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During the short period of time when Lu Jinsen returned home to the hotel, he had already mentally prepared himself.

No matter what kind of Xie Zhitang he saw after returning to the hotel, he could accept it calmly.

Under the double gaze of Lu Jinsen's nanny, he pushed open the door, but saw Xie Zhitang holding the computer and leaning on the pillow, sitting on his bed, looking towards him with some doubts.

Xie Zhitang looked the same as before, Lu Jinsen finally understood why the nurse called him and said that she was not sure about Xie Zhitang's condition.

Lu Jinsen walked in and closed the door, then went to the bedside and asked Xie Zhitang: "How is Tangtang feeling today?"

Xie Zhitang let out a "huh" before saying, "The driver brought the little fish over just now, and it's still so small after three months."

Lu Jinsen nodded slightly, and Xie Zhitang continued: "I put the fish in the fish tank, and then I started thinking about finding some friends for it."

Lu Jinsen closed the computer on Xie Zhitang's lap, turned around and put it on the table, then raised the temperature in the room by a few degrees, until it reached 26 degrees before stopping.

Xie Zhitang didn't have any complaints about Lu Jinsen's behavior, and suddenly changed the subject and said, "I made kumquat lemon tea for you and put it in the refrigerator. It tastes good."

Lu Jinsen nodded and said, "I'll take it to the company this afternoon." Then Lu Jinsen changed the subject and asked, "What kind of friends are you going to find for it?"

July has already entered midsummer, even if Lu Jinsen stays at a constant temperature, he will still feel hot if he keeps his suit and leather shoes.

Xie Zhitang got up from the bed, went to Lu Jinsen and helped him untie his tie and buttons, and said softly, "I want to raise turtles."

Lu Jinsen raised his chin slightly to facilitate Xie Zhitang's movement, the jawline and Adam's apple formed a zigzag curve, Lu Jinsen then asked: "And then?"

Xie Zhitang took off Lu Jinsen's tie, and then unbuttoned his suit. Not enough, he unbuttoned a few buttons of Lu Jinsen's shirt, then rubbed against Lu Jinsen's neck like sucking a cat, and said, "Then I found out that I did something wrong."

Lu Jinsen embraced Xie Zhitang with one hand, took off his coat, then supported Xie Zhitang who was hanging on his body, hung the coat on the coat rack, and then lowered his head and asked Xie Zhitang: "What's wrong?"

Xie Zhitang buried his head in his arms, and said sullenly: "We... last time we went out to sea, we caught sea fish, and sea turtles had barnacles on their bodies."

Lu Jinsen responded to him, carried Xie Zhitang who was hanging on his body to the living room, and heard him whisper: "It is wrong to pry the barnacles on the turtles with a knife. The barnacles are not stuck to the turtles, they are deeply embedded in the turtles. In the skin of the turtle, if you use a knife to pry the barnacles, it is easy to injure the turtle and possibly get an infection."

"Then what should we do?" Lu Jinsen brought Xie Zhitang into the dining room, and within a few seconds of putting him on the chair, Xie Zhitang got off the chair and floated into the kitchen.

Lu Jinsen didn't go after him, but just sat down silently, waiting for Xie Zhitang to come back.

He knew what Xie Zhitang was going to do, so he let him go with such peace of mind.

Xie Zhitang came back quickly. He took out the iced kumquat lemonade for Lu Jinsen from the refrigerator, put it in front of Lu Jinsen for him to taste, and then sat down beside Lu Jinsen and said: "The best way is to contact the local protection organization. They put the turtles in freshwater tanks and wait until the barnacles on the turtles are dead before taking them out. A turtle with too many barnacles is sick, and they treat the turtle and it’s best to put the turtle back in the sea.”

Lu Jinsen picked up the cup and took a sip, Xie Zhitang immediately raised his face and asked, "How does it taste?"

This sentence has not stopped since Xie Zhitang made coffee for Lu Jinsen on the first day and made various fruit tea drinks, and Lu Jinsen's answer has not changed: "It's delicious."

Only then did Xie Zhitang seem very satisfied, turned his face away to look at the food on the table and continued: "I was thinking..."

"That sea turtle, maybe it would be better if I didn't meet it?" Xie Zhitang lowered his eyes and said, "I thought I was helping it, but in fact I was hurting it."

"Even if it wasn't my original intention, I did cause such a result. Xie Zhitang suddenly raised his head and said: "My current state is not right, I even doubt me, you, and us. "

Xie Zhitang wanted to continue talking, but Lu Jinsen interrupted him.

Lu Jinsen handed the cup to Xie Zhitang for him to drink, Xie Zhitang didn't know why, so he took the cup and took a sip, then looked at Lu Jinsen.

Lu Jinsen said, "Tangtang, you shouldn't be thinking about this."

Lu Jinsen didn't wait for Xie Zhitang to ask, and continued, "You should think, lifeguards are from the sea and go to sea all year round. You don't know that there is a reason why barnacles can't be pried, why doesn't he know?"

"If even he doesn't know, how many people in the world will know? If barnacles can't pry it at will, if it can't become common sense, then many turtles will be injured in the future." Lu Jinsen looked at Xie Zhitang and said: "Think about the solutions and countermeasures."

Xie Zhitang stared blankly at Lu Jinsen and nodded, "Yes."

Lu Jinsen glanced at the table and said, "Eat first."

Xie Zhitang lowered his head and ate slowly, and when Lu Jinsen finished his meal, Xie Zhitang also slowly finished half a bowl.

Lu Jinsen drank the kumquat lemonade in one gulp, and said to Xie Zhitang, "If you don't want to eat it, don't eat it. I brought you a cake."

Xie Zhitang heard the words as if he had received an amnesty, immediately put down the bowl, followed Lu Jinsen out of the restaurant, hugged Lu Jinsen's waist from behind, and followed him to the living room.

Xie Zhitang really likes to do these little tricks. When he has the conditions, he sticks to Lu Jinsen, and when he doesn't, he creates the conditions to stick to Lu Jinsen.

Lu Jinsen sat on the sofa, then hugged Xie Zhitang who was behind him into his arms, and asked him, "Tangtang, have you thought about it?"

Xie Zhitang said softly "En.", but didn't say much, fixed himself on Lu Jinsen with all fours, and said, "I'm a little scared."

Lu Jinsen rubbed the back of Xie Zhitang's head, and Xie Zhitang continued: "It's so messy, messy. It's like... a lot of emotions mixed together, I can't help but think of some strange things."

"Then this thought, the thought that I can't help thinking about strange things, makes me feel guilty and sad, and I want to deny myself." Xie Zhitang suddenly raised his head, put his hands on Lu Jinsen's shoulders, and looked at him condescendingly Said, "Let's get engaged."

It was clearly an imperative sentence, but Xie Zhitang looked at Lu Jinsen's calm eyes and immediately added, "Is that okay?"

Lu Jinsen didn't agree to him for a second, and within that second, he found countless reasons that Lu Jinsen could use to reject him.The next second still did not agree, and the reasons Xie Zhitang found for rejecting him doubled.

Lu Jinsen watched Xie Zhitang gradually wilt in his arms, frowned and gradually moved his hand on the back of Xie Zhitang's head, supported Xie Zhitang's chin and lifted Xie Zhitang's face, and said seriously: "Tangtang, are you sure this is Is that what you really want?"

Xie Zhitang lowered his eyes, and Lu Jinsen said again: "I can get engaged to you, Tangtang, if it can make you feel at ease. But I hope you can think about the root cause."

"Don't be afraid." Lu Jinsen kissed Xie Zhitang lightly on the forehead, maybe it would be more appropriate to stick it, Lu Jinsen just used this to express his feelings, he said: "Tangtang, do what you want."

Lu Jinsen understood Xie Zhitang, he couldn't bear to see the young eagle tied up by thorns and trapped on the ground forever.He hoped that Xie Zhitang could soar in the sky, proud and bright.

Lu Jinsen's thoughts remained unchanged. He looked at Xie Zhitang in his arms and thought to himself: I should mention the matter of going abroad for medical treatment with Xie Zhitang again.

Lu Jinsen mentioned it to Xie Zhitang twice before, but Xie Zhitang was very resistant and sternly refused.In addition, Xie Zhitang's condition during this period is really good, and now that he is being sent abroad for treatment, Xie Zhitang may also get sick due to resistance, so this matter has been delayed.

But it won't do any good to delay it any longer.

Xie Zhitang was unwilling to go abroad for treatment, mostly because he knew that it was impossible for Lu Jinsen to go abroad with him.

It is impossible for Lu Jinsen to let go of his work and responsibilities and follow Xie Zhitang to settle abroad.There is no telling how long Xie Zhitang's treatment will take, maybe several years.

Xie Zhitang couldn't accept being separated from Lu Jinsen for so long, Xie Zhitang felt a headache whenever he thought about it.

As if every nerve was torn into three, Xie Zhitang refused to think about being separated from Lu Jinsen.The first thing he did when he got up in the morning was to wonder if Lu Jinsen had woken up. When he sent Lu Jinsen out, he also thought that Lu Jinsen would be back in a few hours.

Lu Jinsen has always encouraged Xie Zhitang to do something within his ability. After the design of the new home was completed, Xie Zhitang was idle again, and he was not quite used to it.

Lu Jinsen began to encourage him to draw, and told Xie Zhitang that they went to the old house to see the portraits of their ancestors, but Lu Jinsen hadn't hung his own portrait yet.

He told Xie Zhitang that he hoped that Xie Zhitang could draw a portrait of him, so that people who saw the painting later would know that Lu Jinsen's portrait was painted for him by his lover.

This way of showing affection, Xie Zhitang naturally agreed, and began to seriously study portraits.

Lu Jinsen found many ways to keep Xie Zhitang's output, whether it was asking Xie Zhitang to design a house, asking Xie Zhitang to paint, or asking the nurse and nanny to talk to Xie Zhitang more.

These are to allow Xie Zhitang to have a way to release his emotions, without having to keep everything in his heart, and to let him get in touch with the world more and have more connections with the world.

Lu Jinsen is willing to be Xie Zhitang's cable, but he doesn't want Xie Zhitang to drift in the sea forever, he wants Xie Zhitang to go ashore, and wants Xie Zhitang to take root and sprout.

作者有话要说：感谢在2020-08-2523:23:11~2020-08-2723:59:17期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel who threw mines: 1 baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

Thanks to the little angels of the irrigation nutrient solution: 20 bottles of the fifth level; 10 bottles of Jun; 1 bottle of thin oranges and green leaves;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!