Like Love But Not

When I continued to carefully observe the changes in the internal facilities of the house for further blows, he had already entered the bathroom.Because of the three-meter radius of freedom of movement, I don't have to use the excuse of being forced to bind him to peek at people taking a bath. The tall and perfect figure can still be seen in the dim light.

Now that I see him, I still feel lustful, and I am very discouraged.Originally thought that he would be able to escape if he died, but he had thought that he had really reached the state of being lost and not knowing where he was going, and even the heart of death was still on him.

It’s just that it’s still worth relieving, because I’m dead, so I can no longer ask for anything from him, and I can no longer force him to condescend to my humble and cheap wishful thinking every day.

That's the meager benefit I get from death.

It seems that the soul does not need to sleep. Anyway, I just watched him like this until the middle of the night without feeling tired at all.So I was greedy for this cheap thing, and watched him greedily after he fell asleep, as if I wanted to make up for all the things I haven't been able to watch over the years.

Now I can't touch, I can't hug, I can only watch, but I feel very satisfied.

I am so sick that there is no cure.

Ten years, I should have been content.

For ten years, I still remember the innocence years. We rode the green field together, laughed together, clapped our hands with ambition and vowed to advance together after playing the Youth Cup, and play football together for the rest of our lives.

Everyone knows the famous saying of Luo Yuchen, who was the most popular student in the school at that time: Luo Yuchen is the best striker, and Xiao Heng is the best goalkeeper.

I still remember him wearing a jersey and looking back with a smile against the setting sun, his young face radiating brilliant brilliance.

He said, with Xiao Heng at the rear, I am most at ease.

Because of this sentence, where he didn't know, how much time I spent secretly, how much effort I made, how much injury I suffered, rain or shine, just to stand behind and watch him rushing towards the opposite back in the sun, For his big smile and big hug after victory.

At that time, he regarded me as his best friend, and I huddled in the shell and wore the best friend's coat, enjoying his warmth wantonly, squandering my youth extravagantly, without complaint or regret.

At that time, nothing had happened, nothing had changed, it was the youth of a real teenager who didn't know the taste of sorrow.

Those days will always be treasured in my memory.

Later, a lot of things really happened, a lot of things made the distance between us get farther and farther.

Forget it, I shook my head, now is not the time for me to be emotionally hurt, anyway, the yin and yang are separated, it is far to the end, it is like a felon who has been locked in a prison for many years, waiting and waiting with trepidation, finally got one and shot him immediately Although he refused to accept the verdict, he finally no longer had to continue to be sad, continue to be afraid, and tried in vain to redeem it.

From then on, you take your Yangguan Road, and I take my Naihe Bridge.

I just discovered that I have a high emotional intelligence and I can still joke around and have fun at times like this.

I don't know when, the sky is already bright.I was startled by the harsh sound of the alarm clock. I was not used to it. We never set the alarm clock when we were together. I like to wake him up personally. I will definitely wake up at five o'clock in the morning, which is more punctual than the alarm clock.

The reason why I insist on waking him up personally is because I don’t like Luo Yuchen who is in a daze when I wake up, because only when he is in a daze will he not look at me so indifferently, and only when he is in a daze , no matter what I do, he won't get angry easily.

So I can indulge a little bit, do some small tricks secretly, and pretend that we are a very loving and happy couple.

He has never been angry about getting up, but today he turned off the alarm clock angrily, got up from the sofa, washed up casually, changed his clothes, and went out.

Did not eat breakfast.

He has had a bad stomach since he was a teenager. I used to warm up milk for him every morning in advance and match it with nutritious food. Although he was very impatient every time, he would eat a little if he was coaxed, but now... I I can only watch, there is nothing I can do.

Being dragged into the car by an invisible force, looking at his expressionless face, I began to laugh at myself seriously.People are dead, and I still have to worry about him. I can't help it too broadly. Whether he eats or not, and whether he takes care of his body is completely irrelevant to me now.

He was no longer interested in all the one-man shows I did before I was alive, but at this moment, I finally feel a bit cheap.

So instead of looking at him, I turned my head to look at the car window, only to see his profile reflected on the dark glass, without my shadow.

What the heck.

I can see my own hands and feet, but I can't see them at all among all reflective objects.

Can't touch anything at all, either pass through or be passed through.

In fact, I can speak out, I can hear my own voice, but no one else can hear it.

No one knew of my existence, and I was simply abandoned by the whole world.

Forget it, even if I'm depressed and no one cares about me, the angel won't come, so let's be content with the status quo for now.

When we arrived at the studio, I followed him out of the car with a feeling of abandonment,

After entering the building, I couldn't help feeling a little flustered.In fact, it's not that I haven't been here before, I come here almost every day, the entire building and the company used to be mine, and I also sneaked over to see him several times in the studio.I will be very nervous at this time, probably because I used to be able to hide in a corner far away, but today I can stand so close and appreciate the peerless demeanor of the big star from zero distance.

Luo Yuchen was born handsome and charming. The perfect figure and delicate skin cannot be piled up by clothes and cosmetics. Fan, put on the tailor-made clothes.When everything was ready, my sexy god finally appeared on the stage, dazzling.

Several cameras moved from multiple angles, and Luo Yuchen obediently posed in various poses, whether mature or sexy, I saw that the eyes of the staff next to me were all straightened, and they didn't even notice something slipped from their hands.

I have hid in a dark corner many times, watching this scene, mixed with sweet and slightly sour feelings.

Sweet, because this man who attracts so much attention is my man; slightly sour, because too many people yearn for him and admire him, but his glass-like eyes do not reflect anyone present.

He seldom smiles, and the single-person fashion photo posters and even photobooks he took are all cold-faced, but how many people love this layer of coldness to death.

There is only one special case for him, and that special case is Xia Mingxiu, who is the new man with a photo frame after my old man is replaced, that cute bell cat boy.

Only when taking pictures with Xia Mingxiu, he would rarely show a little tenderness.I guess he might still laugh when they were alone together.

It's as if I've never seen him smile, but it's not. A long time ago, he always smiled carefreely at me.It's all my fault that it became what it is today.