I was the first to catch up

After the holiday, Guan Buyu did not return to China. She finally got the qualification to move out of the dormitory, so she was busy moving during the holiday and moved to an apartment near the school.

During this period, Wang Meijuan called and asked her how her life was going here. Guan Buyu took out things from the box and said to the hands-free mobile phone:

"Well, it's good. I have friends to help me with moving and so on. It's not as tiring as I imagined."

This friend is Zhou Liu, who is lying on her sofa and sleeping now—she insisted on coming to help her when she heard about Guan Buyu's moving house, but she just stared dumbfounded at the strange force Guan Buyu easily picked up a Another box, and finally jokingly poked the silent biceps and said:

"Guan, do you really not go to the gym? Are you actually muscular under your clothes?"

Guan Buyu patted his stomach after hearing the words, and then said a little embarrassedly:

"No, I'm just born with great strength."

It's just too big.

Wang Meijuan then babbled on some words, which she had heard every time, but she still listened carefully.Now she understands that most of the time Wang Meijuan is not trying to please herself—only after understanding it did she realize that this is really just because of Wang Meijuan's nature.

She is clumsy when expressing her feelings, and even overly deliberate because of nervousness.He was always long-winded, and later Guan Buyu even saw Guan Jian and would heave a long sigh, looking up to the sky with a helpless expression.

At that time, she understood that no matter how she expressed it, what she had to do was to uncover the layers of appearance to see people's hearts.And Wang Meijuan really cared about her. During the first week when Guan Buyu came to the United States, she called every day to inquire about Guan Buyu's situation, causing Guan Jian to say:

"She's really worried, you're not a child anymore!"

Sometimes Guan Buyu also wonders why Wang Meijuan can treat her so well so easily?One day she finally asked, and Wang Meijuan's answer was:

"Xiaoguan, I have reached this age and I don't have any children of my own. I always thought that I would never have any in my life. Until I met your father. In fact, your father didn't tell me no before he brought me to see you. Son, I’m afraid I can’t accept it. I also thought I couldn’t accept it. But when I saw you, I actually thought in my heart, since I already have you, why should I have a child? I’ve been here for so many years ?"

"So, when your father told me that you were very concerned about this matter, I said, I'm fine if I don't want children, as long as Xiaoguan is enough. That's what I really think. Xiaoguan, I Now I really... really regard you as my own child."

Wang Meijuan choked up more and more as she spoke later, Guan Buyu never thought that this was the case.Many things flashed through her mind in an instant, about the sword, about Wang Meijuan, and many about herself.Childish self, willful and reckless, always thought that no one cared about her.

It's actually the opposite.

It is precisely because everyone cares about her that they treat her with care, Guan Jian is like this, and so is Wang Meijuan.

Why did she only understand such a simple truth now?

"Xiaoguan? Xiaoguan, just think about it, okay?"

Wang Meijuan's voice rang on the phone, Guan Buyu was distracted for a moment, and she hurriedly asked:

"Considering what?"

"It's about going back to China! You see, you're already in your junior year, and you've only come back once. Your dad and I miss you very much."

As soon as Wang Meijuan's voice fell, she heard a muffled sentence: "You can think about it, don't take me with you every time", and then she heard Wang Meijuan laughing, Guan Buyu also smiled, and then said:

"I know. I'll think about it. Hey, Auntie, I heard Fang Ranran say that Huanjiang has changed a lot recently. Will I not even know the way when I go back?"

Guan Buyu was joking, and Wang Meijuan on the phone was silent for a few seconds, then deliberately said:

"You'll have to come back to find out. Xiao Guan, come back and have a look if you're homesick, even if it's just for a few days?"

Wang Meijuan's words remained in Guan Buyu's heart.After she hung up the phone, she leaned there and let out a long sigh.

If possible, of course she would like to go back.

However, if you go back, you will meet her.

According to Fang Ranran, she will also help out in Xiaomin's shop during her holidays, just like before.

Guan Buyu's thoughts drifted away slowly, and was suddenly interrupted:

"Mother?"

Guan Buyu turned his head and saw Zhou Liu lying on the sofa. He didn't know when she had been eavesdropping there. Guan Buyu shook his head, then nodded hesitantly.

"what happened."

Zhou Liu smiled while holding his chin, that smile was familiar, and Guan Buyu's heart trembled.

"No... it's mine, uh, how do you say it? Stepmother? But, but she is very good to me! Not the kind of vicious stepmother in the TV series...!"

Guan Buyu suddenly explained, which made Zhou Liu laugh. She waved her hand to ask her to stop, and then asked:

"Then do you want to go back? Back to that, huan, huanjiang?"

"Call the river."

Guan Buyu corrected her pronunciation, and Zhou Liu said sorry in embarrassment.Guan Buyu thought for a while, she turned around and leaned there, after thinking for a while, she still replied:

"I want to go back, but I don't want to go back."

"Why?"

Guan Buyu gradually lost his voice, and instead of answering, he only sighed.

Still the same reason:

Because she will definitely meet Jiang Lingyu, which she was not prepared for.

It's like when she went back to Huanjiang on vacation in her freshman year, Fang Ranran didn't come back with her at that time, so she had a very boring vacation, except that she was at home and wandered around the street all day, no different from before.

That winter vacation was very short, Guan Buyu was always thinking of doing something.After thinking about it, she planned to hone her weak painting foundation, so she bought a drawing board and sat on the street to draw.

When she was painting, she wore a black peaked cap to block the sun, and her hands began to draw freely—so freely that she couldn't see the shape at all.

Just like the teacher of the institution where she went to class said, if it wasn't for this free will that gave rise to the corresponding unconstrained style, she would have no way to learn the painting skills of Guan Muyu.

However, the finished products she draws can often touch people's hearts.

Guan Buyu continued to paint like this for several days, and didn't care if the painting was full of black hands. Once, a child said:

"Sister, what are you drawing? It's dark, like a monster!"

Guan Buyu immediately let out a ferocious "owwow", opened his dark palms and said:

"Did you find out? My sister painted me, ho ho ho!"

So she was so happy that the child screamed and walked away crying once.And since that day, no child has dared to approach her.

When Guan Buyu proudly reported this to Fang Ranran, Fang Ranran despised her childishness, and asked again:

"Sitting on the street and drawing pictures like this, have you never met Jiang Lingyu?"

These words made Guan Buyu move her body a little uneasy, and then she laughed and said:

"How is it possible! Although Huanjiang is not big, he is not small either. How could it be such a coincidence? Do you think that she and I are so destined?"

She was smiling, as if she really wasn't worried at all.Fang Ranran had no choice but to hang up the phone with a sigh.

However, maybe Fang Ranran's phone call has magic power.Master Fang is a prophet, when she opened her mouth and brought up the word Jiang Lingyu again, the possibility of Jiang Lingyu's appearance was added to Guan Buyu's world.

Schrödinger's Jiang Lingyu.

When Jiang Lingyu really walked in front of her that evening, Guan Buyu couldn't help but think of this sentence.

If you don't want her, she will never appear.

Whenever you think of her words, she will definitely appear.

However, how could Guan Buyu not think of Jiang Lingyu?

She opened her eyes wide and saw Jiang Lingyu holding a little girl's hand, carrying a shoulder bag and wearing glasses.The little girl called her "Teacher Jiang!" Jiang Lingyu responded softly "Yes", and the little girl jumped up and down, calling her "Teacher Jiang" like a prank.

"Teacher Jiang, Teacher Jiang, Teacher Jiang!"

"Hush, you can shout, but keep your voice down."

Time went back in an instant, and came to a certain evening.In the library of No. [-] Middle School, Guan Buyu lay there smiling and said:

"Teacher Jiang, Teacher Jiang——"

"—Shh, you're too loud."

Jiang Lingyu held Guan Buyu's hand tightly under the table, she glanced at her blamingly, but Guan Buyu narrowed his eyes in satisfaction.

How wonderful, the sunset is beautiful, and the person in front of her is also beautiful.Jiang Lingyu's movements seemed to be slowed down.She lowered her eyes to do the question, her eyelashes trembled, and then she secretly raised her eyes to see Guan Buyu.But Guan Buyu was looking at her all the time, so his eyes met, Jiang Lingyu blushed, as if she had been exposed.

"Shut up."

She wanted to say something, but Guan Buyu stopped her with a smile and said:

"Shh, keep your voice down."

Time just stopped at this moment.

The hourglass flowed back again.

At this moment, Guan Buyu was sitting there, watching Jiang Lingyu and the little girl pass by her eyes, she suddenly lowered the brim of her hat and hid herself in the black shadow.Her charcoal-stained hands pressed hard on the drawing board in a panic, and her heartbeat was unreasonably fast.

She gradually calmed down after Jiang Lingyu left completely, but it was too late, she took away her hand, and a black handprint was printed on the white drawing paper.

She stared blankly at the handprint, and at the same time realized the following fact:

She was far from ready to face Jiang Lingyu again.

If you are not careful, you will even sink into sweet and painful memories, and you will never come out again.

Even now two years later, whenever Guan Buyu thinks about the scene at that time, she dare not say that she is ready now.Now she even wonders: Will she really be ready one day?

She can't escape forever, can she?

Just as she was thinking this way, Zhou Liu who looked at her back suddenly asked after a long time:

"Guan, have you thought about taking me to Huanjiang to have a look?"

Guan Buyu was stunned, she noticed something, subconsciously shook her head and smiled back:

“Small city, nothing to see.”

"But that's your old home."

Guan Buyu still shook his head, Zhou Liu's tone became a bit stubborn, as if he was determined to get an answer.Guan Buyu clearly knew what she meant, but his heart softened, and he replied lightly:

"...if, if there is a chance."

"Well, that's fine."

Guan Buyu turned his head and saw a familiar smile blooming on Zhou Liu's face.She looked away again as if she was being burned, with some unclear emotions in her heart.