disappearing light years

After the book was published, the response was not bad. Chi Mu didn't expect such a novel to create any miracle of best-selling. He didn't expect that not only the first printing was sold out quickly, but also three additional printings in a row. Sour Memories” gimmick.

Putting aside the rambling slogans, Chi Mu actually likes the cover of the book very much, it is light green, with some abstract feeling, like a shrunken poster lying in his hand.Occasionally, he would go to the bookstore on a whim, and see books lined up in a neat row among a pile of colorful novels, wrapped in plastic film and placed on the bookshelf.Some customers came over, took out a book to read, and then put it back; some customers came over, took out a book to read, put it in a pile of purchased books, and took it away.

It feels like a father standing in a corner watching others adopt his own children one by one, the expressions of reluctance and happiness are intertwined, and then transformed into an inexplicable emotion.

Why did you write such a story in the first place?Chi Mu asked himself more than once, maybe it was a sudden whim, maybe he wanted to find something to do, or maybe he wanted to make a summary of the past life, so many may be arranged in order, Chi Mu finally found a "yes", remember the past, It must be to face the future more calmly.

At the end of 2010, due to Mo Lian's return, the magazine's sales, which had been sluggish for a long time, resumed. The company's upper management was overjoyed and specially approved a sum of money to be used as a reward for the editors' year-end travel expenses.In the editorial department, everyone discussed the places they wanted to go for three days in full swing. Finally, Mo Lian made the decision and decided on a seven-day trip to a five-star resort in Hawaii.

On the eve of the holiday, Chi Mu met Chen Yufeng once.

He only learned about Chen Yufeng's recent itinerary after receiving a call from Ou Yiran.That person probably felt that his academic qualifications were not high enough, and he applied for a full scholarship from an American university to study for a doctorate.Ou Yiran just informed Chi Mu of the flight time on the phone. Although she didn't say it explicitly, she had already expressed her intention. She hoped that Chi Mu could see him off.

Chen Yufeng must have deliberately picked a low-key time to set off. The flight was in the early morning, and after arriving at the airport late in the evening, it was easy to find him. There was a row of empty waiting areas, and Chen Yufeng's broad back was quite obvious.Exactly as what Ou Yiran said on the phone, there was no one to see him off, not even his parents.

Chi Mu stood not far away, hesitating whether to go forward, hesitating how to say hello, when Chen Yufeng had stood up and dragged his luggage to the security checkpoint, he trotted forward and shouted: "Yu Front."

Chen Yufeng stopped and turned around in surprise, "Chi Mu?"

The opening line in Chi Mu's mind changed from "how are you lately" to "why do you have to leave suddenly" and then to "sorry", unexpectedly Chen Yufeng spoke first, and he asked, "Did Xiao Ou tell you that I left today?"

"Yes." Chi Mu finally calmed down, "I think I have to come see you off, and... apologize."

Chen Yufeng smiled, "You didn't do anything to apologize to me, why do you have to apologize?"

"I……"

"If you're doing it for that, I've already figured it out." Chen Yufeng stroked Chi Mu's hair affectionately, "Emotions can't be forced, you're not wrong, I'm too naive , will only stalk and stalk."

Chi Mu showed a surprised expression, he didn't quite believe that Chen Yufeng was so relaxed, but looking at his smile, it was very clear, and there didn't seem to be any emotions hidden in his eyes.

He said, "Then why did you suddenly go abroad."

It's not narcissistic, nor does she think highly of herself, but subconsciously, Chi Mu always thinks that Chen Yufeng's sudden arrangement of such a trip is most likely due to the emotional injury with her.When a person is sad to a certain level, it is easy to take extreme actions.

"I'm going to go to school again because I really can't agree with letting my life be controlled by my parents. They have been forcing me to marry Xiaoou, but I only have a brother-sister relationship with her, and I can't delay her life. I can't get my parents back, so I have to do 36 tricks." Chen Yufeng sighed helplessly, "But to be honest, I was really angry with you before, and I always felt that after paying so much, I couldn't even get a sliver of sincerity. Until I also encountered Xiao Ou's incident, so I can think differently, you don't want to accept me, just like I don't want to accept Xiao Ou, I can't understand you, I can only say that I am too stingy."

Chen Yufeng became so open-minded for a while, which made Chi Mu feel that he was hypocritical.

He asked again: "Then what are your parents going to do?"

Chen Yufeng patted Chi Mu's shoulder, "Four words, resign yourself to fate, if there is such a person waiting for me, then I will definitely meet. As for my parents, the combat power generated by mutual love is comparable to that of unrequited love. It’s not as simple as 1 + 1 = 2, you know what I mean.” After a pause, he looked into Chi Mu’s eyes, “It’s not terrible to fall down in one’s life, what’s terrible is falling down and not continuing The courage to move forward, I think as long as we continue to walk forward like this, one day we will see the sun, don’t you think so?”

"Yes!" Chi Mu blurted out inadvertently, the words were so precise that he was startled.

The sweet voice of the announcer sounded in the airport hall, Chen Yufeng pulled up his luggage again, and waved at Chi Mu, "I'm leaving, I hope that when we meet next time, everyone will have a better life than now."

Chi Mu nodded vigorously, followed by waving his hands, until Chen Yufeng's straight back disappeared around the corner of the security check, and he didn't let go of his hands.

Outside the huge floor-to-ceiling windows next to it, planes set sail in the night, flying travelers with different expectations to all over the world. They may want to return to their nests, go to other places, or go out of the past. Perhaps it was to move towards the future, and Chen Yufeng was among them, and under the illumination of pilot lights, he went to the future he expected.

Chi Mu understands that this future is also what he hopes for. He hopes that all the people around him can have such a guiding light and strive forward on the road to happiness.

Then, the day of the vacation arrived as expected.

Everyone set off on a sunny morning, and after traveling through eight time zones, they arrived at the island full of various beautiful customs.

"It's so beautiful, is this a paradise?" After getting off the bus arranged by the hotel, before she even had time to put down her luggage, Wen Jin was already infatuated with the blue sea water and golden sandy beach in front of her.

Not only Wen Jin, but everyone was shocked by the magnificent scene in front of them. The setting sun doubled, and the waves rolled up thousands of times. No matter how good an adjective is for this scene, it is not too much, until Mo Lian called everyone to go to the hotel at the top of his voice. After walking in, everyone came back to their senses one by one, and rushed into the hotel gate happily.

The five-star resort really deserves its name. The hotel is built on the edge of the beach, and you can have a panoramic view of the entire coast when you open the windows.Mo Lian was generous once in a while. To be precise, he never thought of helping the company's senior executives save money. Apart from booking individual rooms for everyone, he even lived in a sea view suite.After distributing the keys, Mo Lian clapped his hands and yelled that when the sun goes down, there will be a grand bonfire party and barbecue party. If you haven't slept enough, hurry up to catch up on sleep, and you will be tired at night.

Everyone cheered and dispersed.

Chi Mu found her room along the house number, dropped her luggage, took a shower, and changed into light clothes. Looking at the big bed in the room, she couldn't help jumping on it and rolling around twice, enjoying the softness from inside to outside. After getting comfortable, he stretched his waist and looked sideways out of the window.At this time, the sky has turned red, the sea breeze is blowing, and the sun is shining. The fiery red color makes his only drowsiness disappear.

He dug out the clogs he had prepared earlier from his luggage and went to the beach outside the hotel.Apart from tourists, there are also local girls in grass skirts and baskets selling drinks to people. They bought cans of Coke at dusk and drank while walking along the beach.

There are not many people swimming in the evening, and most of them come out for a walk after dinner.

The walking crowd is also divided into categories, such as Chi Mu, there are very few people walking alone to see the scenery, most of them are couples holding hands, young, old, and the same sex.I have to say that the coast with such a scenery is really a good place to take a walk and flirt. Layers of waves brushing over the insteps make people itchy, the sea breeze is refreshing, and the sunset is unbelievably beautiful.

The hotel's beach area is not long, and it ends after a short walk, and the villa area is further forward.Every scenic spot is used to dividing customers into grades and grades, and different consumption enjoys different services.Those exquisite villas are all built on the shallow sea one by one, connected to the coastal beach by a winding plank road, the deepest part of the plank road leads directly to a place quite far from the coast, standing there as if the whole person is in the middle of the sea.

Chi Mu looked around, not sure that others could enter this place casually.It stands to reason that the more high-end the resort, the tighter the security, and the public tourists should not be able to enter the place for the rich to enjoy, but they can't even see the shadows of individuals in all directions, and the fence used to separate them is as short as one foot. You can walk across it by just lifting your feet. I don't know if there are no restrictions on entry, or the leaders of foreign scenic spots simply don't expect that there will be tourists with poor quality who will run around without permission.

But no matter what the reason is, Chi Mu really wants to play a guest role as an "unqualified" tourist at this moment, because the plank road that winds into the sea is really attractive, if he can sit there and watch the sunset, he is invincible.

He stepped over the fence and continued walking along the plank road. Probably not because of the peak tourist season, most of the villas were empty, and occasionally the occupants had dinner elegantly on the terrace, and did not notice him as a passerby.

After a while, the villas became sparser, and as the number decreased, the volume began to increase until the last one, which was as wide as a courtyard, with huge French windows and terraces, and coconut trees planted on the roof, I couldn’t believe it. Houses can be built on the sea.

The deepest plank road is connected to this largest sea villa.

At this time, the lights were on in the villa, the curtains were not drawn, and the furnishings in the house could be clearly seen from the outside through the floor-to-ceiling windows. It seemed that no one lived inside.

Chi Mu cautiously approached, and after confirming that no one was there, he relaxed and sat down by the plank road.

His timing was very good. On the distant sea level, the lower end of the setting sun just touched the sea water.

The professional instinct of a literary worker is often to discover endless materials from life, just like now, the beach, the sunset, the sea breeze, the old man unconsciously outlines a scene in his heart, the lovers who love each other deeply under the background of the setting sun There is nothing more romantic than cuddling with each other and making a promise for life.

Just thinking about this level, he suddenly felt that sitting here alone and watching the sunset was somewhat unpleasant.

He leaned back and lay on the plank road. The breeze brought a scent of ink to the tip of his nose, which appropriately reminded him of a poem: dark fragrance floating in the moon and dusk.

ink?

Chi Mu sniffed, smelled it carefully, yes, it was indeed the unique fragrance of ink, suddenly a piece of paper fell from the sky, and covered his face with the wind.

He opened the paper and found that it was a painting. On the line draft drawn by pencil, there was a sunset, a plank road, waves, and the back of a man.

Chi Mu turned to look at the roof of the house behind him, stood up, approached and gently pushed the door, and after a creak, the door opened.

"anyone there?"

In the quiet room, only the sound of the waves is coming and going back and forth in the ears.

Chi Mu swallowed her saliva, clutched the painting tightly, walked up the stairs in the middle of the house, and finally came to the roof of the house.

Several plates of fruit and desserts were placed on the small square glass table, and an easel was propped beside it. On the high stool in front of the easel, a man was sitting there.

The man is tall and slender, wearing T-shirts and beach shorts that can be seen everywhere here, barefoot, hair cut very short, holding a coloring plate in his left hand, and coloring the painting in front of him with a pen in his right.

The other party didn't seem to notice that someone else was on the roof, and still focused on the painting, Chi Mu took two steps forward until he could see the man's profile clearly.

If he had to use one word to describe what he was thinking at this moment, it would be mixed.

Even if he was given 1 hypotheses, he would not be able to hypothesize this most unlikely encounter.

"I saw your back just now, and I was still thinking, this should be the most beautiful illusion I have ever seen." Jiang Yuchen turned around slowly, and pinned the slender paintbrush behind his ear, "I didn't expect it was really you, Chi Mu .”

"Why are you here?" Chi Mu only had time to say the most polite words.

"Give yourself a few days off, come out to enjoy the wind and relax." Jiang Yuchen smiled, "What about you?"

"The welfare trip that Mo Lian got." Chi Mu pretended to be relaxed and walked to the small glass table and sat down, but accidentally knocked down a few books on it, and hurriedly bent down to pick them up, but her eyes stopped at the last On the cover of the above book.

The title of the book outlined by five cursive Chinese characters floats on the emerald green color.

Ji Mu's sluggish movements made Jiang Yuchen glance in his direction, "The last time I passed by a Chinese bookstore, I just bought it. It's your first book."

Chi Mu picked up the book, patted the ashes on it, "Have you finished it?"

"finish watching."

"How do you feel?"

"..."

Chi Mu looked at Jiang Yuchen, and he continued to add color to the painting. It was a painting of a sunset and evening scene, and the two of them had already completed half of it. Do you want to hear my opinion?"

"Yes."

"I think, I shouldn't be as bad as your book."

He turned to face Chi Mu, with a helpless smile on his face, "Before I saw this book, I didn't know that you had such a big opinion of me."

Chi Mu suddenly laughed, "Are you so sure that the person in my book is you?"

"Otherwise, who else can be, let the protagonist accompany him to swim in the West Lake, eat hot pot with him, make cakes with him, fall in love with him and break up with him, if there is another person like this by your side, then I Just admit that what you wrote in the book is not me."

After listening to Jiang Yuchen's reasoning, Chi Mu nodded and said, "That's right, you guessed right, maybe that person is you, now that you know this, do you feel very proud?"

Jiang Yuchen's eyes dimmed, and he sighed, "I'm very sad."

Chi Mu wondered, "Why?"

"Because I never knew that in your heart, I am such a hurtful person."

"Aren't you such a person in reality?"

Jiang Yuchen was suddenly speechless.

The waves are blowing, the cool breeze is blowing, half of the sunset in the sky has already set, and the light left on the ground is becoming more and more fiery red.After a long time, Chi Mu broke the silence first and asked a question that had been hidden in his heart for a long time, "How did you know the recipe for that bitter tiramisu?"

Jiang Yuchen was stunned, and then said: "Did you receive those letters? I figured it out by myself. The amount is half a teaspoon at a time, and gradually increased. I can't remember how many times I failed. At least I succeeded in the end." After finishing speaking, He also smiled self-deprecatingly.

Chi Mu thought sure enough, he stood up and walked towards the stairs where he came.

Jiang Yuchen shouted: "Where are you going?"

"It's getting dark, shouldn't I go back? If I disappear for too long, I won't be able to guarantee that Mo Lian won't directly broadcast to find someone. I can't afford to lose that face." Chi Mu waved his hand, "It's my pleasure to meet you here. Very happy."

"Wait!" Jiang Yuchen also jumped off the stool, making too much movement and almost tripping over the easel.

Chi Mu turned back suspiciously, "Is there anything else?"

"I... I just want to ask." Jiang Yuchen's breath gradually became quicker, and he said in a suppressed voice: "How is he treating you?"

Of course Chi Mu knows who this "he" is.

"We broke up, didn't you know?" Chi Mu deliberately made a surprised expression.

"How could this be? He is not good to you?"

"No, it's just not appropriate."

Chi Mu looked at Jiang Yuchen's eyes that were gradually widening, "Just like what you said before, if it's suitable, we'll stay together, if it's not suitable, we'll separate right away, if it's difficult, it's just hurting each other."

Jiang Yuchen paused before saying, "Then, have you thought about finding someone else?"

"If I can meet the right person, I will consider it."

Chi Mu was surprised that he could give such a calm answer to Jiang Yuchen. He looked at his eyes, dark and deep, with a straight nose and thin lips. Such a handsome man, this is the person he loves, and also his former lover , this person asked him in front of him, "Will you find someone else again", but couldn't say "Why didn't you come to me".

Maybe I really can't expect too much from the bottom of my heart.

Chi Mu shook her head imperceptibly, and took another step forward.

"Chi Mu, you, you, what do you think of me?"

The moment the soles of the shoes came into contact with the wooden floor, there was a clicking sound, accompanied by Jiang Yuchen's stuttering voice, which drifted into Chi Mu's ears.

Everything around seemed to slow down at this moment, Chi Mu turned his face to the side, Jiang Yuchen stood with his back to the setting sun, couldn't see his expression clearly, the light cast a long shadow in front of him, making him confused misty.Then, he heard Jiang Yuchen continue: "I don't know what to say. During the time I was researching the recipe of tiramisu, I also researched the origin of this cake by the way, and found that tiramisu was just a cake that didn't exist in the past. When eating desserts, Italians mix together miscellaneous odds and ends to make pastries, although the appearance is beautiful enough, the essence inside is just a bunch of omnivores.”

"At that time, I suddenly felt that I was just such a piece of tiramisu, with nothing but a shiny appearance."

Chi Mu smiled, "Jiang Yuchen, do you know what I'm talking about, a cutting-edge designer who says in front of others that he's out of gold and jade in nothing?"

"I know very well how a person who can't even grasp his emotions can do other things well." Jiang Yuchen continued: "I have thought about some things for a long time before I figured it out. The emphasis is still on a result, I read that book, but the ending of the story should not be what is written in the book, but should be like this.”

He took a deep breath, "Chi Mu, I love you, come to my side, okay?"

I love you.

Chi Mu turned her back and gently closed her eyes.

"I know that saying this may embarrass you, and I know that you probably won't accept me anymore, but if God arranges for us to meet on the other side of the earth, if you still leave me a place in your heart, I will I still want to, I want to hold your hand and walk forward once more, just use my love as a bet."

Jiang Yuchen's voice gradually became hoarse, but with a heavy feeling, "Will you, will you trust me once?"

Chi Mu didn't make a sound, he didn't even say a word, he walked slowly down the stairs, every time his footsteps dropped a little, Jiang Yuchen's eyes became lower, until the audible footsteps gradually faded away , Jiang Yuchen tensed his jaw, and turned around with his head bowed in frustration.

"At eight o'clock tonight, there will be a bonfire party on the beach, and all the hotel guests will participate." Chi Mu's voice suddenly floated up from the lower plank road, mixed with the sound of waves, "I will wait for you there. After the party starts, If you can pick me out of the crowd in five minutes, then."

Jiang Yuchen raised his head abruptly, the last four words could not be heard because of the distance, but he still heard them.

"Then, I believe it."

Jiang Yuchen rushed to the edge of the fence, looked at the gradually shrinking back in the distance, and shouted again without hesitation: "I love you!"

Chi Mu put his hands in his trouser pockets, holding the cold key ring tightly.

He didn't look back.

The setting sun had completely fallen below the sea level, leaving only a circle of residual white light on the sea surface.

The last bit of afterglow scattered on the small table, and the evening breeze turned the first page of the book, reflecting a small epigraph in the center: "A person can fall in love with many people in his life, and after you obtain the happiness that truly belongs to you, You will understand that the pain together is actually a kind of wealth, which can make you learn to better grasp and cherish the people you love."

That seems to be the deepest blessing to all those who have gone through thousands of times but still stay together.

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The author has something to say: It's over!Tears ran!I have been writing on and off for more than half a year. It is really the most tangled article I have written. I continue to cry and have a lot to say. What I want to thank most is the students who accompanied me along the way, the students who left messages to encourage, buy V supports the original students. This article can be successfully completed. I really owe most of the credit to you. Every time I can’t write, just read the message and I will be motivated immediately. Thank you for scrolling.

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