I was the first to catch up

"Fang Ranran, sometimes I really don't understand what you think. Why do you always like me so much? "

When Yu Xiaomin asked this, Fang Ranran stroked her temple hair and kissed her lightly on the cheek.Yu Xiaomin's eyes were still full of tears, because Fang Ranran's fingers hadn't been taken out yet.

Her body was still trembling, and she couldn't help it even if she tried hard.This is the first time for them to act as lovers, and this awareness seems to have brought them a completely different feeling. They are no longer blindly immersed in the darkness where they cannot see each other clearly, but let the moonlight shine in and shine on them. On the skin of the two, in the eyes.

Finally everything can be seen clearly.

After panting for a long time, Yu Xiaomin's thoughts finally led to the deepest question in her heart.She asked this softly, but Fang Ranran supported her waist and lay down, resting her head with one hand, and looked at her again.

Yu Xiaomin also looked back at her.

Fang Ranran, even if I pushed him away, even if we were separated halfway, even if we all tried to forget all of this, we still came back after going around.

Still, I would like to ask:

"Am I really worthy of your liking?"

She wanted answers, she wanted to really feel at ease.

And Fang Ranran replied quietly in the dark:

"If you still don't believe me, let me tell you a story about a little bird."

There is such a little bird, it is born to fly, and with a little spread of its wings, it can fly a distance that humans will never be able to reach.Because it has been like this all its life, it doesn't feel like it's something to be proud of.On the contrary, just because it can fly and have a bird's-eye view of the world, it feels: I can do anything.I can take it all.because i can fly.And only I can fly.

"Yu Xiaomin, who do you think this little bird is?"

Fang Ranran asked with a chuckle, but Yu Xiaomin didn't answer, but she knew her answer.

Everyone thought this little bird was Fang Ranran.It's Mr. Fang who is extremely smart and can do anything.

But Master Fang, who can do anything, shook his head at this moment, sighed and said:

"This little bird is actually you, Yu Xiaomin."

You think you can do it all, which is really just arrogance.But it is also this arrogance that keeps you flying even now.

I thought I was the bird, but then I found out, I can't.I get tired, hurt, and numb.I will give up, I often give up.I give up halfway, and I will challenge when I encounter adversity that I can still grasp, but if it is impossible, I will let go.

I've been warm so I don't want to be cold again.I can't do what you do, Yu Xiaomin.Ten years, decades, always the same.

So I was very worried that the little bird would be tired one day, so tired that it would fall directly from the sky-so I kept running with my head up, looking at the little bird.I am afraid that it will fall, and I am also afraid that it will no longer spread its wings.

"Then I realized this as I was running. That little bird was no longer just a little bird to me. It became my little sun, my sunshine, my nest."

Very tired, Fang Ranran's words were gentle and light, as if carrying a kind of magical power, which made Yu Xiaomin sink physically and mentally, feeling extremely relaxed.Following those words, she slowly closed her eyes, and suddenly fell into the abyss-like darkness.

Dreaming again.

When Yu Xiaomin opened her eyes, she saw Fang Ranran in her arms. They were in the Bajiao Mountain screening hall, as if they had come to the end of the world.

Yu Xiaomin remembered that she seemed to be crying at the moment.

Immediately afterwards, the surrounding colors dimmed little by little, melting into silence.Then the whole world reflected an orange-red light, that was the sunset glow, and Yu Xiaomin also remembered it.

Standing by the table in the store, she saw Fang Ranran appearing outside the door—in a hurry and sweating a little.

She heard herself say, Fang Ranran, please don't leave me.So, in this evening, and later in the evening.A bunch of fireworks bloomed in the darkness, the sky suddenly brightened, and the sound of cicadas rang out suddenly.

She suddenly fell into a river.This is the water of the Huanjiang River, and the bridge not far away is shining brightly.The moonlight was dim, and Yu Xiaomin knew how to swim, but it was difficult for him to use his strength.

She saw the rippling moon distorted and shattered all over her body, and the water covered her mouth and nose. Yu Xiaomin closed her eyes and heard someone crying far, far away.

Who is crying?Yu Xiaomin thought.

The familiar voice is getting closer.She used to think that the crying came from Jiang Lingyu.Her daughter, her treasure, is always working so hard to keep up with herself, she doesn't want to be underestimated by others, and she doesn't want to trouble others. She is a naturally hard-working character.

She used to think that the crying came from Fang Ranran.The child, the child she rejected.Will she be awakened by a dream one night, dripping with sweat, and silently shed tears, missing that summer?

Now Yu Xiaomin knows.This cry has always been there, and it didn't come from Jiang Lingyu or Fang Ranran.

She knows.

It was she who was crying.

"Yu Xiaomin."

Someone is calling her name.A pair of hands came from the sky above the water, broke through the water, and grabbed Yu Xiaomin's wrist.All these dreams were shattered, and Yu Xiaomin finally woke up from a big dream. She met Fang Ranran's eyes, which were as clear as glass.

The windows were left open, and a gust of wind blew through the room.Yu Xiaomin shivered, Fang Ranran held her waist with his hands, and with a little strength, she was trying to get close to him.

The once fluctuating mood slowly calmed down in the real world. After the storm passed, the ship was already stable.Yu Xiaomin leaned over and kissed Fang Ranran.

She shed tears and said softly:

"That's great, it's not a dream."

Fang Ranran looked at her blankly, she blinked, and looked at Yu Xiaomin under the moonlight with tears hanging on her eyelashes, when she blinked, a few drops of tears rolled down, which was very cute.So she had no choice but to impulsively hug her impulsively, hearing a choked sob, and the heavy heartbeat in the other's chest.

She closed her eyes and felt a fact: Yu Xiaomin was really old.Her face was more wrinkled, and her figure was no longer taller than before.She has slowly realized all these in these days.But so what?

This person is Yu Xiaomin.In her arms is Yu Xiaomin.

It seems that this is already the best result.

She heard Yu Xiaomin talking with a smile in her arms, as if she was responding to a casual word of comfort from her self many years ago.

Yu Xiaomin said:

"Fang Ranran, didn't you say that 40 years old is the beginning of life?"

Then, at the age of 42, is it still too late for me?

Fang Ranran met Yu Xiaomin's eyes - so bright, like two stars.So she covered Yu Xiaomin's eyes with her hands, said "um" softly, and leaned over again, leaving a kiss on the back of her hand.

She dared not look directly at the sun, but she longed to kiss the sun.

The author has something to say: After reading this chapter, have a good dream w