boy mature

One

In [-], I was ten years old and just in fifth grade.

If my memory is not confused, in the winter of that year, it was rare for us to have an unprecedented heavy snowfall. There is little snow in the south, and there are basically only one or two snowfalls a year, not to mention the big ones, which are rare for many years. Happened once.

So, when I opened my eyes that morning and saw the vastness of the world outside the window, I was going crazy with joy.I only wore long johns and I ran outside. My grandma was afraid that I would be cold, so she took me back to the inner three layers and the outer three layers. It was not convenient to walk, which directly caused me to have a snowball fight with other friends. Those who were smashed were unable to fight back.

Dizzy and dizzy from being thrown that afternoon, I ran home with tears in my eyes. When I passed an intersection, I saw a child in a down jacket.

Most children don't know what cleanliness is. I remember that at that time, everyone was wearing that kind of flannel padded jacket, which was always covered with snot, grease and other stains, but the children who appeared in front of me at that time seemed so different , he was wearing a dark blue down jacket, with a black round head on it, his legs stood quietly on the snow, as if even the leather boots stepped on in the snow were exceptionally clean.

At that time, I didn't know what was in my mind, so I squeezed a snowball and threw it at him.

With a snap, the snowball cracked on his back, and he turned his head, with a beautiful face, big eyes and small mouth, like a doll, of course, I consciously ignored his frowning eyebrows, I grinned at him Laughing, the next second, unprepared, a fluffy snowball burst into my face.

I froze for a moment, then sat on the ground all of a sudden, and then wept uncontrollably.

About a minute later, I felt my eyes dim, and I looked up and saw him.The white and clean face was so clean that people had the urge to rush up and bite him.

He looked at me with bright black eyes. At that moment, although my face was in pain, I forgot to cry.I blinked and looked at him with tears in my eyes. He stretched out his gloved hand, as if inviting me. Without thinking about it, I rushed up and threw him to the ground.

I wiped all my snot and tears on him, we wrestled into a ball on the snow, and then lay panting side by side on the snow laughing.

I said my name is Han Tang, will you play with me in the future?

He simply gave me his name back.

That's how I got to know Liang Chi.

When I grew up, I would shiver from the cold even when I held a snowball, but every time it snowed, I would still unconsciously think of that afternoon, and the boy with the black hair and the navy blue down jacket, and how he was uneventful. The tone of saying his name.

Life is so strange, every unexpected encounter may be the beginning of another life.

Two

After returning from the campsite with Liang Chi that day, he took me to the school infirmary for an injection, and then we ordered a dumpling at a dumpling restaurant opposite the school, which was exactly the same as when we were in junior high school, a bowl, two pairs of chopsticks, and six taels of dumplings .

The only difference is that we ate very slowly that day, and there was no more scrambling like before.Even when I ate every dumpling, I couldn't help having a sore throat.

I didn't even glance at Liang Chi during the whole process, and I was about to vomit out of the suppressed discomfort.

"Han Tang, let's... have a talk?" Just when I felt uncomfortable for a while, he suddenly said earnestly.

I was a little surprised, so that I didn't expect what he was going to talk to me, so I nodded blindly. I kept my eyes on the plate of dumplings from the beginning to the end, but I heard him say: "Fang Jing is My girlfriend, you should know."

It turns out that girl is called Fang Jing. If I have a chance, I must see what kind of girl she is.I suppressed the discomfort in my heart and nodded to him: "Well, I see."

What makes people feel bad is that when I nodded, I felt dizzy and tears were about to come out. I comforted myself that this was a sequela after a high fever. Fortunately, he didn't notice me, and just looked after me The side said: "I'm sorry, Han Tang."

I was confused by his sudden apology, but I still smiled: "Okay, why did you suddenly apologize."

At this time, he suddenly turned his head to look at me, our eyes came together, his eyes were red, his voice was hoarse, and he said: "I'm sorry, Han Tang, I'm afraid I won't be able to be with you in this life .”

I thought he might be troubled by my status, so I couldn't help but lower my head and curl my lips, and said, "It's okay, you should have your own life." It seemed like I was laughing at myself, and at the end I added, "The life of a normal person."

He let out a thud, as if he wanted to say something, but I didn't wait for him to speak, and said directly: "Eat quickly, it's cold."

Some nights many years later, when I dreamed back at midnight, I would always think of the process of eating dumplings in Liangchi. I thought that if I looked up that day, maybe, my experience with him might be different. different.

But the flood is hard to stop, people always only know to hide in the memory, but they can only run forward desperately.

Maybe it's like what Hu Chao said, I'm weak by nature, and when I encounter these things, I can't think of a better solution except to escape.

My high-sounding reason is: there is no reason for this kind of thing, and I can't drag him to beat him to death and threaten him to be with me, so what can I do except blindly escape?

Three

I met Fang Jing on her birthday, and Liang Chi introduced me to her.When he introduced me, he said that I was his brother who played with him since childhood.

As sad as it was to hear such an introduction from him, I forced a smile on the long-haired, shrewd-looking woman, unaware that she had seen all my secrets.

That was the first time I saw Liang Chi like that, he was no longer silent like usual, he would deliberately find topics to chat with Fang Jing, and even made her laugh out loud.

I couldn't help but feel sad seeing them sitting across from each other talking happily.

At that moment, how I wish I could leave this uncomfortable situation quickly.But who knew that Fang Jing unceremoniously led the conversation to me, her smile was the kind that didn't reach her eyes, she asked: "Han Tang, I heard that you and Liang Chi were very good friends before. ?”

Although I vaguely noticed that she seemed to want to prove something, I still didn't know how to respond to her, so I just nodded at her.

Unexpectedly, she continued to smile: "Great, then you must know that Liang Chi sat on the charcoal stove and burned a scar on his butt when he was three years old. Haha, I have seen that scar before. Big circles on the ass, you must have seen it, it's so funny, isn't it?"

She was talking, smiling to herself, and I responded to her in embarrassment. At this time, I didn't have the time to think about other meanings in her words, because I had never heard of Liang Chi's burn. I've heard him talk about it, but when I saw Liang Chi complaining about her in embarrassment, I knew she wasn't fabricating it out of thin air.

I used to think that Liang Chi would not be too close to anyone other than me, even if he really had a date, after all, he would not talk to other people for more than three sentences since he was a child, and I was the only friend , but it now appears that this is not the case.

I was overwhelmed with uneasiness, and I heard her deliberately amplified voice say: "What, Han Tang is not an outsider, so what does it matter if you tell him?"

I stood up at once, and the sofa behind me creaked. They both looked at me at the same time, and I said, "I'm going to the bathroom." Then I left in embarrassment.

I poured water on my face desperately, so that several people who were washing their hands next to me looked like they were crazy.But at that time, I could no longer worry so much. The discomfort was like a hard fist holding my heart tightly, and I felt that even my breathing began to feel uncomfortable.

I leaned against the wall of the bathroom and fumbled around in my pockets, but found nothing. At this time, a hand was stretched out beside me, and it was holding a cigarette!I looked up in surprise, and saw a man who had never been masked.

Before I had time to inquire about him carefully, I took his cigarette and put it on my mouth. With a bang, the lighter was ignited in front of me.

I took a deep puff of the cigarette, and then my lungs felt uncomfortable. I couldn't help coughing violently. I heard the deep laughter of the man on the opposite side. His voice was full of maturity: "Why, I don't know how to smoke. ah?"

I didn't look at him either, I threw the cigarette I had only smoked in the trash can next to me, and left the bathroom as if fleeing.

What Li Na said at the beginning is indeed true, don't think about hiding the truth from a woman, because every move you make is a betrayal of yourself.

As soon as I stepped out of the bathroom door, I saw Fang Jing standing there. She seemed to have been standing there waiting for me to come out. Sure enough, as soon as I stepped out of the bathroom door, she walked up. Before I could speak, she was open and honest. : "Do you like Liang Chi?"

I didn't hide anything, and nodded directly at her.

She laughed, the kind that was particularly contemptuous: "As a man but likes a man, are you fucking disgusting!"

I didn't expect him to be so direct, and I couldn't accept it all of a sudden, and my whole body was frozen there, at a loss. , I heard the woman say: "I warn you, you'd better stay away from Liang Chi, or you will have good fruit to eat!"

After saying this, she gave me a cold snort of disdain, then walked away arrogantly stepping on her high heels.

I stood there, like a person who had been wearing a mask to cover up his scars all day long. Finally, one day the mask was lifted in front of everyone. My ugliness was invisible, and despair boiled in my chest, making me want to cry out .

Just when I was about to collapse, a pair of calm and strong hands rested on my shoulders.

I turned around and saw a man with a beard.He looks about 30 years old, with a greasy hair, a well-trimmed beard, and a smile with the corners of his mouth curled up. He has a yuppie look that makes people want to punch him.

"We know each other?" Seeing that he was indeed greeting me, I asked.

"You are really forgetful, we have met for the second time, do I look so ordinary?" He pretended to be sad.

But after thinking about it for a long time, I realized that I really didn't know him.As if seeing my doubts, he smiled: "The one who handed you the cigarettes just forgot?"

I rolled my eyes unconsciously, for some reason, I, who was so excited by Fang Jing's words just now, suddenly felt a lot more relaxed.

"Interested in going to the bar next door for a drink?" he said, his eyes devout.

"I'm a student." I replied directly.

"It's okay, please!" He said, without waiting for me to refuse, he took me under his shoulder and led me outside.

Thinking of what Liang Chi did to Fang Jing just now, and what Fang Jing said to me just now, an unknown anger rushed into my heart, I sent him a text message that I would go back first, and followed this strange man Stepped into the sensual banquet.