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17-year-old Xie Zhitang felt that his other self was on the grassland, so he followed him to the grassland.If the 21-year-old Xie Zhitang felt that another person jumped off the cliff, would he still jump off the cliff?

Lu Jinsen found it ridiculous and completely incomprehensible.But as the doctor said, it is this absurdity that is so different from ordinary people that it is called a disease.

People's feelings are not the same, he couldn't understand Xie Zhitang's thoughts.

Xie Zhitang clearly knew that he could feel everything on the grassland because of sensory synthesis disorder, so why did he go to the grassland?

The grassland in Xie Zhitang's imagination is full of death and blood, what does this represent?

It was a mess, but Lu Jinsen only said softly, "I'll ask the nurse to bring the evening medicine, so I can go to bed early tonight, okay?"

Xie Zhitang nodded, and said vaguely: "I have to go for a blood test tomorrow... After changing the medicine, it will take a few days before it will be accurate."

Lu Jinsen didn't hear clearly, so he just called the nurse to come in with the medicine, watched Xie Zhitang eat up the evening medicine, covered Xie Zhitang with the quilt and was about to go out, but Xie Zhitang grabbed his wrist.

Lu Jinsen turned his head, looked at Xie Zhitang, who was tightly wrapped on the bed, only showing his face and one arm, and asked, "What's wrong?"

Xie Zhitang looked at Lu Jinsen seriously for a while, almost scrutinizing him, but he just waved his hands and said, "Good night, brother."

Lu Jinsen gave Xie Zhitang a shallow glance, didn't ask him why he was pulling him, but said good night, walked out of Xie Zhitang's room, and closed the door behind him.

Lu Jinsen took a bottle of Romanee-Conti from the wine cabinet, cut open the bottle seal on the cork with a paper cutter, put the corkscrew in line with the diameter of the bottle, and pressed the down button, the cork rose automatically.

Lu Jinsen likes to collect corks, to be precise, Lu Jinsen likes to collect tartrates on corks.

Theoretically, tartar hydrochloric acid is bound to be produced in wine making.

Although tartaric acid can be precipitated in wine at low temperature, it is very easy to remove tartaric acid in wine.However, once the wine has undergone a large temperature difference during the preservation process, it will greatly affect the quality of the wine.

For low-end and cheap wines, low temperature treatment will not affect the taste too much.But for high-quality red wine, it can be said to be a fatal blow.

Therefore, in the market, high-quality wines brewed according to traditional methods are more prone to tartar hydrochloric acid in the wine because they do not use low-temperature precipitation of tartaric hydrochloric acid and filtration technology.

This is called 'no gold is pure, no man is perfect'.

Lu Jinsen slowly poured the wine into the decanter to ensure that all the tartar remained at the bottom of the bottle, and then carried the decanter and wine glass into the study.

A small amount of alcohol can help him concentrate. Lu Jinsen glanced at the time, calculated the time needed for the conversation, and decided not to bother the psychiatrist at night.

He turned on the computer and wrote down every word Xie Zhitang said.

From 'Do you believe in parallel universes? 'Start, keep recording until' But this kind of parallel universe is also called perception syndrome in medicine. 'Finish.

Every word, action, and emotion Xie Zhitang said were typed on the screen without any difference, and described in words.Then I wrote down my questions below and sent them to Dr. Chang to wait for her answer.

Psychology and medicine are unfamiliar fields for Lu Jinsen.

Fortunately, the network is perfect, and Lu Jinsen has a little understanding after reading a few documents.

Functional mental disorders such as schizophrenia, paranoid mental disorder, or mental disorders caused by organic diseases may be the cause of sensory syndrome.

The psychiatrist replied to Lu Jinsen's email half an hour later.

Changyun—Xie Zhitang's psychologist: First, do EEG, brain CT, and brain MRI to check whether it is sensory impairment caused by neurological lesions.

Xie Zhitang is most likely due to sensory impairment caused by schizophrenia.

Xie Zhitang took quetiapine fumarate tablets for a period of time when he first took the medicine to relieve anxiety and treat insomnia for a period of one year.

Reuse may be considered if organic causes are ruled out.

Lu Jinsen: Received.

Changyun——Xie Zhitang's psychologist: Xie Zhitang had already suffered from sensory impairment when he was 17 years old, and it has been five years since then.

Calculated according to the time, Xie Zhitang had already been ill for a year when he transferred to me, but he did not disclose any information to me in the past four years, but now he took the initiative to tell you, I guess it was because of the influence of his suicide.

Xie Zhitang had been taking medicine for treatment until he committed suicide, and his desire to survive was very strong.As long as he can see hope, he will persevere.

And that's why we came to you, Mr. Lu.

Lu Jinsen looked at the screen expressionlessly, moved his eyelashes slightly, and turned off the screen after replying with the word "um".

Xie Zhitang was not as frank with him as the others imagined.

He didn't know Xie Zhitang's true thoughts in his heart, and he didn't understand how shocking Xie Zhitang's "self" was, and Xie Zhitang wanted to cover it up with layers of confusion.

Lu Jinsen thought, what can 14-year-old Xie Zhitang come into contact with?

Lu Jinsen poured himself a glass of wine, frowned and thought.

14 years old is puberty, could it be that Xie Zhitang found out that he is gay?

Lu Jinsen took a sip of his wine and denied this idea again.

Today's society is open and accepts all kinds of people. Although homosexuality is a minority, it has also gained equality.

Even if the 14-year-old Xie Zhitang would be troubled by his sexuality, he shouldn't be taboo to this extent.

Xie Zhitang may have many secrets, but with the limited age requirement of 14 years old, the scope is narrowed down a lot.

Is it... fetish/pedophilia?

Lu Jinsen sat up straight, and began to imagine the possibility of Xie Zhitang meeting a lover/pedophile.

At the age of 14, Xie Zhitang had already completed elementary school, junior high school, and high school, and entered the university campus.

With fish and dragons mixed together, the danger is definitely not small.

Even though 14-year-old Xie Zhitang is extremely intelligent, he is still young. Even if he has learned self-defense, it pales in comparison to an adult alpha.

So Xie Zhitang has been ill for seven years and would rather commit suicide than connect with alpha?

Lu Jinsen thought for a while, and almost convinced himself.

But after thinking about it again, Xie Zhitang didn't show any disgust or fear of him in the past few days with him.

Compared with Lu Jinsen's mother, Xie Zhitang is very close to Lu Jinsen.

Lu Jinsen's mother, even the one who hadn't been raped by alpha, hated alpha because of what happened to her lover.The few times I met with Lu Jinsen were just to ask a few questions about the current situation across a table or chair.

Occasionally, when he got closer to Lu Jinsen, he would involuntarily show that he saw something disgusting and dirty.

However, Xie Zhitang was nostalgic for Lu Jinsen's touch, not like someone who had been hurt by alpha.

Lu Jinsen tapped the table with his fingertips for a while.

14 years old.puberty.

It is the time when self-awareness is awakened, but the ability to recognize and control is still not perfect.

Lu Jinsen thought for a while, but still had no idea.

When Lu Jinsen was 14 years old, the weather was uneventful. If there were any ups and downs, it would be that Jiang Haichao planned to adopt a kitten when he was preparing for the college entrance examination, and he took him along to find a destined cat, prepare a cat room, and learn how to cook cat food...

Jiang Haichao was afraid that he would be under too much pressure, so he did everything possible to find all kinds of interesting things to tell him.

But judging from Xie Zhitang's information, Xie Zhitang has no friends around him who can be called good friends.

Lu Jinsen poured himself another glass of wine, picked up the terminal and sent Jiang Haichao a message, asking him what was the most memorable thing that happened when he was 14 years old.

Jiang Haichao has always been slow to reply to messages, Lu Jinsen turned off the terminal without waiting for his reply, and unexpectedly put down the terminal, Jiang Haichao's news came pouring in one after another.

Lu Jinsen opened the terminal and took a look.

Jiang Haichao: That pervert!

Jiang Haichao: Did you forget?It's that alpha fetish/pedophilia!

Jiang Haichao: He still touches me!

Jiang Haichao: Every time I think about it, I want to blow his head off.

Jiang Haichao: It's disgusting.

Jiang Haichao: He usually looks like a dog, and he's also a fucking alpha!How did I know that he also coveted my beauty!

Jiang Haichao: I never expected it to be true, it has left a fucking shadow on me.

Jiang Haichao: It's disgusting.

Lu Jinsen: Didn't you send him to the hospital later?

Jiang Haichao: Do ​​you think this can heal the hurt in my heart?cannot!

Jiang Haichao: Even if he didn't succeed, what he did to me will be deeply etched in my memory, and everything that happened that afternoon will be with me for the rest of my life.

Jiang Haichao: Even if it's not my fault at all.

Lu Jinsen stared silently for a while, before he finished typing a sentence, Jiang Haichao sent another message.

Jiang Haichao: Well, let’s not talk anymore, I’m going to take a bath like the little white flower heroine in the TV series, crying and saying I’m dirty, I’m dirty, I’m dirty.

Jiang Haichao: Get off.

Lu Jinsen: Goodbye.

Lu Jinsen covered the terminal on the table with his backhand.

Could it be that Xie Zhitang met an omega lover/child/obsession?he thinks.