[Korean Entertainment Exo] If there is no future

Spoiler: Xia An—he doesn’t belong to me from the beginning to the end

I have fallen in love with a man since I was 16 years old. I believe you are familiar with this man's name.His name is Do Kyungsoo, he is a Capricorn, he was born on January 1993, 1, his favorite...

I know all these things about him.

When I desperately came to SM Company as a trainee, I only thought about him.Really, it doesn't matter to me whether or not I make my debut.As long as you can get close to him, everything is fine.

I have a very rich family, but this family is an incomplete family.When I was five years old, my father and mother divorced.I live with my father.I watched my dad with different girls for ten years and I suddenly felt sick.It turned out that such a disgusting person gave birth to me.He doesn't care that I squander his money, but at the same time he won't give me the fatherly love I want.

It's not that I haven't thought about going to see my mother in the past ten years, but I didn't know until I went.Ten years ago, my mother died.On the day she divorced her father, she stood on the roof, the highest place in Seoul.Then, she jumped down without hesitation.The sound of bones dislocated and broken rang from my heart.It was a fear that came from the bottom of my heart.

The day I found out the truth, my father and I quarreled fiercely, and he even slapped me.He said, my mother is a loser.He said, how shameless my mother was at the beginning.The only thing he didn't say was how much my mother loved him...

I found some of my mother's belongings in a dilapidated house covered in a thick layer of dust.It is conceivable that after the death of my mother, I didn't remember it, let alone feel sorry.

Mom, you must be lonely, right?

Mom, you must hate Dad very much, right?

Mom, I'm sorry...

Turning over the dusty diary, looking at the yellowed papers, my tears gradually flowed down.The love between mother and father has been recorded from the acquaintance to the love mother, I hate my father!Because in the end he abandoned his mother for another woman without hesitation.However, what I hate most is my mother.

Why?Why do you have to use death to block the last one?And me?What am I? !

After that, my father and I talked less and less, whenever I had free time in the company, I would secretly watch Do Kyungsoo practice.I don’t know when I was targeted by Park Chanyeol. When he looked at me with a big smile and said to me, “Sister, my name is Park Chanyeol, what’s your name?”, I pretended to be very relaxed. He said, "Hi senior, my name is Xia An".

He very familiarly invited me to have milk tea, but I declined him in a very tactful way.I said to him, if I still have time for training, let's do it next time.He didn't look embarrassed and smiled and said hello, and I turned around and strode back to the practice room.

Although the days of being a trainee were hard, it filled my boring days.As for money, I never worry about it, because I have a father who thinks money can solve everything.I joined the company when I was 22 years old.My college life was a mess, I didn't have any friends, not that they didn't like to make friends with me but I pushed everyone away.In their eyes, I am extremely proud and arrogant.

I am still like this in this practice room, I don't know when I will debut.But it is enough for me to stay in this company, and it is enough for me to meet Do Kyungsoo.

Park Chanyeol has come to see me a lot recently, and every time he wants to have dinner with me or drink milk tea with me.Those seniors who are older than me in the company think that I am not pleasing to the eye, although they are not pleasing to the eye, but they dare not do anything to me.Because, I have Park Chanyeol, the happy virus, by my side.

Because of Park Chanyeol, I made friends for the first time after 15 years.Not only are we friends with him, Do Kyungsoo is also friends with me.I would secretly buy a cup of milk tea and put it on his special table, and secretly watch him practice.These bad habits seem to follow me all the time, and I forget that he and I are already friends.You don't need to be so careful anymore, watching him secretly.I can open the door and go in and watch his every move openly...

But I dare not.I'm afraid he will find out my little secret.

I like him.

Day by day, everything is so normal.Park Chanyeol will still come to play with me when he is okay, and he will come when I practice hard.

Conversations between us usually go like this...

"Why are you here again? I don't have time to play with you now, you should go find your friends!" I said to him in the smallest voice.

Park Chanyeol, who was sitting by the side, looked nonchalant, holding a book in his hand and reading it leisurely. After hearing what I said, a smile appeared on his face, "It's okay, I'll wait for you! Just keep practicing .”

When I was about to say something, he had already lowered his head and read the book seriously.This kind of seriousness makes me a little bit reluctant to bother.

Every time I wait until midnight, or even two or three o'clock.But I have never heard Park Chanyeol complain a word.Every time he would say, "It's so late today, I can't play with you. Let's go tomorrow, let's play together tomorrow!" At this time, I can only nod helplessly.

When hanging out with Park Chanyeol, he suddenly asked me who I like in their team, and I said Do Kyungsoo without hesitation.After I finished speaking, I felt a little embarrassed. How could I just tell my little secret like this?Who knew that Park Chanyeol looked at me with an expression that I had known for a long time.At that time, I really felt that Park Chanyeol had dug a hole for me to jump in, but I didn't expect that I was really stupid and jumped in.

At a certain dinner party, I heard the harsh names of 'Bo Nianxi' from the mouths of Do Kyungsoo, Kim Jong Dae, and Lu Han.When I saw Do Kyungsoo smiling all over his face, I was really scared.I don't want to be like my own mother, the person I love most is with someone else.So are all my efforts in vain?I will not allow this to happen.

I kept asking Park Chanyeol about Do Kyungsoo and Bo Nianxi, but what I didn't expect was that the girl named Bo Nianxi was with Kim Jong Dae.I secretly breathed a sigh of relief, but at this time Park Chanyeol suddenly confessed to me.I said to him very seriously, "The person I love is Do Kyungsoo, we can't."

No frustrated looks, no sad looks.What came to my eyes was a smiling face, and I looked at this face with an unreal feeling.This is probably what Park Chanyeol likes.So worthless.After all, he is a big star, and there are many girls who like him, and there is no shortage of me.But my love for Do Kyungsoo is serious.

After a while, I heard that Jin Zhongda and Bo Nianxi had broken up.I was very worried when I was worried at first, and now I am even more afraid.I said over and over again in my heart, Bo Nianxi, don't fall in love with Do Kyungsoo.But the more hopeful, the more disappointed.

Do Kyungsoo went crazy, he searched all over Seoul for two days and two nights just to find Bo Nianxi.Of course, in the end he really found Bo Nianxi.I watched him carry the weak Bo Nianxi to the hospital with my own eyes, and I watched him follow behind him from a distance.But he never looked back at me.

Even a glance.

My situation has become more and more unstable these days, and I often make mistakes even in practice.If it wasn't for Park Chanyeol, maybe I wouldn't have made my debut so soon.When there is no notice, he will often accompany me to practice until late at night, or even all night.All I have to say to him is thanks, nothing more.

I haven’t seen Do Kyungsoo for a long time, I asked Park Chanyeol for Do Kyungsoo’s phone number.A week after debut, I called Do Kyungsoo.We made an appointment on the top floor of the company, and the wind in summer always brings warmth.It was this warmth that gave me a lot of courage.That was the first time I was willing to take the first step and admit that I loved him.

After seeing him coming, I ran a few steps forward like a child, and said to him word by word, "Do Kyungsoo, I like you." The expression looked at me and said, "Sorry, I have a girlfriend." Then he gave me a polite nod and disappeared on the top floor.Like a fool, I stood blankly in the warm wind and shed tears.

Do Kyungsoo, you are finally with her...

Because it is a newcomer, the company arranged a lot of announcements.My team members and I worked hard every day to catch up with the announcement, and I put the matter of Do Kyungsoo aside for now.It didn't take long for me to get acquainted with the team members. After all, I am the captain and I have to take good care of them.

When our team released an album, it happened that EXO also released a new album.Where they will advertise, we will follow.But unfortunately, Luhan postponed for two days because of Kim Jae Hee.

When Jin Zaixi was crying and ran back to the dormitory, I was on the sofa watching TV in a daze.I don't know what's on TV, I'm thinking of Do Kyungsoo.When I saw her like this, I was really scared.The left side of his face seemed red and swollen, as if he had been beaten by someone.When I was about to ask something, she ran over and hugged me and burst into tears.

Later, I found out.She was in a bad mood that day, and was bullied by some hooligans when she went to the bar.At this moment, Lu Han jumped out and stayed in the hospital to protect her.After that, she was slapped for no reason.She feels guilty and aggrieved, I know that she likes Luhan, but she also knows clearly that Luhan has someone in his heart......

After comforting Jin Zaixi to fall asleep, the remaining three children who had just gone out for dinner came back.I made a small gesture to them and their movements became much lighter.I briefly told them about Jae Hee's current situation, and when they found out, they all seemed to be complaining, and I signaled them not to be fussy, after all, we are all newcomers at this juncture, and it would definitely not be good if there were any scandals.After they understood what I meant, they could only clenched their fists and endured.

Two days later, the promotion tour for the new album officially started.I haven't been able to meet Do Kyungsoo for a month, at most I can see him on TV.Although we went to roughly the same place, but the time is staggered.So, when I saw him again a month later, it was in the corridor of the dormitory.At that time, he was with the girl named Bo Nianxi.I saw my favorite Do Kyungsoo kiss her, and I heard my favorite Do Kyungsoo made a domineering request to her.Finally, I quietly stood in front of them...

This is the first time I have watched Bo Nianxi seriously.She is very ordinary, or she is not prettier than me.But I don't know why Do Kyungsoo chose her...

The moment Do Kyungsoo saw me, there was some hostility in his eyes, he hid Bo Nianxi behind him, as if he was afraid that I would eat Bo Nianxi in the blink of an eye.When I pretended not to know Bo Nianxi's name and asked him, he told me that I don't need to know her name.At that moment, I was completely defeated.

It's just that I don't admit defeat.

I thought about it for a long time, and finally threatened Do Kyungsoo with many despicable means.He was with me for Bo Nianxi.

Every time I meet Bo Nianxi, I always ask Do Kyungsoo to cooperate with me and pretend to be very sweet.I would kiss Do Kyungsoo in front of Bo Nianxi because he would never touch me when he was with me, even if I stood naked in front of him, he would not even look at me.I deliberately asked the company to let me and Do Kyungsoo appear on the We Got Married program. On the one hand, I want to stimulate Bo Nianxi, and on the other hand, I want to get closer to Do Kyungsoo.When Bo Nianxi was in the hospital, Do Kyungsoo begged me to let him go to the hospital to see her, I smiled and said yes, but I will go together.I didn't intend to hurt Bo Nianxi at first, but when I saw Do Kyungsoo peeling an apple for Bo Nianxi, I was still very jealous, so I deliberately spilled hot water on Bo Nianxi's hands.To my surprise, her good friend Shu Luo slapped me.

Of course, Do Kyungsoo beat and scolded Bo Nianxi against his will and took me out of the ward.But after leaving the hospital, he didn't care about me anymore and disappeared.

After that, I wanted to show that Do Kyungsoo is only mine.I would call Do Kyungsoo in the middle of the night and ask him to go to the convenience store to buy food for me, even though it was winter.Every vexatious request I made he would do it for me and I knew it when I saw his impatient face.He has never been sincere to me, if there is no threat from Bo Nianxi, he will not care about me at all.

In the end, all he did for me was because of Bo Nianxi.

One day I finally couldn't take it anymore, I called Do Kyungsoo out in that remote alley.I came to this place and quarreled with him at this time because I knew that Bo Nianxi would pass by here every day on his way home.I just want her to know that Do Kyungsoo doesn't even want his own dignity in front of me.But she may never know, it's because of her.

"Get out! Get out!" I shouted to him loudly.

"Xia An, please, don't let me go. I love you! Please don't let me go! Please, let me stay with you forever!" The man in front of me begged me over and over again, but I smiled stand up.Because I saw Bo Nianxi standing behind the wall, she must be in pain now, right?Seeing the man I love begging my heart must be more uncomfortable than being torn apart, right?

Bo Nianxi, you deserve it!

"Do Kyungsoo, get out! I told you to get out, did you hear me!"

With a "snap", my palm fell on Do Kyungsoo's face, but he was not angry.That's right, he wants me to keep him now.Because only in this way, I will not hurt Bo Nianxi.This is an agreement between us.

"Xia An, I love you! Please, don't drive me away. Even if you kill me, I won't leave!" Do Kyungsoo begged me like this, and he even started crying.

"Aren't you going? Okay, then I'll go!" Seeing him like this, my heart began to ache.

Do Kyungsoo, obviously you are the one who is sorry for me!Why?Why do I still feel sorry for you? !

Stepping on high heels, I walked forward slowly.In fact, I didn't go far at all, because I really wanted to see Bo Nianxi's pain.i hate her...

Do Kyungsoo looked indifferently at Bo Nianxi who suddenly appeared and asked, "Why are you here?"

"Xia An doesn't love you! Do you know that Xia An doesn't love you?!" She shouted in front of him like a lunatic.

Do Kyungsoo nodded facing Bo Nianxi, "I know."

There was an expression of disbelief on Bo Nianxi's face. I knew she must be very angry and distressed at that time, right?Otherwise, why would you show such an expression?

"You know?! You know why you are still chasing her? You know why you still can't leave her? You TND know a P!"

"I just love her! I love her so I didn't leave! It's all your fault! If it wasn't for you, Xia An and I wouldn't be like this! Get out! Get out!" Do Kyungsoo's expression He looked hideous, and there was hatred in his eyes.It seems to be deeply engraved in my heart, and there is no way to erase it.

"Yeah, it's all my fault! Do you think I'm willing to take care of you? If it wasn't because I passed by and saw you being so spineless, I wouldn't bother to take care of you! As a man, you are so low-spirited, I'm really on your behalf Feel ashamed!" After saying these words, Bo Nianxi strode away angrily.

After seeing these, I was also very satisfied and left.

Do Kyungsoo called me many times, but I didn't answer them all.At night, I dialed back.

"Xia An, please don't..."

I interrupted him before he finished speaking, and I said, "Do Kyungsoo, let's get married. If we really get married, don't you want me to keep you from leaving? Then let's get married."

The person on the other end of the phone said to me after a moment of silence, "Okay."I hung up the phone after a small laugh.It is also Do Kyungsoo's step of compromise that really pissed me off. Does he love Bo Nianxi so much?Love to the point of marrying me so indifferently agreed.

Do Kyungsoo, is it true that you will truly fall in love with me only when Bo Nianxi is dead?

Then let her die...

On the day of trying on the wedding dress, I asked Do Kyungsoo to adjust a wedding dress, but of course I didn't try it on.Because, the one he is pointing at is what I want to leave for Bo Nianxi.After taking wedding photos, I ordered the auditorium and banquet, and I took care of each one.Kim Jae-hee and those three girls also said they would be my bridesmaids, but only I knew.This marriage will eventually become a funeral.

In a flash of time, it came to the date when Do Kyungsoo and I got married, and our two parents were also very concerned about this matter.When I got to the backstage of the auditorium, I just sat in a daze in front of the makeup mirror.I'm waiting for the news of Bo Nianxi's death, I'm watching Do Kyungsoo's heartbroken expression, I'm waiting for him to fall in love with me...

But later, when Do Kyungsoo told me that Bo Nianxi died, I laughed.Then, it was like a dream to me.In this dream, I can always see Do Kyungsoo and Bo Nianxi appearing in pairs anywhere.I yelled at Bo Nianxi, "Bo Nianxi, you bitch! Give me back Do Kyungsoo! Give me back!" Every day I live so tired, no matter how much I shout They also ignore me.

Later, I realized that Do Kyungsoo did not belong to me from the beginning to the end.

It's just that a fool named Park Chanyeol has always been with me.He would say to me every day, "Hello, my name is Park Chanyeol!"......