perfect life

After He Zihan returned to his house in a daze, he felt extremely cold all over.

Because he stayed in the park overnight, his body smelled of dew and dust, so He Zihan took a hot shower before lying down on the bed.

Before the hair was completely dry, he couldn't resist sleepiness at all, and fell into a deep sleep.

Drowsy, it seems that the sky outside has always been gloomy.

I don't know what time it is, my throat is burning and I am very thirsty.

There was no ready-made cold boiled water, so He Zihan just took some tap water and drank it all in one gulp.

Fortunately, the tap water in City C is quite clean, otherwise He Zihan would inevitably suffer from stomach pain if he drank such a large mouthful of raw water.

He Zihan didn't know that he had a fever, but felt that his body was hot and cold, and he was sweating a lot all of a sudden, and the quilt was almost wet...

After a while, I felt cold again, with the cool quilt covering my body, and my whole body was constantly sweating, as if I had fallen into an ice cellar.

The body is hot and cold, and when it is hot, it is like a furnace. The whole body is so hot that it will crack, and the brain is swollen as if it is about to explode.

When I was cold, I kept shivering, and my teeth were chattering.

He Zihan wrapped himself in the quilt, but it didn't help.

it's too cold.

Suffering from heat and cold like this, I kept falling asleep and waking up. When I was thirsty, I got up to drink some tap water, and when I felt the urge to urinate, I had to get up again to go to the toilet.

I didn't eat any rice, but I just kept drinking water, sweating, sweating, drinking a lot of water when I was thirsty, and the cycle repeated.

I woke up several times to find that the dawn was too fast, and it was daytime all of a sudden.

Sometimes I feel that time passes too slowly, the night can't pass, and the sky has never been bright...

The whole body is sore and limp, and the headache is splitting.

Apart from the scorching breath he exhaled, he couldn't feel anything else.

Suddenly, he seemed to hear Chen Zeyu knocking on the door again, and Chen Qiran seemed to be there too.

They knocked on the door several times and said something outside the door.

It's just that He Zihan doesn't remember anything, but has a vague impression.

She fell into a drowsy sleep, but a person unexpectedly appeared in her sleep——Chen Qiran.

In the dream, it seemed that they had returned to the scene when they lived together in Chen Qiran's apartment for more than a year.Chen Qiran made something in the kitchen and asked He Zihan to eat it.He Zihan sat in the dining room reluctantly, Chen Qiran brought out a casserole, He Zihan was very curious about what was inside, opened it to see, but it was full of strawberries - He Zihan's favorite fruit.

Later, the two of them sat together in the living room and watched a dull literary film. He Zihan felt drowsy from watching it, and finally just leaned on Chen Qiran and fell asleep.

The warm temperature on Chen Qiran's body was conveyed to himself again.Even in his sleep, He Zihan felt that he could sleep very soundly by his side.

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When I woke up again, I opened my eyes and saw the gray sky outside, and I didn't know when and where I was.

Stomach throbbing, I don't know how many days I haven't eaten.It seems that only water has been drunk.

He also had occasional stomach pains before. At that time, Chen Qiran kept saying that he would take him to the hospital for a gastroscopy, but he kept procrastinating, and in the end he couldn't go.

He Zihan didn't like going to the hospital, and Chen Qiran had nothing to do with him.

I can only watch him eat three meals a day as usual, and try to give him more food to nourish his body and stomach.Stomach problems can only be nourished, and taking medicine will not cure them.

After Chen Qiran left without a sound, He Zihan once hesitated, but he quickly walked out of the chaos.

His life doesn't allow him to be a little lazy, and he doesn't have much time to grieve in the spring and autumn. When Chen Qiran leaves, he leaves. He treats him as a little passer-by in his life...

But why is my heart so uncomfortable?

At that time, He Zihan didn't understand, but now that he understands, it makes him even more sad.

He never thought that such a gesture of Chen Qiran's memory would reappear in his life.

The new neighbor's boyfriend?

It's funny no matter how you look at it.

The funniest thing is that because of the sweetness and warmth of these two people, I ran out to sit in the park all night.

Then how many days of high fever did you have because of that night?

The body was in a state of complete overdraft, and my stomach was throbbing with pain.

But he didn't even have the strength to move his fingers.

Can I just lie here and wait to die?

He Zihan looked at the ceiling feebly.

He had never felt so powerless, and he was not a coward.But in front of his feelings, in front of Chen Qiran and Chen Zeyu's feelings, he has been completely defeated.

Maybe he doesn't just like Chen Qiran, he's already in love with him.

After he found out that Chen Qiran was already with someone else, the tears in the corner of his eyes told him that he had been in love with this person for a long time.

He Zihan didn't know how long he had been lying on the bed. He felt that he should ask the outside world for help, but there was no phone in this house...

He smiled helplessly. At this time, can he still only rely on himself?

Is it because you are a boy that you have to be strong?

Even at times like this, can't someone take care of you?

He Zihan asked one question after another, not knowing whether he was asking himself, the world, or someone else.

However, there was no second voice in the room to answer him.

He lay down for a while, and with some strength, he was finally able to struggle to get up from the bed.

After getting out of bed, he walked crookedly to the corner where the kitchen utensils were placed, poured a lot of water into the rice cooker, and sat down on the chair next to him limply.

There seems to be some rice in the house, cook some porridge to eat, so that the stomach will not hurt...

All the strength in my body was drained by the high fever during this period, and I touched my face, and it seemed that my chin became sharper again.

He is someone who can't even take care of himself.

I remembered that a long time ago, that person named Xia Mingyuan once told himself, "Xiao Ran's feelings for you are definitely not what you think, it's purely to repay what happened 11 years ago. He really likes you..."

When the person named Xia Mingyuan said those words, his face was full of blessings and envy. He Zihan still did not forget the expression on his face at that time until many years later-that Zhang was clearly full of sadness, but he still kept saying it. Anyone who looks at the blessed face will feel unbearable.

Xia Mingyuan also said:

"Listen to me... There are too many things in this world that you can't help yourself, He Zihan, you are lucky to meet Xiaoran. Xiaoran will give up marriage and family for you, and you will have a future, Xiaoran However, I can afford your future, He Zihan, you don't know how lucky you are..."

Looking at it now, are you really lucky?

I met Chen Qiran, stayed at his house, listened to his confession, and later... Later, because of some accidents, the two had a relationship when they were a little confused, and Chen Qiran left the next morning.

I thought that this person would disappear from my life, but I didn't expect that he would be the new neighbor's boyfriend.

Is this the future that Chen Qiran gave himself?

Is this what Xia Mingyuan meant by being lucky? ?

If so, then he would rather never meet Chen Qiran in his life.

No one can give him a future, he can only rely on himself, and can only continue to live in such a humble way.

Until he completely left the city and this place where Chen Qiran was present.

Chen Zeyu next to him seemed to have moved out within two days, as the real estate agent said.

After He Zihan was fully conscious and recovered his physical strength, he suddenly remembered why he hadn't listened to the radio these days? !

He recalled vaguely that the night Chen Zeyu was going to come to sleep at his house, after Chen Zeyu fiddled with the radio twice, the radio had already run out of battery.

Reluctantly getting dressed, He Zihan took the money and planned to go to a large supermarket 2 stops away to buy some batteries, rice and noodles, and vegetables. He didn't want to go out every day, and he never wanted to meet Chen Zeyu or Chen Qiran again.

He Zihan never went to the convenience store to buy things. Although it was just downstairs of the apartment and he could pass by every time he went up and down the stairs, there were some things there that were several dollars more expensive than those in the supermarket, and he couldn't bear to part with them.

He would rather walk for 20 minutes in the cold wind than waste a lot of money by being lazy.

He has no source of income, so he can only save some money as much as possible.

The life of sitting and eating is terrible.

When buying a newspaper, on the magazine shelf next to it, on the huge cover, is that person, if not Chen Qiran, who else?

The youngest heir in the history of the Chen family in City C——Chen Qiran.

The hype titles in the magazines, "The heir of the Chen family is in the United States", "The life of the heir of the Chen family studying abroad", "The heir of the Chen family returns to China today for vacation", "A brief analysis of the future of the Chen family"...

It seems that before, I really knew too little about Chen Qiran.

I saw that the date in the newspaper was already the 25th of the Lunar New Year, and it seemed to be exactly five days from the day Chen Zeyu moved in.

It turned out that my fatal high fever lasted on and off for nearly a week.He didn't eat or take any medicine, just kept falling asleep and drinking water, so he survived.

Human vitality, it turns out, can be so strong.

He Zihan didn't intend to laugh at his excessive vitality, but if he didn't leave City C, his life would be meaningless.He will live in the shadow of Chen Qiran all his life, and he will feel uncomfortable when he sees anyone related to Chen Qiran.

That person has already engraved a brand on his vitality, which cannot be erased.

He Zihan never thought that love is such a heavy thing.

He obviously didn't know how to love, but still fell in love with Chen Qiran.

So, what should he do to forget Chen Qiran?Can I delete him from my own life, from my life?

There is no answer, no one can tell him the answer.

He has no friends, he has only himself.

After He Zihan finished shopping, he walked back in a depressed mood.

It seems to be colder outside than when we came here. It is always like this in winter in City C. It is so cold that people are caught off guard.It was still more than 10 degrees when I went out in the morning, and it was already below zero in the afternoon.

Because the wind was too strong, He Zihan originally wanted to walk back quickly, but found that after the serious illness, his health was even worse, and he couldn't lift his strength at all.

When the harsh car horn sounded behind him, He Zihan leaned in subconsciously - he was walking on the sidewalk, and when he heard the car honking, he thought that the driver wanted to overtake another car on the sidewalk, which is very common in C City .

However, the sound of the trumpet kept coming.

He Zihan didn't look back until a hand patted his shoulder, and he subconsciously turned around...

Seeing that extremely familiar and breathtakingly beautiful face appearing so clearly in front of him, He Zihan almost forgot to breathe.