[Korean Entertainment Exo] If there is no future

On May [-]th, Jin Zhongda returned from Russia.I didn't receive any text messages from Admiralty University. If it wasn't for Zhang Yixing who was buying birthday food in the supermarket downstairs, I wouldn't have known about it.Zhang Yixing seemed to want to avoid me when he saw me, I ran up and patted his shoulder lightly, and then he turned his head and smiled awkwardly at me.

"Is Jin Zhongda back too?" I asked him impatiently.

"Hmm..." He replied hesitantly.His eyes have been avoiding me all the time, as if he doesn't want to have too much dealings with me.That being the case, I didn't ask him any more.

"Tonight is Baekhyun's birthday, do you... want to come?"

"Okay. By the way, can Shu Luo and the others go?"

"OK."

As he spoke, he began to choose various dishes. He looked very serious and I didn't bother him.I found that Zhang Yixing has the potential to become a good family man!His level of care is absolutely no less than that of a woman like me!Just when I was admiring him in my heart, I saw Jin Zhongda approaching from a distance.

But there is another woman beside him, that woman is none other than the one I saw that night, Zhang Xianna.Zhang Xianna held Jin Zhongda's arm, and the two talked and laughed from time to time, looking like lovers in a relationship.I couldn't react for a moment, I just stared blankly at the two of them walking into me slowly.After Jin Zhongda saw me, the smile on his face slowly froze. Zhang Xianna looked at Jin Zhongda's expression and followed his gaze. She saw me and Zhang Yixing who was picking vegetables at the side.She was still holding Jin Zhong's big arm, and she didn't look like she was about to let go.

"Nianxi?" Jin Zhongda called my name with some uncertainty, and I listened to every sound from his mouth to comfort myself, he still loves me.He and that Zhang Xianna are just ordinary friends, he...

At this time, Zhang Yixing who was beside me also raised his head.He felt something was wrong when he saw Admiralty, and he frowned slightly.As if what he was worried about had already happened, he pulled me out of the supermarket.I don't know how Zhang Yixing dragged me away from Jin Zhongda and Zhang Xianna's sight, I only remember Jin Zhongda's last look.That look is something I will never forget in my life, full of surprise and guilt.

Zhang Yixing held the vegetables he bought in one hand and led me out of the supermarket with the other.He was wearing a black peaked cap, the hat was pressed low, and he had sunglasses on his eyes.In the end, he pulled me into a taxi and took me directly to their dormitory.

Along the way, Zhang Yixing and I didn't say a word, not even a single word.No matter what he asked me, I didn't answer, and the tears kept ebbing and flowing in my eyes.I don't want to cry, I don't want to cry in front of Zhang Yixing.Because, I don't want to admit that what I saw just now is really Jin Zhongda and Zhang Xianna.I clenched my hands tightly, as if I was holding the fate line between me and Jin Zhongda.As long as I don't let go, he and I will always be together.

I exhausted all the strength in my body to grab it, but I didn't expect it to be a stable happiness.At the corner of the road, someone has already gently let go of his hand.

When I came to the dorm, I saw Do Kyungsoo sitting on the sofa watching TV and Baekhyun making coffee.Both of them stopped their movements slowly and turned to look at me, I smiled at Do Kyungsoo and Baekhyun.Maybe, now my smile is uglier than crying.I didn't want the two of them to see anything, pretending to be strong as usual, pretending to be relaxed and sitting on the sofa watching TV with Do Kyungsoo.

"Brother Baekhyun, happy birthday!" I turned my head to look at Baekhyun who was holding the coffee and said to him with the corner of his mouth slightly raised.

Bian Baekhyun smiled at me, held up the freshly brewed coffee to me and said, "Thank you! Do you want coffee?" I nodded to him and said a word, and he gave it skillfully I poured a glass and handed it to me.

In the next second, Bian Baekhyun stabbed a knife called Jin Zhongda into my chest without warning.I felt like I was dying of pain in my chest and even my breathing was starting to fade away.

"Didn't Zhong Da tell you that we're coming back today?"

"..."

Zhang Yixing, who was standing aside and drinking water, coughed non-stop as if he had choked.And Do Kyungsoo, who was sitting next to me, frowned and looked at me, then looked at Zhang Yixing, who was coughing, as if he understood something.I avoided their eyes, only to find in the end that I had nowhere to hide.

"Nianxi, I'll take you to my room. I have something for you. I bought it from Russia!" Do Kyungsoo dragged me to his room without waiting for my answer. Some of them knew something but never told me.

Walking into Do Kyungsoo's room, it was unexpectedly neat.All the items are neatly arranged, it doesn't look like a boy's home at all, but like a girl's room.Now I don't have that much mood to take care of these things, such as making fun of Do Kyungsoo.Cleaning up the room so neatly, is it a man or a woman?I can't say that.

Do Kyungsoo moved a bench for me to sit on, and I sat down like an emotionless robot.He found the so-called gift in his suitcase, which was actually a bracelet.

"I heard that this can bless you, so I bought one for you. I don't know if you like it or not..."

Before he finished speaking, I took it over and put it on my hand without hesitation.Anyway, it's all his wish, I have no reason to say I don't like it.This time, he didn't laugh.I looked at him, this is the first time I looked at him so seriously.The corner of the mouth seemed to be hurt, and there was a sad breath in the eyes.He seemed a little uncomfortable being looked at by me, and I chuckled lightly.How old are you, and you will be shy when you are looked at by girls...

Seeing my smile, he asked worriedly, "Bo Nianxi, what are you laughing at?"

"Laughing at you. But, what happened to the corner of your mouth? Did you fight with someone? Did you do it at work?"

"Accidentally made it while filming," he said, avoiding my eyes.

Since he didn't want to talk, I didn't ask.He told me a lot about Russia and showed me photos he took on his phone.As I listened to what he said to me, I temporarily forgot about Jin Zhongda and Zhang Xianna.I have to say, Do Kyungsoo is a very good friend!

After sending text messages to Shu Luo and Tong Yan telling them to come to Bian Boxian's birthday party tonight, I heard the sound of entering the door.I even clearly heard the conversation between Kim Jong Dae and Jang Hyun Na...

"Xianna, tonight's dinner will be left to you."

"No problem! Don't you believe in my craftsmanship?"

"That's right, our Xian Na's craftsmanship is the best!"

......

Hearing these words, my heart felt like it was being pricked by countless small needles.I remember that Jin Zhongda also said that my craftsmanship is good, I remember that it was the first time I cooked for him, I remember that we were very happy at that time, but now he is holding another woman's hand and praising another woman.My face is like someone slapped me hard, it hurts but itches.

My legs ran out uncontrollably, and when I looked at Jin Zhongda and Zhang Xianna who were sitting on the sofa watching TV, I suddenly became timid.I was afraid that I would really tell about his relationship with Zhang Xianna from Jin Zhongda, and I was afraid that he would break up with me.I was like a gambler in a casino, with all the chips in my hand and ready to fight one last time.If I win, it can only mean that I am lucky.If I lose, I really have nothing.

"Jin Zhongda, why are you with her?" I stared intently at the still holding hands of Jin Zhongda and Zhang Xianna.

The moment Jin Zhongda wanted to let go, Zhang Xianna held it tightly again.She is like a proud princess, at this moment I understand.I lost, and she, Zhang Xianna, was the biggest winner.She held Jin Zhongda's hand as if she was showing off to me, I lost everything, nothing left.

"Bo Nianxi, I'm sorry." He looked at me for a long time, and finally he said the most worthless words.

I don't think such bloody words should come out of Jin Zhong's big mouth.My life is not a TV series, and I don't need such a tragic plot, and I don't want to be hypocritical.At this time, should I be like the heroine in the TV series and say to him "it's okay, I'm not serious anyway" or should I go up and hit him a few times to relieve the pain in my heart.I can't do either of these two outcomes. I love him, so I don't want him to get hurt.

At the same time, I forgot.Love is a double-edged sword, it can make you happy, but it can also kill you in pain.You protect your lover, but you break your own heart.

Tears just fell, and my mind went blank.I ran out crying, so that I ran into Wu Yifan who was rushing back and left without saying sorry.

I stopped in a quiet park, I sat on a chair and wiped away the tears on my face, neither crying nor laughing, just doing quietly.I let myself not think about anything, but the more I do this, the more I can't control it.

Admiralty's words "I'm sorry" kept replaying in my mind.As ironic as it sounds now, Jin Jong Dae probably never loved me.Otherwise, how could he be so stingy that he wouldn't even say "I love you" to me.It turns out that he never loved me!He has always loved that woman named Zhang Xianna, who has always been...

"Nianxi! Bo Nianxi!" Do Kyungsoo ran towards me while calling my name.

I looked at him with dull eyes and didn't say anything. He sat beside me and sat quietly with me.We did it for a long time, until it was almost dark.

"Bo Nianxi, can you cry a bit?"

After listening to Do Kyungsoo's words, my tears flowed down instantly.I think this is the worst cry in my life since I was a child.I squatted on the ground gasping for breath, weeping uncontrollably, tears kept flowing out like water pipes.Do Kyungsoo also squatted down, he wrapped me with his not very strong arms.I could feel the warmth of his body, and the sound of his heartbeat beating a bit chaotically.

"Nianxi, it's okay. It's all going to pass, and I'll be with you." His voice was like a lullaby, and I felt a little relieved after hearing it.Although his shoulders are not that broad, they also feel very secure.

It seems that what Do Kyungsoo has always given me the most is a sense of security.He didn't want Admiralty to be the same, as long as I blinked, he would disappear.On the contrary, no matter when, as long as I turn around, I can see him.He is my strongest backing, stronger than Shu Luo and Tong Yan!

I don’t know how long I cried, but it was already dark when Do Kyungsoo helped me up.My eyes were also swollen, and he gently rubbed my eyes with his hands.This kind of action was a bit ambiguous, but when I realized it, Do Kyungsoo naturally took it away and stood in front of me pretending that nothing happened.

After a few seconds, I said to him in my already hoarse voice, "I don't want to go to Baekhyun hyung's birthday party anymore, I want to go home."

He said, "Okay. I'll see you off."

I quickly shook my hand and told him no, how could he not go to Baekhyun's birthday party.He took out his mobile phone and called Baekhyun, saying that something happened and he couldn't go back to his birthday party.And I was the thing in his mouth.

Do Kyungsoo sent me home, and I invited him in for a while.Neither he nor I have a tacit understanding about the topic of Jin Zhongda. Every time I was about to bypass Jin Zhongda, he always changed the subject very quickly.

This night, we talked about many things, from childhood to now, and to the future.When I woke up, I was already on my bed, but Do Kyungsoo was nowhere to be seen.