perfect life

Not long after, He Zihan came out with the baby in his arms.The woman took the child and went back to the bedroom. He Zihan wiped the sweat from his forehead with a soft expression on his face, as if he was still immersed in the family happiness just now.

Chen Qiran was able to stare at him boldly at this time. He was a little darker than when he was in City B, but he looked much more energetic and his body was stronger than before.

Maybe he has been working in the farmland for more than a year, and his daily routine has been standardized, so his overall physical condition has improved.Chen Qiran thought silently in his heart, felt the aura of "don't come close to me" emanating from He Zihan's body, wanted to approach him but dared not, and suddenly felt a little at a loss.

"I'm going to take a shower, you can do it yourself."

After finishing speaking, He Zihan left Chen Qiran behind and went into the bathroom again.

Chen Qiran thought that if he just sat here like this, he might chase him away when He Zihan came out later, so he took the initiative to knock on the bedroom door.

The woman soon came out with a smile on her face, and said to her with a smile: "The baby will make trouble at night, so you can sleep in the same room with Zihan. The baby and I will sleep in this room. Your thin quilt and pillows are my favorite." It's all ready for you, and the bath water is ready, Zihan is exhausted today, so he may not be in a good mood, don't worry about it. I'll bring you the bath water later."

Chen Qiran felt a little ashamed for what she said.

The other party had already arranged everything for him unconsciously. Just now, he was worried that he would be kicked out by He Zihan, but this woman greeted him warmly and generously.

Chen Qiran scratched the back of his head embarrassingly—after moving to City C, Chen Qiran seldom showed such an embarrassed expression, and said, "Thank you for your hospitality. Besides, what should I call you?"

"It's okay, just call me Sister Yang just like Zihan."

"Then... Sister Yang, I'm going to stay in the next room."

"Okay, let's go. Don't dislike the small place. By the way, I think you came here in a hurry today, so you probably don't have a change of clothes? There are a few large shirts at home. I'll take them out and put them on the bed for you." Yes. I took the underpants for Zihan, they are brand new, he hasn’t worn them, so you can just wear them and sleep all night.”

"Thank you so much."

"Where is it, you are Zihan's friend, so it is right to entertain you. This place is small, so don't dislike it."

"No, no, it's very good here, then I'll pass."

"Go."

There was also only one bed in the room next door.Although Sister Yang thoughtfully prepared a new quilt and pillow for herself, Chen Qiran didn't know if He Zihan would like to sleep with him when he came out of the shower.

This room is also very small, with a bed about 1.5m by 1.8m, a wardrobe, a table that looks like a desk, a chair and nothing else.

The room was a little stuffy, and although it was only May, it was already summer this year.Except for the two years when Chen Qiran was sent to his biological mother when he was a child, he spent the hot summer, and spent the rest of the time in a cool air-conditioned room.He is not used to the sweltering heat of this summer.

After taking off his suit jacket and putting them neatly on the chair beside him, Chen Qiran lay down on the bed a little tiredly.The bed board is very hard, it seems to be a wooden bed.However, when he thought of He Zihan sleeping on such a bed for more than a year, he couldn't help feeling sorry for him.

The air could faintly smell the aroma of the bath coming from the bathroom, and it was only then that Chen Qiran realized how poor the sound insulation and moisture-proof effect of this room was.

He didn't know how He Zihan lived in such an environment. While feeling sorry for He Zihan, Chen Qiran also hated himself.

If it wasn't for him, if he didn't stalk He Zihan to fall in love with him, He Zihan wouldn't have to suffer those persecutions, wouldn't be attacked by his grandma, let alone live in such a place and live such a life!

As the instigator, he has the responsibility and obligation to take responsibility for all the suffering He Zihan suffered.But how will he bear it?Just when he was about to come to meet him, He Zihan had already started a family here.He has his own wife and children, and has such a fulfilling life.

I have been squeezed out of his life, do I still have to give him my so-called compensation?Chen Qiran himself felt that he was very bad and funny with this mentality.

Because I had a full dinner just now, and I didn't close my eyes for the previous two nights, I fell asleep in bed after thinking wildly for a while.

In the middle of the night, Chen Qiran felt that someone helped him take off his clothes and wiped his body.After a while, the man changed his clothes again. Although he really wanted to open his eyes and wake up, he was so sleepy that he couldn't open his eyelids at all.Wearing a rough shirt, Chen Qiran struggled in the dream for a while, and finally woke up.

At this moment, He Zihan lay down beside him.

Chen Qiran pretended to turn over and hugged He Zihan in his arms.He Zihan struggled twice, but he couldn't break free, so he gave up.

Chen Qiran buried his head in He Zihan's neck and sniffed his scent, it was still as fresh as before.Although He Zihan suspected that he was pretending to sleep, Chen Qiran still kissed He Zihan's smooth neck.Before He Zihan got angry, he hugged someone and slept peacefully.

Because the bed is too short, if Chen Qiran's legs are stretched out, it will be exposed outside, because he just curled up his legs, put his abdomen on He Zihan's back, and put his hands on his abdomen - this is his last Habits and favorite sleeping position.

Although Chen Qiran was shocked by what he saw and heard today, the fact that He Zihan already had a wife and child was like a bolt from the blue the moment he first found out.

But calm down, isn't this the best ending?

Don't you just want to see He Zihan happy?Although he thought he was with Lu Senyang before, now it seems that the current situation is more reassuring.

Chen Qiran knew that this was probably the last time he would sleep with He Zihan in his arms, thinking that he might never be able to sleep with his arms in his arms and see his smile again, and his heart suddenly became very uncomfortable.

Rationally speaking, if I say too many things now, He Zihan will hate me, but if I don't say anything, I will give up voluntarily.But He Zihan clearly already had a child with Sister Yang. Although he didn't know how they got together in the first place, but now that they have children, it would be immoral to break up others.

Chen Qiran thought in a daze, after all, he was no match for the exhaustion of the past few days, and fell asleep while hugging He Zihan.

After the breathing of the people around him became heavy, He Zihan hugged his arms and fell asleep peacefully.

When Chen Qiran woke up, He Zihan and Sister Yang were no longer at home, and the child was gone.

Because I saw He Zihan last night, I was so excited that I didn't feel a splitting headache until now.Experience told Chen Qiran that he had a fever.

The phone happened to be out of battery, and he didn't bring a charger.If he hadn't contacted Zhang Ping, he wouldn't have come to this place rashly.I don't know if He Zihan has any medicine at home, and it's not good to rummaging through other people's things when the master is away, so even though Chen Qiran woke up, he just lay on the bed - he didn't have the energy to move and didn't want to move.

He didn't know how long he could stay here, a few hours or a few days?Will He Zihan kick himself out when he comes back?

Judging from his attitude yesterday, he clearly hated himself very much.

Chen Qiran also understood in his heart that although he pretended not to know him and hadn't contacted him after the incident three years ago, it was because he was afraid that he would be persecuted, but he was really too cruel in doing so, and it was reasonable for He Zihan to feel disgusted with him. things in.

As for Sister Yang, although she is a country woman here, she is warm and generous to herself and takes good care of He Zihan. In addition, they already have a baby. It seems that He Zihan's life has not much connection with her since then.

Chen Qiran smiled bleakly. Originally, he thought that He Zihan would always wait for him at the same place, waiting for him to become stronger, then he would have the ability to protect the relationship between the two, and wait for him to come back to live a happy life with him.

But he was late.

He Zihan has found his own, the most ordinary but happiest life.He has his own wife and son. Although his life is very simple, he should be very happy.

The more he thought about He Zihan disappearing from his life, the more Chen Qiran felt extremely uncomfortable.

He knew there was something missing in his character.When I was with He Zihan before, I always relied on physical satisfaction to anesthetize my lack of security. I always felt that when the body is combined, He Zihan is completely his own.

Later, seeing He Zihan's tired appearance every day, I realized that I had really done too much, and another period of abstinence passed.Looking back now, those happy times were so short.It was so short that he didn't know whether he could rely on these memories for the rest of his life.

He was not without dark thoughts.He could kill Sister Yang and the baby without anyone noticing, and then spend the sad days of losing his wife and children with He Zihan, waiting for He Zihan to change his mind.

However, such an approach is too despicable, and I am too sorry for He Zihan.

Chen Qiran was afraid that he might really not be able to resist doing such a thing, so he planned to wait for He Zihan to come back and ask him to call Zhang Ping to come over - the sooner he leaves here, the safer it will be for He Zihan's family .

Those dark thoughts may break through his reason at any time, Chen Qiran is very afraid that seeing their family happy again, he will not be able to help but carry out the plan in his heart...

He hated that dark self, he didn't want He Zihan to know his despicable side.

Chen Qiran struggled endlessly between two completely different emotions, and soon his head became dizzy.Thinking of He Zihan saying yesterday that he had nothing to do with Lu Senyang, Chen Qiran couldn't help wondering, did he really misunderstand him?He wasn't with Lu Senyang, did he live alone for the past three years?

If this is the case, then the self who questioned him like that before is really worse than a beast.For a person like He Zihan, who has such strong self-esteem, he must feel very uncomfortable when he is questioned like that?

What's more, he is now completely living a normal life. It is really wrong for me to misunderstand him like that.

Chen Qiran thought that when He Zihan came back, he should make it clear to him, explain all the misunderstandings he had made about him, and explain his feelings - even if He Zihan has a wife and children now, he always welcomes him to come to him when he needs help .

He knew that He Zihan had almost completely walked out of his own life. Faced with this situation, Chen Qiran knew that he could not change anything.

He only hoped that He Zihan would allow him to sleep on this bed for a while, and stay in a place with his breath for a few more hours.

He has a wife and kids, that's all.

As long as he lives well, that's enough.