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Lu Jinsen looked at Xie Zhitang calmly but gently, and said slowly: "You don't need to think about the reason, and you don't need to think about the consequence."

Xie Zhitang looked at Lu Jinsen, his heart skipped a beat, as if it was a sign of something.

Xie Zhitang held his breath involuntarily, a rush of air from the back of his neck made him tremble uncontrollably, Xie Zhitang looked at Lu Jinsen tremblingly, waiting for his next words.

The wind suddenly picked up and slammed the window shut, and the rain immediately fell and was blown obliquely by the wind, crackling and hitting the window, as if hitting Xie Zhitang's heart.

Lu Jinsen heard the sound of wind and rain, but he did not move, but continued to say calmly: "Do you want to be with me?"

Even though Xie Zhitang was mentally prepared, he couldn't help but froze on the bed when he heard Lu Jinsen's question.

Lu Jinsen is a smart man.What smart people know best is to understand the subtext of others.

Xie Zhitang expressed his rejection very clearly, and he was sure that Lu Jinsen understood.

According to the logic of Xie Zhitang's simulation, Lu Jinsen shouldn't ask him so bluntly again.

Not embarrassing others, nor embarrassing yourself, is the virtue a gentleman should have, and Xie Zhitang has already expressed his wishes very clearly.

If Xie Zhitang really didn't want to be with Lu Jinsen, then Lu Jinsen's direct question would put himself in a disadvantageous position.

Lu Jinsen didn't seem to see Xie Zhitang's expression after the shock, and continued: "I'm just asking for your wishes, there is no need to consider other factors."

Lu Jinsen lowered his eyes, his azure blue iris looked extraordinarily blue under the light of the incandescent lamp, like a cloudless sky in midsummer.

Xie Zhitang looked into his eyes, it was filled with sincere love.

"Are you willing to start a relationship with me with the goal of getting married?" Lu Jinsen asked.

Xie Zhitang immediately stiffened from head to toe.

His rationality and emotion kept colliding, but this time the impact was not as incisive as before.

Under Lu Jinsen's offensive, Xie Zhitang's rationality was immediately defeated, and now he is just resisting tenaciously.

Xie Zhitang suddenly sighed very lightly, thinking: Lu Jinsen is too cunning.With him like this, how could he refuse him?Can't refuse.

He likes Lu Jinsen so much that he doesn't know what to do, he likes Lu Jinsen like a porcelain doll, and every time he wants to touch him, he has to be cautious.

Lu Jinsen had been waiting patiently for Xie Zhitang's answer, not even missing Xie Zhitang's inaudible sigh.

Lu Jinsen was not nervous, but rather calm.

Lu Jinsen was not so confident that Xie Zhitang would never reject him, but he didn't want to hang things up like this.He only needed Xie Zhitang to give him an answer, even if it wasn't the answer he hoped for, Lu Jinsen could calmly accept it.

Xie Zhitang gradually relaxed his body in front of Lu Jinsen, a huge indescribable sadness surged into Xie Zhitang's heart, Xie Zhitang's eyes turned red again, and the eye sockets became moist again.

But Xie Zhitang didn't feel sad, on the contrary, he had never been so relaxed.

He almost didn't need to think about his answer, it was a violent impulse engraved in his flesh and blood, he wanted to agree to Lu Jinsen no matter what.

Since Lu Jinsen only wanted his wishes, he didn't have to consider other factors.

Well, there won't be any change in his answer, he would.

Putting it all aside and not considering any realities, it's just one soul reacting to another.

Xie Zhitang's eyelashes trembled slightly, as if slowly breaking the seal, he looked up at Lu Jinsen.

This look seemed to have completely liberated Xie Zhitang from the seal, and Xie Zhitang's expression immediately became alive.

Xie Zhitang frowned at Lu Jinsen and said, "When our souls pass through the grave and stand before God, we are equal.*"

Xie Zhitang stretched his brows and eyes with a gentle expression, but tears fell like a bank, he said: "I think, I am willing."

Lu Jinsen nodded slightly, stood up from the chair and sat on the side of the bed, holding Xie Zhitang's face in both hands, and wiped away the tears on Xie Zhitang's face with his thumb.Then slightly lowered his head and faced Xie Zhitang and said gently: "This is enough. I will face the rest with you, okay?"

Xie Zhitang's tears that were just wiped away kept falling because of Lu Jinsen's words.

Xie Zhitang endured for a few seconds but still did not suppress his emotions, and immediately let out a sharp sob, quickly buried his face in Lu Jinsen's neck and cried, "But...it's not..."

Xie Zhitang couldn't cry, whimpered continuously, and after a while he adjusted his breathing: "This is not something you should bear!"

Lu Jinsen didn't stop patting Xie Zhitang's back. He hugged Xie Zhitang and fixed him in his arms, comforting him softly: "Don't cry. This is not to bear, this is my choice."

Xie Zhitang was still crying, Lu Jinsen simply pulled him out of the bed, hugged him in his arms, covered a small circle around him with pheromone, and wrapped Xie Zhitang inside.

This behavior was extremely effective. As time went by, the medicine Xie Zhitang had just taken gradually took effect. Under Lu Jinsen's large amount of pheromone and constant coaxing words in a soft voice, Xie Zhitang sobbed slowly to calm down his emotions.

Xie Zhitang stopped crying, only sobbed uncontrollably from time to time, lying on Lu Jinsen's chest and quietly hugging Lu Jinsen's neck.

After a while, Xie Zhitang suddenly raised his head slightly and said in a muffled voice, "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to reject you, I was just... worried."

Lu Jinsen raised his hand and rubbed the back of Xie Zhitang's head, then slightly tilted his head towards Xie Zhitang and asked him, "What are you worried about?"

Xie Zhitang was silent for a few seconds and said, "...scared."

Lu Jinsen still didn't understand, he patted Xie Zhitang on the back and asked, "What are you afraid of?"

It took a long time for Xie Zhitang to say: "I may not be like...you think...I..."

Xie Zhitang was quiet for two seconds, then suddenly sobbed again and buried his face on Lu Jinsen's shoulder again, Lu Jinsen had no choice but to hug Xie Zhitang tightly again, lowered his head and coaxed softly: "I didn't think about you, we have enough time to get to know each other. Alright Tangtang, don't cry, you've been crying for too long."

Xie Zhitang hugged Lu Jinsen tightly and let out a "huh" with a strong crying voice, and hid in Lu Jinsen's arms full of Lu Jinsen's pheromone flavor to restore his mood.

Lu Jinsen's embrace is like another small world, different from the real world.

Coming to Lu Jinsen's arms and hugging him, Xie Zhitang seemed to have taken off his body and only his soul was left to cling to Lu Jinsen.

Xie Zhitang felt a long-lost peace.

He even wants the world to stop at this moment forever.

He now has Lu Jinsen's arms and love, and that's enough.

Xie Zhitang stayed in Lu Jinsen's arms for an unknown time, Xie Zhitang's pheromone was released at some point, and it merged with Lu Jinsen's pheromone to form a new flavor.

And Xie Zhitang's breathing gradually became consistent with Lu Jinsen's. He felt Lu Jinsen's chest rising and falling slightly in front of his chest, with the same rhythm as his own.

While Xie Zhitang heard his own heartbeat, he also felt Lu Jinsen's heartbeat, and it was worn on Xie Zhitang's body through several layers of fabric.

Xie Zhitang's heartbeat was much faster than Lu Jinsen's, so their heartbeats were naturally not in sync.

Plop, plop, plop... Xie Zhitang slowly relaxed when he heard Lu Jinsen's heartbeat, but slowly blushed again.

Xie Zhitang lowered his head to support Lu Jinsen's chest and straightened his upper body. Lu Jinsen covered most of Xie Zhitang's face with one hand, and quickly followed with the other hand, lifting Xie Zhitang's face up.

Xie Zhitang cried non-stop almost all night, his eyelids were red and swollen, and his eyes were bloodshot, but Xie Zhitang's red spots were not limited to these.

Lu Jinsen looked at Xie Zhitang's flushed face in surprise, turned his face from Lu Jinsen's hand to avoid looking at Lu Jinsen, stroked Xie Zhitang's side face with five fingers and asked him with a light smile: "What's wrong Tangtang? Are you shy? "

Xie Zhitang pursed his lips slightly, glanced down and let out a short voice from his throat: "En."

Lu Jinsen smiled slightly, let go of Xie Zhitang's face, and asked him: "Then Tangtang go to sleep, I will come to see you tomorrow morning."

Xie Zhitang didn't speak again.

He didn't want to be separated from Lu Jinsen.

When Xie Zhitang was reading "Youyang Miscellaneous Zu Mao Pian", he saw such an animal: "It may be said that wolves are two things, and the forefoot of embarrassment is extremely short, and they often drive two wolves in each line. If they lose wolves, they cannot move. The well-behaved are called embarrassing."

It is about an animal called wolf and an animal called embarrassment in ancient times.Hao's body is born with defects, and he can only rely on wolves to move and walk. Once the wolf disappears, Hao can't move.

Such embarrassment cannot survive alone.

When Xie Zhitang read "Youyang Zazu · Mao Pian", he only felt that it was a relationship of mutual cooperation and mutual utilization.

Hao guides the wolf to hunt, and the wolf has to distribute food to Hao after hunting to ensure the safety of Hao's life.

But now that Xie Zhitang thinks about it carefully, he feels that this is a deformed almost parasitic relationship.

Wolves can catch food even if they are not embarrassed.But without the wolf, he will lose his life because he does not have the ability to survive alone.

They have different needs for each other. To the wolf, it is just icing on the cake, but to the wolf, it is the best.They are not equal, and there is no so-called relationship of equality and cooperation.

Xie Zhitang looked down at his hand on Lu Jinsen's lower abdomen, and couldn't help but think that his relationship with Lu Jinsen was like a wolf and an embarrassment.

He knew that before Lu Jinsen's liking deepened, it would be wise for him to stay away from Lu Jinsen as soon as possible to avoid falling deeper and deeper.

He not only saved himself, but also saved Lu Jinsen.

But Xie Zhitang was not greedy enough.If he was going to die tomorrow, then today, he wanted to be with Lu Jinsen.

The author has something to say: I saw a lot of people saying that I was stuck in the plot, but it was not intentional.

Because I have been very busy recently, everyone has also seen that I am posting chapters on a regular basis, because after writing and checking twice, I have reached this point!I also want to keep writing!But time does not allow!

The sentence before the *, when our souls pass through the grave and stand before God, we are equal.From "Jane Eyre"

感谢在2020-08-1023:59:33~2020-08-1123:55:03期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angels who cast mines: mob2;

Thanks to the little angels of the irrigation nutrient solution: 13 bottles of June Breeze; 10 bottles of Yiye Guzhou; 1 bottle of mzzki and Senli;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!