Deep Cabinet Licking Dog Diary

Friday, January [-]th is cloudy

I suppressed my smile: "Ah..."

But he didn't know how to speak.

Seeing that my expression was wrong, Lu Bei might have realized that he had said something wrong.He just sat down in silence, picked up a piece of fish and put it in his mouth, chewed it until it creaked, turned on the phone calmly, flipped it a few times, probably checking the calendar or some anniversary software, then raised his head and said: "Oh, you said our one-month anniversary," he rubbed his fingers on the tissue to wipe off the oily shine on his fingertips, "isn't that tomorrow?"

Lu Bei leaned back in his chair and looked at me with a smile.

I was taken aback, completely unable to tell whether he really forgot, or if he was going to bring it up again tomorrow.

So I nodded suspiciously, and said to him: "Yes, it's tomorrow, but I heard you work overtime today, and I want to cook you a meal first! How about you try it."

Lu Bei's expression relaxed, and he curled his lips: "This fish is so mushy..."

"And this broccoli? Try it."

"So soft, it must have been cooked for too long, and there was too much soy sauce."

He poked the lion's head again: "But this lion's head looks okay." He put it in his mouth and tasted it, "Not bad!"

He gave me a sideways look, with an uncontrollable smile on his lips: "Is this... bought?"

"..." was discovered!

"You little cunning, just say it, you can actually make this taste!"

"Huh?" My fist is in!

He hurriedly continued: "But it's your first time cooking so many dishes, it's still worthy of praise."

"Hey! That's right!"

I happily trot to the kitchen to pretend to serve porridge, and when I got to the chopping board, I finally put away my smile.

Of course I mind, of course I fucking mind.

Lu Bei once wrote about every day he and Shen Jing spent together, remembering every boring anniversary they had, but for me, couldn’t he even remember the obvious days like being together for a month? ? 1209, 1209, I have already set this day as my mobile phone password, but he can't even remember it?

So, does Lu Bei really like me a little bit?

Or is it just that there happens to be a loyal and loyal licking dog by your side, who is the most suitable candidate and the one who can be developed with the least amount of effort?

Oh, maybe that shouldn't have been a question in the first place.After all, isn't the answer obvious?

I have always been clear in my heart, so why is it still so painful now...

Maybe it's because I'm too ignorant.

At the very beginning, I thought it was enough to know him; later, I felt that I would be extremely happy if he replied to my WeChat; then, I just hoped that he had a better attitude towards me and it was complete.

But now, I have obviously got it.I'm his real boyfriend, I'm with him aboveboard, I even bought Coke with him, and I got a promise from him that he wants to develop seriously...

Things that used to be elusive, but now I have them all.

So I don't dare to be greedy, I can't be greedy, now is good enough, I don't want to be ignorant of current affairs.

I washed my hands with bitterly cold water and covered my face, trying desperately to stop my thoughts.

Why did I start to have such terrible thoughts now, I dared to, and began to desire Lu Bei's love.

"Are you okay?"

Seeing that I hadn't come out for a long time, Lu Bei walked into the kitchen and asked me with concern.

"Ah, it's all right. I didn't see it just now, and my hands burned a bit, so I washed it with water."

I pretended to rub my fingers that were red from the cold: "Sit there and wait, I'll bring the porridge over."

Lu Bei frowned and took my hand, and looked at the dim light in the kitchen for a long time: "What's going on? Is it really hot?"

"It's okay." I quickly pulled my finger back, "Just wait a moment, the porridge will be ready soon."

His face darkened: "I'm so careless, let me come. You go and sit down, I've worked hard for you today, I'm just busy, hurry up and eat."

I was not good at arguing with him, so I sat back as I said.

I temporarily put down the complicated thoughts in my heart, and when I was eating, Quietly took out the pink heart and handed it to him: "Here."

Lu Bei took it, dumbfounding: "What? A love letter?"

"Bad, almost." I was a little embarrassed, "You can watch it at night before you go to bed."

"Huh? Did you write something obscene? Pornographic content? Do you want to read it while you sleep?"

"Bah! This is not a little porn book! I want you to sleep sweetly with my love!"

Lu Bei smiled maliciously: "I want to see how sweet it is."

He tore open the envelope and opened it right in front of me.

"Hey, don't! Don't look at it now! Ah! Why are you like this!"

Not only that, he actually read aloud emotionally: "Dear Lu Bei, we have been dating for a whole month as of today..."

"Why do you keep calling me by my full name?" He flicked the letter paper, "It's strange."

"Then what's my name?"

Do I call you Brother Bei like Shen Jing?Disgusting.

"What can you call baby, sweetheart, boyfriend, dad, they are all fine." He said seriously.

"Fuck off."

"It was only during this month with you that I realized that life is so beautiful. I finally understood the meaning of life, which is to have you... It turned out that I felt that many love words were nasty, many love words were old-fashioned, and many love words were childish and unrealistic. But now, I want to give them all to you... I have you tattooed on my chest, and you live in my heart. Kiss you softly, and you will lick the dog forever, Gou Tian."

……

I sat at the dining table, feeling like I was sitting on pins and needles, like a light on my back, like a thorn in my throat.ah!What a shame, damn it!God, why put me through this!

Lu Bei finished reading the last line in a straight voice.At the beginning, he was teasing and deliberately embarrassing me, but gradually, his expression became serious, his mouth was pursed, no emotion could be seen on his face, he just turned the letter over and read it again from the beginning.

"Thank you," Lu Bei finally said, "Thank you."

He seemed to want to say something more, but he was blocked and couldn't say it, so he repeated it again: "Thank you."

After a while, I calmed down a little, and then said again: "I like it very much, and I am also very touched. Thank you for your letter. I will put it away carefully."

Ah...that's it?

The tears in my eyes are so far from what I thought. When I was writing, I was crying while writing, but did he react like this?

But he said that he likes it, but that's fine, this letter has already played its due role!

I strike while the iron is hot: "From then on, I will write you a letter every anniversary! In the end, I will pile it up very high!"

Lu Bei clutched the letter and looked at me with a smile: "Okay, then we will celebrate every anniversary, so that you can write many, many love letters."

"Okay! I will try my best to write longer and longer! Hahahaha!" I laughed silly.

"Little Tian'er." He called me suddenly.

"Eh?"

"Thank you," he said sternly, looking straight into my eyes, "thank you for being with me.