Little hooligan VS big tail wolf

"Since then, I stopped painting and did everything. Sales, insurance, shopping guide, waiter...as long as I can earn money, I will do it. Although I have kept in touch with Miao Mo, I have never been to Shenzhen, and she never went back to Beijing. Two years later, I was working as a duty manager in a nightclub. I thought I was going to make it through, but then something happened. One night, someone broke the scene, and I followed The scars on my hands and back were left at that time. I beat the man who cut me, and I was arrested as soon as I left the hospital. Not only did I lose money, but I was sentenced to five years. My parents I came, and found someone to appeal again, tossed for more than half a year, and the sentence was changed to two years. Later, because of my good performance in it, I was released early a year later."

Yu Ziyu was a little silly when he heard that, he swallowed and threw away the burnt cigarette butt, "You... have been in prison?"

Ji Feng smiled, "I've sat down. What's the matter? You don't like me anymore?"

Yu Ziyu shook his head in a daze, and after thinking about it for a while, he came back to his senses, "Then how did you get that injury on your leg?"

"That was when I went to Heilongjiang later."

"Heilongjiang?"

"Well. After I came out, I thought it would be difficult to start from scratch in Beijing, so I went to the Sino-Russian border. Originally, I wanted to waste some fur and wood there and earn some old man's money. Unexpectedly, what Things are not that easy. When I first arrived there, I was not familiar with the place, and I didn’t have good connections. After a few rounds, I didn’t make any money, and I lost tens of thousands. But I was not reconciled, and I insisted on staying there and wanted to continue to explore the way. .In the end, I fumbled and fumbled, and finally I got into smuggling."

"Smuggling?!" Yu Ziyu was even more stupid, "Smuggling what?"

"Well...you don't need to ask what. There are many types, and you can do whatever you want to make money. Anyway, it's all unreasonable activities. In terms of money, shooting a few back and forth is enough."

"Shoot..."

"Well, I moved countless times in those two years, and I didn't sleep at all. Every day, I felt that the police or people on the road would come and kick my door open and beat me to death on the bed. Close your eyes It’s just an endless nightmare. The injury on my leg was the result of a transaction because of a price dispute, and I was shot by the other party’s people. I also shot at that time, and we ran away when someone fell to the ground over there. I don’t know if the person I hit is dead or alive.”

"After that happened, I knew that I couldn't stay at the border any longer, and I just made enough money, so I went back to Beijing. Both Jiang Xiaohu and Lin Qiang came here with me at that time, so I will believe it when the time comes. them."

"With money, everything will follow its course. In 06, my company took shape, and I thought it was time to find Miao Mo. Over the years, I have had many women by my side, and I believe she also It is impossible to be alone all the time, but after I contacted her, I heard that she has never been married. I think that is enough, why should I care too much about other things, I just want to see her. But...hehe, fate has opened up to me again It was a joke."

"When I saw Miao Mo in Shenzhen, she didn't change much. She told me that she had completed the formalities for going abroad, and she was going to study in the United States on the plane the next morning. She said she didn't mention it on the phone, but wanted to leave I met me before, and I was afraid that I would not go to Shenzhen if I found out."

"Did you not keep her?!" Yu Ziyu got a little anxious when he heard that, and got up and lay down on the coffee table.

Ji Feng smiled and sighed, and lit his cigarette again, "Stay? Why are you staying? You are not a frivolous boy anymore, and you have experienced so many things. Besides, she has applied for a scholarship, so it is not easy, and I am no longer a good person. , how can I casually ask to stay. And at the time I thought: it’s not the United States, and I’ll chase after it in the future.”

"She asked me if I would drop her off tomorrow. I asked if anyone else would drop her off, and she said there was her family. I said I couldn't stand the sensational scene, so I wouldn't drop it off. She said you should drop it off, I want you to drop off, I I have no choice but to agree."

"When I got back to the hotel that night, I wanted to call her several times, but before I could call her, a call from Beijing came in, saying that something difficult happened to the company, and I was asked to call back immediately. Beijing. I called her immediately after I put down the phone, but the phone said she was not in the service area. I had no choice but to go directly to the airport. I called her again before the plane took off, but she was still not in the service area. Then the second The other day I called her before her plane took off. She said that the battery of her mobile phone was knocked out when she put it in her bag the night before. When she found out about calling me, she would call me I’ve already turned off the phone when I came here. Alas—anyway, it’s just that there was no chance, and I couldn’t deliver it.”

Speaking of this, Ji Feng seemed to be tired, he pinched the cigarette in his hand and leaned on the sofa and stopped talking.

Yu Ziyu waited for a while and saw that he didn't seem to want to continue, so he couldn't help asking: "What about now? Why don't you go to her? With your current ability, you can go to the United States to buy a house and make a home. It's not a problem, is it?"

Ji Feng pursed his lips and lowered his eyes, "She has passed away."

"What?!" Yu Ziyu's eyes widened and he trembled, almost knocking the water glass on the ground, "What's going on?!"

Ji Feng was very calm, as if he was talking about someone who had nothing to do with him, "Just what happened in the winter when she went to the United States. When she was shopping in the supermarket, someone robbed her and was hit by a stray bullet. It is said that she died at that time." I also went on the day the body was sent back to China, and then I went back to my hometown to attend the funeral."

"On the day of the funeral... people had to cremate the relics separately after they were sent into the furnace. I found the shirt and skirt that I sent her after chasing the train among the things brought by her family. I asked where I found that suit Her father told me: Miao Mo wore the same suit on the day she flew to the United States. At that time, everyone persuaded her, saying that the clothes were outdated and looked too earthy, but she refused to change them and insisted on wearing them. They also said that someone They would be happy to see it. But they didn’t know that I was also in Shenzhen at that time, so they didn’t figure out who she was going to wear it to in the end.”

"After the funeral, I went home and looked through the things we had left when we were together. I found that I hadn't finished drawing her portrait after so many years. Later, I brought the original draft back to Beijing. I just drew the picture you see now. But when I was painting, I couldn’t draw what she looked like after I arrived in Beijing with me. After painting and painting, it was she who went to find me at that time. I slapped my face and threatened that I would not be able to break up with her girlfriend. In the end, I simply drew it like this, and everyone who saw my painting said that it was the best one I drew. "

"Ah—that's it." Ji Feng let out a long breath, "It's over, I've finished everything I want to tell you. You..."

He suddenly noticed that Yu Ziyu's eye circles were a little red, "Are you crying?"

"No." Yu Ziyu gritted his teeth and hammered the table, "You are heartless! If you went to the airport at that time, maybe Miao Mo wouldn't have left! Or you should have chased after her when she went to Shenzhen. In the past! Why do you have to stay in Beijing?! Where can’t you get ahead?! Also, if..."

"No if! No maybe!" Ji Feng interrupted, Yu Ziyu was suddenly angry and frowned, "Even if I went to the airport at that time, she would still leave!"

"how do you know?!"

"I just know it!"

"You know shit!"

"Do you know her or I know her?!"

"If you really know her, it won't be like this!"

"But this is the result!"

"You...you deserve to die alone!"

Ji Feng was stunned for a moment, his angry eyes dimmed in an instant, and he turned away, "Really."

"I..." Yu Ziyu realized that his words had gone too far, he stood up and walked behind Ji Feng, bent over and hugged his neck, "I'm sorry...that's not what I meant. It's just..."

"I understand." Ji Feng's voice was a little hoarse, "You said, I have thought about it thousands of times. But there is no regret medicine in this world, and I have to continue my life...Isn't it."

"Well... yes. Actually, if you think about it carefully, I can't blame you."

"Just treat it as a creation to trick people."

After a while, Yu Ziyu felt that Ji Feng's mood had recovered.

"Well... Who have you told these things to?"

"No one but you."

"Then why tell me?"

"I have to let you know. I'm not a good thing, a complete bastard. In case something happens in the future, you can get rid of me in time."

"What's the matter? Are you still doing business on the border smuggling side?"

"I haven't done it a long time ago. But once I become a Taoist for this kind of thing, there is no guarantee that I will not be caught in the investigation of old accounts after I have other things in the future. There is always nothing wrong with planning ahead."

"Then why did you ask Lin Qiang to paint?"

"I asked him to buy it from others. The smuggling stopped, but I still know how to get the smuggled things."

"That's good. However, let's avoid those illegal things in the future. If you don't want to think about yourself, think about the people in your family and your parents. No one has enough to worry about with a son like you."

"Hehe, yes. My mother also said this. Because of this, they never dared to say anything about me. Didn't I say that I can take you back to see my parents? Because I went to prison at that time Later, I was shot again, and my dad told me: As long as I don’t do those risky businesses in the future, and I can be safe and sound, they don’t care about my affairs. So I have been alone for so many years and they have nothing to do. How did you ask? It wasn’t until the last few years that I was too anxious to wait, so I urged me to bring my girlfriend home several times. I said my girlfriends were too trendy, and I was afraid to scare them when I brought them back. My dad said Even if I bring a man back, I can't scare him. I joked that I would take a man back. He said that as long as I can go back every year to report his safety, he will ask for nothing. "

"Ai──" Yu Ziyu sighed against Ji Feng's face, "If you say so, I'm afraid things won't be so simple when you really take me back."

Ji Feng grabbed Yu Ziyu's hand hanging on his chest, "Don't think too much, no matter what, I will find a solution."

"Well, okay. I believe you." Yu Ziyu closed his eyes, lowered his head, lay down on the back of the sofa, relaxed his body, and didn't move. Suddenly, he knew so many secrets about the big-tailed wolf, and he suddenly felt pain in his heart. Tired again.

After a while, Ji Feng turned his head towards Yu Ziyu, "Ziyu."

"Huh?" Yu Ziyu opened his eyes.

"You said... Will I really die alone forever?"

Yu Ziyu tightened his arms and tightly wrapped around Ji Feng's neck, "No, I'll be with you."