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"I haven't seen you for a long time, why did you make yourself like this?"

Fu Meixuan, who was standing at the gate, frowned and said that when the news of Qiu Zixin's car accident spread widely on the Internet, she rushed over immediately.

Qiu Zixin didn't answer Fu Meixuan's words directly, she opened the half-open door completely, and the soft sunset sun sneaked into the room with the fragrance of flowers, shining a shattered light between her eyebrows, "Come in."

Fu Meixuan stepped in, kicked off her shoes with her toes, and gently pushed to the shoe cabinet. She carried two bags of supplements, glanced at Qiu Zixin's arm, and then looked up at her face, frowning slightly:

"You don't look very well."

"Well... I haven't slept well these past few nights." Qiu Zixin smiled lukewarmly, with a trace of tired gray-blue under his eye sockets.

Fu Meixuan wanted to say something else, but the old woman's voice came from the corridor in the hall, "Is that Xiaoqiu's friend here?"

Aunt Tian poked her head out from the corner, and when she saw Fu Meixuan, she immediately stepped forward with a smile, "I remember you...is your name Meixuan?" In the past, Aunt Tian stayed at Ms. Yang's house, and Fu Meixuan occasionally Visiting the door, the two have met several times, and they are still familiar.

Fu Meixuan nodded one after another, "Yes, yes, it's me. Auntie has a really good memory." She picked up two bags of recycle bags, "Auntie, this is the tonic I brought for Xiaoqiu. I heard from the old Chinese doctor that taking this meridian will restore your meridians." Be quick."

The two chatted with each other with smiles, and walked into the kitchen all the way, with a pleasant atmosphere of familiarity.

Qiu Zixin stood behind them, pursed her lips, and sighed.

Fu Meixuan came here this time to visit Qiu Zixin. When she saw the reports on the entertainment news, she felt that what happened was outrageous and speechless, "You must be too miserable. Now, what does the doctor say? No. Resuming work?"

The two were leaning on the balcony and talking, Qiu Zixin brushed her hair back, the afterglow sprinkled on her side face, and a little bit of golden light danced around her cheeks, she lifted her eyelashes, and her eyes fell on Fu Meixuan's face with myopia.

"The doctor doesn't recommend it, nor does it allow it. But I still have to continue to work. The studio can only help me get some brand endorsements in the future."

Qiu Zixin turned around, facing the sunset that was about to fall into the mountains, the dazzling golden light almost made her unable to open her eyes.

"The people in the company told me that if I don't accept a job for half a year... I will gradually fade out of the public's sight... and I will gradually be forgotten."

Qiu Zixin lowered her eyebrows. In a certain way, the word 'forgotten' made her feel sad, but it also made her feel mentally relaxed.

She hoped that she could be forgotten by that girl.

Fu Meixuan kept silent, and the two talked silently for a long time. Aunt Tian called them to have dinner in the room. Fu Meixuan responded loudly, turned to look at Qiu Zixin, and finally couldn't help but say, "Be happy, Pai Daxing, since I entered the room, I don't think any of your smiles are sincere."

She stretched out her hand to hold Qiu Zixin's back, and pulled him into her arms, "They are all adults, they will pass by, let's be careful. Okay?"

"The Qiu Zixin I know won't be crushed by difficulties so easily."

Qiu Zixin was half-pushed into the room by her, "Yes...it will all be over." Qiu Zixin said softly, with a bitter smile hidden on the corner of her lips, Fu Meixuan didn't know what was really bothering her, so she agreed Response, "Yes, that's right. How can life always be smooth sailing..."

While Fu Meixuan was talking, Qiu Zixin suddenly stopped in his tracks.

She turned her face sideways, her silky curly hair brushed against Fu Meixuan's arm, and suddenly asked her in a warm voice, "You...have you really let go of the kink?"

Fu Meixuan was caught off guard by her question, her face twitched, and she withdrew her hand from Qiu Zixin's shoulder, "Why do you ask this...?"

"Put it down or not...does it matter?" Fu Meixuan narrowed her eyes, and the curvature of her lips gradually faded away.

Qiu Zixin said in silence for a moment, then replied, "Are you still playing with other little sisters?"

"Hey! Don't talk nonsense! I don't have any, only that one time, I was so frightened to death after going through that time, you don't know that she came to me later and I was too scared to go home...... !" Fu Meixuan took a big step back in panic.

Looking back now, she was almost disgusted by herself that night.

She was full of resentment at the time, and Xie Kexuan's various methods pushed her to a cliff. She just wanted to find someone to vent to, but after the fact, she regretted it too much.

On the surface, she just wanted to pretend she didn't care in front of Xie Kexuan, forget it as soon as she said it, and even live a more chic life than Xie Kexuan, but at night, she would start to miss Xie Kexuan's warmth again.

They once loved each other sincerely, and kissed each other inseparably in the cold night. Maybe, maybe Xie Kexuan still loves her a little bit, maybe...they still have the possibility... ..

Fu Meixuan often thinks like this, but when she closes her eyes, she cuts off this delusional thought. Sometimes she feels that she is so ridiculous.

She has obviously slept with other girls, so she wants to pretend to be affectionate here.

That woman Xie Kexuan was so cruel to her, why should I still love her.

She should, is going to hate her to the extreme.

The time for dinner passed quickly, Fu Meixuan's mouth has always been clever, easy to please the elders, Aunt Tian has a very good impression of her, compared to Qiu Zixin's reticence, Fu Meixuan and Aunt Tian got along very well, talking and laughing during the meal Yes, they kept giving each other food.

As night fell, Aunt Tian was cleaning up on the ground floor before going to bed. Fu Meixuan was standing on the balcony blowing the air. She was wearing a long and thin trench coat today, with a short-sleeved light-colored dress inside. The woman lowered her head and held her hands for a long time. There is no movement of the mobile phone, as if he is thinking about something.

"Xuan." Qiu Zixin's voice came from behind, Fu Meixuan turned around, and the wind lifted her long skirt, "Huh? What?"

Qiu Zixin's slender figure stood behind the glass door, she pushed open the glass door, "Would you like...to have a drink with me?"

Fu Meixuan's expression became complicated when she heard the words, she walked back into the room, frowning, "Why do you want to drink?"

Fu Meixuan remembered that Qiu Zixin seldom touched wine in the past, and there was a tall glass wine cabinet at home, but Qiu Zixin also told her that the wine in it was just for display.

Qiu Zixin lowered her eyes, her voice softly scattered in the wind, "I just... suddenly want to."

She tilted her head to look at Fu Meixuan, blinked her eyelashes slightly, and softened her voice, "Stay with me."

Fu Mei raised her eyebrows, and her eyes fell on Qiu Zixin's arm hesitantly, "You still dare to drink because of your injury?"

"Drink a little, nothing will happen." Qiu Zixin said calmly.

Fu Meixuan narrowed his eyes, and said sarcastically: "I won't die, so what if the bone grows crooked? Or it won't grow back. If you hang like this for the rest of your life, you won't be able to play any piano. Will you be satisfied and happy?"

"..." Qiu Zixin said silently. She doesn't like drinking, but people around her say that people who are depressed can use alcohol to relieve their worries. Now... she just feels very tired. She wants to find Individuals drink and drink with themselves and talk about what is on their minds.

In the past, she never dared to mention this matter to anyone, but now the situation is different, she is at a loss, and her heart feels heavy while escaping, and the overwhelming pressure that piles up almost crushes her.

She seemed to be standing in an endless abyss.

Look up, see no light.

Take a step, and there is no way to go.

At night, the surroundings are completely silent.

After Aunt Tian said good night to them, she walked into the bedroom first. In the huge living room, Fu Meixuan stood alone at the bar and poured wine.

She put the wine glass in front of the tip of her nose and sniffed lightly, and the mellow tobacco aroma immediately hit her nostrils.

Qiu Zixin, who had just changed into her nightgown after taking a shower, walked over slowly, raised her forehead and asked, "How does it taste?"

"Excellent." Fu Meixuan handed the wine glass to Qiu Zixin, "You can smell it, but you can't drink it."

As soon as the words were finished, Fu Meixuan's mobile phone on the counter vibrated. She put down her wine glass and walked quickly to check. When she saw the caller ID, her eyes lit up a little, but the next second after she picked up the phone, it stopped again. A look of joy.

"What are you calling for?" Fu Meixuan raised the corners of her eyebrows, her tone full of impatience.

After the other party said a series of words, Fu Meixuan paused slightly, his eyes became erratic, "I don't have time tonight, I want to accompany other people."

"Don't you have a husband who loves you to death? Why do you still look for me every day, why can't you be a woman?"

After these words fell, the other end of the phone fell into complete silence, and the corners of Fu Meixuan's lips froze, as if he felt that he had gone too far.

She frowned, and her expression became unhappy, "Stop talking, that's it, hang up."

Qiu Zixin stood aside and listened suspiciously. She was sitting on a high chair with her toes on the ground, her voice mixed with worry, "Meixuan..."

"You and her..."

"Yes, you guessed it right." Fu Meixuan raised the corners of her lips, although she was smiling on the surface, but there was a bit of desolate chill in her eyes, "I can't let her go, so what?"

Qiu Zixin's brows crept into waves, "Didn't you... have already cut off contact with each other before? Why are you..."

"No..." Fu Meixuan lowered her head, the light from the ceiling dimmed on the top of her hair, "I also thought that we were separated, but in reality...it seems that we can't do it like I thought. willing."

"Meishuan, she is married. You are now..."

"I'm not mistress, it's that man intervening in me and Ke Xuan!" Fu Meixuan gritted his teeth with sullen expression on his face.

"..." Qiu Zi Xinjing stared at her, wanted to say something but swallowed it back, she really disapproved of all Fu Meixuan's actions, but looking at herself, compared to Fu Meixuan's situation, she Now, how much better can it be?

Qiu Zixin took a deep breath, she felt that there were so many troubles these days that she had a splitting headache.

Fu Meixuan lowered her head and murmured, "My own affairs...I can take care of it myself, I don't need you to come...Hey, why are you drinking!" Just halfway through speaking, Fu Meixuan looked up and saw Qiu Zixin suddenly picked up the wine glass and drank it down in one gulp.

"Hey! Pai Daxing, you are stupid! You can't..." Fu Meixuan stepped forward to snatch, Qiu Zixin coughed violently due to the strong smell of alcohol, her eye sockets were stained red, There seemed to be endless pain haunting her.

Fu Meixuan patted her on the back, "You..." Qiu Zixin suddenly grabbed her sleeve, and the woman slowly raised her lowered head.

"what to do...?"

She looked at Fu Meixuan helplessly, and muttered again, "What should I do......"

"What do you mean?" Fu Meixuan pushed away the wine glass and asked with a frown. She hadn't seen her for a long time, and Qiu Zixin would show such a dazed...desperate look.

The grandfather clock in the hall rang in the silent midnight. After listening to Qiu Zixin's slow confession, Fu Meixuan frowned:

"Are you sure...your feelings for her are really that of lovers?"

Even though Fu Meixuan was surprised in her heart, she could only pretend to be calm in front of Qiu Zixin. She knew that Qiu Zixin must have been so distressed by this incident that she couldn't hold it anymore. With Xin's temperament, she would never tell anyone about it if she hadn't had to.

Qiu Zixin raised her head, and the soft light from the wall lamp hit her fair face that was almost bloodless, "I also really hope... that kind of feeling doesn't come from the liking of love..."

Qiu Zixin has never been in a relationship before, so she is not sure what kind of emotion is the standard appearance of a crush. "But, I know... I want her..."

Qiu Zixin paused when she said this, she lowered her eyes, frowned slightly, and closed her mouth, unwilling to continue.

Fu Meixuan understood what she meant, rubbed the stem of the wine glass with both hands, lowered her brows and raised them again, paused, and said: "Could it be that you've been single for too long, and now... feel lonely and empty? "

"Didn't I buy a lot of accessories for you before...just that, equipment...is it not enough for you..."

Before she could finish her sentence, Qiu Zixin's cheeks turned red immediately, panic flashed across her eyes, she tried to cover Fu Meixuan's mouth, and even raised her tone, "Stop! Shut up ...do not talk.....!"

"Okay, okay, I won't say it, I won't say it..." Fu Meixuan immediately pushed back and shut up, she felt that this woman Qiu Zixin was really...too innocent!When it comes to this matter, why is it so easy to be shy!

There was no light in the hall except the wall lamp at the bar, and the shadow of the woman on the ground was stretched thin and long. Fu Meixuan picked up the red wine glass, shook it a few times, and drank from the rim on the other side.

"Qiu Zixin, we are friends, so I have to be direct, I hope you don't mind. You and Xiao Yu...it's impossible, there are too many differences between you."

"Whichever way you look at it... I don't approve of it..."

Feelings often seem to be like this. As an outsider, you can see other people's feelings clearly, but once you become a person in the game, you will never be able to wake up.

Qiu Zixin is like this, and so is Fu Meixuan.

"I understand..." Qiu Zixin understands the truth a thousand times better than anyone else, but she just can't completely calm down, and while she longs for touch, she is tormented by guilt at the same time.

She blamed herself and felt ashamed. As an elder, not only did she not give Xiao Yu the correct values ​​of life so that she could concentrate on her studies, but she used her status as a senior to get close to her for her own selfish thoughts. , step by step to lure her into his arms.

Qiu Zixin thought, if the equivalent of being tempted is a kind of Gu poison, then she must have lost all internal organs and died of the poison.

Qiu Zixin propped one hand on the table, her curly hair covered her side face, the woman's vision gradually became blurred, the wall lamp flickered, she almost thought she saw Xiao Yu.

But Xiao Yu has already gone back...

Qiu Zixin pursed the corners of her lips, her mouth contained the fragrance of wine that had not dissipated, she seemed to be speaking to Fu Meixuan, and also seemed to be reconciling with herself in her heart:

"do not worry......"

"I won't... continue to make mistakes..."

In the blink of an eye, several months have passed since the start of school, and Xiao Yu has been living in a daze for a while, like three souls and five souls, and one of the main souls that is in charge of joy, anger, sorrow, and joy was even missed by Qiu Zixin.

Xiao Yu often lost her mind in class, but she didn't know when she was called by the instructor. Even Su Man noticed that something was wrong with her.

After entering the junior year, the dormitory was reassigned. Both of them agreed to continue the roommate relationship, so they chose to continue living together.A few months ago, Su Man broke up with her boyfriend, and she was not in a good mood. When she went back to the dormitory in the afternoon and saw Xiao Yu nestled on the bed, she asked her, "What are you thinking about?"

Hearing Su Man's voice, Xiao Yu raised her head, her almond eyes glowed, as if expressing doubts.

Suman pulled open the chair opposite the bed and sat down, "That's it...for the opportunity to exchange abroad, our application has been approved."

Xiao Yu's expression froze slightly, "I didn't say I wanted to be an exchange student."

"The professor took the initiative to apply for you... He said that this opportunity is rare, you should go out and see the outside world more, communicate with other people and learn from each other, maybe you can get a lot of benefits..."

Xiao Yu lowered her head, feeling depressed. The professor also discussed this matter with her a while ago, but Xiao Yu listened absent-mindedly at that time, and she was not very clear about the specific details.

"...talk later......"

In the middle of the night, Xiao Yu tossed and turned in bed, unable to fall asleep for a long time.

There is one thing that has been stuck in her heart for a long time.

She wanted to find Qiu Zixin very much, and wanted to know how she was doing now, whether her injuries were all healed, Xiao Yu didn't try to ask Qiu Zixin, she told the woman that she wanted to meet her, but Qiu Zixin There are always various reasons to reject her, saying that she is at work, or is preparing to rest.

It's late at night, it's easy to get depressed, Xiao Yu repeatedly thinks about Qiu Zixin's behavior towards her these days.

Xiao Yu suspected that Qiu Zixin was probably avoiding her.

Once this idea popped up, it became more and more uncontrollable tossing and tossing in Xiao Yu's mind. Finally, she couldn't bear it anymore, got up, tiptoed out of bed, and sneaked out in the middle of the night.

It wasn't until she got into the car that Xiao Yu came back to her senses. She didn't know what had happened to her recently. She just wanted to see Qiu Zixin very much. She couldn't accept that Qiu Zixin would continue to ignore her like this. , until slowly withdrawing from her world.

Xiao Yu didn't dare to call Qiu Zixin, she was afraid that if she told Qiu Zixin to go to her home, Qiu Zixin would find an excuse to say she was not at home and avoid her.

Along the way, Xiao Yu arrived at Qiuzi's new neighborhood with a heart full of uneasiness but joy at the same time. The security guard saw the visitor in the middle of the night, and saw Xiao Yu's face clearly by the street lamp. He recognized the girl and did not hesitate for long. Lift the fence and let go.

The night was as cold as water, and Xiao Yu was standing in front of the gate of Qiu Zi's new home. The door could be unlocked with a remote control, and it could also be used for face recognition. Qiu Zixin specially changed it for her later. When she was not at home, it was much more convenient for Xiao Yu to come in and out. up.

Stepping into the yard, the cool breeze rolled up her clothes, Xiao Yu pressed her hair, and looked up at the second floor of Qiu Zhai.

The whole villa was dark, only two light yellow post lamps were left at the gate, Xiao Yu walked forward, every step was very nervous, she didn't know if Qiu Zixin was asleep or outside Work, haven't come home yet.

After the fingerprint unlocking of the door passed, Xiao Yu pushed it open and entered. She stood still in the living room and looked around.

Everything here, from the furnishings to the scent in the air, is so familiar.

Once, that person told her that she was the little master here.

Here, can be her second home.

But now, their home is empty, and that person is not here.

Inexplicably, Xiao Yu's heart ached sharply. She took a low breath and walked to the second floor.

In the lonely night, her shadow in the corridor was so sadly illuminated by the moon.

She was alone in the house.

Xiao Yu didn't know if she could wait to get Qiu Zixin, maybe she would most likely not come back tonight.

The sky was thick black, the surroundings were silent and lonely, Xiao Yu stood at the gate, as if she had returned to her childhood, her small figure was far from the big world.

The evening wind was very cool just after stepping into the cold dew, Xiao Yu was wearing Qiu Zixin's blanket, and she squatted at the door with her arms around herself, waiting for someone to come home.

Xiao Yu patted her head, she told herself that she had grown up.

What she wants, she will fight for. This is what Qiu Zixin taught her. Along the way, she has also listened to Sister Cai and tried to make herself better and more worthy of Qiu Zixin.

She tried her best to listen to and learn what the adults said. She tried her best to grow up and mature quickly so that the adults would believe her and listen to what she said.

Xiao Yu hugged the carrot pillow left in Qiu Zixin's home, she closed her eyes, and her mind naturally played every bit of her and Qiu Zixin's journey along the way.Since she was a child, Qiu Zixin has been very gentle to her. She is the only one who is willing to kneel down and talk to herself.

Unlike other adults, she would ask her own opinion before making a decision, and she would hug herself up when she was happy. Xiao Yu was not used to this sudden feeling of being suspended in the air at first, but as the number of times increased, she also I'm used to it, and even like being hugged by Qiu Zixin.

She is really jealous, when she was a child, she could love Qiu Zixin so blatantly.

And to be loved by Qiu Zixin without fear.

Why...why didn't all of this develop as Sister Cai said...

She grew bigger and bigger, but the distance between Qiu Zixin and Qiu Zixin was getting farther and farther...

The leaves were blown softly by the wind, Xiao Yu didn't know how long she had been waiting at the door, she seemed to have fallen into a beautiful dream, where Qiu Zixin would not leave her, she would kiss her and hug her into the In his arms, tell her not to be afraid.

Xiao Yu was not wrong, she just fell in love with Qiu Zixin.

She just fell in love with a woman who was too sophisticated at an age that was not very sophisticated.

The night was long and the dream was heavy, Xiao Yu hardly wanted to wake up.

But dawn has come slowly, the morning sun and the sound of the car's engine are urging her to get up anxiously.

Xiao Yu was still in a daze, she couldn't open her eyes, and there was a very clear sound of the engine in her ears, then the sound of opening and closing the car door, and then, a series of rapid heels hitting the ground.

The woman ran to her side quickly in the morning wind and morning sun, her voice was tense and startled, "Xiao Yu!?"

Xiao Yu rubbed her eyes, and the tip of her nose smelled the fragrance of a woman.

She knew she was back.

Xiao Yu raised her head, the sunlight parted the clouds and shone on her face unscrupulously.

She showed a lazy and happy smile to Qiu Zixin, and the dimples on her cheeks were dancing with golden light.

She said to the woman:

"Qiu Xiaoxin..."

"Welcome home."

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