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Xie Zhitang let go of his hand slowly, backed away slowly, and knelt down in front of Lu Jinsen with his pillow in his arms.

Lu Jinsen has been looking at Xie Zhitang calmly, without moving.

Xie Zhitang lowered his head and did not speak. After a stalemate like this for a while, Xie Zhitang raised his head, glanced at Lu Jinsen, then threw himself into Lu Jinsen's arms as if giving up resistance, hugged him for a while before saying in a muffled voice: "Let me think...do you believe Parallel universe?"

"Parallel universe?" Lu Jinsen asked back.

"In the 20s, Everett proposed this concept." Xie Zhitang smelled the faint smell of pheromone on Lu Jinsen's body and said, "Let's first assume that there is a parallel universe."

"Yes." Lu Jinsen replied.

"This parallel universe does not intersect or overlap with ours, and we do not interfere with each other." Xie Zhitang said.

Xie Zhitang was silent for a few seconds before continuing: "But they overlapped when I was 17 years old. At that time, the 'I' in the parallel universe was on the grassland, so I felt the existence of 'him' and the A prairie, the animals on the prairie."

Lu Jinsen didn't speak, he pulled the corner of the quilt to wrap Xie Zhitang up, and then stroked Xie Zhitang's back comfortingly through the quilt.

"That grassland——" Xie Zhitang said: "It's not the endless green grassland of Pampas, where cattle and sheep can be seen low in the wind and grass. It's idyllic and too boring. It's just an enlarged version of the back garden of human beings."

So Lu Jinsen asked: "Then what is it like?"

Xie Zhitang turned over in the quilt, twisted to find a comfortable angle, and said earnestly: "The rainy season is already half over," then he stretched out his hand to compare the height and said: "The grass grows so high, the distance is far away. The forest is a lush green."

Lu Jinsen brushed away the broken hair on Xie Zhitang's face, and Xie Zhitang took his hand and put it on his face, and continued: "In front of me, there is a group of zebras grazing leisurely. They buried their heads in the grass, and only their pricked up ears were still there. Vigilantly detecting unknown dangers in the green."

Xie Zhitang spread Lu Jinsen's palm, and Xie Zhitang pressed his cheek against Xie Zhitang's face and hands.

Xie Zhitang smiled slightly, and Lu Jinsen felt the twitch of the muscles in the palm of his hand, and heard Xie Zhitang continue: "In the mud by the river, a group of green flies circled around a yak's bone, sticking to the flesh and hiding in the bone. in the seam."

"This yak should be the prey of a crocodile," Xie Zhitang said.

"Crocodile?" Lu Jinsen asked in a non-questioning tone.

Xie Zhitang nodded in his palm and said: "When the rainy season first arrived, the river was not as full as it is now. It crossed the river with the cows and wanted to go to the opposite side. The crocodiles in the river had long been lurking hungry, waiting The arrival of the prey."

"Those crocodiles are like rotten logs blown from upstream, floating peacefully on the water. If they cannot become stepping stones for yaks to cross the river, they must be the biggest obstacle for yaks to cross the river."

"Yes." Lu Jinsen said.

Xie Zhitang moved his head again, pressed Lu Jinsen's palm behind his head, looked at Lu Jinsen and said, "Then the herd of cows and the crocodiles attacked at the same time. The brown cow's hooves and the huge mouth of the crocodile rose and fell one after another accompanied by the waves of the river. It's like—like the black and white keys of a piano, and the bumblebee sounds by the river."

Xie Zhitang's analogy is very interesting, Lu Jinsen raised the corner of his mouth and asked, "And then?"

"When the world became quiet again, the battle of crossing the river was over." Xie Zhitang blinked and said, "The herd successfully crossed the river, but this yak was left behind. It is not alone. There are many yak corpses lying on the land... There are also countless bones buried under the soil, with a strong stench."

Xie Zhitang was silent for a while, then continued: "In the forest, there is a half body of a small antelope hanging on a branch a few meters above the ground."

Xie Zhitang stretched out his hand again, gestured for a direction and said, "Over there, that antelope. Its internal organs have been ripped out, its abdominal cavity is empty, and the blood that has not yet dried up snakes down the tree and flows into the cracked pit. In the bark."

Lu Jinsen said "um" again to show that he was listening carefully.

Xie Zhitang seemed to have seen the scene, turned around and buried his face in Lu Jinsen's hands, and said, "That's the food that the cheetah hid...about two hours ago, this little antelope was bitten by a cheetah and broke its spine , The skin and flesh were torn apart. Under the sharp teeth of the cheetah, the soft belly of the antelope was like a full soup dumpling, pierced by a fork..."

Xie Zhitang asked: "Have you ever eaten soup dumplings? Once the thin skin is pierced, the steaming soup will immediately overflow and splash on the snow-white plate."

"I seem to be hungry." Xie Zhitang said suddenly.

Lu Jinsen could hardly keep up with his train of thought, so he paused before saying, "Eating late at night is not good for your stomach, you have already eaten twice the usual amount for dinner."

Xie Zhitang had no choice but to twist again in dissatisfaction, and said: "The flowers, plants and trees on the grassland are all beautiful, that kind of green, silent and dangerous. Those scenery... the dawn after a long dark night, the cattle and sheep that are reported to keep warm, the weeds that grow wildly Grasses, slow-flowing rivers, beasts showing off their mates..."

"I was at home at the time, but 'he', me in another universe, was out on the prairie for days. I saw what 'he' saw, and smelled what 'him' smelled, like, my soul The other half, in 'him'."

Xie Zhitang laughed again, and said, "However, this kind of parallel universe is also called perception syndrome in medicine."

"So you want to go to the grassland?" Lu Jinsen asked in a low voice.

Xie Zhitang hugged Lu Jinsen's waist, and buried his face in Lu Jinsen's abdominal muscles through a layer of soft clothes.

Xie Zhitang nodded, and after a while, he seemed to be speaking to Lu Jinsen, but also seemed to be talking to himself: "Can you understand?"

Lu Jinsen looked down at Xie Zhitang and said, "A psychiatrist should understand better than me."

Xie Zhitang naturally understood this truth, Xie Zhitang frowned and said: "But I don't want to. I'm annoying."

Lu Jinsen was silent for a while.

It was the first time that he clearly understood the difference between Xie Zhitang and normal people. Even if Xie Zhitang had fallen ill in front of him before, he did not have such a clear understanding.

Xie Zhitang leaned against Lu Jinsen's arms, Lu Jinsen's palm was the warmth of Xie Zhitang's cheek.

They were so close, skin to skin.But they are so far apart, like two isolated islands.

Lu Jinsen sighed inwardly, and asked, "You know I will tell the psychiatrist about your situation."

Xie Zhitang didn't speak, but nodded while wrapped in the quilt.

"Take the medicine on time and everything will be fine," Lu Jinsen said.

Xie Zhitang still didn't speak or move.

Lu Jinsen patiently accompanied Xie Zhitang, and as time passed, Xie Zhitang said with all his strength, "I hate taking medicine."

"'A person does two things he doesn't like every day, and it's good for the soul.'*" Lu Jinsen said.

"Okay, Maugham is right." Xie Zhitang raised his head from Lu Jinsen's belly, and sat up on the bed.

Then he smiled slightly, and Li Dio could only see a little trace, and said in an old-fashioned tone: "For survival."

For survival.

Xie Zhitang's words seemed to be on the verge of death, but Lu Jinsen didn't find it strange.

Xie Zhitang was dragged back from the gate of hell last week, and it is not inappropriate to use the word survival.

He used to think that Xie Zhitang was well taken care of and would not be harmed by the outside world.But now he suddenly realized that the source of Xie Zhitang's injury was in his mind.