perfect life

He Zihan hid in the room all night and did not go out.

No matter how much Chen Zeyu knocked and shouted at the door in the middle of the night, he still didn't make any sound.

He didn't want to see Chen Zeyu.

or anyone else.

That night, He Zihan found sadly that he had already fallen in love with Chen Qiran unconsciously.

Although I have always felt that I am not gay, but in the end I fell in love with Chen Qiran who is my same sex.

Otherwise, how could he accept being kissed by someone of the same sex, and even later, even because of the aphrodisiac, he had that kind of relationship with Chen Qiran in desperation, but what if it was someone else?

That is absolutely impossible to accept.

Why, at that time, I didn't realize my feelings?

And let him discover the truth at the cruelest time? !

God is always unfair to him.

"He Zihan? Where are you? Are you still not here?"

"Aze, why do you come to this person every day? Does it have anything to do with you?"

"Ah, yes. We've just met, but he's a nice fellow, and you'll know it when you meet him."

"Oh?"

"Oh, I can't tell you clearly. He Zihan? Do you want to come to my house for supper? He Zihan, are you there?"

"He Zihan? Ze, you said that the person you just met is called He Zihan?"

"Are you an idiot?! I've been shouting for days?! Did you know his name is He Zihan?!"

"No... I just feel that the name is a bit familiar. Stop shouting, my voice is broken, and it's me who is distressed. Go eat."

"But……"

"Don't be rude, or I'll see how I deal with you later!"

"Huh! Come again?! Are you just so dissatisfied with desire?! Who will clean up later is not sure!"

"You are most welcome. If you don't eat anymore, I will punish you!"

"Okay, okay, can't you eat? I really don't understand you, why do you have to cook! Do you know that it's midnight now!"

"I know, I've exhausted so much energy and I'm very tired. Besides, the food made by Aze is delicious! Come in quickly, it's too cold outside. If you catch a cold, you'll be in trouble."

Chen Zeyu's angry voice sounded harsh for some reason.

He Zihan hid behind the door and listened to their every word, every word of Chen Qiran, it was like a stab in his heart.

He also once said caring words to him such as "If you catch a cold, you will be in trouble".

He had also treated himself so tenderly.

We even slept together in the same bed...

But now, he was just outside, just a door away.

But he was already with someone else, saying those sweet words to someone else.

In a trance, the song that was played on the radio last night suddenly sounded in my ears:

I used to dream of walking the world with a sword

Look at the prosperity of the world

Young hearts are always frivolous

Now it's home all over the world

The girl who made you feel bad

Now it has disappeared without a trace

Love always makes you yearn and annoyed

can make you bruised

every time you are sad

just look at the sea alone

I always think of my friends on the road

how many are waking up

let's finish the drink

A good boy has a heart like the sea

Experienced the ups and downs of life's vicissitudes of time

This smile is warm and pure

……

When I heard that song yesterday, I still can't forget the surging mood.

In the past, he only thought that the relationship between himself and Chen Qiran was just a pure friendship. Although Chen Qiran had clearly expressed his feelings at that time, and they had had intimate behaviors before, He Zihan didn't feel that those things were related to love at all.

He and Chen Qiran met at the wrong time. After Chen Qiran had been away from him for more than a year, when Chen Qiran was with another person, he discovered his feelings for him.

When I was held in the palm of my hand like a treasure, I didn't realize it; when I gave all of that person's emotions to another person, while my heart felt like angina, that person was lingering and tired with others.

At this time and at that time, the gap is indeed heaven and earth.

He Zihan wiped away the tears seeping from the corners of his eyes, put on his coat and quickly went out the door.

He can only escape.

I didn't know how far I ran out, and when I realized that I no longer knew where I was, He Zihan saw bright lights in the park not far ahead.

There seems to be some activity.

There are many people coming and going, and the square in the park is full of smiling and happy children and their parents.

He Zihan felt dazzling when he saw those bright and bright smiles, even under the not so bright light, it was still so dazzling.

Why are others always happy?

Why only myself, never know what happiness is like?

What is there to be with me except loneliness and sadness?

What else? !

he does not know.no one knows.

Walking to a quieter place deep in the park, He Zihan sat down exhausted.

Before long, consciousness began to slacken.

When he woke up the next day, He Zihan realized that he had been sitting on a park bench all night.

After trying to move a few times, I suddenly felt that my legs were numb, and my whole body was shivering from the cold...

I looked at my watch, it was only 7 in the morning.

After suffering from the cold for a while, He Zihan finally waited until 8 o'clock in the morning.

I moved my body a little bit, and found that my fingernails were slightly purple - it really was very cold.

I didn't know it was so cold outside, and I didn't feel it at all after the incident in the house.

The real estate agent was also taken aback when he saw He Zihan, why did this kid come here in such a desolate way so early in the morning?

"Hello……"

As soon as He Zihan opened his mouth, he realized that his voice was trembling.

"You are the kid who lives on the 8th floor of Huadong Building."

"Well, it's... I..."

"Why is it frozen like this?! Come and drink a cup of hot water!"

The real estate agent handed over a cup of hot water, He Zihan thanked him, but only took a paper cup filled with hot water.

"Why don't you drink?"

"It's too hot, it will hurt your stomach if you drink it..."

"So...then I'll mix some cold water for you?"

"No, no, I'll warm my hands for a while, and I can drink it later."

He Zihan didn't want to bother others too much. Although he was actually very thirsty, since he had already received the hot water, let's wait for the water to cool down.

"Well, that's good. The air conditioner is on here, and it's not too cold. What's the matter with you here today?"

"Hmm... Is there any other house? It should be about the same size as where I live now. As far as the location is concerned, it's okay to be a little far from Incheon Middle School..."

"Oh? You want to change houses?"

"Um……"

"Is there any special reason?"

"No, it's just that I'm a little tired of living in that place, and I want to change to another place."

"Your house is already the cheapest in this area. Other places, even 30 minutes away from Incheon Middle School, are as big as yours and cost more than 1000. Is it acceptable?"

"So expensive?"

"um, yes."

The real estate agent doesn't give too much explanation. Sometimes, the reasons for many things cannot be justified.

The rent of the current house of 500 yuan is already a bit difficult for He Zihan, after all, he is no longer working on the construction site.

Without any source of income, and I don't want to use the part of the money I plan to go to college, it seems impossible to change the house.

He Zihan smiled self-deprecatingly. Sure enough, it is impossible for a poor and down-to-earth person like him to do whatever he wants.

"Then can I ask, when will the person who lives next door to me be renting? I remember that house is also yours."

"Oh? You live in 805, right? Didn't you just move into the 804 next door to you the day before yesterday?"

"Yes……"

"Not easy to get along with?"

"Uh...not really."

"That kid, let me tell you a little bit. He is a child of a wealthy family in C City. He ran out to live in after a fight with his family. Although he was generous, he has already paid half a year's rent, but I guess he won't be able to live there for half a year." After a month, I went back."

"Is that so..."

"Yes, so if it's noisy or something makes you uncomfortable, you can bear it a little bit."

"Okay, I see, thank you, then I'll go first."

"Well, walk slowly."

"The real estate agent looked at the hunched back after the joint venture, and sighed twice, why is this child so thin?

Looking back, he found that the glass of water he handed to He Zihan was on the tea table intact, and he shook his head helplessly.

I don't know why, but this child always arouses sympathy.

I don't know if it's because he always looks like he's about to cry...