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The studio that Lu Jinsen prepared for Xie Zhitang was not big, and Xie Zhitang placed several two-meter-high statues in the corner, and a large table was placed against the wall, on which were Xie Zhitang's pens, inks, papers and inkstones.

There were several drawing boards of different sizes on the balcony, paint boxes and palettes on the floor, muddy buckets with several pens soaked in them, and a large colorful sponge.

Because of the dark clouds and low pressure, the sky was always unable to light up, Xie Zhitang even turned on the overhead light, shining brightly on a painting that Xie Zhitang was drawing.

It was a portrait.

Xie Zhitang rarely paints portraits.

His brain can easily construct a white-feathered bird, a yellow-haired cat, or even a mythical creature. Xie Zhitang can also immediately construct Cthulhu's wings, antennae, and even every scale and antennae on the wings on every sucker.

But human faces are hard to imagine in Xie Zhitang's mind.

The face is the symbol of the individual.

When you get along with people, you will remember the other person's face, not other places.

But Xie Zhitang has slight face blindness.

Unlike Lu Jinsen, it is not easy for Xie Zhitang to identify everyone around him - for Xie Zhitang, these people are too similar, stereotyped, and there is nothing worth remembering seriously.

Even if he remembered, Xie Zhitang's brain could not outline Lu Jinsen's face.So he had no choice but to paint the hairstyle ratio and muscle distribution of the portrait, and gradually perfected it.

This is a half-naked man with full and perfect muscles - Xie Zhitang drew it according to the statue of "Fallen Icarus".

Xie Zhitang's studio has a small "Falling Icarus", which is different from the Sicilian bronze statue, he is a plaster statue.

The plaster statue has damaged limbs and incomplete wings, but the charm of "Fallen Icarus" is just like the broken arm of Venus, which is a kind of incomplete and imperfect beauty.

Xie Zhitang quietly painted in the studio all morning, the dark clouds gathered and dispersed, gathered and went away, the nanny came and knocked on the antique cabinet on the side of the studio and asked, "Tangtang, I cut you some salad."

Xie Zhitang then took the paintbrush and said without looking back, "Come in."

Only then did the nanny lift the curtain, and the nurse behind her was holding a salad bowl full of fruit and salad dressing.

The nurse put the salad bowl on the high chair beside Xie Zhitang, and said, "Tangtang, eat the fruit while it's fresh."

Only then did Xie Zhitang turn around, holding two pens in his right hand, he took a fork in his left hand and ate a piece of pear, saying:

"Very sweet, thank you sister."

The nurse just laughed and said, "Then we won't bother you to paint, and Tangtang paints."

Xie Zhitang smiled and nodded, looking at the nanny, who was looking at the painting that Xie Zhitang casually put on the table.

There are several animals, a rooster with a big red crown, a chubby tiger, and a snow-white rabbit with long ears, all of which are very cute.

So Xie Zhitang said: "My sister likes it? Then pick one and take it away."

The nanny shook her head and said, "How can this be done? It's all drawn by you. Besides, I know how much your paintings cost. I can't accept such an expensive gift from you."

Xie Zhitang put down his brush and walked in, picked up the rice paper on the table and looked at it, then turned to the two of them and said, "It's just a painting. I have a bad temper, and my sister has taken care of me for so long, I will keep that in mind. I don't have brothers and sisters, and the older sister I've called you for a few years is no different from my own older sister, the courtesy is light and the affection is heavy, if you like it, pick the cute one and take it away."

Female omegas are always full of emotions. When Xie Zhitang said this, her eyes immediately turned red, and the nurse said, "We also treat you as a younger brother."

Xie Zhitang smiled, showing a little dimple, and said, "I know. Come and pick, is there any animal you like?"

In the end, the nanny took a rabbit, and the nurse took a tiger and went out.

Xie Zhitang watched them close the door gently, the smile on his face disappeared.

Paintings without his signature and seal are not valuable, let alone sold at a good price.

Xie Zhitang walked back to the balcony indifferently, and when passing by 'Fallen Icarus', he reached out and touched his broken wingtip, sat back on his seat and continued to draw.

Xie Zhitang squeezed bright red, lemon yellow, ultramarine blue and white paints into the corners of the palette, and his blended skin color was in the middle.Even a flesh-colored chest can be divided into different shades of cold and warm.

He used a spatula to blend the skin tone, and then smeared all over the canvas. Time passed quickly in the smooth paint, until the knock on the door sounded again.

Xie Zhitang put down his pen, lifted the curtain and walked to the living room, only to find that Xie's father, mother and psychiatrist had already arrived.

Xie Zhitang almost subconsciously turned back to look at the studio, but he restrained himself, blinked his eyes and sat down affectionately between Xie's father and mother and asked, "Did you miss me?"

Father Xie snorted and said, "Otherwise, why am I wasting time here?"

Looking back at Mother Xie, she smiled softly and said, "Mom, you are the only baby, who do you miss?"

Xie Zhitang looked down at the coffee table and said, "I know."

Then he raised his head quickly, and asked Chang Yun with a smile: "Doctor Chang, shall we go to the balcony to talk for a while?"

Chang Yun naturally agreed, and followed Xie Zhitang to the balcony.

There were small tables and chairs on the balcony, and Xie Zhitang and Chang Yun sat on a chair each, talking across the coffee table.

Xie Zhitang didn't look at Changyun, he cast his eyes on the row upon row of high-rise buildings, and said slowly: "I have gradually felt this way since I was 16 years old. I feel that I am not here, in another place, or that the world It's false, untrue."

Chang Yun asked: "Is the frequency high? How serious is it?"

Xie Zhitang thought about it carefully and asked, "What frequency is high?"

Without waiting for Changyun to answer, Xie Zhitang continued: "I couldn't tell the difference at first, but then I gradually became clear. I went to the grassland because..."

Xie Zhitang paused, turned his head to look at Chang Yun and asked calmly, "He told you everything, right?"

Chang Yun said: "Yes, I can understand, you can continue talking."

Xie Zhitang withdrew his gaze and said, "At that time, I already knew that this was an illusion. I just suddenly felt that since my brain wants me to feel that I am on the grassland, then I might as well go to the grassland to have a look."

Xie Zhitang smiled, "Grassland and grassland are very different. I can't find the kind of grassland, the kind of green that appeared in my mind."

"That kind of feeling is also fake." Xie Zhitang said in a sad tone: "Later, I couldn't tell what was real."

"If I feel like I'm fake there, is it real that I'm here? ... Or is it another more perfect illusion that I can't tell?"

The partner who canceled the visit due to yesterday's heavy rain, in order to express their sincerity of cooperation to Lu's, and when the plane could not take off, all the staff made a train to come here, just to explain their plan to Lu's face to face.

Lu Jinsen had no choice but to receive them personally, listened to all their plans and backup plans, and then sent the opposing team out of Lu's.

"Mr. Lu, Mr. Lu, it's better to see once than to hear about it for a long time. How about I be the host tonight, let's have a light meal? I also brought some of our special products, which are all cheap things. Mr. Lu's admiration, I hope Mr. Lu will appreciate it!" The opposite team sent a middle-aged beta, long-sleeved and good at dancing, with exquisite faces, and after shaking hands, he held Lu Jinsen's hand tightly.

Li Zhe immediately stepped forward to stand in front of Lu Jinsen, pulled away Beta's inseparable hand from Lu Jinsen, and then stepped forward to hold it, saying: "We have received your wish, but Lu always does not accept gifts." , this precedent cannot be set, otherwise you will give it away, and I will also give it away, how good is that? You say yes."

"Yes, this precedent cannot be set." Beta was pulled over by Li Zhe and still asked with a smile: "What about dinner? I heard that the seafood in your city is very fresh. Why don't I invite Mr. Lu to eat seafood? What do you think?"

The driver had already driven the car to the front of the company, Lu Jinsen patted the beta on the shoulder, and said, "There are still people waiting at home, please excuse me first. Li Zhe, see everyone off for me."

Beta was taken aback for a moment, he hadn't heard about Lu Jinsen's marriage before he came, and then he smiled ambiguously and said, "It turns out there is someone at home, so I can't force him to stay, Mr. Lu, go slowly."

Then the conversation changed: "Assistant Li! Thank you so much for your help today!..."

Lu Jinsen turned around, got into the car, and drove away.

In the car, Lu Jinsen's terminal beeped continuously, and Lu Jinsen didn't need to look to know that the message was from Li Zhe.Li Zhe could type English with his hands behind his back without looking at the screen, and Lu Jinsen clicked on it.

Li Zhe: "Boss!!!"

Li Zhe: "At the beginning, you said that you would never leave me alone in this situation!!"

Li Zhe: "Don't count now!!"

Li Zhe: "It was a wrong payment after all!!"

Li Zhe: "I'm going to take bribes privately!! I'm going to evade taxes!!"

Lu Jinsen smiled lightly, knowing that Li Zhe couldn't see him, he still sent him a sentence: Come on.

Probably because the beta of the small company was really hard to deal with, Li Zhe stopped sending harassing messages. Before getting off the car, Lu Jinsen sent Li Zhe a text message, saying that he would have a day off on the fifteenth of this month.

Salary raises or holidays are Lu Jinsen's usual tactics to appease his subordinates.Fifteen morning made an appointment to take Xie Zhitang to go fishing with Jiang Haichao, Li Zhe was naturally on vacation, and now he was just telling him in advance.

This is called a capitalist.

The capitalist swiped his card and entered the elevator, thinking, I don't know how Xie Zhitang and the psychiatrist are talking.

Just as he was thinking, the elevator door opened, and Xie Zhitang was slumped on the sofa opposite the elevator in a daze.

Because Xie Zhitang was going to meet a guest today, even if he didn't go out, he changed out of his big nightgown and put on a purple hooded sweater. His lower body was a pair of black overalls. He wore half-rolled cuffs on his arms. a watch.

Lu Jinsen walked in, Xie Zhitang stared at him and stretched out his hands lazily, but was photographed by Lu Jinsen.

Lu Jinsen looked at Xie Zhitang and said, "Get up and go."

Xie Zhitang had no choice but to stand up after blinking, followed Lu Jinsen into the living room, and said as he walked, "Brother

Brother, I will be hungry when you come back, you are so late. "

"Yeah." Lu Jinsen said, "Eat when you're hungry, don't wait for me."

Xie Zhitang sat on the seat, glanced at Lu Jinsen upon hearing this, then lowered his eyes and thought for a while, before saying, "Let's wait for you to come back."

The chef interrupted the conversation by bringing the prepared dishes to the table one after another.

Yesterday Lu Jinsen asked the chef to cook non-fishy seafood, and today the chef made steamed nine-section shrimp and baked lobster with cheese.

The secret of the non-fishy steamed nine-section shrimp is that it is steamed with hot water steamed with onion and ginger, and the shell is washed with light salt water in advance to remove the shrimp line, which can effectively reduce the fishy smell.

But Xie Zhitang ate up the grilled lobster with cheese, and the steamed nine-section shrimp didn't touch a single bite.

Lu Jinsen asked, "Why don't you eat shrimp?"

Xie Zhitang looked at Lu Jinsen innocently and said, "I don't want to peel the shell, it's very fishy."

Lu Jinsen stopped talking. He didn't prepare Xie Zhitang's shrimp shells himself, nor did he plan to ask others to peel Xie Zhitang's shrimp shells.

Xie Zhitang wanted to subtly let Lu Jinsen tame him, so as to achieve an emotional connection with Lu Jinsen, so that Lu Jinsen thought he had control and could not treat him casually.

He wanted to enter Lu Jinsen's heart through this simulated relationship of controlling and being controlled.No one will be wary of a relationship in which they are in an absolute advantage.

But it wasn't just the fed dog that conditioned the bell, but Pavlov who fed the dog.When Lu Jinsen had the illusion that he controlled Lu Jinsen, he couldn't leave Xie Zhitang easily.

No alpha would want to leave his omega.

What's more, the omega is docile and dependent on him, and the life of the omega is completely controlled by him. Alpha is always full of desire to control, but Xie Zhitang's goal is not this.

Xie Zhitang's purpose is to satisfy alpha's desire for control, and alpha's involuntary desire for protection.

But Lu Jinsen refused to domesticate Xie Zhitang.

Lu Jinsen knew very well that Xie Zhitang was not an omega who would be dazzled by pheromones, Xie Zhitang was like a wild animal, he could not be easily controlled by an alpha.

Lu Jinsen also knew that Xie Zhitang's three views were perfect, and he had his own ideas. His obedience was all superficial.

He was too lazy to play against Xie Zhitang.

Lu Jinsen's thinking has not changed, he only wants to help Xie Zhitang cure his illness, he has no intention of being Xie Zhitang's opponent, and he will fight back and forth with him.

The two finished their dinner quietly.

Although Xie Zhitang didn't eat shrimp, he still ate a bowl of rice with braised tenderloin. When he stood up, he touched his slightly swollen belly, wondering what he was thinking.

Lu Jinsen watched Xie Zhitang finish a bowl of rice, feeling satisfied.After leaving the table, he brewed a cup of chrysanthemum wolfberry tea brought by Xie Zhitang for himself and Xie Zhitang, and the two drank the tea silently for a while facing each other.

Lu Jinsen said, "I'm going to work, do you want to read a book?"

"Reading?" Xie Zhitang raised his head from the wide mouth cup, there was still mist from the hot water in his eyes.

"I have a lot of books in my study, you can read them." Lu Jinsen said.

Xie Zhitang agreed with a perfectly curved smile, and followed Lu Jinsen into his study.

Xie Zhitang stepped into Lu Jinsen's study for the first time, only then did he realize that the books in Lu Jinsen's study were not just 'many', but 'many'.

There are bookcases on both sides of the study room, full of books, the desk is placed directly facing the window, and there are chairs on both sides of the desk.

Lu Jinsen sat straight on the chair and said to Xie Zhitang: "The bookcases are arranged in alphabetical order. You can find the books you want to read. You can read them as you like, but you must put them back in their original places."

The author has something to say: This chapter should have been written yesterday, so there will be another chapter tomorrow.

Thanks for the support.