Like Love But Not

I can only silently watch him hurt because of me, dying.

"Stand up." Xia Mingxiu wiped away tears suddenly, stood up, and pulled Luo Yuchen up from the ground.He swept away the previous haze and sadness, looked at Luo Yuchen resolutely, and looked deeply into his eyes.

"Xiao Heng is dead." He stated the fact calmly again, so calm and cold, so determined and desperate.

This is no longer the tolerant, kind, gentle, and weak Xia Mingxiu he has been for a while now, the strength in his bones is already shining.The radiant and brilliant Xia Mingxiu, who made me extremely jealous and envious, is back again.

Luo Yuchen still shook his head, only I know that he is not deceiving himself, only I know that he really believes that I am still alive, even though it is not true, I did something stupid to make him believe it with reason.

It's just that everyone else thought he was just crazy.

Xia Mingxiu suddenly hugged him tightly and resolutely so that he would not have any room to struggle.He whispered in his ear: "Luo Yuchen, Luo Yuchen, you still have me..."

Luo Yuchen froze for a while, feeling dazed for a while.

"You still have me, I'm always by your side." He still gently whispered in Luo Yuchen's ear, as if hypnotized.

I know it's not hypnosis.That was Xia Mingxiu's inner voice.He retreated in the corner, guarding Luo Yuchen secretly, willing to be a friend, but he didn't give up.

He is waiting for him to turn around, waiting for the day when he realizes his lost way.He has endured it for a long, long time.

Comparing my heart to my heart, I can clearly see Xia Mingxiu's every move and every little thought.

Because I was there too.

Although I seem to be more domineering, I forced Luo Yuchen to be with me, but in fact, I just huddled in a corner for ten years, waiting for Luo Yuchen to come home.

Be stupid, only to realize that everyone is stupid.

I'll forget it, but Xia Mingxiu shouldn't have come to this point.If Luo Yuchen and I have come to this point because of our own faults, Xia Mingxiu is the victim who was innocently involved.

From beginning to end, he did nothing wrong.

It was Luo Yuchen and I who were wrong.

He made no complaints about paying for what we did wrong out of thin air.He just looked deeply into Luo Yuchen's eyes and said: "I know you are suffering and you feel uncomfortable and you blame yourself, but things have already happened, I can't watch you torture yourself."

Even if Luo Yuchen's eyes were empty, Xia Mingxiu would not give up easily.

"If you want to suffer, I can accompany you to suffer together. If you want time to heal, I can wait with you. I can accompany you to forget him slowly, or accompany you to remember him forever."

"But you can't lie to yourself, you can't torture yourself without eating and drinking, you don't throw me out of your world, I'm not an ordinary friend that you can dismiss casually, and I never want to be your ordinary friend! "

"I didn't quit to see you suffer. It's because Xiao Heng is more qualified than me to make you happy. Now that Xiao Heng is a coward and quits, I can't give you happiness. I can do it!"

"I can wait forever. Xiao Heng can wait ten years, so can I."

What he said was right, it was my fault, I was cowardly, I voluntarily withdrew first, I had already disarmed and surrendered from the beginning of this battle, what right do I have to blame Luo Yuchen for being ruthless and blame Xia Mingxiu for robbing me Important person.

What right do I have to watch Xia Mingxiu back down, and secretly rejoice that Luo Yuchen actually likes me in his heart.

He is really, too perfect, not intentional, without a trace of affectation, not the perfection that people like me can achieve.

The sliver of pride and persistence I could retain in front of Xia Mingxiu was based on my favorable time and place. I knew Luo Yuchen several years earlier than Xia Mingxiu, and I have been friends with him for several years. Years ago, I knew that Xia Mingxiu was better than me, and I knew that he also liked Luo Yuchen very much, but I always believed that I could do it, and I felt that these Xia Mingxiu had no way to compare with me.

Now even Xia Mingxiu can do the only thing I can do for Luo Yuchen.He can wait, and I believe he can wait more than me.

Waiting is a slow torment, disappointment in hope, despair in disappointment.

But Xia Mingxiu is different, maybe one day, he will be able to keep the clouds open to see the moonlight.Perhaps very soon, Luo Yuchen will find out that his crazily missing me now is only caused by guilt and debt.

I have seen many examples of this, and it is not the so-called hindsight, not real love, but the precipitation of sympathy and guilt, which has become the lingering heart that he mistakenly thought was love.In the end, it was just wishful thinking on my part. I kept clinging to Luo Yuchen in my selfish heart, but I suddenly found out that I like me.

This is me now, looking at Luo Yuchen's pain, but also feeling a little despicable comfort in my heart, I am really sad.

I looked at Luo Yuchen and Xia Mingxiu, it was a match made in heaven.

How can I be so arrogant, thinking that his eyes will pass over the bright person in front of me and fall on me who has been dusty in the corner for a long time.No one can refuse Xia Mingxiu, I know.

However, Luo Yuchen seemed completely unmoved, and just said to himself: "Xiao Heng is still alive..."

He thought I was alive.He is not rejecting Xia Mingxiu, he just really, simply thinks that I am alive.

But if it wasn't for that night, if he didn't really think that I was still alive, wouldn't Luo Yuchen have already agreed to Xia Mingxiu?

I don't know the answer.I only know that now Luo Yuchen made Xia Mingxiu sad, and his stubborn persistence hurt him severely.

Xia Mingxiu's face was obviously pale, he stared fixedly at Luo Yuchen's trance, and finally revealed the despair and unwillingness I had never seen before.

Yes, he is not reconciled.

He must be unwilling, Xia Mingxiu is just an ordinary person in the end, he also has the protection and love he wants.

I lost to him because I was far worse than him. Although I was a little bit unwilling, I had no choice but to admit defeat completely in the end.And he lost to me, the whole loss was inexplicable, absurd, and even I didn't know what he did wrong, and what I did right.

The originally peaceful life suddenly turned upside down without warning. If I were him, I would have gone crazy.

Xia Mingxiu is still calm and gentle, but I can see that the perfect harmony between him and Luo Yuchen has disappeared.

I saw with my own eyes that Luo Yuchen destroyed them bit by bit.Because of a me who is far from qualified.

But now I have no way to blame Luo Yuchen for not knowing how to cherish, and Xia Mingxiu for being untimely, and then singing high-pitched hypocrisy to wish them good results.

I looked at everything that Luo Yuchen had destroyed, and I could only feel distressed.His frankness remains the same as before, he only follows the direction of his heart in everything he does, and doesn't care what others think or think.

The crystal castle that Xia Mingxiu worked so hard to build began to collapse, be damaged, and fall apart.