autumn rain hit me with biting chills. My body, which had been sore from running the marathon, was completely numb at this moment. My whole body didn't feel like my own anymore.

While I was running, I kept playing Liang Chi's phone, but after a few beeps, there was only a flustering busy tone. I couldn't help trembling.

I kept praying in my heart. I didn't know what I was afraid of, but there was a bone-deep fear that pulled my breathing tube and heart hard, making me almost faint.

I rushed to the gymnasium, walked around the gate, came to the side door, and without thinking, I kicked open the iron door on the right, and I ran around like crazy in it, but I didn't see it To the figure of Liang Chi.

Just when I was almost desperate, I saw that the door of the equipment room, which should have been locked, was blown open by the wind.

At that moment, all the fear returned to my body, I was afraid, I was afraid that what would appear in front of me would be a corpse or something, I suddenly remembered the experience of going over the wall to find Liang Chi in junior high school, how I wish This time it was also a joke I made with myself.

However, God will not let your life be full of near-miss stories. Sometimes when you are desperate, he will give you a fatal blow and make you fall into the endless abyss.

I approached the dark room step by step with heavy steps. When I finally walked into the half-covered iron door, I knelt down on the ground powerlessly like a body whose soul had been taken out of me suddenly.

The entire room was littered with sports equipment, a disgusting pungent smell filled the air, Liang Chi was curled up in a corner not far away, his clothes were almost torn into pieces, The face, body, and places that can be seen by the naked eye are covered with bruises and some strange fluids.

At that moment, I realized something in a trance. Tears could no longer hold back. I roared out with almost all my strength. I staggered over like a madman. Without thinking, I stretched out my hand He hugged Liang Chi who was curled up there.

He trembled violently by my movement, then raised his head slowly and stiffly, he looked at me with black eyes, I'm not sure if he was looking at me, because his eyes had disappeared In any light, I saw that his handsome face was covered with wounds, his lips were split, his hair was sticky, and his whole body looked fragile as if it would crumble if touched.

I hugged him hard, not daring to take my eyes off his face, for fear that he would die suddenly, my tears fell down uncontrollably, and I started banging my head against the wall behind him, I wanted to Sober up, but at that moment I had a complete breakdown, and then, I heard his hoarse voice say: "Han Tang, I...so tired!"

It was as if a silent gun hit my heart hard, and blood flowed out of my chest, and my life gradually dissipated as my body became more and more numb.

Three

In the winter of that year, a graduate student of a certain medical school in our school jumped from the main building of the school, and many news media reported this incident.

And the person who jumped off the building was Fang Jing.

When she jumped off the building, I was playing badminton with Liang Chi on the playground in front of the bishop, when I heard a cry of surprise, I turned around and saw her jumping off the building and falling into a puddle of twisted blood.

Ignoring the students surrounding me, I pulled Liang Chi and walked out.Who knew he stood there in a daze, his entire face turned paper white.

Some things, even if I deliberately pull him to escape, it is impossible. Since the pain makes me have nightmares, it is naturally heavier for him.

I'm sorry, Liang Chi.Whenever this happens, I can only say this to him quietly in my heart.

Regarding Fang Jing's death, there are many rumors in the market. The most vivid one is that she had a dirty relationship with a gang boss outside, and she was even pregnant with that person's child, but others obviously only regarded her as a plaything. Being arrogant by nature, she couldn't accept this fact, so she chose such a way to end her life...Multiple news reported Fang Jing's death, and most of the media related her death to her graduate student status and some superficial feelings. The experience is combined, and after that, this incident is like many previous stories that have caused storms in the city. After all, it was covered up by new stories and no one mentioned it anymore.

No one knew the real reason for her death, and death took that secret away.

It's a pity that once something like injury happens, even if the instigator burns his bones and ashes, he can't take it away.

After the incident last time, Liang Chi became more silent than before, and sometimes even fell into a state of ignoring the surrounding environment.I know that I have no ability to change this situation, so I can only accompany him silently, waiting for time to slowly numb his wound.

However, whenever he falls into that kind of emptiness, my heart will be stabbed endlessly. His expression of always being on guard against the surroundings is constantly beating my soul, exposing my cowardice and incompetence to the air naked Under the circumstances, let Qi Lingchi.

I am like a navigator who has lost his buoy, and I am rushing forward in this ocean called love. I keep shouting at the stormy sea, and I ask: All the weak and incompetent people like me in this world, you Is your love, like mine, a burden that keeps hurting each other?

Four

Hu Chao left in the late summer of his graduation year.

Me, Zhang Ao, and Yu Meng went to see him off at the airport, and he said goodbye to us happily, with the two commemorative badges we got from the last marathon hanging on his chest, looking like an athlete who just returned from a triumphant return from abroad.

Zhang Ao wanted him to come back with a foreign girl, but Yu Meng slapped Zhang Ao and told Hu Chao that a handsome foreign guy would do.

I looked at the two without a word, and finally Hu Chao took me under his shoulder and whispered in my ear: "Remember our agreement, when you come back, you will be my partner."

I don't even remember when I made this agreement with him, but he didn't give me a rebuttal. As soon as he let me go, he carried his luggage and left without looking back.

Looking at his back slowly disappearing at the security checkpoint, at that moment, an indescribable emotion burst out of my chest. I lifted my feet and walked forward a few steps, but finally stopped.

In a trance, I suddenly remembered a sentence by Milan Kundera: This is a world where people leave, but we are not good at saying goodbye.

I swear, if I could do it again, I would give Hu Chao a hug, or at least say goodbye to him.