boy mature

One

That was the first time I entered a bar, and it was a gay bar!

When I followed that elegant man into the bar gate and saw those people with stunning makeup and twisted flowers under the lights, an indescribable sense of resistance emerged from the bottom of my heart.

The world obviously has nothing to do with me!

Seemingly aware of my discomfort, the man who had been walking by my side patted my shoulder with his broad palm and said, "I wasn't used to it at first, but after coming here more times, I slowly got used to these things." Numb."

I asked naturally: "Do you often bring men here?"

He hiccupped, seemed embarrassed, but still explained: "I will come, but the number of times I bring men is very small."

I raised my eyes to look at him, under the uncertain light, his facial features showed an indescribable sense of mystery, I didn't know the truth of what he said, so I had to smile, but I didn't expect him to be in a hurry He grabbed my shoulders and said, "I really rarely date!"

At that moment, I seemed to have touched a field that I had never touched before, and I asked him: "Are you referring to asking someone to sleep?"

He was obviously taken aback, and then the corners of his mouth curled up naturally. I automatically interpreted his smile as a kind of sarcasm, as if to prove something, I pulled up his bow tie and kissed him hard.

There were repeated cheers from my side, but I didn't have the usual terrible embarrassment. I was like a clown trying to get the approval of the audience, trying to act like a veteran in love.

He began to respond to me, even wrapped his hands around my waist naturally, and took me tightly into his arms. The full muscles under his shirt made me dizzy.

That was the first time I kissed a man, I mean while both were awake.I don't know how to describe that feeling. At that time, apart from my beating heart and his beard piercing my mouth, I could only vaguely smell the bursts of perfume emanating from his body.

It is a clear fragrance like dried licorice, and people who smell it can't help being fascinated.

I began to lose control of myself, and I knew something bad would happen if this continued, so I finally pushed him away, and rushed out of the dimly lit bar amidst a group of exclamations and whistles.

In the following life, I have had many similar experiences, but every time I can only kiss, I can't have sex with a stranger who has no emotional foundation.

I think this may be the only thing worthy of praise in my despicable character.

Two

In the summer of [-], I graduated from university.

This year, many places across the country experienced heavy rain that was said to be once in a hundred years, and City W was naturally among them.

In Yu Meng's words, there is no need to go out, just rely on waves.

After graduation, I started to join the team of graduates looking for a job. Of course, there were also Yu Meng and Zhang Ao in this vast army.

Zhang Ao's mother wanted them to go back and take over the factories his mother had developed around Nanzhen, and then get married.But Yu Meng suddenly changed her mind temporarily and wanted to gain more experience outside. Of course Zhang Ao knew what he thought about his partner, but he was afraid of running away with others, so she would follow wherever she went.

Yu Meng came to me several times, and he wanted me to open a milk tea shop with her, but I considered many factors and never directly agreed to him.

In this way, I still live in school and worry about work.

At that time, two people in our dormitory signed a job, and one was preparing for the postgraduate entrance examination, and had already gone home to prepare for it. Now I was left alone in the dormitory. The more alone, the more restless it would be.

Fortunately, at that time, Hu Chao would often run to my side, and he was not busy looking for a job. Every time he asked him, he laughed and said, don't worry, you will follow me in the future, and you will never be hungry with.

Then the topic can no longer be discussed.

On a heavy rainy day in July, Hu Chao brought a bunch of barbecues to my dormitory to find me as usual. The difference is that he brought a dozen beers today. He knows that I don’t drink alcohol, and he rarely brought alcohol. of.

I know, this guy must have something to announce to me.

"Why, are you going to have a graduation season where you won't get drunk or return?" I laughed at him.

"That's right, I'm going to get you drunk and go home!" He grinned.

I had already developed antibodies against his jokes, so I smiled, and opened the barbecue boxes he brought one by one. After I opened a bottle of beer, he snatched it and muttered After drinking, I watched his Adam's apple moving up and down, and the beer dripping from the corner of his mouth. I was speechless and said, "Drink in such a hurry, hurry to reincarnate."

It was rare for him not to answer my words, but he drank the bottle of wine silently until there was almost no drop left, then squeezed the can, then lowered his head, I looked at the long eyelashes under his black eyebrows, and The high bridge of the nose, those three-dimensional facial features turned into shadows, made him look full of loss, as if he was infected by his emotions, I suddenly felt a little uncomfortable, so I took a sip of a bottle of wine, but I never thought that he would say : "Han Tang, I...maybe I can't accompany you anymore!"

Before I could speak, he continued to raise his head and said, "But don't worry, two years, just two years, I will definitely come back and marry you after two years!"

Ignoring his joke, I asked him, "What do you mean?"

"My dad is going to send me to Malaysia," he said, his eyes turned red, he seemed to be afraid that I would misunderstand, and he said hurriedly, "Don't worry, I won't abandon you, I still want you for the rest of my life. It won't change, I've already told my dad!"

"What did you say?" I was so shocked that I almost knocked off the barbecue in front of me.

"I'm out of the closet." He said it full of grievances. Everyone in this circle knows the weight of these four words coming from a comrade's mouth. At that time, I didn't know how to comfort him, so I opened a bottle of beer and handed it He, he took it, only took a sip this time, and then continued: "Han Tang, you can call me stupid or stupid, but I really only have this one experience. If I like it, I like it. by your side."

"Look!" He said, holding up his mobile phone in front of me. His mobile phone desktop turned out to be a photo of us together. If I remember correctly, that photo was when we were helping others at the city station in high school. The newspapers in the city asked others to take pictures for us.

In the photo, I stand there stupidly, he has the kind of grin that is always heartless, one arm is on my shoulder, the injured hand just falls on my chest, and the white bandage is because of the loss. Burnt, like an open white flower.

The photo should have been taken by him on a newspaper, with a yellowish blur.

Seeing that photo, I couldn't help but lament the rush of time, but I heard him say: "I've always kept this photo, it's just our first photo taken together, and our relationship started to get acquainted from then on, But I told you before, in fact, I started to get close to you a long time ago, it's just you, hey~"

Speaking of this, it was rare for him to let out a long sigh like a worried person.

But I was a little sad by his simple words, so I had to raise my head and take a sip of beer to suppress the sourness in my heart.But this guy's next sentence was: "I don't care what you think, but you are not allowed to go out and find other people casually. If I find out that you are fooling around with other men outside, I will definitely fly back immediately and break your leg directly." !"

"What the hell do you think of me?" I was annoyed.

"Daughter-in-law!" He took it for granted.

"I'm a fucking man!" I threw a barbecue stick in my hand at him.

"Of course I know you are a man, if not, I wouldn't fucking like you!" He said righteous words.

Forget it, I'm too lazy to talk to him, this guy will always mess up the heavy atmosphere, but sometimes I have to admit that a character like him is really good.