[Korean Entertainment Exo] If there is no future

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A month later, Do Kyungsoo and Cheyenne became the most popular couple.I can only watch their soaring popularity helplessly, and I can only hide in bed and cry secretly at night.Do Kyungsoo and Xia An came to see me when I was sick, they held hands like the most suitable couple in the world.Do Kyungsoo sat on a bench beside him, peeling an apple for me thoughtfully.When Xia An was pouring hot water for me, she accidentally spilled it on my hand, and I gritted my teeth in pain.

Shu Luo, who was sitting by the side, couldn't stand it any longer. She strode towards Xia An and slapped her hard.When I realized it, Do Kyungsoo was looking at me with hatred in his big eyes.As if, all this is my own fault.He can't wait to make me disappear from this world!

That's when I understood.The former Do Kyungsoo is long gone, and everything about the current Doo Kyungsoo is centered on Xia An.Just like when he treated me the same way, with the same kindness and the same love.

"Bo Nianxi, can you take care of your friend! Let her not mess around, okay?! Even if I'm with An'an now, you don't have to target her like this deliberately?! Why didn't I realize that you are a Such a vicious person! If there is another time, I will never forgive you!" When he said this to me, I clearly saw the burst blood vessels in his neck.He was angry, very angry, just because Xia An was slapped by Shu Luo.

Then he turned around and asked Xia An gently, "Does it still hurt?" Xia An shook his head, walked past Do Kyungsoo and came to me, and said to me with a lovely and pitiful look, " Nianxi, I'm sorry, I didn't mean it. Really..." I sneered and stopped looking at her.What I didn't expect was that Do Kyungsoo took Xia An away and said the last words, "What is there to apologize for a person like her? Let's go!" Looking at his back, my tears flowed down.

Actually, I really want to tell him, I am not, I am not that bad.real.I didn't order Shu Luo to fight Xia An, nor did I deliberately target Xia An.It's you, it's just that you care too much about Xia An.That's all...

Lying on the hospital bed, I was crying so hard that when Shu Luo came to comfort me, I pushed her away fiercely.If it wasn't for her, would Do Kyungsoo still have such a slight affection for me?But now he only has hatred for me.Why?Why must you torture me like this?The scars that seem to have healed have been torn open again and again to make me bear this kind of bloody pain. Do you know that this is cruel.

Shu Luo slammed the door out angrily, but we made up soon.

When I found Shu Luo, she said to me, "Nian Xi, whether you believe it or not, I will tell you. Xia An did it on purpose, she spilled boiling water on your hands on purpose. Do Kyungsoo He just peeled an apple for you and she made a fuss, she's a bitch!" I nodded at her to show that I believed her.The burn on my hand was still burning, I hugged Shu Luo and cried a lot.

All these things seem to have happened yesterday, but who would have thought that a month has passed?I haven't met Do Kyungsoo or Xia An in this month.To be precise, I was avoiding them.The November season was so cold that people shivered, and some leaves fell one after another as if they agreed with their own destiny.I am sitting in the studio drawing new works, and there are many classmates beside me.The teacher stood below and looked at our incomplete works, and he walked towards me gradually.

The teacher is an old man in his 50s, with thick lenses on his eyes, and he walks with a bowed waist and a serious look.When he passed by me, his eyes were a little more gratified, and he nodded thoughtfully at me.He walked to the side of other students, a few naughty boys drank the juice in the front cup, and the old man poured it indifferently after knowing it.After another male classmate secretly drank again, he spit out the first sip.

Only then did we know that what the old man put in this time was mixed paint.This series of actions caused a lot of whispers, and I was also amused when I saw the male student's hard-working look.At this time, Lu Weichen who was staying next to me looked at me, and said, "You finally laughed."

I turned my head and looked at him puzzled, "Haven't I laughed before?"

"It's different this time. The original smile feels like you forced it." He scratched the back of his head and said to me with a smile.

"Oh."

It turned out to be like this, I have always been so unhappy in the eyes of others.What even Lu Weichen can see can be seen by others?I have no idea.The get out of class bell rang in time, and I picked up my bag as I was used to and walked out of the classroom.Walking absent-mindedly on the road, I heard a quarrel after passing a very remote path...

"Get out! Get out!" The woman's voice passed through the eardrums and reached her heart smoothly.

"Xia An, please, don't let me go. I love you! Please don't let me go! Please, let me stay with you for the rest of my life!" After hearing this voice, my heart felt like it was being stabbed by a sharp weapon Stabbed into the chest, at this moment I even forgot to breathe.There was a blur in front of my eyes.

This is the man I love, Do Kyungsoo?He is now begging Xia An to let him not leave her?Why? !Why treat him like this?They are already known as the most popular couple in Korea, and they love each other so much.But in the end, Xia An, why do you still torture him?

"Do Kyungsoo, get out! I told you to get out, did you hear me!"

With a "pop", my whole heart was raised in my throat.Tears fell at this second, and fell down the cheeks to the dusty ground.I tried my best not to cry, leaning against the wall and enduring it.

"Xia An, I love you! Please, don't drive me away. Even if you kill me, I won't leave!" The firmness in the voice is just like the sentence "I want to give You are a family".

"Aren't you going? Okay, then I'll go!"

Hearing the sound of high heels walking away, I quickly wiped away my tears and walked in front of Do Kyungsoo.His face looked red and swollen, and there were still two lines of tears on his face. Looking at him who was so fragile, my heart felt like I had been stabbed severely.The blood kept flowing out, but there was nothing to bandage it...

He looked at me who suddenly appeared indifferently and asked, "Why are you here?"

I looked at his indifferent look, blurred my vision and said to him with a trembling voice, "Xia An doesn't love you! Do you know that Xia An doesn't love you?!" I shouted in front of him like a madman.

He faced me and nodded, "I know."

Finally, at this moment, I completely went crazy.It was like being pushed into the water, and I struggled in the water with all my strength.But the final result is sinking little by little, unable to breathe.

"You know?! You know why you are still chasing her? You know why you still can't leave her? You TND know a P!" After I said these words, I stood there as if I had exhausted all my strength Can't move.

"I just love her! I love her so I didn't leave! It's all your fault! If it wasn't for you, Xia An and I wouldn't be like this! Get out! Get out!" Do Kyungsoo's expression He looked hideous, and there was hatred in his eyes.It seems to be deeply engraved in my heart, and there is no way to erase it.

"Yeah, it's all my fault! Do you think I'm willing to take care of you? If it wasn't because I passed by and saw you being so spineless, I wouldn't bother to take care of you! As a man, you are so low-spirited, I'm really on your behalf Shame on me!" After saying this, I strode away angrily.

The moment I turned around, my heart died along with it.There was not a drop of blood left, and the heartbeat gradually disappeared. My heart finally died along with Do Kyungsoo's hatred.

The wind was blowing cold air down my neck, but I didn't respond at all.I sat on a bench in the park, quietly sitting with a blank mind.At this point, I don't know what to think about to be happy.Do Kyungsoo said he loves Xia An, Do Kyungsoo said he couldn't let Xia An go, Do Kyungsoo said he wanted Xia An to live with him forever, Do Kyungsoo said that Xia An should not leave him.In that case, what am I?

I didn't stand up crookedly until my hands and feet were numb from the cold, and I almost fell to the ground a few times, but I still kept walking.I bought a few bottles of wine from the supermarket and took them home. I opened the lid and sipped a few sips into the bottles.There is a burning sensation in my throat, and my stomach feels like burning after drinking it.It was like this at the beginning, but after getting along with each other a lot, it became numb, just like my feelings for Do Kyungsoo.Already numb from the pain, naive enough to think that the wound in my heart has healed.But in fact, the wound in my heart is not healed at all...

Later, I drank until I threw up.In the middle of the night, I lay on the potty and vomited non-stop. The living room was surrounded by a mess of wine bottles scattered on the ground.My hair is a mess too, I must look like a lunatic now.

Shu Luo sent a text message saying that she was going back to China. I called her and asked her to pay attention to safety. She hesitated and agreed.On the other hand, Tong Yan and Lu Han went to Jeju Island to play, I asked them to have a good time, I told Lu Han to take good care of him forever, he looked at me and smiled like a giant Buddha The same nodded.Zhao Hao also returned to China at some point. It’s not that he didn’t send me text messages before he left, but I ignored all the calls.

In this bustling city, I am the only one left now.

I was drawing in my room when Admiralty came to see me, and I was not surprised when I opened the door and saw him.He always ran to me like this every day or two, but I never kept him overnight.Because I was really afraid that he would take all of Do Kyungsoo's breath away.

As usual, Admiralty walked in.There was something wrong with the expression on his face, I unconsciously lowered my head and saw the red invitation card in his hand.When I raised my head again, I met Jin Zhongda's eyes, and he said to me in his unique voice, "Nianxi, Do Kyungsoo and Xia An are going to get married. The wedding date is tomorrow. This is a wedding invitation. If you don't want to go don't go..."

At this moment, I felt like I was hearing hallucinations.My vision blurred a little bit, I grabbed the so-called wedding invitation from Jin Zhong's big hand with red eyes and held it tightly, unable to say a word.The tears seemed to fall at this moment, silently falling on the back of Jin Zhongda's hand.

After a few minutes, I said to him in a hoarse voice, "I'm going. You go first, I want to stay by myself before this." I ignored Jin Zhongda's sad eyes and turned back to the room , Closed the bedroom door with a bang.

Everything came too fast.Just three weeks ago, Xia An was yelling at Do Kyungsoo to tell him to fuck off, and today, three weeks later, I received their wedding invitation.For three weeks I didn't watch TV, surf the Internet, or even leave the house.However, when I turned on the computer today, what I saw online was a series of hot news.That is the fact that Do Kyungsoo and Xia An are going to get married...

It's not that they didn't tell me on purpose, but that I accidentally avoided this disaster.Although it was avoided for a while, it could not be avoided for a lifetime after all.

Lying on the bed buried his head in the quilt and cried hard.Although I keep telling myself that I can't do this, it would be bad if I look at me with swollen eyes tomorrow.Tomorrow's Xia An will definitely be very beautiful, so I won't be able to beat her even more!The more I think of the word tomorrow, the more I cry.

God, can you make tomorrow never come?

It was already six o'clock when I opened my eyes the next day, and I changed into the clothes that Admiralty brought me.I heard that Xia An prepared it for me. It is a white dress.Much like a dress for a wedding dress.Although I don't know what her intentions are, since it was her arrangement, I obediently put it on.

White snowflakes fell from the sky, the first snow in December.The white snow falling from the sky was so beautiful that I stood in the place Xia An told me in a white dress and waited quietly for the car to arrive.Originally, Jin Zhongda said he was coming to pick me up, but after I received Xia An's text message, I rejected him.

The ceremony started at eight o'clock today, and I can still imagine Do Kyungsoo looking handsome in a suit in my mind.But the person standing beside him is not me, but Xia An.How many times have you cried today?I don't remember, I've been crying on and off since waking up this morning.

The cold wind was blowing towards me, and I was shivering standing in the wind wearing a skirt.I clenched my hands tightly, my nails sank into my palm, and blood began to flow out.The bright red blood dripped down my hand on the snow-white ground, and the snow was dyed in color.Just when I was thinking about Do Kyungsoo's smiling face, a black car drove towards me quickly.Because the speed was too fast, I had no time to dodge and was knocked out.The body drew an arc in the air, and finally landed heavily.Pain spread from his whole body, and Do Kyungsoo's shy smile still appeared in front of his eyes.

As time passed, Do Kyungsoo's original smiling face also began to disappear.In the end, it was pitch black.I seem to still be able to recall the first time I met him at the airport, when he gently extended his hand to me and smiled at me... This seems to be a picture that I will never forget in my life.

Actually, Kyungsoo, I will always remember everything between you and me.clearly remember...