boy mature

One

After the summer vacation of the freshman year, I stayed in school because of my part-time job. Like me, Hu Chao didn’t go back.

What needs to be explained is that this guy has been inexplicably indifferent to me since he talked to me in the cafeteria. I just smiled reluctantly, after I made fun of myself a few times, I stopped actively contacting him, and he didn't talk to me, even I heard about his stay in school from Yu Meng.

In fact, when Hu Chao stood in front of me on the first day, I knew he was the same kind of person as I am. It is no exaggeration, people like us have an innate radar system, we can pass a person A certain action or a certain expression can easily discover the secrets he tried to hide, and sometimes they don't say it, just because they are afraid of the embarrassment of knowing each other.

So, Hu Chao likes me, I actually know it.It's just that there are many things we can't decide on our own. Reason tells me that being with him is absolutely correct, but I can never let go of my feelings for Liang Chi, as if I can only like him in my life .

It's a bit extreme to say so, but it's really something I can't change for now.

On the way back from the camp that day, Liang Chi said something to me, he said: "There are many things in this life that we all know how to do is right, but the scary thing is that the reality will always let us see what we see. It's the opposite of right."

He seemed to be conveying a certain message to me, but I was so dizzy at the time that I didn't want to delve into the other meanings of his words. Now that I think about it, this sentence still makes sense.

It would be a lie to say that I have no feelings for Hu Chao, but, perhaps, as the saying goes, I and him may be the kind of correctness that runs counter to it.

I think Hu Chao should also be clear in his heart, otherwise he would not have chased me to the second floor of the cafeteria to tell me about the girl friend of Liang Chi, and he would not have suddenly turned cold towards me after seeing me lose my temper.

I think our tacit silence with each other is the best way to let that trace of affection perish.

Two

It was July [-], [-]. I was resting in the dormitory because of my part-time job.

If your memory is good enough, you should remember that the events of that day have been predicted by countless news media. Yes, there was a grand event that was said to be rare in 500 years, a 6-minute event. total solar eclipse.

Maybe it was because of the total solar eclipse, I remember that the temperature in City W was sickly that day, with a suffocating sweltering heat.

In the morning, there was still a lot of traffic on the sidewalk outside the school, and the honking of horns continued. I didn't know what time it was, but the sun was like a kerosene lamp that was about to burn out, and it gradually became dizzy.

At that time, I was playing computer in the dormitory. When the sky was sinking, I was about to get up and go outside to take a look. At this time, bang!boom!boom!The closed door was suddenly slammed a few times from the outside, and the sudden sound scared me so much that I almost jumped up from the ground.

"Who?" Because most of the people had gone back during the summer vacation, and the dormitory manager was not here, thinking that there would be no one I knew in school at this time, this loud knock on the door with unknown reasons made me a little uneasy.

I called a few times, but there was no response from outside, there was about half a minute of silence, bang!boom!boom!There were three knocks on the door again, and my heart jumped into my throat!

"Who the hell?" I couldn't help but curse.

There was another deadly silence, and then I heard a voice yelling indistinctly: "Open the door!" Then there were several hard knocks on the door!

Hu Chao?I'm stupid!Knowing it was him, I got angry, what is this guy crazy about?Furious, I rushed over and pulled the door open forcefully.

I was about to explode with anger. When the door opened, I was about to yell at him. Who knew that before I could stand still, he pushed me into the dormitory. His strength was so strong that I was caught off guard. I backed away, and then I heard a muffled sound, and he actually pushed me back against the door!

He had no control at all, I was almost thrown on the door by him, the pain in my back made my chest tight, I shook my head, raised my face and scolded him for being crazy, but the moment I looked up, His head also bent down!

A strong smell of alcohol rushed directly from his nose into my airway, and my head couldn't help but feel hot.The next moment, I felt a pain in my mouth, and a sour iron smell rushed into my taste buds, this guy bit my mouth open!

The anger that had been suppressed just now suddenly came back, I pushed him away with all my strength, and without even thinking about it, I swung my fist at him.

Bloated!

He didn't block it, to be exact, he didn't expect that I would hit him at all, so he just swallowed my punch.

He staggered, fell backwards, and sat on the ground like this.

Hiss~ I heard his gasp, and suddenly felt a little guilty, so I squatted down in his direction.

At this time, the total solar eclipse was halfway through, and the whole dormitory was in a kind of dim twilight. He lowered his head, and I couldn't see the expression on his face clearly.

He must have drank a lot of alcohol, and the person who smelled of alcohol on his body was a little dizzy.

He kept his head down, his face was in the shadows, his body was casually leaning against the wall next to him, his slender legs curled up, and he looked a little unspeakably sad. My heart was pounding, and I still asked him worriedly: " Are you OK?"

He didn't answer, and the whole space fell into an annoying silence. The sky was getting darker and darker. This atmosphere made me embarrassed. I was about to turn on the light, but the moment I got up , but he reached out and grabbed me.

I was caught off guard, so I was dragged by him and sat next to him. The feeling of my butt falling on the floor was uncomfortable, but I still tried my best to hold back the swear words, I stared at him, He finally raised his head, and our eyes naturally bumped into each other at this moment.

His eye sockets were slightly red, and something moved in his dark brown eyes.

In the dim room, his tall nose cast a vague shadow on his face. I saw the red spot on his face from my punch just now, and I felt a little uncomfortable. I wanted to apologize to him, but I saw him open his eyes. He opened his mouth, as if he wanted to say something to me, I tried to concentrate, but unfortunately after a long time, he just let out a long sigh, then stretched out his hand and gently touched my head.

He didn't speak, just stroking slowly like this, it felt like touching a pet that he loved so much!I was a little annoyed, and thinking about my excessive behavior just now, it was not easy to get angry, so I let his hand touch my head.

At this moment, the whole room was finally plunged into darkness.

Suddenly, I felt my mouth move again, and his hand touched the corner of my broken mouth!I was so frightened that I almost jumped up, but he didn't realize it, and just caressed my wound gently with his warm abdomen. The strange thing is, at that moment, apart from a numb feeling, I Can't feel any pain.

After a moment of silence, he finally broke the deadly silence and said, "I'm sorry."

The voice was very soft, like a feather was gently scraping my heart, and my whole body began to tremble following his three words.

I opened my mouth, wanting to say something to him, but as usual, what I wanted to say turned into some insignificant monosyllabic words, I was embarrassed for a long time, but he laughed, The same smile as before, grinning with a row of white teeth, without speaking, just looking at me like this, the smile penetrated deep into the eyes.

I don't know why, when I saw him smiling at that moment, I couldn't help but laugh too.

His hands never left my lips from the beginning to the end, so when I smiled, his fingers accidentally fell into my mouth. I only felt my tongue astringent, and then his whole body trembled. Withdrawing my hand suddenly, I was a little embarrassed, but at this moment I heard his hoarse voice muttering: "Han Tang, I like you, stay with me."

His warm breath sprayed on my face, which made me a little overwhelmed. I saw his face approaching slowly and hurriedly pushed him away. He slammed back into the wall with a muffled grunt. Not so much, I got up in embarrassment, and was about to run outside, but the moment I opened the door, I heard him shout out my name in a hoarse voice, and he called: "Han Tang, you fucking stop !"

Maybe it was frightened by his aura, maybe it was because of the guilt for him, I stopped, I stood where I was, and heard his hoarse voice behind him say: "You are fucking timid, suspicious, Even cowardly, I really can't tell you what's good about you..."

I was a little embarrassed, but I heard him continue: "Actually, I knew that I was different from other people when I was in the first grade of junior high school, but what is the difference, until I met you in the Internet bar that day, when I saw When I saw your pair of eyes, I suddenly realized that once I accept something, I will develop accordingly. I think there is nothing wrong with liking men. We are born different, and our lives are naturally different."

"It's a pity that the person I like...isn't particularly smart." I didn't refute him, so I heard him continue: "I can more or less understand your struggle and pain, and I don't want to scare you. , so I studied hard, went to a high school with you, went to a university, and I got closer to you step by step, but you have such a soft personality, you know it very well, but you always choose to avoid it habitually..."

"I also know that you like Liang Chi, but you also understand that there is no possibility for you to be with him. He is a straight man. Maybe they can easily attract people like us, but ordinary people cannot afford a life like ours. !"

"Actually, everything I do is a 3-minute hot topic, but the only thing I like about you is the seventh year I've insisted on it! Han Tang, I don't want you to do anything to me. Love is a thing of the past. If you like me, I would like to, but, my mother left the word here for you today, and one day, you Han Tang will be my Hu Chao's person!"

His hoarse voice resounded in the small room, like a low-pitched clock humming unceasingly, my heart contracted because of it, and my whole body was so uncomfortable that I was about to suffocate!

I opened my mouth, but said, "Actually, I've always known what you're thinking, it's just..."

He interrupted me and asked, "What's so good about him?"

I smiled, but found that my face was wet at some point, and I said, "I can't say he's good, but I just want to have him."

At this time, the total solar eclipse was finally coming to an end, and the room began to gradually brighten up.

He didn't speak anymore, and the silence spread between us again. I finally opened the door and walked out because I couldn't stand the atmosphere. I closed the door gently. At that moment, I couldn't help exhaling a long breath.

It was gloomy outside, as if the sky was about to fall.