perfect life

He Zihan felt the people behind him turn around, and the surprise in his heart was hard to express for a moment.

Ever since he was with Chen Qiran five years ago, when they slept together, Chen Qiran hugged him from behind to sleep. Even the night when he first came to Yang's house to find him, even though he wanted to push him away, he felt After seeing the long-lost breath belonging to Chen Qiran, he still pretended to be asleep.

When Chen Qiran and Sister Yang were cooking together this afternoon, the warm feeling of the two of them looking at each other and smiling was still flowing in my heart, but what is going on with Chen Qiran like this now?He Zihan couldn't understand.

He turned around and saw Chen Qiran's back that was so thin that only his bones remained, and it was a lie if he said that he himself had a bad life in the past few years, so probably Chen Qiran was also not.The words he said when he came to the Yang family on the first day came back to his mind: "...I have cheated my mother and my grandma. In order to deceive them, I forced myself to temporarily forget many things with you. They have been talking to each other all the time. I conduct tests, anytime and anywhere, I can't escape, I finally passed all the tests and got her permission to return to China, but I saw you and Lu Senyang together..."

Recalling Chen Zeyu's saying that he was shot in the head at that time, life and death were on the line. Looking back now, it was not easy for Chen Qiran to survive smoothly.He was also forced to accept so many damn tests, and he couldn't find himself. Under the misleading of his child Lu Senyang, he thought he was with Lu Senyang...

Just thinking about He Zihan felt unbearable.They both care about each other so much, why do they hurt so much?Why did he bring so much harm to Chen Qiran?When he was so sad, Chen Qiran was also in pain, right?

It would be fine if he really lost his memory, but he didn't forget himself. After returning to China, he saw that he and Lu Senyang shouted very close.If it were you, you would probably find it completely unacceptable, right?While questioning Chen Qiran's cruelty to him, what did he do to him?

Although he is unwilling to accept his family members on his list, thinking of that terrible grandma, Chen Qiran must have had an unhappy childhood and adolescence.He didn't want to say it, and there was always his reason.I have been brooding about this period for a long time, and He Zihan doesn't know what words to use to describe her childish and selfish self.

The body leaned forward, hugged the thin body with only a stiff back, buried his head in the hollow of his neck, and said sullenly: "What's wrong with you? Is there something on your mind?"

Chen Qiran's body was completely stiff from the moment He Zihan hugged him - so surprised.He never thought that under such circumstances, He Zihan would take the initiative to post and hug him.

Does he take the initiative to care about himself now, does it really mean that he has forgiven himself?

Chen Qiran didn't turn around immediately, but let He Zihan hug him from behind while covering the back of his hands with his hands, and replied after a while: "It's nothing, why aren't you asleep?"

"Liar, if you are not on your mind, you will sleep with your back on your back. Is there something wrong with the company? Or is Xiaoyu's illness getting worse?"

"Neither, the company is very good, and Xiaoyu's affairs have been handled well by Ouyang Hui."

He Zihan heard his sullen answer, and his worry about him almost turned into anger in an instant.Why does Chen Qiran keep everything in his heart? !And she also loves him, so there is no reason to keep it secret like this.

He Zihan wanted to reprimand him loudly, but he was afraid that Sister Yang and the baby who were sleeping in the next room would be woken up by the noise, so he could only take a deep breath to calm himself down.

After about fifteen deep breaths, He Zihan finally lost the urge to get angry with Chen Qiran.After living in the village for a long time, he gradually developed a temper and learned to tell the other party about his grievances when he was wronged.He himself felt that this was a very bad thing, thinking that it was out of control, and was laughed at by everyone when he said it.

Everyone who worked in the fields was honest and forthright, and when He Zihan mentioned the term "emotional out of control", they all laughed at him as a bookworm who was stupid in reading.

He Zihan was teased sullenly. After returning home, he told Brother Yang about this matter. Unexpectedly, instead of being comforted, he was taught by Brother Yang and Sister Yang that it is a good thing to lose his temper with others—everyone will have a temper. People are always easy-going.

The nostrils were filled with the scent of Chen Qiran, and He Zihan couldn't help kissing his exposed smooth neck, just like the first time he did to himself when he came here, the tip of his nose rubbed against the soft hair roots of that person, Feeling that the unique smell on his body is really good, she couldn't help but kissed him on the neck.

Chen Qiran felt a little unnatural when he kissed him.Turning around, a big warm hand caressed He Zihan's cheek, and kissed his lips before he could react.

The long-lost sweet lips made Chen Qiran a little out of control, his tongue penetrated into He Zihan's mouth and wrapped around the tongue he wanted to avoid, sucking and licking him continuously, wishing to eat him into his stomach like this. He gnawed at this He Zihan all the time.

He Zihan was shocked by his slightly ruthless kiss.Chen Qiran has always been gentle, why did he suddenly kiss himself like this?Is it because he hasn't kissed for too long, does he miss himself to this extent?Although the feeling of being kissed by Chen Qiran was not bad, but He Zihan was having difficulty breathing due to his overly intense kiss, and stretched out his hand to push Chen Qiran away.

Chen Qiran discovered his intention, grabbed those restless hands, temporarily withdrew from his mouth, and after letting He Zihan breathe, he quickly kissed him again.This time it was much gentler than the last kiss. Although there was a lewd sound from the rubbing of their lips and tongues, He Zihan no longer cared about that.

He returned to City B more than a year ago, but because of unavoidable difficulties, he pretended to forget himself. Although he now knows that he was pretending at that time, the pain of being forgotten by the person he loves the most is engraved in his memory all his life—— - He never wants to lose Chen Qiran again, even if it is pretended.

Break away from Chen Qiran's hands and gently hug him back, and continue this warm kiss under his guidance.

After kissing He Zihan's lips to his heart's content, Chen Qiran felt a little unsatisfied, and pecked his slightly swollen lips several times, and said, "Zihan, I miss you."

He Zihan originally thought that he was going to say something lewd. Chen Qiran used to like to say things that made people blush and heartbeat. The phrase "clamped very tightly" a long time ago, until now, when I think about it, I still want to get into a hole in the ground.Unexpectedly, what Chen Qiran said was "I miss you", and He Zihan's reaction after hearing it seemed to be slightly dazed.

Chen Qiran didn't urge him to speak, but just gently stroked his soft black hair over and over again, and sometimes kissed his cheeks, eyes and forehead.Neither of them said anything more. At this time, silence is better than sound, and neither of them wanted to break this quiet but warm atmosphere.

After Chen Qiran finally kissed enough, he said again: "Why don't you speak? Don't you miss me?"

In a hurry, He Zihan grabbed his hand and took a bite—it wasn't too heavy, and it didn't break the skin, but it was painful.

"Sleeping makes you not contact me, making me think that you really forgot me! You even hid here foolishly." While speaking, he let go of Chen Qiran's hand, fearing that if he couldn't control his strength for a while, he would bite over him.

"Are you really a dog? You like to bite people whenever you move. At that time, I was afraid that my grandma would notice if I moved a little bit, and I was afraid that she would attack you again. Zihan, I really don't want to see you hurt because of me." .”

"She didn't hurt me, it was you who hurt me. Forget it, it's over, why did you recite it just now?"

"Huh? Carry what?"

For Chen Qiran's short-circuiting, He Zihan could only roll his eyes, and said angrily, "Why don't you hug me to sleep!"

"Ah, this... I'm afraid, I'm afraid of you..."

"What are you afraid of?! Afraid that I will eat you?!"

"No, I'm afraid that I will annoy you if I do something rashly. I haven't been able to sleep well without you being by my side these years. You lay down next to me that night, and I hugged you to sleep relying on my own illness and rascally But we haven't fully explained some things, if I still rashly hug you to sleep, I'm afraid you won't be used to it."

After listening to his explanation, He Zihan was a little speechless.When did Chen Qiran become so timid?Was he already afraid of losing himself to this point?

He hugged him distressedly, buried him in his chest and said: "You have not been around these years, I can only let myself do a lot of things, so many, so tired that I have no time and energy to think about you, and I can fall asleep on the bed. I can't sleep well without you."

Chen Qiran gently touched He Zihan's back, sighed lightly, and said slowly: "It's my fault, I won't do it in the future."

He Zihan raised his head and met his eyes.The moonlight outside was still bright, Chen Qiran could clearly see He Zihan's shining eyes, those eyes seemed to have a magical power, wanting to suck his soul into it...