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Xie Zhitang walked in and opened the glass door of the bookcase, and found that it was a list of books starting with Z. After looking at it for a while, he was almost dazzled.

Xie Zhitang then turned to look at Lu Jinsen. He was wearing a pair of anti-blue light glasses. From the back side, only half of his face could be seen. The computer was covered with a privacy film.

Xie Zhitang thought, this should be the reason why Lu Jinsen dared to put him in the study.

But Lu Jinsen had already entered the working state, Xie Zhitang didn't bother him, closed his eyes and slid on the paper, and took out a book that was not too thick.

Xie Zhitang opened his eyes and saw that it was Schopenhauer's "The World as Will and Expression".

Xie Zhitang didn’t know much about Arthur Schopenhauer. He knew that he was the founder of voluntarism and pioneered irrational philosophy, but he had never read his works.

Xie Zhitang touched the inscribed gold letters on the cover, closed the cabinet door and sat gently opposite Lu Jinsen, opened the book as a cover, and secretly peeked at Lu Jinsen.

The glasses dilute Lu Jinsen's sharp aggressiveness, making him appear gentle.Xie Zhitang stared deeply at Lu Jinsen for a long time, trying to engrave Lu Jinsen's deep outline in his mind.

It wasn't until Lu Jinsen raised his head that Xie Zhitang immediately looked away and cast his eyes on the book to avoid Lu Jinsen's gaze.

But with just one glance, he was immediately attracted by the content of the book.

"... Then he will clearly realize that he does not know what the sun is and what the earth is, but only sees the sun with his eyes and feels the earth with his hands. He will understand that the world he lives in is only an appearance existing……"

Xie Zhitang compared this sentence with his index finger, and read it again.

He doesn't know what the sun is and what the earth is, but he only sees the sun with his eyes and feels the earth with his hands.

Xie Zhitang thought: I don't know either.

Is the sun that my eyes see and the earth that my hands feel real?Or is it just a figment of my brain to fool me?

Do I see the same things as other people see?Is the redness in my eyes the same kind of redness in other people's eyes?

Appearance is the perceptual image formed by perception in the brain, so what is the difference between me and others?

Xie Zhitang continued to look down.

"...That is to say, the whole world that exists depending on "knowledge" is just an object related to the subject, and it is the intuition of the intuitionist, that is, the representation...."

The world that exists depends on "knowledge".

Xie Zhitang thought again: What should I do if my understanding is wrong?

"...this other truth is what everyone should say: "The world is my will. "..."

The existence of things depends on my perception, which is the appearance of objects in my eyes.But my perception is wrong, the foundation upon which things exist is incorrect.

So, Minecraft isn't right either?But what is right?

Xie Zhitang thought a lot, and began to read the book seriously.

When Xie Zhitang was immersed in the book, Lu Jinsen really raised his head and glanced at Xie Zhitang lightly.

He knew that Xie Zhitang was looking at him, and he let Xie Zhitang look at him.

According to Xie's mother, Xie Zhitang didn't like to be with other people.He prefers silence to excitement; he prefers to be alone than to party.

Xie's father and mother had talked to him about Xie Zhitang.

Xie's mother said: "We discovered this when he was very young and consulted a psychologist. The psychologist said that Tangtang's high IQ made him incompatible with his peers. Tangtang thought too much and said it naturally. less."

Father Xie took the words and continued: "Xie Zhitang fell ill when he was 14 years old and stayed in the hospital for nine months. Maybe it was our negligence. During those nine months, Xie Zhitang had no terminal and could not communicate with the outside world. The only ones with him are the nanny and the nurse."

"During those nine months, Tangtang barely spoke. At first we thought it was because he was ill and lacked energy, so he had no desire to communicate. When he kept silent, we panicked and checked him immediately," said Xie's mother. When I got here, my eyes were red again.

"The doctor said that there is nothing wrong with Tangtang's vocal cords. He suggested that we go to a psychiatrist." Mother Xie took a breath and said, "We originally suspected that Tangtang had autism. Many children with high IQs have autism. , we knew about this when Tangtang first showed a high IQ. But Tangtang performed very well... well beyond our expectations, so we let our guard down."

"Xie Zhitang is very resistant to the psychiatrist, and his treatment is almost ineffective." Xie's father put his hand on Xie's mother's hand on his knee, comforting Xie's mother with physical actions, "But suddenly one day, Xie Zhitang got better."

"He began to actively contact the outside world," said Father Xie. "We thought his illness was cured, but we didn't expect this to be just the beginning. We agreed with him to suspend his studies, let him cut off his interpersonal relationship, and let him concentrate on being himself Whatever he wants to do, as long as he is happy."

Hearing this, Xie's mother broke down immediately, and tears fell down in big drops.Covering her face with her hands, she suppressed her crying and said, "I don't know if I did something wrong, or if I shouldn't do this? Why is Tangtang's mental condition getting worse and worse, and why does he want to end his life? "

At that time, Lu Jinsen only briefly comforted his mother with a few words of gratitude, but he did not approve of this kind of education.

They indulged Xie Zhitang too much.

They regard Xie Zhitang as a treasure, a pet like pearls and jade, but life and disease will not favor Xie Zhitang.Moreover, Xie Zhitang was already ill at that time, and the patient's words could not be counted.

Xie Zhitang used the previous time to prove that leaving Xie Zhitang alone is not good for his condition.

Then, Lu Jinsen wants to try to keep Xie Zhitang in a long-term and stable relationship.

The torrential rain did not stop, and it rained outside the window all night.The atmosphere inside the window was quiet and serene. Although no one spoke, it didn't appear awkward and stagnant.

There is only a plain but warm emotion, like mist and veil, flowing slowly between the two.

Time disappeared bit by bit, and after an unknown amount of time, the nanny knocked on the door of the study, and Lu Jinsen said in a deep voice, "Come in."

The nanny gently opened the door, instead of coming in, she chose to stand outside the door and said to Lu Jinsen, "Mr. Lu, it's already ten o'clock, Tangtang should get ready for bed."

Hearing someone calling him, Xie Zhitang came back to his senses from the book, looked up at his omega nanny, then looked down at the unfinished book in his hand, without saying a word.

Lu Jinsen waited patiently. Seeing that Xie Zhitang did not respond, he picked up the bookmark on the desk and walked in. Xie Zhitang picked up the book in his hand, put the bookmark in it, and then closed the book and said to Xie Zhitang, "Go and get ready for bed, you You can come over tomorrow night and continue watching."

Xie Zhitang nodded, got up and walked towards the nanny.

It wasn't until he reached the door that he turned his head and said, "Good night, brother."

Lu Jinsen also greeted him good night, watched the nanny slowly close the door, turned and returned to his seat, and continued his work.

The next day when Lu Jinsen finished washing and went out, Xie Zhitang was already in the living room.

The light outside the window today was brighter than yesterday, Xie Zhitang turned on the light, sat on the sofa, raised his head and smiled at Lu Jinsen when he heard Lu Jinsen going out, and said, "Good morning, brother."

"Good morning." Lu Jinsen replied.

When he got closer, he realized that the box of five-color ink that Xie Zhitang was looking at on the coffee table was the box of "Five-color Ink of Great Wealth and Life" given by Mr. Zhang as a meeting gift.

Sure enough, Xie Zhitang asked: "Why didn't brother put it away? This is your meeting gift."

Lu Jinsen lowered his head and glanced at the five-color ink, and said: "Good materials should be given to good painters, so it is not a waste. If you give them to me, they can only be put in the warehouse to collect dust."

Before Xie Zhitang could speak, Lu Jinsen asked again: "I'm not interested in Mo. Can I have your snacks?"

Xie Zhitang froze on the sofa.

Lu Jinsen... actually likes to eat snacks?